Love Struck

Chapter 184 – Crack Head

Shadow's POV

"I think I like this form much more then your brother's!" Laughed death as I shook in fear and confusion.

"What are you doing!?" I asked as he smiled at me with those black teeth now in Ghost's face.

"Oh come on! Am I not aloud any fun anymore!? Plus I thought you would like this more then Dark's. After all at the least you got along with Ghost, but now that you killed him I figured why let this go to waste?! Plus I wanted a new look! Don't you like it!?" Asked Death as he coughed a little.

"Take it off!" I replied in fear as he replied.

"Do you really want me to do that!?"

I backed away scared as he sounded just like him.

"Stop!" I begged as he replied.

"Ghost didn't even get to say goodbye to anyone before you murdered him! Well, he did to Dove but who cares!? At the least Shadow let his voice still be heard!"

"I did what you told me! Now give me back my family!" I ordered him as he shook his head.

"It's just not that easy Shadow!" He stated as I widened my eyes.

"What are you fucking talking about!? I killed MY BEST FRIEND! MY FUCKING BROTHER FOR YOU! HOW IS IT NOT THAT ENOUGH!?" I asked in rage as I came at him.

Death smiled as he sent me back hard into the ground using some sort of field. It was hard to get up as he walked to me.

Stopping next to my legs he looked down and got on his knee.

Ghost's form he used scared me to death as he reached under my shirt.

The chill of his touch sent my quills into a shiver as he raised up my gold chain.

"Who was this from?" He asked as I replied.

"An old friend!"

Death lowered his head and asked.

"This old friend doesn't happen to be the same friend you killed in the test of pain was it?"

I widened my eyes as I pictured snapping Maria's neck as she laid in my arms the night I was trying to save both me and Ghost back in Afghanistan.

I looked away as he chuckled.

"What happened to her?" He asked as I replied.

"I killed her!"

"Not in the test Shadow! What happened to her for real?! Back on ARK!?" He asked as I took a gulp.

"She was shot and I couldn't save her."

"Why!?" He asked as I stared into his black orbs.

"Because I wasn't strong enough!" I shouted as he smiled.

"But you were when I brought it back to you, right?" He asked as I nodded.

"Then think about this for a second won't you?" He replied as I watched him take Ghost's blade from behind his back.

"You were strong enough then and knowing that you could change it there leaveing you to believe you can change it now!" He stated as I asked.

"What does that mean?"

Death shook his head and slammed the knife down on my leg.

"AGHHHHH!" I screamed in pain as it went right back into my knee.

Death held my mouth shut as I screamed more and more into his cold fur.

"Shhhhh!" He ordered as I tried to hold back tears.

"You saved Maria before, right?" He asked as I nodded in approval.

"Now think ahead to only a few hours ago."

I closed my eyes as he continued.

"When you first stabbed yourself here, you couldn't pull it out because you were scared. But now you can. I want you to try it." He stated as he let go of my mouth.

I slowly looked at the knife and grabbed it in my hand.

"AGHHH!" I screamed as I pulled.

Death shut my mouth as it came out covered in my blood.

I dropped the knife as he picked it up with his spare hand.

I widened my eyes as he slammed it on the other.

"Aghhhhhh!" I screamed with less force as he ordered.

"Get it out!"

I quickly tore it out and watched as he took it again and slammed it down into my side.

"Get it out!" He ordered as I ripped it out of my flesh.

Once again he took it as I cried out in pain and jammed it in my chest.

"Get it out!" He ordered as I stumbled for it.

Slowly slipping it out from my heart he slammed it directly in my neck.

"Get it out." He said slowly as I gagged.

Feeling the steal in my throat I took it in my bloody hands and tore it out.

Death let the blade rest on the floor as he asked.

"Why did you do that?"

I slowly looked up and replied.

"Because I didn't want to die."

"Good." He said as I watched him stand up.

"And why don't you want to die?" He asked as I replied.

"Cause I want to see my family again."

Nodding his head; death reached for me grabbing me by the arm.

Roughly he pulled me up and began to drag me over to the center of the room.

I stared into his face as he looked into mine.

Gently he began to lift me up.

I watched as he laid me back on nothing. It was just air. Nothing under me. I was floating it was like.

"I know Shadow you want them back, but there is still more to be done before I can let that happen." He stated as he felt my face.

I stared into his black eyes as he said.

"The next thing won't be as hard as killing Ghost but it will be just as bad."

I was fearing the order as he leaned in.

Shadow's POV

I woke up to see he was gone. I was back in my room laying on the floor.

I knew what was to come next and I didn't like it, but at least this time death was helping my cause.

Raptor's POV

I stood in the shower with my hands running through my gray quills and the whole time I kept my eyes shut not wanting to see all the blood running into the drain below my bare feet.

Beside that I was worried about myself and mostly Alicia.

She saw me. With all that blood and anger. She saw it all. I don't know if she'll want to even talk to me. I might be crazy to her now. I will admit I was over the line screaming everyone like that but I was just deluded.

"Knock! Knock!"

I jumped as someone knocked on my bathroom door.

I thought I locked it.

Leaving the water on I stuck my wet head out and shouted.

"Who's there!?"

"Me!" It was Alicia.

Widening my eyes I asked.

"How did you get in my room!? I had the door locked!"

"I have a key dumb dumb!" She shouted back as I shook my head in confusion.

"Can I come in!?" She asked as I continued to bath.

"Why not!?" I shouted back as I heard her open the door.

Looking to the side I saw her legs enter the bathroom slowly to shut the door behind her.

"I'll be done in a minute." I stated as she sat down on the toilet to wait for me.

I felt guilt now as she asked.

"Are you ok?"

"I'm fine." I replied letting out a large breath of hot air.

"Are you sure?" She asked as I went for the shampoo.

"Yeah. How about you?" I asked as I squeezed some into my hand.

"I'm fine. I just was worried about you." She stated as I replied.

"There's nothing to be worried about Alicia."

I heard her exhale and in time she replied.

"You know I'm here right?"

"Of course." I stated in sadness.

"If there's something wrong you can tell me. No matter what it is." She stated as I went silent.

Watching as the soap ran down my body I got soaked one last time and shut off the water.

Quickly I took the towel I had hanging over the glass doors and began to dry myself off.

"Hannon told me about what happened to Smoke." Stated Alicia as I looked up in worry.

"What he say?" I asked as she stood up.

"He said you weren't yourself." Replied Alicia as I lowered the towel between my legs.

Beginning to dry down there I said.

"He was helping the enemy."

"But you killed him Raptor." Stated Alicia as I replied.

"That bitch killed three of my guys Alicia! I wasn't going to let her get away with that!"

"Is that why you killed those men too!?" She asked as I went for the door.

"I was evening the odds and they wouldn't have kept their word to Shadow anyway!" I stated as I opened the door to stare directly into her eyes.

"But why?!" Asked Alicia again as I shouted.

"Hey! She drew first blood on us and I was returning the favor! That's it!" Quickly she grabbed my hand.

"I'm worried about you!" She stated as I replied.

"It's war Alicia! People die! I'm only trying to protect you and this cause! I will die to make sure that happens and to make sure you stay safe! I can't have people working with us who threaten that! Please tell me you understand!?" I begged as I took her hand that held mine.

Alicia smiled a little but then asked.

"So why were you acting like that before?"

"Because of the drug I was given when I almost died last month!" I replied as she widened her eyes.

"Is that still a problem!?" She asked in fear as I replied.

"Shadow has the same thing just like Dom does now! The drug stays in our system for a long time and anger is one of the major things it causes! I won't let it control me Alicia I promise you that, but all I am trying to say is that it will be hard to do!"

"I understand that. I just don't want to lose you after what happened to Ghost." She cried a little as I hugged her now.

Alicia grabbed the back of my quills softly as I comforted her.

"I won't let that happen." I promised as I stared into her eyes with a smile.

Slowly I gave her a deep kiss and held her tighter, never wanting to let go.

What does Shadow have to do?