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Clarke's prov
I am following Lexa back to where ever she is going. The weird thing about my anger towards Lexa is that it is almost gone, I tried to hate her so hard. When I saw her about a thousand thoughts went through my head. I punched her in the face and screaming at her didn't make me feel even a little better, maybe a little worse than before due to the fact I caused her pain. I'm not saying I forgive her but I get why she did it, for her people. I did the same in Mount Weather. I wonder if Lexa can't live with herself and that is why she here saving my life...again. We reach a clearing in the trees with four horses tied to trees, I recognize Lexa's horse but the others I don't. Of course Lexa brought people to help her. "Clarke you're thinking too hard?" She states raising an eyebrow.
"Why did you come to find me, Lexa?" I ask crossing my arms.
"You'd be dead if I didn't, Clarke." I know she is avoiding my question and I think I know her answer.
"I hate you." I mutter in a frustrated voice making Lexa chuckle.
"You've said." Why does Lexa have to be so damn cocky every second, it's like her job right now is to piss me off. That smirk and raise of the eyebrow makes me so darn aggravated with her. Why can't she just not annoy me for a few minutes. "Did you know my people now call you Skia Prisa?" She comments out of the blue looking at the sun before looking slightly nervous with a smile.
"I don't speak Trigedasleng so please translate." I say trying to sound angry but that smile makes me want to melt into a little puddle so being angry is hard.
"Now don't get mad at me, it was Octavia who started it." Why the hell is Octavia talking to Lexa, I thought they hated each other. "It means the Sky Princess." She adds making me roll my eyes and frowning. Lexa chuckles as she takes a sip of water out of a flask handing me it. I take it taking a sip, we don't break eye contact thought out it all. It's kind of hot.
"Clarke!" I hear someone shout before arms wrap around my neck in a hug. It's Octavia. I return the hug feeling a little weird because well this is the most human contact I've had in the month I've been out here with me punching, pushing and kissing Lexa and now Octavia hugging me tightly. "How did you find her?" She asks looking at Lexa.
"Simple, I'm better than you." Lexa smirks in a challenging voice.
"Ha I could of found her if we took that route and do it within half of the time." Octavia retorts in a equally challenging voice. I look back and forth between the two with amazement, mostly because no one talks to Lexa like that and Octavia is doing it like it's normal.
"No you would of got her killed with your bad aim."
"I don't have bad aim!"
"You can't even hit a none moving object never mind moving!"
"Liar!"
"Prove I'm not lying Octavia because you have bad aim."
"God sake you two make my head hurt with this arguing." Bellamy walks up to them breaking it up like it's happened before. I'm stood there in confusion without an explanation. He sees me and smiles engulfing me in a hug. I return it still confused. He breaks the hug and sees the bloody bandage around my arm. "Clarke what happened?" Bellamy asks in a concerned voice.
"I was betrayed by rouge grounders who then tried to kill me but lucky the commander was there." I tell him in a cold voice.
"Clarke you forgot to tell them about how you punched me in the face after saving your life." Lexa said cocky and the weirdest thing happened Octavia moved Lexa's head to see where I hit her and make a gasp making Lexa chuckle.
I look between Lexa and Octavia to see Lexa hit the other girl's hand away playfully. "What? How?" I tilt my head to the sound as I point back and forth between them. The stop looking at me with smirks.
"Octavia was the only person who told me that I was an ass," Lexa begins standing up moving towards me but is cut off my Octavia.
"The biggest ass." She adds with a smirk towards Lexa who just rolls her eyes.
"I respected that and someone how our mutual respect turned into friendship, not ask how. I don't know either." Lexa then turned to go and untie her horse without any other word. "We should be heading back, leaving the Sky people have been very stupid lately and might start a war with mine." Lexa states with a slight teasing tone, I know I've only really been around Lexa whilst she was the commander and in the middle of war but this is a complete different side.
"Agreed." Bellamy says as if he knows what she's talking about, he probably does. "You know half of the guard and the remaining 100 harsh me about starting a war with them just for abandoning us however I know how many warriors you have so I don't want to squashed under your boot." He tells us all and I guess he's the leader of our people but why isn't my mom.
"Why isn't my mom the leader?" I ask with real concern.
"Well some of her wounds got infected after Mount Weather so she fell ill and still isn't fit to lead but she'll live." He tells me and my eyes widen, I almost lost my mom and I didn't even know it.
"May I add she would have if I hadn't sent Nyko." Lexa said making me look at her thankfully.
"Like she said most of our people are stupid." He adds with a chuckle and I then I notice the warrior to his side. I kind of recognize her but I don't know how. Bellamy sees my confusion and puts his arm out the women. "Clarke this is Echo, my girlfriend, Echo this is Clarke, my best friend." He introduces and my eyes widen again, girlfriend. I know Earth is fast paced but I've been gone four weeks. I've been gone four weeks.
"Skia Prisa I've heard a lot about you." She says with a slight smile.
"I wish I could say the same." I said with smile then realize what she just called me and turn to Octavia who is trying to not laugh. "Hey Octavia I hate you for coming up with that name." I say jokingly making her laugh.
"Clarke, you should really be more consistent with who you say I hate you to." Lexa teases stroking the nose of her horse. "We should be going." She mounts her horse effortless. So does the other four I'm with. Lexa puts her hand out towards me and I take it being half pulled onto the horse. I don't know where to put my hands, around her waist or...
Lexa takes my hands wrapping around her waist like she's reading my mind or something. I feel kind of safe holding onto Lexa like I never want to let go. However I'll never tell her that, we don't want her ego growing even more.
The whole ride back to Camp Jaha, they've been telling me of things which have happened since I've been gone like Raven and Wick which I wasn't that shocked at really. Then also how Bellamy and Echo became a couple, how Lincoln and Octavia are doing but most shocking how Lexa and Octavia became friends, it was very confusing. We were just out of sight of Camp Jaha when everyone stops. "Why are we stopping?" I ask as I realize that my head is on Lexa's shoulder with my body pressed against hers.
She looks back at me as I take my head off my shoulder. "Echo, Lincoln and I are going back to Tondc whilst you, Octavia and Bellamy will be going inside. How we are no longer allies that would be unwise." She looks at me and even though I know she's right I don't want her to leave me.
"Okay." I mutter getting off her horse feeling my stomach sink. Bellamy and Octavia do the same as Lincoln takes Octavia's horse by the reins kissing her soft goodbye. Lexa nods as they start riding back to Tondc whilst the Blake siblings go in the direction of Camp. I go to follow them but Lexa grabs my arm getting of her horse. She kisses me softly but the kiss is broken before I can kiss her back. "May we meet again." I tell her with a slight smile.
"May we meet again." She mounts her horse riding to join the two other grounders. I half run to catch up with Bellamy and Octavia who smile at me as I do.
Octavia puts a arm around my shoulders with a smirk. "Clarke, can I call your girlfriend Commander Heart Eyes now?" She asks playfully raising an eyebrow
"Lexa's not my girlfriend kissing her three times doesn't mean we are together." I say blushing thinking about Lexa being my girlfriend and curse myself for the slip of the tongue of us sharing three kisses; the one in her tent, the one after I punched her in the face and the one a few seconds ago. I smile looking down remember how soft her lips are each time we kiss and how her touch makes my skin burn with desire.
"You've kissed three times?" Bellamy asked in disbelief with a smirk seeing my smile.
"Shut up." I mutter trying to hide the smile and the blush. To be honest I've missed his gentle teasing, really I've missed both of their teasing. I see the gates to Camp Jaha and feel my stomach drop. I could just turn back and run again. I would be fine, they would be fine. I don't need to be here. Bellamy rubs my shoulder nodding saying silently I will be okay and I'm needed a lot more than I think. The whole of the camp is busy and thriving.
I hear shouting of not to shoot and my breathing has quicken by a lot. I look at Bellamy who gives me a nod and then Octavia who smiles. The gates swing open and some look our way. Their mouths hand open when they see me but I don't see anyone of the 100. "Clarke, you're back!" Monty shouts as I see him. He is grinning as we hug quickly. Jasper is in the background and I see the anger in his gaze, I guess he hasn't forgiven me for killing Maya. I haven't truly forgiven myself either. A few of the the 100 hug me.
I spot Raven too concentrated on something to realize what is going on with Wick helping her out. "Raven, Clarke's back!" Octavia shouts making the other girl turn around with a grin. She runs, the best she can with the brace on her leg, at me engulfing me in a hug.
The hug breaks and she is smirking. "Did you find out where the wild things are?" She teases and I give her a look to shut up, she laughs. "I've missed not being able to make fun of you, Princess." She grins earning a glare.
"Shut up, Raven." I say with a grin when I see Jasper walk up to us. "Hey Jasper." I say awkwardly rocking on the back of my heels waiting for him to say something to me.
He pulls me into a hard, awkward hug. I return it trying not let the hug be as awkward. "Nice to see you...safe." He says with a slight smile which I return. I really need to talk to him about what happened at Mount Weather and why I decide I had to kill everyone including his girlfriend.
"Gather round!" Bellamy shouts making everyone come towards Bellamy, Octavia, Monty, Raven, Jasper and I in a circle. They are all whispering pointing at me, most seem okay with it but some are a little angry. "I pass over my leadership as the Chancellor to Clarke as she is the only reason we are alive today." He shouts making the whispering louder. I look at him with in complete shock, we didn't talk about this.
"Bellamy what the hell are you doing?" I whisper feeling my throat close.
He leans closer to me. "I was never the true leader of our people Clarke. You are." He pats my shoulder leaning back out.
"Chancellor, are we going to war with the grounder for what they did to us at the mountain?" One of the people in the huddle shout with some people agreeing looking straight at me.
"War?" I shout angrily. "You want me to sign all of our death sentences?" I continue looking at them all. "I get what the Commander did at the Mountain, she saved her people by giving up us. I did the same with the people of the mountain. I killed so many innocent for you to live! I am not declaring war wasting the last month I've spent tormented with each one of the innocent lives I took just so we can all be died by the dawn! I do not ever want to hear this again or there will be punishment for trying to get us all killed!" They all go silent including the four around me as I push past them all going to the medical wing to go see my mom. I wipe a single tear from under my left eye taking a deep breathe as I push the flaps open.
I see my mom sat in the end bed talking to Marcus. She is looking better than what she did when I last saw her. She sees me and smile trying to stand up but winces. Marcus helps her up and I walk towards her. "Hi mom." I smile at her and she hugs me. I break the hug helping her back to the bed.
"Where have been, Clarke?" She asks as I sit on the bed. Marcus leaves the tent nodding at me as he does.
"I was never really anywhere too long." I say truthfully and she kisses my forehead affectionately touching my injured arm. I hiss with pain when she comes into contact with the wound I only received four hours par to this. She looks at my arm and quickly removes the bandage. I look down at the nasty looking wound which isn't that deep but is long so it won't need stitches.
"Go get my some disinfectant, a cloth and new bandages with a soaking pad now!" She orders and I roll my eyes walking over to the supplies. I quickly grab what she wants handing it back to my mom. I sit back down what she needs. She puts a bit of the disinfectant on the cloth putting it over the wound. The area around the wound and the wound itself starts burning making me grunt trying to hide the pain. My mom puts the soaking pad in place as she wraps the bandage around my arms tightly. I think I liked it better when Lexa did it at least her touch was comforting but I think that's just because it was Lexa, who I don't have feelings for, that's some crazy talk there. Once she's finished she smiles at me. "How did that happen, Clarke?"
"I got attacked by some rogue grounders...Lexa saved my life by killing both of my attackers." I tell her and she looks conflicted at the mention of what Lexa did probably because my mom hates Lexa but is grateful she saved me. I have to stop myself from thinking about the women who has, who has definitely not stolen my heart. Her perfect kissable lips, her green eyes which makes my stomach do somersaults, her voice, no her voice when she says me name. It's like an angel talking to me. Clarke stop! I don't have feelings for Lexa! I don't have feeling her Lexa! Maybe she's beautiful and strong but I don't having feelings for her!
She sits up straighter. "I love you, Clarke and I'm happy you're safe." She says breaking my thoughts yawning just after she finishes and I see the bags under her eyes.
I hug her again kissing her forehead lightly muttering "I love you too, mom." I straighten up with a slight smile. I start to walk out of the tent only stopping when I reach the exit to look back at my now sleeping mom. At least she's alive. I sigh leaving her tent seeing about 10 guards screaming at Marcus. I know it's about me or the grounders.
He shakes one of the men's hands before walking over to me. "Clarke, are you okay?" He asks in an concerned voice probably because he doesn't want me losing my mind and making our people die during the winter which is only half a moon cycle away. Crap.
"How are the preparations for winter?" I ask totally ignoring his earlier question.
"Great, we have enough food and water to survive well and Raven has found away to keep the cold out of our tents with the heat being kept in." Bellamy says patting my shoulder. I see the quick warning signal to the other man about provoking me, I guess they all think I'm insane. Great, just great.
All of a sudden shouting from some of the guards at the wall. I sprint over to where the shouting is coming from. A female guard has a gun pointed at Octavia. "How don't we know you won't kill us, You're a grounder!" She screams at my best friend. I grab the knife from my waist throwing it at the women. It hits her hand making her drop the gun with a scream of pain. Thank god that those Rogues taught me how to throw a knife before they tried to slice my throat.
The rest of the guard pick her up putting handcuffs on her and I take my knife swiftly out of her hand putting it back where it belongs. I nod at them as they take her away inside of the Ark. Most of the people around are gathered. I offer a hand to Octavia who takes it. Bellamy hugs his sister when he gets to her. "Octavia is one of us and Trigedakru. She is one of the few people in this camp who I can trust with my life so attack her, you attack me!" I shout looking at all of them. "We are not going to turn on one another, Winter is coming and we need to stay strong for it or we will all die. So get back to work and stop thinking about war, peace is the only way we will all survive." I finish looking at them all. Most cheer in agreement with a few staying silent before they join in. Then they all go back to their work stations like they are meant to be right now.
Bellamy smiles at me. "See you are needed here, you're our leader no matter what." He pats me on the shoulder before walking away. I take a deep breathe pulling my jacket into my body more walking to where my tent is.