A/N: This was rather a hard chapter to write. I realised that I wasn't really sure what I was doing with it. I wasn't sure what I was including in it and what I wasn't. So I just finally gave in and started writing. So apologies in advance if you think it is rubbish. I certainly don't mean for it to be. Also I have no excuses for how late this chapter is. Save the fact that I have just been procrastinating way to much. I have had loads of time to get this typed up and uploaded and yet kept finding things lower down in my list to do. I was going to have Kurt's conversation with Blaine, but then I got side tracked, so that will have to be included in the next chapter. If you guys want it that is. Just let me know.
Sebastian wasn't so sure that this was a good idea. Sure it was bound to spark up a laugh and take his mind of his break up with Blaine. Yet why Nick and Jeff couldn't just let him go in and ask to borrow a spare one himself he didn't know. Yet then again it was Niff that he was thinking about. They were the worlds biggest pranksters. Sebastian was convinced that they had both devoured the Harry Potter books and therefore taken on the exactly personalities of the Weasley twins. Nick being Fred down to the fact that he was cheeky and seemed to have more of a childish attitude to things. He was carefree and therefore people never ever seemed to be able to be upset or mad around him. Which left Jeff to be George, a character that suited him perfectly. That guy always seemed to be cracking a joke about something and despite being older than Nick he copied him and kept quiet until Nick provoked him into doing something or saying something. A characteristic that appeared to be present in George Weasley, when it came to following what Fred did, even though the latter was younger.
He swallowed the lump in his throat as the three of them ran through the Dalton Car park, ducking behind cars and bushes to check that the coast was clear before they headed off again, to duck under the next object. It was all rather fun, Sebastian certainly couldn't find the time to really be all that distracted by thoughts of Blaine. He had to stop himself, or more like stop Jeff, from getting caught.
Finally they reached their desired location, Dalton!
The footsteps of the three Ex Warblers echoed against the tiles of the floor. This place was exactly the same as Sebastian remembered. Nothing about it seemed to have changed. The paint work, the atmosphere, just everything down to the very last detail was exactly as he remembered leaving it. In some ways he had missed being here. Being in the one place that he could call home, save his own house. It suddenly made him feel rather homesick. It made him wonder if home would ever feel like home again without Blaine there to come back to. Would he be able to come home from work after a bad day and know that Blaine wasn't there to hold him in his arms and tell him that things would be alright. Just a kiss upon his cheek to prove to him that not everything in this stinking world was wrong. Some things were perfect. He had thought his relationship was perfect. Perfect until that stupid funeral. It seemed like even in death his father could find some way of getting into his life and messing it up. It certainly wouldn't come as a surprise to him to find that it had all be set up. Perhaps his mother had arranged all this rubbish to go on in Paris, simply just in order to ensure that he would stay there and even if he didn't let her get her grubby hands on his father's money she'd be able to keep trying to get some off him, knowing that he wasn't far away. Yet that had all back fired and instead just left him stuck in America having just had his heart broken, for what? Something stupid that he had done. Maybe not saying anything would have been the more sensible thing to do. Only now it was to late.
He just have looked distracted as he was soon snapped out of things by a hand clicking its fingers in front of his face. He turned to see Nick standing next to him. Where Jeff had gone he didn't know.
"What?" he whispered.
"You were daydreaming. Jeff has gone to the changing rooms to grab someone's Blazer, you and he me have to get into the store cupboard to try and find a blazer and tie. You have some trousers, right? Did you pack them? I think Jeff has a spare pair if you didn't. You are about the same size as him, right?"
Sebastian simply raised his eyebrows as he tried to keep track of all the questions he was being asked and everything that was said in addition to them. Were they actually questions that Nick wanted answers to or more just rhetorical ones that he already knew answers to and was really just confirming things to himself.
"Yeah I think I packed a pair of trousers. Isn't Jeff a size bigger than me though? I mean I not calling him fat or anything but you get my drift. I have a belt, I know that much. That is at least something. They keep blazers and ties in the store cupboard. How do you know that?"
"Yes, they have loads of them in there. Last year me and Jeff got the biggest urge to have sex in school and we needed to find somewhere and well we came across the Staff Only store cupboard. So that is how I know there are loads in there."
"Little to much information there Nick. A simple yes would have sufficed."
"Sorry," Nick mumbled before grabbing Sebastian's hand and pulling him down the empty corridor at a rather high speed. He wasn't supposed to be in here so speed seemed to be the best way to get what Sebastian needed, before leaving again. "We're meeting Jeff in the parking lot behind my car by the way. Don't think you heard us saying that, did you?"
"No, sorry I was to busy thinking about him and wondering if home was going to ever feel like home again. I just got so used to him being there at home to hug me when I have had a bad day at work and now he isn't going to be there."
"You'll be fine. I promise. You will get Blaine back. If not then there are plenty more fish in the sea. You'll find someone Sebastian. You're a great guy. Anyone would be lucky to have you."
"I don't want a bloody fish. I want Blaine" Sebastian groaned.
"I know. Things will work out. Now come stop dawdling and lets get a move on. Otherwise we will get caught. Jeff is probably outside freezing his butt off waiting for us."
The two boys ran through the corridor and dodged into the Store Room just in time to avoid the two maths teachers walking down that same corridor. Another second and they would have been caught. Yet to the annoyance of both of them the two teachers decided that standing outside the store room was the perfect place for a chat. So for the time being they were both trapped. Although on a brighter note it was easy to locate a shirt of Sebastian's size and a tie.
Sebastian sat himself down on a box and whispered. "How long do you reckon those two blabber mouths will be? Its bloody freezing in here." he said softly, in a low voice, as he wrapped his arms around himself and gently rubbed his arms to try and warm himself up a little.
"Fuck knows. Could be ages. At least you are not stuck in here with some axe murder or serial killer." Nick said with a wide grin, reaching a hand into his pocket as he felt his phone vibrating against his leg, thankfully he'd had the sense to put it onto vibrate before entering Dalton, just to be on the safe side.
A smile came to his lips as he saw Jeff's name flashing on the screen. "Hey, Jeffy. What you want?"
"How long you going to be?" Jeff asked him
"Long as a piece of string" came Nick's reply. Something that only confused Jeff. What was he talking about? He didn't really get it.
"What string? What you on about Nick?"
"Its a saying. Just means no idea. Stuck in the bloody store cupboard Mr and Mrs Chatterbox the maths teachers are talking for England right outside."
Jeff was just more confused than before. What was Nick going on about. He knew what he meant about the maths teachers, the two of them could talk the hind legs of an elephant and getting them in the same room, or in this case corridor, together was just a nightmare. They could talk for hours. "Balls to that. You got the blazer and tie yet?"
"Yeah, got them just waiting to get out of here. If they don't hurry up with their conversation I swear I am just going to walk out already. What do I care if I get in trouble anyway?"
"Hurry up. I am freezing out here and you have your keys so I can't even sit in your car and wait for you."
"Then go home and wait there for us. We could take a while, that is if we don't freeze to death in here. I don't remember it being this cold."
"Will you be okay? You will be out in time for the Reunion, right? I don't want to go on my own"
Nick just smiled, he was sure that Jeff could see the same on his face, despite the fact that they couldn't see one another "Yeah, Jeffy I am sure we will. Now go home and get into the warm. I will let you know when we are on our way home and you can put the kettle on."
"Wait! So am I going to ours? Or Sebastian's"
"Ours, darling! Sebastian lives in new York remember. Unless you want to walk there across all those main roads then yeah go to ours. I will see you there later, okay?"
"Oh yeah, right. Sorry. See you later then. Bye. I love you"
"Yeah," nick said practically grinning through his voice, if that was even possible, "I love you too, bye."
Sebastian had walked off through the cupboard. He couldn't really believe that he hadn't ever been in here before. It was mad. It seemed like he had missed out on so much sex in the corners of Dalton, this seemed like the perfect place to have skipped lessons instead of wasting so much time trying to sneak up to his dorm with the latest shag, at least before he had met Blaine. After him there had never been anyone else, well until the other night in Paris. Why had he been so stupid. He ran his fingers along the shelves and simply just tried to lose his mind in it all. Yet it wasn't long before he felt Nick resting his hand on his shoulder.
"Everything will be okay you know? You have to stop worrying yourself, Sebastian. I have never in the whole time that I have known you seen you like this." Nick probably wouldn't ever admit it, at least not to Sebastian's face but he did care about him. He always had done. If anything he cared about him more than most. "You want to know how I know that?"
Sebastian didn't say anything he simply just nodded his head. Suddenly being alone with Nick and having nothing to really do was making him feel ill again. Ill from the fear of having lost Blaine for good.
"Because" Nick continued "You are Sebastian Smythe. You are amazing, gorgeous and you always get what you want. No matter what. Sure you are annoying but at the same time you are the perfect guy. Anyone's perfect guy. Blaine is lucky to have you and once he realises that things will be back to how they were. Just don't let go of him and don't ever lose hope, promise me that."
Sebastian managed a small smile. "I promise." he replied. Before he could say or do anything else Nick had pulled him into a hug. It felt strange to be locked in the store cupboard with him and to be in his arms. If anything he felt like he was doing something wrong. Or more like Nick was about to do something wrong. Yet all the same he wrapped his arms around him and hugged him back. It was nice to just have a friend like Nick. He really needed someone that was on his side right now. Since god only knows who Blaine had already turned against him. Mostly like half of Ohio.
"Can I confess something to you." Nick said after a few moments, after having pulled away from him. Not really waiting for a response from Sebastian he continued. "I used to have the biggest crush on you when you first came to Dalton. I don't know if you even realised that. I just thought it was about time that you knew. I used to have to wonder what it would be like to kiss you and just be with you. Even if it was just for one night. Is that bad?"
Sebastian wasn't really sure what to say in a reply. What was Nick trying to say to him? Just a while ago he had told him that he was amazing and gorgeous. Plus there was the fact that he had said Blaine was lucky to have him. Now he was saying that he used to not only have a crush on him but that he had thought about kissing him and touching him and well being with him. He wasn't sure he lied where this was going. What about Jeff? That was the only question running through his mind right now. Wasn't Nick in love with Jeff? He was pretty sure that he always had been. It had been rather obvious. So why was he saying that he had fantasised about being with him? Sebastian just didn't get it. It just confused him. He knew that he should probably say something. Anything. It was better than just saying nothing at all, right?
"And what about now?" he finally managed to say. When he had thought about a million things he could try and do in this store cupboard to distract him from Blaine breaking up with him, this conversation certainly hadn't been one of them. "Do you still like me? Like you used to?"
Nick looked down to the floor and sat down on one of the boxes to the left of him, before looking back up at Sebastian again. He simply shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know. I just know what I haven't seen you in ages and I missed you. More than I probably should of. But things are different than they were back at Dalton. I have Jeff now and don't get me wrong I love him, more than anyone. But I think my feelings for you are coming back in fact I don't now if they ever left." he said swallowing the lump in his throat. "Sorry I shouldn't have said anything. I get that you want to be with Blaine and all. I just hope this doesn't make things awkward between us. I want to still be friends with you Sebastian."
Why was everything that was happening recently making him feel guilty? Whether it was something that he had done or feelings that he couldn't return. It wasn't fair. He hadn't done anything he deserve this, had he? Sebastian closed his eyes and rested against the shelf that stood behind him. A sigh escaped his lips. Why him? What was it about him that seemed to make guys fall for him all the time? Sometimes he just wished that things could be easier. Sometimes he wondered if coming to Ohio had been a mistake. At least he wouldn't be hurting as much as he was right now. He'd probably be worse off than he was right now, but the pain wouldn't be there and he could easily take it out on some poor unfortunate opponent in the next Lacrosse game, right?
"Why me?" he finally said. "Seriously, Nick! What is it about me that attracts guys? What is so amazing about me?"
Nick once again shrugged his shoulders and looked up at his old friend. "I don't know." he rose to his feet and walked over to Sebastian. "Are we still friends? You and me?"
"Course, we are" Sebastian replied with a smile.
"That's it!" Nick said suddenly, "That smile, that's what makes everyone fall for you. It's just so damn hot." with those words he leant in to kiss him, although managed to stop himself. "Sorry. I have to stop making a fool of myself. I am acting like I am drunk."
Sebastian realised that it was impossible for him to step away from Nick, he had him pinned to the shelf, that wasn't the worst thing though. The worst thing was he actually found himself not really caring. It sure was doing a good job of stopping him from thinking about Blaine. Plus Nick was sort of hot, right? And it was starting to get a little cold in here. Maybe the body heat of someone would help out with that too. Perhaps this way he could kill two birds with one stone. Before he could talk himself out of it he wrapped his arms around Nick again. Telling himself that this didn't make Nick a cheater. He just wanted to try and warm himself up a little.
Nick's arms snaked around Sebastian's back and he rested his head upon his shoulder. "I'm fucking freezing my ass off and you are so warm. How are you so warm?"
"Really? I feel warm to you. I feel bloody freezing myself." he replied to him.
Nick looked up at him and instead of say something he just nodded his head and pressed his lips to Sebastian's. Sure it was wrong and it meant that he was cheating on Jeff, but at the moment he just didn't care. He was thinking about leaving Jeff anyway. He just didn't feel the same way about him anymore.
"Woah! Nick, what are you doing?" Sebastian said, pushing him away. "I can't do this right now, okay. I am in love with Blaine even if we aren't together right now and you. You're with Jeff. You can't cheat on him. It isn't fair."
"Well if I leave him can we be together?" Nick practically pleaded with him.
"No," came the reply.
Now that stung. Probably more than it should have done. Nick felt as though he had just been stabbed in the heart. "Why? I want to be with you. I'm in love with you. It's always been you. I just never realised it until you came back into my life."
"Because I don't feel the same. I can't get over Blaine. I am never going to get over him and being with you, well it wouldn't be right. I would be using you as some kind of rebound to pretend that everything was okay. When it would be far from that. Every single time that I kissed you or touched you I'd be thinking about kissing and touching Blaine. I can't do that to you. I won't do that to you."
Nick just rolled his eyes and pressed up against him again, placing a kiss into his neck "I don't care. You can think I am anyone you want. I honestly couldn't give a fuck Sebastian."
"Nick! Stop it. Have you heard yourself? You sound pathetic. I don't want to be with you and I am sorry if that hurts you but its true. I can't let myself be with you when I still in love with Blaine. Maybe if things had been different and I had been wit you before getting with Blaine, but that wasn't how things panned out and you can't change them."
Nick seemed to get the message and shrunk back into the other corner. "I'm still leaving Jeff. And I promise you I will wait for you. As long as it takes. I told you before not to let go of Blaine. I lied. I want you to let go of him. Let go of him and grab onto me. I won't break your heart."
Sebastian just looked down to the floor. He didn't know what to say. Nothing was making any sense. Nick wasn't making sense. He'd always thought that Niff were perfect together, they sure came across as being perfect together. Yet now Nick was telling him that he was in love with him and he was leaving Jeff? It just didn't make any sense. It seemed now that the sooner they got out of this store room the better. The cold wasn't bothering him anymore. He couldn't care less about it. Every single part of him was clinging onto Blaine. He had to get out of this store room. He just had to. He hated being trapped in here. It was starting to make him feel rather claustrophobic. He headed over to the door and pressed his ear up against it. He couldn't hear any talking.
"I think the coast is clear. I'm leaving, you coming?"
Nick just nodded.
A/N: Again sorry this took so long. I did think bout making Sebastian and nick sleep together, but I changed my mind. I didn't really think Sebastian would be able to let himself, but what do you guys think? Want a Sebastian and Nick encounter? Let me know, yeah! Review and you can have some cyber cookies.