Love Struck
Chapters 150 – Brain Damage
Ghost's POV
Marx got Shadow to bed and after his words I went back to my room to find Midnight waiting.
"Hey dad!" She shouted as I slowly walked in.
"Hey hon." I replied as she looked at me as I passed.
"You ok?" She asked as she chased after me.
With a sad voice I replied.
"Daddys fine sweetheart. I just need to rest ok?"
"Can I come with you?" She asked as I stopped to look back at her.
"At least till mommy comes home?" She added as I tried not to cry.
"Come her honey." I urged her as she came running into my arms.
As soon as she was stable I opened the door to my room and walked in shutting the door behind us.
Midnight waited silently as I sat down on the bed resting her on my knee.
Tears started to slowly flow out from my eyes as she grabbed my shirt.
"What's wrong dad?" She asked in worry.
I felt a tear roll down my chin and drip off hitting her gently on the head.
With sadness I wiped it off her quills and replied.
"It's mommy baby."
Midnight quickly replied.
"Did you two fight again?"
Slowly I shook my head.
"No honey."
"Then what happened?" She asked as I lowered my head trying to contain myself.
"Mommy...she...aghhhh...?"
"Is mommy ok?" Asked Midnight cutting me off from speaking.
With pure depression I shook my head letting her know she wasn't.
Midnight immediately lowered her voice in worry and asked.
"Is she hurt?"
Once again not being able to respond properly I shook my head in disapproval.
Midnight now knew something was terribly wrong.
"Is she coming home?" She asked about to cry.
"No honey...she's not!" I replied now letting myself break up into tears.
"What happened?!" Asked Midnight now with two soft tears rolling down her face.
With hesitation I replied.
"Mommy got hurt...because of me! She...she! Aghhhhh...she...died!" I shouted in tears as I heard someone enter my room.
Midnight began to cry and I hugged her as she asked.
"What do you mean daddy!? Is mommy coming home!?"
Holding her close I replied.
"No honey...mommy isn't!"
Midnight now cried hard as the unknown person slowly opened the door to see me holding her close.
I slowly looked up with tears running down my cheeks to see it was Archer.
He waited in sadness knowing what I just told my daughter and quickly I went back to her.
"It's going to be ok baby...I love you and I'll never let anything happen to you do you hear me?! I asked as she grabbed the back of my quills in deep despression."
"Mommy is in a better place now hon! She loves you always remember that!" I told her as she looked up.
"What are we going to do dad!?" She asked with red eyes.
"I don't know yet! I won't let anything hurt you I promise!" I informed her as she replied.
"Can I see mommy!?"
"I think it's best right now that you don't! I promise you'll get the chance to see her baby, but not now!" I replied as Archer slowly walked out.
With now realizing the whole situation Midnight hugged me burying her face in my black tee letting her tears rest someplace other then in herself.
With wobbly legs I stood up continuing to let her cry and carefully made my way to the door.
I continued to cry myself letting each drop roll down my torso and the second I opened the door I found Archer sitting at the table I had in the corner. He stared at me as I nodded my head for him to wait as I got this done no matter how hard it was going to be.
I took Midnight to her room and approached her small bed.
Gently I placed her back slowly running the covers over her body as she began to look at me in confusion.
"I'm so sorry honey, but daddy has to go deal with a few things before he goes to sleep." I stated as I ran my hand along her fur.
"Are you coming back!?" She asked in fear as I replied.
"I promise I will sweetie. I'm not even leaving the base for a long time. I'll be back in an hour or two, just do daddy a favor and get some sleep, ok?" I asked as she nodded her head still covered in a few wet drops.
With a small smile I ran my hand on her cheek gently wiping them away bringing a soft smile on her expression.
"I love you." I said as she went for a hug.
With no intention of ignoring this one I took her in my arms letting her wrap her soft limbs around my neck.
"I love you too dad." She cried in slight happiness as I replied.
"I'll be back soon."
With that she released me and I covered her back up under the covers.
"Get some sleep." I pleaded as I went to turn around.
"When will I get to see mommy?" Asked Midnight as I stop to reply.
"Soon baby, soon."
I then made my way out of the room gently shutting the door behind me.
"Ughhhhh!" I groaned in complete sadness as I slowly fell down against the wooden door.
Covering my face with my shaky palms I cried as Archer gently knelt down next to me slowly taking me into a soft hug of comfort and in no time I cried out in sadness.
"It's ok Ghost." He tried to tell me as I replied.
"You don't know how hard that was."
"I can only imagine." Replied Archer as I asked.
"What are you doing here anyway?"
Slowly lifting me up Archer replied.
"I wanted to ask you something."
Slowly looking at him I replied.
"Ask me what?"
Archer took a second but finally asked.
"Marx is worried about all of us and he sent me to ask if you might be interested in some therapy?"
"Just me?" I asked in confusion as Archer replied.
"Marx said Silver was going to help, and it would be one on ones unless the issue requires a second."
Gently I nodded my head and asked.
"Can Midnight talk to him as well? I don't know what to do now that Dove is gone. I think she'll need to talk to someone, I don't want her to bottle it up."
Archer nodded and replied.
"I think Marx can make room for it now that Shadow is going to make it."
"Is he awake?" I asked as Archer walked me to the door.
"I think so. Why? You wana talk with him?" Replied Archer as I nodded my head.
Archer gently wrapped one arm around my cold shoulder and began to take me out.
"I think Silver and Marx will let you." Stated Archer as he guided me through the halls towards the research wing of the base.
The walk was sad filled as we managed to make it there without any stops.
The second we arrived Archer let me go and Silver who was next to Shadow stopped what he was doing to look at me and ask.
"What's wrong?"
With tears coming again I replied.
"I wanted to know if Shadow was awake? I need to talk to him for a while."
Slowly Silver looked at Shadow and I heard.
"It's ok."
Carefully Silver nodded his head and approached me and Archer.
"I'll give you two some privacy."
With that said, Silver exited the metal door and gently Archer patted my shoulder.
"It will all work out don't worry Ghost."
I smiled while replying.
"Thank you Archer."
Archer gave me a slight smile before turning around to leave.
As soon as he was gone and the door was shut I took a breath and began to approach Shadow who still had his view towards the wall.
Slowly I grabbed the seat Silver was once sitting in and placed myself in front of his gaze.
Shadow had his eyes closed and he breath ever so softly as I stared at his face. The burns from before back at the G.U.N base in Afghanistan and now the ones from wherever he got them from this time along with the stitches on top of his head and the amount of bruising and cuts along with all that made him look like he just had a fight with the devil himself with both his arms and legs nailed to the floor.
"Brother?" I said as I heard him breath a little louder.
Gently I went to rest my hand on his cheek.
Shadow flinched from my touch and gently opened his eyes.
My eyes widened to see him staring at me blankly. His gaze made me concerned.
"Are you ok?" I asked as he tried to nod his head.
Shadow went to sit up but immediately I gently forced him back down on the pillow.
"Please don't hurt yourself." I begged as he rested once again.
"I don't...aghh! Think I can...get anymore...hurt then this!" Stated Shadow in pain as he tried to get comfortable.
"You shouldn't have gotten up before." I stated as he let a small chuckle come forth.
"I couldn't help...myself." Replied Shadow as I sat back calmly.
Both of us then went silent and just waited for someone to say something. I didn't know where to start. I could begin here and press forward with all that I've done or just get into the problems.
"I'm sorry." Stated Shadow as I looked at him in confusion.
"Why?" I asked as he coughed.
"Ughhhh! I'm sorry...for Dove. I never should have gotten between...you two. Especially after all we've been through together." He stated as I immediately replied.
"It's not your fault. I understand why you two did that. It's my fault any of this happened."
Shadow gently tried to get closer because of him barely being able to talk and to aid I moved my seat up next to him.
"None of this is your fault...Ghost. It's mine. If I was more controlled and stable I wouldn't have done what I did." He stated as I lowered my head.
"Shadow, I hit Dove many times during the past three months and most were in front of my baby girl. I gave her no other choice but to go see you for help. Hell I even predicted this might have been an outcome of my actions. You two begin close like best friends and besides you being the leader I should have known she'd come to you for help." I stated as Shadow closed his eyes.
"That didn't give me the right...to do what we did behind your back the moment you left to go get Silver and I forgot to say how thankful...I am that you got him here safely." Stated Shadow as I stared at him closely.
"It's not a problem. Even if I hated you I would have done it ether way. If I were you too I would have ask for the same thing from you as well." I replied.
"Why?" Asked Shadow as he looked at me again.
"I remember when we first met not too long ago Shadow. So much has changed and I would have thought sooner or later you would have wanted to see someone from your old life. It would help me see things better then to continuously push forward in a second war with G.U.N." I replied as he smiled.
"I just don't think I'm fit to lead anymore." He stated as I widened my eyes.
"Why would you say that?" I asked in shock.
"Look at me Ghost. How can I lead anything? I let so many things pass me leaving it to all of you these past days." Replied Shadow.
"The war hasn't started yet Shadow. G.U.N isn't going to attack first until we do. Nothing has passed you." I stated as Shadow lost his smile.
"My second baby was killed while I laid somewhere in the city." He stated as I felt the guilt.
"How do you know that?" I asked in confusion.
"Please don't Ghost. I know it was you." Replied Shadow as I lowered my head.
"I didn't mean to hurt it." I stated about to cry again.
"It doesn't matter anymore Ghost. I loved you like a brother I never had and I learn that my second chance at a life was killed once again while I wasn't able to do anything about it. And this time he or she wasn't even born yet. How long did my first son last?" He asked as I cried.
"Four hours Ghost. Four! I lost him!" Now shouted Shadow as I let tears hit my legs.
"I never wanted for any of this to happen Shadow!" I stated as he shut his eyes in tears.
"I know you didn't brother, but I'm sorry if what I say next hurts deeply." Stated Shadow as I looked at him in confusion.
"You got what you deserved. Maybe losing her will make you feel half the pain I feel every day of my fucking LIFE!"
My heart snapped in two by that statement and it hurt worse knowing it was completely true.
Tears rolled down my face and I quickly lowered my head letting it all come out as Shadow reached for my hand.
I looked up at him the moment he grabbed my wrist.
"Does it hurt?" He asked as I nodded my head in complete and utter loss of hope.
Shadow tightened his grip getting me to look back into his red bloodshot eyes.
"I'm sorry, but your the only one with me anymore that I can trust. I lost everything and everyone the moment I lost Amy and my first boy. And now that I lost the second I feel as if I should just pull the plug of my own life support and end it all. I might have done it if you didn't come to talk about this to me, but you did and I now know you will feel the pain I go through being without anyone anymore." He stated as I continued to cry.
"It's going to hurt you for the rest of your life Ghost believe me. There is not a day that goes by that I'm not thinking about them. It will kill you inside. It will change something in you that you will never leave home without again. It will drive you to the brink of insanity, but don't forget I'm right here if you need me." Stated Shadow as I smiled.
"I'm sorry!" I cried as Shadow released my hand.
"I know you are Ghost and that's why I accept."
The main bulk is next so get ready. I'm getting everything up to date. Wait till Shadow hears about Frost his best friend and what Raptor and Dom went through. Shadow has missed everything if you go back and its about time someone told him.
Ps: what about Carver? Doesn't Shadow know?