AN: Thanks for all the reviews and people adding me to favorites. Just because you are all so sweet I will put up chapter 10 today!!! Maybe even 11

Sara

CHAPTER 10

As dawn broke I woke drenched in sweat. Tears sprang to my eyes as I realized my dream was all true. Edward was gone, the Cullens were gone and I was pregnant and alone in a cabin in the middle of nowhere. No matter what happened I knew I would never see Charlie again. Or Renee or Phil for that matter. I was surprised by how little that worried me.

I got up and got dressed. I decided to write a note to Alice, if she was looking for me, she would see it. I wrote:

Alice,

WILLIAMS LAKE BC - 6 MILES EAST OF TOWN - RIGHT TURN ONTO UNMARKED DRIVEWAY - 4 MILES IN - COME ALONE.

Bella

If she didn't come within two weeks I would know that they weren't looking and I would start my search for Edward as soon as the baby was born. I would deal with the fact he didn't want me but I would not let my baby grow up without knowing his father. Maybe just maybe a child would keep Edward with me. Maybe with his son or daughter I would be enough for him. I felt the tears coming to my eyes. It would have to be enough, it was all I had.

I heard a car out front. Was it Alice already???? I ran to the door and threw it open. I saw Dave there, his truck full of animals.

"Oh hi Dave!" I called, "Thanks for bringing these guys so quickly."

"No worries!" he called back, "I would like you to meet my brother Mark."

"Hi Mark," I said reaching out to shake his hand.

"Hi Mrs Masen." he said shaking my hand. "I hope you like these guys and they aren't too loud for you."

"I'm sure they'll be fine. I can sleep through about anything. Especially since.... this." I said pointing to my rapidly expanding belly.

"What about your husband? He won't mind will he?" asked Dave.

"He won't be home much, " I said, "And when he is he doesn't sleep much."

Dave and Mark laughed and starting unloading the goats into the pen.

"So what is there in town?" I asked

"A couple grocery stores, a video store, a book store.." Dave said while wrangling goats

"A book store? How do I get there?" I asked excitedly.

"Head back towards town, to my office. Take your first left after you pass the office and follow it for about a block. It's right next door to the best grocery store in town." he said.

"Great! After you teach me what to do with these guys I'll be off." I said

They spent the next 40 minutes telling me what i would need to do. It seemed fairly simple and straight forward. I could collect eggs every morning and if I had too many extras I could always bring them into town. As soon as they were done teaching me to care for the animals I jumped into my new Jeep and headed to town. Book store then grocery store.

I spent two hours in the book store and came away with about 60 books. The owner was obviously thrilled. Then I went to the grocery store. I bought lots of food but absolutely nothing looked good except for 1 large steak. I decided I would cook that tonight. As I tucked everything away in the back of my car I felt the baby move again. My baby, Edward's baby. Tears streamed down my face.

"I'm gonna have to choose a name for you, little one." I said as I rubbed my stomach. I thought about it all the way home. As I turned up the driveway I prayed Alice would be there. No such luck.

I unloaded all my stuff and got a fire started in the fireplace. As I sat by the fire I pulled out a little notebook and my scrapbook. I wrote down all the people I would like to include in my baby's name.

For a boy: Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Carlisle, Charlie

For a girl: Alice, Esme, Renee, Myself, and Rosalie

As I sat and looked at the names I looked at the first letters and got my inspiration!!

For a boy - Jace Edward Masen Cullen - J for Jasper, a, C for Carlisle and Charlie, E for Edward and Emmett and Edward for his daddy

For a Girl - Arriel Carlie Masen Cullen - A for Alice, The Rs for Renee and Rose, I for Isabella, E for Esme and L and Carlie for her grandpas

"So, " I asked my expanding baby bump, "Are you a Jace?"

To my surprise the baby chose that moment to kick me, hard. I laughed and rubbed the spot where he had kicked.

"Well then I guess I got my answer. You are a Jace. Although I will miss being able to use Arriel." I said

As soon as I said Arriel I felt a flutter on my other side.

"Ok well I guess you won't tell me what you are then. It'll be a surprise. Unless your Aunty Alice gets here. Then whoever you are in there would be in trouble because Mommy would know." I said rubbing my belly. How I wished I could share this with Edward.

I got up and started cooking dinner. Steak and potato. The steak had only been in the pan for a second when I pulled it out. Usually I don't like my meat to be pink let alone runny.

As I set it down on the plate I looked down at my tummy, "So this must be your doing. I know I don't like my meat still mooing."

I bit into the steak. It was heavenly!! Before I knew it I ate the whole thing although it was big enough for me to have had leftovers the next day. The potato lay untouched on my plate.

"Okay we need to talk little one, " I told my belly, "You are going to be what Daddy calls vegetarian. You don't eat people! Only animals. Do you understand me?"

As if on cue my belly wiggled and bumped.

"Okay I think you got it. Well peanut it's about time we fed the animals." I laughed and rubbed my belly. I went out and fed the goats and chickens and got them into the barn for the night like I was supposed to.

I came in and had a quick shower tossing on the old sweats I had worn when I left home. The tears were flowing freely again. I grabbed one of my new books and a blanket from the bed and decided I would read next to the fire.

"You know what Peanut," I said to my belly, "I'm going to read to you now so you know all the classics. Tonight we are reading Moby Dick." I rubbed my belly as I opened to the first page and began to read aloud to my baby. To Jace or Arriel. I closed my eyes momentarily remembering being in bed with Edward, reading together. Oh Edward what did I do wrong? Why did you leave me? How can I take care of the baby without you? I cried for a long while before I could read again. I read for a long time and as the firelight began to fade I felt myself falling asleep.

"Good night Edward, wherever you are. I will find you. We will find you." I said rubbing my belly.