ADAMS POV

As we scrambled back to the bus, my head lingered on the amazing time i had at the club. I met this really amazing guy, his name's Joe, he's super handsome, really charming and he's just amazing! We got in, but Tommy was no where to be seen, he was probably in bed, or listening to music.I'm still worried about him though, he's been really secretive and quiet, and emotional over the last few weeks, and it's scaring me. There's no headbanging Tommy anymore, there's no funny funny Tommy anymore, No joker Tommy, no Tommy... He's hiding. He's hiding somewhere. I want my old best friend back. What will it take? I sighed as i sat down. Out of the corner of my eye i could see Tommy walking to his bunk, and i shit you not, i swear i saw blood on his arm. Has he been harming? Why? What's making him so upset? I really need to know. I want to help him, doesn't he want help? He can't cope, i can see it, he cant cope at all, his body language, the way he talks, the way he hides away...

I need him to crack to me, but what if i put him under too much pressure? I need to know why he's like this...

I woke up on the sofa, fuck i must of been lazy last night. Oh, im going on my date tonight. Im excited! I stood up, and went to get a soda from the fridge. "Morning Tommy" I said softly as he stood a few centimeters away from me. He smiled lightly. "Hey Adam" He said softly.

"Tommy guess what!" I giggled. "Wah?" He said softly, yawning. "I'm going on a date tonight!" I giggled. His eyes widened slightly. "With who?" He asked. "Is this an interrogation now?" I asked sarcastically. "Nope, just wondering thats all" He replied. I nodded. "I'm going with a guy called Joe, i met him in the club last night, he's really nice!" I giggled. "Oh cool, have fun" He all of a sudden sounded un-interested.

"What Tommy? Are you jealous?" I said sarcastically. He scoffed. "Me? Jealous? Nah! I'm just thinking, don't get your hopes too high, just in case he's a total prick and breaks your heart, cos you hardly know him like..." Tommy said. Why is he acting so strange... "I think a certain little elf is jealous!" I retorted. His brows fell, he frowned a little. "Tommy seriously, what the fuck is up with you lately?" I asked. He shook his head, and sat on the sofa. Im really worried about him... I fiddled with my phone, texting Joe mainly. But yeah...

Tommy had his earphones in, his music was loud. He was tuned out. But after about an hour, i heard sleepwalker on his earphones. I looked over at him, he was totally oblivious. But then, i saw the saddest thing ever. I watched a single tear fall from his eye and roll down his pale cheek. I pulled his earphone out. He glared at me for a second and then adjusted his eyes, he spaced out i guess...

"Tommy, seriously. I need to know, what's making you so upset? These last few weeks have been emotional for you, iv'e seen it in the way you act. You've broken down several times, you're not telling me anything. You're hardly talking to me! Don't you trust me anymore Tommy? Huh?" It came out as a snap, but i wish it hadn't. He looked at me. That look...that look...I watched another tear roll down his cheek. "What's making you so fucking upset?" I asked. He was spinning me out. "Do you really, want to fucking know?" He bit. He stood up. "Yes i do, why won't you fucking tell me?" Was all i said.

"Well here it is! Believe it or not, i'm in love with you. I fucking have been since day 1, i thought it was just lust. But it's not. But hey, heres it goes, iv'e fucking ruined everything. And it hurts, because i know you don't, won't and never will love me back. Happy?!" He cracked. He cracked all the secrets. I was shocked. Did he really just say..he loved me? "T-tomm? I don't know w-what to say.." I stuttered.

"Just don't say anything, yeah? It hurts enough as it is...Im going out. I don't know where i'll go. I don't know if i'll be back. Have fun on your date tonight!" He snapped. How can i go on this fucking date? I forced my feelings for Tommy to the back of my head. I need to register what just happened. Now i don't know if he's gonna come back... "Tommy wait!" I called after him...but he was already out the door. I'm even more worried about him than i was in the first place... What do i do now? I text Joe...

Me: "Joe listen. I cnt come tonyt, theres been a tour issue n it needs to b sorted. srry, had a fab tym with u last nyt tho x"

Joe:" Adam i understnd. Dw bout it. We cn still talk tho :) x"

Okay so Joe understood, i hope. My worries just faced Tommy for now though...Is he gonna return? "Cam!" I shouted. nearly breaking down into tears. "Adam what's up?" She asked softly. "Tommy just cracked to me, under pressure, iv'e fucked up Cam. He's gone, what if he doesn't come back?" I cried. "He will come back, don't worry hon" She said softly. "Go have a lay down" She told me. I laid down on my bed, and stared up at the ceiling. I hummed sleepwalker. Now i know why he gets emotional about this song... "Tommy, i am so sorry...please come back..."I whispered aimlessly into the air crying.

After i'd cried for about 3 hours. I heard the bus door open and click close. "Tommy!" I hear Cam exclaim... Thank god he's back...