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1 week later
Okay so this camp isn't as bad anymore. Most people have gotten the message I don't need to be told every little detail about every little thing, I say most because a few do love to tell me if they have a bruise on their elbow so can't work today. Normally I just ignore them and they get the message. At least Lexa's people aren't wimps, lucky. I smile thinking of the that certain brunette who is leader of the 12 clans. How long has it been since I saw her? What like a week. That's so long! I miss her. Not that she's in my dreams every night or anything, okay maybe she is but I don't care. I'm allowed she loves me and no one else so yeah. I think I'm becoming pathetic...
I see Octavia and Bellamy arguing over something, it's probably something petty. As normal but I still start walking over there. "It's unfair and inhuman." Octavia states with a stern voice. Making Bellamy chuckle.
"O what's wrong with you?" I ask and Octavia looks at me with a smile just after glaring at Bellamy who laughs harder.
"Your mom won't let me leave camp, why is she in charge again?" Octavia asks and I'm confused. To my knowledge I'm in charge not my mother, actually she is only a doctor without really an power. So how can she give orders. I knew this would happen!
"I'll be right back." I mutter leaving them to go find my mom. I know she is probably in the medical tent so that is where I go first. She may be my mom but this isn't acceptable. One Octavia is Trigedakru as much as she is one of us so she can go back to Tondc if she wants and no one can stop her and two who gave her the power in the first place to ban people from going out of the camp because it wasn't me. I see her treating a guy who has a cut on his forehead, she is cleaning it. Once she's finished I walk over. She smiles at me but it stops when she sees my annoyed expression. "Who gave you the authority to tell Octavia that she can't leave the camp?" I ask raising an eyebrow.
"I was meaning to talk to you authority." She begins but I cut her off.
"Let me guess you want to be in charge again." I snap and she takes a deep breathe.
"Yes Clarke, I'm your mother and was only unfit to lead because of my injuries so isn't it the right thing to do to make me the Chancellor again?" She answers and I fight the giant urge to roll my eyes at her.
"You may have been technically leading before however who was it who the Grounders trust, who the Commander trusts? Me. Who saved us from the Mountain? Me. Who made all of the hard decisions other than what to do about Jaha? Me. I'm asking you this what have you done since we arrived on the ground other than argue with Kane and Jaha over who's our leader?" I ask her and she crosses her arms. She doesn't answer for a minute and I nod knowing I'm right. "Nothing you did nothing. So why is it that your the right choice for being our leader again? Because your an adult. All you've done as the leader is put Jaha in prison because he didn't agree with you. Mom I love you but up in the sky you would of been a good, a great leader but down here it's a different ball game and I'm the better choice." I sigh feeling a little better getting everything off my chest. I wish we had a system like the Grounders, she's our leader because they have the Commander's spirit so no one can question it. I hate democracy.
"Okay Clarke you've made your point can I make mine without being interrupted?" My mom asks after a long pause.
"Maybe."
"Clarke you're still a child," Ugh I'm not a child, I caused a genocide. So I'm not your little girl to be honest I wish I still was but I'm not. I fight the urge to interrupt and win. "and you don't know how to lead," I'm pretty sure I lead the 100 without having a clue what to do and we stopped 300 grounders under my leadership but please continue. Again fucking democracy. "so shouldn't someone mature take over, Clarke you're a teenager and should be doing things that teenagers do not leading a group of people," Yup I'm not mature haven't been in two wars already where I was basically leading my people. Plus what am I meant to do gossip around the camp fire and giggle when someone cute walks past us. Yeah I'll pass on that. Now I also hate mothers. "Do you get where I'm going from with me being the leader?"
"Okay I've bit my tongue the whole of that speech. Okay I'm not a going to be a 'normal' teenager, whatever that means. I've gone through too much to be and maybe I shouldn't be this mature for my age. Maybe I should be saying I love you to every people who shows me the littlest bit of affection who will probably just use me. But ever since dad died I've not been the same, the Ground has helped me grow. I'm not the same girl who would watch sports with dad, Wells and Jaha who would do what she's told. So stop seeing me as that because I'm no longer Clarke, that little girl who was only known as the daughter of Abigail and Jake Griffin. I'm Clarke kom Skaikru, the Skia Prisa." I answer walking out of the tent which we were in. I wipe a tear away which I didn't even realize I shed until I wiped it away.
I notice Octavia sat on a loge prodding the ash of last nights fire with a stick. I sit down next to her and she raises an eyebrow. "I hate emotions." I mutter picking up a stick joining her in stabbing the ashes.
"Don't go all Lexa on me with the whole I don't feel but I'm bummed out because Clarke's missing but I'd never tell you that." Octavia says with a smirk and I look at her confused. "The second week of you being gone she was on a permanent downer, I think that's when she admitted that she loved you. She was a bore." Octavia explains and we both turn away from each other messing with the remains of the fire. "So Skia Prisa why are you so bummed?" Octavia asks me trying to get a rise out of me by using the nickname.
"My mom basically saying I'm an immature child who shouldn't be the leader but she should. Then I reminded myself of my dad and Wells so now I'm sad." I tell her and before she can reply something coming from the dead zone rushes about 20 meters from our camp in the direction of Tondc. It hits before I can even blink with an explosion which we can see. I'm in too much shock to say anything.
Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. Lexa is in Tondc. I cover my mouth with my hand. I know people are shouting but I can barely hear them. I look at Octavia who looks like she's about to die. She is on her knees with her head in her hands against the ground, she's crying. What? How? Who did this? Is Lexa? No she can't be dead maybe this is just a really bad dream. I don't know if their are tears or not. I look at Bellamy who has the same face as his sister. I don't feel myself going to hug him but I do. He returns the hug and he's crying. I can feel myself doing the same.
I shake out of the daze when I feel the tears. I quickly wipe them away looking around most people are whispering and have stopped working. I break the hug rubbing my hands over my face stopping the tears. I take a few deep breathes before speaking. "Bell are you okay?" I ask snapping him out of the shock.
He shrugs running his hands in frustration through his hair. "Are you?" He deflects and I shrug like he did. Raven comes running up to us with a slight limp, because of the leg.
"It was Jaha." She states and look at her as if she is crazy. Octavia is still on the ground having a breakdown when Bellamy takes her into his arms. God Octavia that's also her home, she was in love with Lincoln, Indra was her mentor, she was friends with many others and Le-. I feel a wave of panic run through me when I think of her. She isn't dead. I look back over to Octavia who is buried in her brother's chest hysterically crying. Bellamy is also has a few tears running down his face. The only reason I'm not crying is because I'm detracting myself.
"What mean it was Jaha?" I ask letting my frustration run through my voice. Raven doesn't even seem to respond to it probably expecting it.
She rubs my upper arm as comfort and I give her a small smile. "A few seconds before the missile hit we got a message from Jaha saying he was about to save us all then I heard the explosion." I feel rage fill me.
"Jaha is a moron! What was that fool thinking?" I ask to no one in partially.
"He was thinking that we were still at war with them, should we go and help?" My mother says to me and I feel like she's finally got it in her head that I'm in charge.
I nod in agreement. "Yeah bring a group of medics and I think Octavia, Bellamy, you and me should also go. You're our best doctor, I'm our leader so it will be easier to explain how they will blame us and Bellamy and Octavia have loved ones there." I also have a loved one there but you don't need to know that yet. "Raven you stay here to tell us if anything else happens by radio and tell Kane's he is in charge whilst we are gone and allow no one to leave without my permission." I order and she nods.
The whole preparation is takes about 20 minutes with everyone getting a horse, given to us by the Grounders. Came in handy for them right? With a group of 10 medics ridding with the 10 of who can ride. My mom is ridding with me and Bellamy has Octavia with him, who is still in a panic, shock state. She hasn't said a word. We have some medical supplies, food, water. We decided not to bring weapons at to show that we mean no harm. The ride at top speed is an hour journey, maybe a 40 minutes. Thank god I learnt about the woods during my time living in the woods.
We reach the first place that the blast hit, trees without leaves and some scorched but not burning. I see the ruins which seems to snap Octavia out of it looking at what is in front of us. Rubble everywhere and everyone working. Many heavily injured. I hear someone shout "Skaikru!" I get why. We are the easy people to blame. Only people with technology with the Mountain being gone. Indra is stone cold glaring at us.
"Indra I swear the Sky people had nothing to do with this." I say dismounting my horse the others do but don't move.
"Why should I believe you?" She spits and I notice there is a cut across her forehead coming down from her hairline.
I open my jacket letting her see I have no weapons, not even Lexa's knife. "If this was an attack wouldn't I bring armed guards with me not medics?" I ask and she looks at each one of them especially Octavia trying to figure out what we are doing.
"You have a point, we need all the help we can have. Your medics can help our healers and your others can help get people out." She says and I nod letting them all run off to go help. Octavia hugs Indra who hugs her back before Octavia runs off to go find the others. "The Commander will want to talk to you." I feel a giant weight lift off my chest when she tells me Lexa is alive.
"Of course." I reply and watch Bellamy hug Echo in the distance before helping her. "I know what happened but it wasn't the Sky people." I tell her and she nods believing me. I see Lincoln look at me and I point the direction Octavia went in. He nods at me with a slight smile before almost running off in that direction. I see him reach her and she jumping into his arms.
We reach a makeshift tent. "Commander Clarke kom Skaikru is here and some of her people are helping." Indra calls from outside.
"Allow her in." Lexa says in a stern voice. I thought I was never going to hear her voice again. I enter the tent to see Lexa stood there. I can't help myself but wrap my arms around her in a bone crushing hug. She stiffens for a seconds before returning the hug. I let her go and a single tear is rolling down my cheek. She wipes it away with her thumb cupping my cheek. Her green eyes are locked with mine. I lean in to capture her lips in my own, she returns it. Her arms wrap around my waist pulling me closer taking control of the kiss. I put one of my hands on a side of her neck and the other is on her collarbone. I moan into the kiss allowing her to enter her tongue into my mouth.
The kiss breaks and we are both panting. I rest my forehead against her own. "I thought you were dead." I whisper and she pecks my lips once more to prove she is not. "I love you so much." I quickly scan her whole body to check if there is any injuries to find there are none. I sigh in relief
"I love you too Clarke and I am not harmed, when the bomb hit I was with a hunting party." Lexa explains and I stare into her eyes getting lost in them. "What happened?" She asks me moments later snapping me out of the daze which her eyes brought on.
"Do you remember Jaha?" I ask and she nods. "Well he is no longer part of the the Sky People when he went off into the dead zone to look for the City of Light." I start to tell her but she cuts me off.
"The City of Light is nothing more than panels that reflect the sunlight, we have sent many scouts to find it. That was all they found." Lexa says pushing a piece of hair out of my face.
"Well he found not only a way to launch a missile but the technology to contact us about it a few seconds before it hit." My radio starts to make noise. I take it from my belt opening the line. Putting a bit of space between Lexa and I. "Raven what is it?" I ask and Lexa seems interested going behind me looking down at the walkie-talkie. "Raven come in, why are you on the line? I am in the middle of talking with the Commander." I wait for the snort and her to say something like 'yeah talking.'
"Clarke Griffin? Where is your mother? Why are you talking to the leader of those monsters?" Someone says from the other line. Jaha. I hear Lexa growl behind me and I look back at her.
I turn back on Jaha being able to hear my voice. "I'm in charge and because the Commander needs to know the bomb which you attacked them with wasn't our fault, how you aren't Skaikru since you left becoming no more than a Nomad." I reply keeping my voice as neural as I can.
There is a long pause where I look at Lexa who seems to be boiling with anger but isn't saying anything. I turn around pulling her lips into mine. I break the kiss to see most of the anger gone and there is love, passion and lust in her eyes. The static comes through breaking our eye contact. "Clarke, I have known you since a child. My son was in love with you," There is annoyance and anger in his voice. I see possessiveness in Lexa's eyes and I roll my eyes at what he said. "but you weren't with him." Lexa calms down. Hmm Lexa is sexy when she's being possessive. "I forgave you for that. You aren't fit to lead you are too young unlike me and your mother." Why does everyone keep saying that. I'm ready for them to print it on my forehead. I roll my eyes at that. Lexa seems confused about this, how she came to power when she was 14.
I cut him off. "Age isn't a thing on the ground. Also I saved our people from the Mountain whilst you and Murphy were making playing in the sand." I say still in a neutral tone not letting him see my emotions. "So Jaha you acted alone and in spite of the Grounders by your attack because we are at peace however you are not at peace with no Sky person or Grounder. I will not kill you if you come back that honor is at the hands of the Commander. I hope you enjoy your life being completely alone. Goodbye Jaha." I say and I let go of the button which allows me to talk so he can no longer hear us. I put the walkie-talkie back on my belt.
"We should go back outside to show both mine and your people that I haven't slit your throat." Lexa says in a slightly playful tone. I smile at her pecking her lips.
"I guess so and I'm not going to act like you couldn't, I'm not Octavia." She smirks grabbing my waist crashing our lips together. I return the kiss not being able to get enough of her lips. She cups my cheeks and mine rest around her neck. We break the kiss needing air and I see my mom at the entrance to the tent. One word can describe my feeling right now: Crap!
So Tondc goes bomb because of Jaha who will come back. Abby knows about Clarke and Lexa, which will be fun and super awkward to write. So leave your support and see you next Wednesday!