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"You can run from the truth. You can run and hide from the truth.
You can deny and avoid the truth. But you cannot destroy the truth. Nor can you make the lie true. You must know that love will always uncover the truth."
-Delano Johnson

1 week later

Clarke's prov

I have admit that being back is making me feel better about what I did to all of those people back at Mount Weather however it's also a giant pain in my ass. I swear to god that half of the people here need me to know when they scratch their knee wanting me to kiss it better like what the actual fuck is wrong with them. One good, or maybe bad, thing is that the continuous nightmares have stopped about me killing all of those people however now they are now replaced by Lexa turning me over to the Mountain or the Ice Nation or saying she doesn't care about me, but I don't care if she cares about me or not. That's a stupid thing to think, I don't love Lexa. Stupid thing to even imagine.

I take a final deep breathe before grabbing my jacket from the table on my right. I walk out of my tent to see everyone working for once without anyone making claims about the Grounders to me. "Chancellor there are Grounders at the gate." There goes me not thinking about Lexa for the day. Not that I think about Lexa all of the time or anything.

I look at the Gate to see three Grounders on horses and an extra horse which looks a lot like Lexa's but different. I can't see who it is yet. "What do they want?" I ask looking at the guard. He shrugs not knowing. I groan walking over to the gate. It's easy to see who is at the gate now. Indra, Lincoln and Echo. "Open the gates." I order crossing my arms.

"Yes ma'am." The gates open slowly with my eyes trying to search for any sign of danger in Indra's cold eyes but there is nothing but coldness and some annoyance. They get off their horses leaving them just outside. I can feel the tension in the air and the deadly silence from everyone. Octavia hugs her boyfriend tightly when he gets near her, they briefly kiss. Echo hugs Bellamy but they don't kiss.

Indra approaches me and I smirk. "No hugs for me, right?" I slightly tease getting a bigger death glare.

"I'm here under orders from my Heda to deliver a message." She coldly says. I nod signaling for her to follow into my tent knowing this isn't something Lexa would want everyone to hear.

"What is your message?" I ask once we are out of ear shot from my people.

She uncrosses her arms. "The Commander wishes for you to come to Tondc to talk about the relationship between our people." and probably where our relationship stands, not that we have one, ridiculous.

"Okay, When shall this meeting be?" I ask with my heartbeat quickening thinking about seeing Lexa or talking to Lexa or kissing Lexa. I won't be kissing Lexa that was a one time thing, three time thing but not again. I love her, no I don't. She's like an angel with those kissable lips, her voice, those green eyes and how she protects me but I don't love her or maybe I do, no I don't.

Indra smirks seeing my inner war about my feelings, or none existing feelings, for Lexa. "She wishes for Lincoln, Echo and I to bring you back to Tondc." I nod in agreement as we walk out of my tent towards the gate.

"Bellamy, Octavia will you come with me to Tondc on business?" I ask the two siblings who are talking with their significant other. They grin nodding.

Once we reach the horses one of my senior guards come up with a concerned look. "Ma'am this is dangerous and you shouldn't go with only two of us who aren't even guards." She warns before I fully leave the gates.

"Tell Marcus he is in charge until I return." I brush off their question like I never even heard it earning a sigh as she goes back into the safety of our camp.

Indra hands me the reins to the horse which looks a bit like Lexa's. "A gift of good faith from the Commander." She tells me and I take the reins successfully hiding the smile with threatens to blow my whole I don't love Lexa facade, which isn't a facade because I don't. I mount the horse quickly as the gates close in front of me. Echo and Bellamy have already turned around with Echo in control of the horse. Lincoln and Octavia are waiting for Indra and I to turn around. We set off with great haste not wanting to be late.

Lexa's prov

I am waiting for Indra to return with either Clarke or to tell me she doesn't want to talk to me which might break my heart a little. I came to terms with my love for the sky girl within the second week after the Mountain making the guilt even worse. I know that Clarke might not ever forgive me for what I did to her and her people and I wouldn't blame her either. My eyes are fixed on the map trying to see what my first move would be if the Ice Nation wanted to make war again how we no longer have a common enemy in the Mountain Men which was the main reason for our truce in the first place.

I hear voices outside but I ignore them not really paying attention to my surroundings. "Do you ever not look at the map?" Someone asks from the entrance of my tent. I look up to see Clarke with a slight smirk.

"I also sit in my throne and stab it with my knife." I tell her with an amused tone walking towards her. Why does she look like she hasn't sleep? Is she ill? "Clarke you should really sleep otherwise you will go insane."

"I can't sleep, Lexa." She snaps harshly crossing her arms.

I walk closer to the girl. "Do you want to talk about it or should we get to business?" I ask with concern for her mostly because I love her and seeing her in distress making me upset. She shakes her head and I see a war going on inside of her own mind, I know I'm to blame. "I think it would be wise to make a truce as to where my generals can come to your lands without having risk of being attacked and the same for your people when it comes to coming to my territory, we will not bring each other into wars unless asked." I say formally trying to ignore her beautiful blue eyes from melting my insides.

Our eyes connect for another few seconds before she breaks the connection. "That's a great idea...umm I totally agree." She says rubbing the back of her neck awkwardly trying to get rid of the obvious chemistry between us however I can't blame her, I did the same before she went missing and I realized how much she meant to me.

"Clarke, you should really sleep, in the nicest way you look like crap." I say bluntly and she is shocked with a bit of hurt in her expression. "However you are still the most beautiful women I've ever seen." I compliment making her blush hard even though I was just telling her the truth.

"I told you I can't sleep." She mutters still with her face as red as a tomato, yes us Grounders grow and eat vegetables and fruit, we aren't just meat eaters.

"Clarke, it might help to talk about it and I promise I won't laugh at you." I say with a comforting smile touching her shoulder.

She mutters something which no one could even hear with it being to quiet and fast.

"What?"

Clarke takes a deep breathe. "Idreamthatyouleavemeagainandtellmeyoudon'tcareaboutme." She exhales and frowns at my confused expression not understanding a word that she is saying. "I dream that you don't care about me." She looks down blushing.

My eyes widen, I thought that it would be about the Mountain not me. I grab her chin softy making her look at me. "I will always care about you, Clarke. I'm in love with you." I say looking deeply into her eyes and I lightly kiss her. She kisses me back wrapping her arms around my neck and I hold onto her waist pulling our bodies closer. Her lips move against mine deepening it. Our lips detach so we can breathe.

"Ai laik in hodnes kom yu seintaim. (I'm in love with you too)" She says resting her forehead against mine. There is something totally sexy about Clarke talking Trigedasleng

"Know you taught you that one?" I kiss her again not getting enough of her lips on mine, they make my body come alive which not even Costia could do.

The kiss breaks again. "Octavia." It's all she can get out before our lips clash again. My tongue is against her bottom lip begging for entrance. She grants it almost automatically. We battle for dominance however I win.

"Heda, can I have a word with you and the Skai Prisa?" Indra says from outside of my tent. We break apart putting quite a bit of distance between us. Clarke is blushing making me smirk.

"If you must." I groan winking at Clarke who blushes again, I never thought someone could blush that much within a minute or maybe no one has ever really treated Clarke right. I know from Octavia that Finn, the murdering coward, was cheating on his current girlfriend with Clarke which is totally wrong. Has she ever been in a real relationship with no lying. God I wish I could of at least kick his ass for him not treating Clarke the way she should have been and that's without him murdering 18 innocent people from Tondc. Finn and Clarke loved each other for comfort and the fear of not wanting to be alone when you think you may die the next day only to be forgotten.

Indra walks into my tent sending a short glare towards Clarke who rolls her eyes fully expecting it. She really needs to grow up with this hatred of Clarke for having my love and in her eyes not being worthy. "Heda," She brows her head in my direction. "More of the Sky People are here claiming they don't trust us with the safety of their leader."

"Why are some of my people so stupid?" Clarke asks to no one really with a groan.

"Because you didn't have enough Oxygen on the Ark, it killed your brains." I suggest with a smirk. Clarke glares at me but I see the amusement in her expression too. "We will be out in a minute, thank you Indra." I say with a cold voice and Indra nods walking out of the tent. My eyes connect with Clarke's once more, I wonder if anyone has ever told her the stars still linger in her blue eyes making everything within them so much more beautiful than they would have been without them. I walk closer to Clarke moving a piece of her hair behind her hair. "I know we need to talk, Clarke, however right now we have to go and stop your people from doing something to offend mine." God how much I want to kiss those perfect lips right now. It uses all my willpower not to though. She kisses my cheek softly which would of smeared my warpaint if I wore any, which I don't in times of peace.

We walk out of my war tent to see about 10 of my warriors in plain sight with probably about 20 more hiding waiting for my signal. The gates are open to see about 10 sky people stood at the entrance. My eyes briefly connect with Clarke with us both thinking the same thing; branwadas (fools). I almost break my stone cold look when I stare into those blue eyes but it just about holds. Bellamy is next to Indra, both of them are angry at the 10 unwanted guests.

Once we reach the gate, Indra stands to my left. "What are you doing uninvited to my lands?" I ask in a cold, scary voice making a few gulp.

Then one steps forwards, I think he's from the 100. "You left us behind at the Mountain getting my girlfriend killed so why should I trust you...you...animals!" He spits with angry in his tone. I chuckle at his stupidity.

Everyone is looking at me trying to find out what I am thinking. "Heda, teik ai frag op em. (Commander, let me kill him)." Indra says angrily and I admit thinking it over for a few seconds. Her hand is on her swords so with two swift motions she would kill him. "Beja, Heda." She pleads and I look between him and Indra.

"Jasper are you insane, you can't say that?" Clarke snaps crossing her arms glaring at the boy.

"Oh Clarke you're just as bad. You killed all of those people and Maya who saved us so you can shut up too!" He shouts making Clarke look down at the floor. Anger flares in my body, Clarke saved his ass and is repaying her by shouting at her about killing his girlfriend to save so many more lives. I grab my sword from it's belt putting the point of the sword to this throat.

I apply enough pressure to draw blood staring into his eyes, only seeing fear. "I shall let you live, boy but only if you leave this every moment with the rest who came with you or I will kill you." I snap applying more pressure making him wince with pain and coughs. I remove the point of my sword from his throat and they all scramble back before setting off in a sprint back to their camp.

I grab Clarke's arm pulling back into the tent before she breaks down in front of everyone. As soon as we are out of sight and in the tent she slides down a table burying her face in her hand, choking back sobs. She looks so broke. I sit down next to her putting my arm around her shoulders making her fall into me. Her face into my shoulder crying. I rub her back. "I'm so sorry I did this to you, Clarke." I whisper into her hair.

"I...I killed...all of those...those...innocent people not you." She replies but is having trouble talking due to the sobbing. "The children...the innocent children...who...who hadn't done...done anything wrong." She adds pulling my body closer to hers wrapping her arms around my waist. I pull her onto my lap running my fingers through her blonde hair. I feel so guilty because if I hadn't of taken that deal, Clarke wouldn't be breaking down right now.

"Clarke, those children would have grown up to be just like their parents, you did what you had to do." I try to comfort her but she looks up at me with red, blood-shot eyes.

I wipe a tear from her cheek. "No one knows that would have, maybe they would have been different." She mutters and I pull her back into my body.

Clarke's prov

I bring crying again as soon as I fall back into Lexa's body. "No Clarke, they would have grown to hate your people and would attack again. They wouldn't of changed." She buries her face in my hair being a sense of comfort and protect. I know she's right but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I'm a monster who killed hundreds of innocent people without knowing what would have happened if I didn't. I look back up at Lexa who is radiating love and devotion towards me, a monster who doesn't deserve love. "How can you even love me, I'm a monster?"

Her eyes connect with mine in an intense gaze. "I love you because you are strong, smart, brave, confident, beautiful and so many more reasons. You are not a monster Clarke. You aren't a monster, you're an angel." My breathe is taken away. I've never been called beautiful before, Finn and I weren't like that. I smile at her sweet words leaning in to kiss her. I put everything I have into the kiss and I feel she is too. "The stars still shine in your eyes, Clarke." She says between kisses making me smile again into the kiss. "You put others before yourself making you the most brilliant person I have ever meet." I feel tears running down my face as she kisses me again. They tears of joy instead of grief. Whoever knew Commander Lexa was so sweet and caring?

I bury my head in her shoulder just enjoying the comfort that I get when. We stay like this for the next few minutes just enjoying each other's bodies against our own. Maybe when you remove all of that war paint from Lexa's face, she goes from the Commander to herself. The real Lexa that is only...how old is Lexa? "Lexa?" She hums in response so I continue. "How old are you?"

"I'm 19 winters, I was born on the 17th day of the last moon cycle of the year." She answers so her birthday is the 17th December. So Lexa is a year older than me. "I became the Heda when I was 14 and united the clans at 16." She continues rubbing my back and I nod. "You are 18, right?"

"Yeah, I was born on the 8th day of the 7th moon cycle." So that's 8th July.

"So you got sent down a month and two days before your 18th." Lexa states and I look at her to say why do you remember when I got sent down from the Ark? "That day 99 annoying brats got sent down here and one angel who I'm very much in love with." I smile at her kissing her again. I really like this sweet side of Lexa.

"Commander, I think Clarke should leave soon or it will get dark and we might get lost." Octavia calls from outside of the tent. Bad timing O, I really want to kill her right now.

I stand up immediately missing the feeling of her body against mine. I offer a single hand down to Lexa who rolls her eyes taking it. I half pull her up and the other half she does herself. "Octavia, you can come in." Lexa calls to Octavia. She quickly kisses my cheek before O can get inside and see us. I blush a light red biting my bottom lip. Octavia looks in between us with a cocked eyebrow.

"Hey Commander Heart Eyes." Octavia raises a eyebrow at Lexa in a silent challenge earning a glare from Lexa but it's almost playful. I will never get their friendship if I'm honest.

Lexa smirks at my friend. "Hello berry girl." She smirk and Octavia groans at a silent memory which they are both remembering.

"Berry girl?" I ask looking at both of them. Lexa laughs whilst Octavia groans...again.

Lexa nods. "Well when we were looking for you, we stopped off for the night. Octavia grabbed some berries and eat them to only find they were hallucinogenic so for the next few hours she was saying she was one of the horses and eat a lot of grass and leaves. Bellamy and Lincoln was running after her for the whole night. I on the other hand was laughing too hard to help." Octavia's hands are over her face hiding it from the world. I laugh a little but also feel slightly bad for her too. "Octavia is right, you should be going." She turns to me with sadness in her eyes.

I nod in agreement. "Bye." I say awkwardly and she smiles.

"Goodbye Clarke, stay safe."

"You too."

"I'll wait outside, See you soon Lexa." Octavia said with a wave goodbye to Lexa who nods. Once she is out of the tent I pull her lips into mine. Not knowing the last time I will see her again. Lexa returns it grabbing my waist pulling me even closer.

The kiss breaks and I smile at her. Lexa grabs the knife from her belt. My expression is alarmed because well she just got her knife out of her belt for no reason. She chuckles and I relax a bit. "Something to remember me by." She places the knife flat onto my palm.

I wrap my hand around the handle putting it into my belt. "Thank you but I have nothing to give you and..." I'm cut off by her lips.

"There I just got a kiss, we are even." She says when our lips break contact, I giggle at how sweet Lexa really is. Within the whole big, scary Commander is a funny, sweet person. "Now you better go. Mebi oso na hit choda op nodotaim (May we meet again)." I learnt a few phrases off Octavia in the past week like that one.

"Mebi oso na hit choda op nodotaim (May we meet again)." I peck her lips before turning again and out of her tent trying to hide the smile which proves almost impossible.