*4 months into the Glam Nation Tour*

Tommy's POV.

Okay, so this was fucking fantastic, and seriously annoying, at the same time. I just can't register half the stuff that's going on. Everyone's having a good time, although we do bicker and bitch with each other sometimes. Well you don't know how small this shed on wheels is do ya?

I sat on the sofa, sprawled out, with my headphones in. Blasting Manson. Monté and Isaac we're at the table, playing some sort of game, they'd argue every 10 minutes though, which was funny. Cam was reading a book, tucked up in the corner of the room in a small plush chair. Adam, i have no idea we'r- oh he's there. Adam's just had a shower by the looks of it, his hair was wet and sticking out in all directions. It looked kinda hot. *OKAY TOMMY SHUT THE FUCK UP IT DOESN'T LOOK HOT*. I have no idea what's been running through my mind these last few months, its all been a bit of a blur. I mean i basically saved Adam, im surprised he let me back in the band, i thought he'd never forgive me. But i guess i thought wrong then... Sasha and Taylor we're sat up front, Terrance was asleep on his bunk in the corner, and Brooke was also minding her own business, plugged into her Ipod. "We're just coming into Calais, we'll be stopping here tonight then sailing over to Dover tomorrow afternoon, then heading to London" The bus driver announced rather loudly. Adam's face lit up in excitement. I ran my fingers through my hair and plucked out both of my earphones. I yawned and stretched, i have know idea how long i'd been laying in the sofa for, but fuck it. Damn im hungry... "Guys what time we getting food?" I moaned. "In about half an hour Tommy" Adam said coolly. I squeezed my eyes shut for a few seconds, already feeling the migraine coming onto me, haven't eaten since yesterday afternoon because i refused to eat airport food, guys that shit is nasty, believe me!... I heard Isaac groan as he got up from the table. "Yo Tommy, you alright?" He asked. I looked up at him and glared a little, not my fault. I just felt like total shit. I just shook my head a little and tried to stand up.

Oooh theres fuck all in the fridge... "Who's on shopping duty today...?" I moaned. "You and Adam!" Brooke yelled. Cam rose from her book and smiled lightly. "While i return to reality..." She murmured lightly. "Hey Cam" I said lightly, putting on my leather jacket.

"Come on then princess" I chuckled at Adam. He laughed back. I can call Adam random shit, he doesn't care, but eventually he'll find something better to call me..then vice verca. The superstore was only a few yards from where the bus had parked, so not far.

We walked into the superstore, and Bam! 2 young girls, teenagers, recognized us instantly.

"Oh my God y-your A-Adam L-Lamb-ub-bert" The Blonde girl stuttered in a French accent. He just smiled.

"Tommy!" The other girl giggled. I smiled lightly. "Hey how are ya?" I asked politely. She blushed hugely. I like how touched the fans get when you speak to them, its like a cure for fangirlism.

After 5 minutes of talking with the 2 girls, we walked around the store, filling the cart with various groceries that we needed.

"ADAM!" I yelled. He jumped and looked worried. "What? Tommy? Are you alright?!" He asked concerned. I caught my breathe and saw they sold tacos. I pointed at the tacos and Adam gave me a strange look. "How many tacos do you need to fucking live?" He chuckled. I shrugged my shoulders and grabbed 3 packs.

We were in the store a good half hour before we headed back to the bus. Apparently we're going to a french restaurant, i love french food! After the queue to the bathroom, i sorted my appearance out. I looked alright, Motley Crew, black skinnies, my not-so-high creepers. I had a thin amount of eyeliner on, and i straightened my hair. So yeah, i look quite alright.

We made our way to the restaurant...And by fucking christ it was fancy! A waitress showed us to our rather large table. Well yeah there was Me, Adam, Isaac, Cam, Monte, Terrance, Taylor, Brooke, and Sasha. I sat down, i didn't feel the need to talk to anyone, and i would just sound really awkward if i'd just try and make conversation, so i'll just sit there and be quiet, its what i do best. Im better at being quiet than bass and guitar...

"Tommy you okay?" Adam asked, sitting opposite me. I looked up into those blue orbs. I nodded, after a little hesitation. And now he knew something was up. I just stared at the floor. I think im turning bi-polar. I don't know what to think. Maybe im bi-sexual? I don't fucking know, but what i do know even if i was bi, it'd be pussy for me, cock isn't the most appealing thing to have rammed up your ass by some of the comments you hear in some of the gay-bars. (Yes i've been to a gay bar with Adam because he was to scared to go on his own. No i didn't get laid perverts! Fuck you and your dirty thoughts!). My mind started to drift...

His lips placed on mine, dancing, clothes peeling off slowly. He moaned as i ran my fingers through his black-silk-lacy hair. His tongue graced my bottom lip before battling with mine. I moaned. He ran his cold fingers up my back, making me shiver, and moan into the kiss. "Tommy.." He moaned.

"Tommy.." He moaned again, i wasn't even making an effort, i wasn't doing anything, Hes just moaning my name...such a blissful sound...

"Tommy" He moaned...but he, turned into a she?..How did his voice turn so feminine?..

"Tommy!"

"Shitt!...What?!" I groaned. Cam was calling me. "Tommy whats up?!" She asked."Nothing...just spaced out..." I lied. I shook my head a little. What the fuck just happened..? Did i just have a..a gay dream? About Adam?..About Me and Adam? No i fucking didn-...Yes..i did...Fuck. Okay now im gonna start to question my sexuality a bit more...I looked up. Adam was sat opposite me, fidgeting with his nails. Wait...What's that..?

"I'll be back in a minute...um..i need to go to the bathroom" I murmured. Okay something was wrong, i ran to the bathroom. Plus i really needed to take a piss anyway...I unzipped my jeans and whipped my dick out. (Not in that way perves..) Only to realize i had a half hard-on.. Fucking hell... I finished up and washed my hands...Hoping to god that it wasnt noticable. (Not that im religious or anything...)i tied my leather jacket around my waist, just in case, it was pretty hot anyway. I walked back to the table and sat down. Cam was giving me suspicious looks. She knew there was definatley something up.

"Hey Adam" I blurted. He looked up at me and smiled. His smile is so cute..awww..FUCK TOMMY SHUT UP...

"Yes Kitty?" He giggled. Thats my nickname, he calls me Pretty Kitty, and i call him Babyboy. Friends...I wish we we're more than- Okay i need to see a specialist...Cam...

"We'res our next show?" I asked. He smiled. "London, England!" He chuckled. "Oh lovely dear, crumpets for all!" I said trying to imitate a posh British accent. Everyone laughed, at least it wasn't as awkward now...

I laid on my bunk in the bus, and just stared at the ceiling. What the fuck happened in there?...What is wrong with me. Is this really happening? Am i actually having to re-think my hole sexuality. I mean, there were a few cute boys when i was in school...but...Oh fuck i have to re-think everything... I can't be...i really can't be...I can't be homosexual...Is that even possible for me?...Nobody can know... People will take the piss out of me... I'll be called things like 'assfucker, queer, gaylord, homo-cunt' and other various homo-insults. I fucking hate life more now... And what's worse is that i'm falling for my gay boss... what do i do...

"Hey" Cam said softly, sitting on the end of my bunk. I sat up and sighed. "Hi Cam" I replied. She shook her head. "Tell me" She said sternly. I looked at her, trying to look confused but she wasn't buying it, not one bit...fuck... "Tell you w-what..?" I murmured. She frowned. "Restaurant" She gave me a one word answer and looked me in the eye. Cam's like mother-bear, she always knows when somethings wrong. "What a-about it?" I started to stutter. She frowned again, im scared, i don't know what she'll think... "Why'd you space out for so long? Me and Adam got really worried..What's up? What's on your mind Tommy?" She asked. I sighed, i felt tears welling up. I hate crying, but Cam's one of the only people who've seen me cry. I felt a tear make way down my cheek. She came up and sat next to me, with her arm around my shoulder. "Shhh Tommy.." She comforted me. "Promise you won't tell anyone" I whispered. She nodded. "I Won't tell a soul" She whispered. "I-I think i-i might b-be g-g-.." I started but she cut me off. "Tommy honey, your stuttering, calm down." She hushed me once more... "I think i m-might b-be gay" I whispered, trying not to cry. "Why're you ashamed of thinking that Tommy?" She asked. I looked up at her. "B-because i like someone.." I confessed. "Adam" She said. She was right. But Adam was my best friend, i couldn't do this to him, it would be so awkward...

I just nodded. She hugged me tighter. "I won't tell a soul, but when the time is right for you, you'll have to tell him, yourself" She said. As sad as it was, she was right. I nodded. "I-i know..." I sighed. I feel a little more cheered up now.. Iv'e only told one person, its taken a bit of weight off my shoulders. But still... I'll have to tell Adam... I don't know how or when... Its a bit like losing your virginity, to be honest. It's like, you don't know how it'll happen, or when...I should really shut up...