TOMMY:

I was so nervous, i might fuck up majorly and cost Adam the hole performance. I looked in the mirror of my dressing room, i looked pretty damn good tonight, if im honest. I had my netted buckle top on, which i also wore in the music video for 'For Your Entertainment', black skinny jeans (they we're damned tight!), my creepers and a little eyeliner. Tonight was gonna be fucking awesome.

"2 minutes, Lambert crew" The stage director yelled. I looked at myself one more time, i really did look amazing, and i decided to put some glitter in my hair, just to make Adam smile, he loves his glitter. I glanced down, and my skinny jeans we're also, covered in glitter. Oh well. I shook my hair and the glitter just spread, i was a freaking fairy now...Fuck.

Me and the rest of the band scattered quietly but quickly towards the stage. Quietly waiting for our queue, i was so excited but so fucking nervous..I nearly threw up! The dramatic intro started, it wasn't so bad. Adam was seriously killing those vocals, the dancer's we're hot,They were on fucking fire!, the song was raging. It's success after all. The atmosphere was sexy,dangerous loud and seductive, something might go wrong...Or something bad would happen. I quickly waited for Adam to pull my hair, he grabbed my hai-neck-WHAT? My mind filled up with so many thoughts it was unbelievable. So. What...

Did he just Tongue rape me? On live TV? In front of the hole damn world? Yes, i think he did. Rebel. Fuck, Tommy? What am i gonna do...After this, i'm gonna have to leave, and maybe never return! As soon as we'd finished the show, i ran like fuck to my dressing room. I need to calm down. CALM DOWN? HE FUCKING TONGUE RAPED ME ON STAGE! People are gonna freak...They're gonna freak big time...

What'd just happened, scared the living shit out of me. I knew somewhere i was starting to feel for Adam, well the last few months we're pretty amazing, since we we're basically best friends. Did i want more?...I don't know...

I locked the dressing room door and ran to the bathroom. I flushed my face with water to cool me down. Seriously, what the fuck just happened?... I liked it, but it was strange. Fuck, Tommy sort your fucking head out. My hands we're gripping my hair, i stared at the floor for ages, soon enough tears started to form. I hated crying. My black stained tears, formed small puddles on the floor. What am i going to do. I have to quit the band. I have to change my hole fucking identity!...Then...I heard a knock at the door.

I walked over to the door, but i didn't open it. "Who is it?" I yelled. "It's me...Can i talk to you for a second?" Adam asked softly. I huffed silently and unlocked the door, quickly scampering to the corner of the room, turning my back to him and brushing my hair, to make it look like i wasn't ignoring him. I wasn't, i just couldn't face him. The tears, the kiss...The kiss...

"Make it quick because i gotta go" I snapped. I saw him flinch out the corner of my eye. He knew i was mad, but i honestly wasn't...I'm overreacting...

"I didn't mean to go all gay diva out there. Y'ano? I was kind of in the moment, i'm sorry Tommy, i didn't mean to...really-" He didn't finish because i grabbed my things and headed out the door.

"Yeah that's great, bye Adam.." I snapped. As soon as i was out of the building, i ran towards my car, i drove endlessly for hours and hours on end. Until i eventually drove home. I slouched on the sofa and picked up my phone. Missed calls, texts, messages, emails. Fuck this.

Texts off Adam, Monté, Alli, Longineu and Cam. I couldn't face anyone at this point and i threw my phone across the room, smashing it into pieces. It was a shit phone anyway...

I opened up my laptop, and already the kiss was known worldwide. Why Adam? Seriously. Fucking, why? I knew i liked him, in many ways. Just not like that, i'm not gay. I know im not, like, i know i'm short and a little feminine because of the eyeliner and shizz, but yeah. Im completely straight. 'Tommy, shut the fuck up! Your as straight as a fucking circle!' Fuck off brain, since when did i listen to you anyway?...

I never contacted the band, nor Adam. I moved away, well in with my best friend Mia Tyler. It's been 9 months since the hole AMA incident happened, they've probably forgotten about me, Adam included. Apparently he's part of hollywood's hottest gay couple. Oh fucking well! Wait...Tommy? Is that jealousy. Fuck... i can't be jealous. I mean seriously, how could I, of all people, be jealous, of Drake Labry? HOLY FUCK DRAKE LABRY!Labry is such a prick, he breaks hearts and leaves the poor souls to die.

"MIA!" I yelled. She ran in quickly. "What's wrong Tommy?!" She asked.

" Labry. Lambert? Any of this ring a bell?" I asked. She nodded. "Can't believe Adam chose such a bastard to get with. I mean Drake always breaks hearts, and leaves the poor guys depressed." She said. My mouth turned into an O shape. "What?" She asked in a high pitched tone.

I think i may actually have some sort of feelings for this magnificent confusing man. I need to save his sorry ass before it's too late. But he'll hate me for leaving the band as well... But i need to try. "I'm gonna um..." I murmured "Try and help Adam?"... She smiled said softly. "Go for it, but be careful, Drake play's mind games and is very manipulative." Mia hissed cautiously. I can pay rent on a small apartment for about 3 months. I've got 3 months to get myself together, help Adam, hopefully get back into the band. And earn a living. But Adam's gonna hate me, hate my guts, hate everything to do with me. I don't know if he thought the kiss meant anything. But i did. I felt electricity, chemistry, love, lust and sex. My mind still can't figure all of it out. But soon enough, i hope it fucking will! As i packed my shit up, i ran over to the computer and typed in the AMA performance. I watched it full way through, the performance was actually amazing, considering i didn't fuck up. The kiss...Well...As much as i'd hate to admit it at this point, it did look quite hot. As in. Quite. Hawt... Fucking hell Tommy get your head out of the shed. I had everything i needed, Clothes, Guitar+Bass, Amp, Toiletries, horror movies, hair streightners, eyeliner etc. Everything a man would ever need. 'Re-phrase, Everything you'll ever need' Brain, shut your trap!