Love Struck
Chapter 225 – Definition Of Insanity
Shadow's POV August 26th 12:30am Road To Afghanistan Boarder
"You know what your doing right?" Asked Death as he sat next to me as I drove to Afghanistan.
Holding my posture I replied.
"I know."
"And your sure this is for the best?" He asked back as I focused on the road ahead.
"I did everything I was meant to do Death. I killed Dark, I killed Shade, Ghost, Reacher... I did all I could and in return I earned the world a change for the better. Everyone has freedom. The States and the middle east and all the other bordering counties are working together and as of a month things have improved ten fold. I did that. No one else. Now all I want is to be with Amy and my kids and it's thanks to you I can now do that." I stated as he looked into my eyes.
"Your the first one I have ever really had a problem with Shadow." Said Death as I looked over into his black orbs.
"You were the first and only person to pass my tests. You've proven you could do what is absolutely necessary to make it this far. For Amy, for your sons. If it means anything before you choose what to do next let it be said I'm impressed with you in the end."
Slowly looking away Death asked.
"What do you plan on doing when you see her?"
Lowering my head in thought I replied.
"I'm going to hug her and tell her how much I love her and how much I missed her."
Nodding he asked.
"Do you honestly think this is real?"
Looking back over to him I felt a massive pain in my head go off.
"AGHHHH!" I screamed as I saw him flicker and vanish away.
Holding my head in pain I stopped the car and got out to puke.
In sickness I rested on the door to the Humvee and waited as I heard.
"Well?"
"It is real! Shut the fuck up!" I ordered him as I got back in and continued to drive.
Raptor's POV 12:30am Pakistan HQ
Walking back from my night with Dom and Carver I looked to see Shadow's room left a crack open. In confusion I walked over and opened the door to find him gone.
"Shadow?" I said slowly as I entered and shut the door behind me.
Looking around I saw a small box and a hanger on the bed. Approaching the bed I saw nothing was in the box and the hanger was a suit type of some sort. "Was he going somewhere special tonight?" I asked myself as I turned to see an envelope resting on the table in the kitchen.
Walking over I saw it was slightly open and gently taking it into my hands I carefully pulled out the letter inside that had been written by hand.
In confusion I began to read it to myself.
"If your reading this Raptor then I'm sorry it had to be done this way. Looking around you can see I'm gone, and I'm not coming back sad to say after all we've been through together."
Widening my eyes as I read I pulled up my finger and began to bite down.
"I'm going back Afghanistan to spend the rest of my life with Amy and my boys. Knowing you this long I can understand if you want to stop me, but it's too late for any of that. There's really nothing left for me anymore but them. You have Alicia and two kids and a chance for a fresh start."
Tears began to slip through my eyes as I shook in place.
"Next to this note Raptor there is a check for all the money I had left in my possession. Please use it for your kids. Midnight and little Ghost need a family and I hope this will be enough to make it easier on you and Alicia. I'm sorry Raptor."
Shaking in sadness and kept reading.
"Raptor I love you."
Letting the note fall down in my hands I had to wipe my tears away. In a split second I pulled the note back up and continued.
"Your my best friend and basically family to me. I will never forget you. Don't be sad brother I love you and after this know I will always be by your side. Goodbye Raptor. Please... go somewhere safe after this and start a life with your family. Give them all you can and never make the mistakes I did as a father."
Shaking completely I finished.
"I love you. Your brother Shadow."
Dropping the note I picked up the check and looked at the price.
Widening my eyes I read 500,000 dollars on the line.
Dropping the money I looked back at the door and ran off to stop this from happening.
Shadow's POV Afghanistan Boarder 1:15am
Nearing the boarder I continued to feel head pains as I heard.
"Do you think I'm real?"
"Stop!" I begged as he replied.
"Shadow you understand you have been doing this, right!?"
"NO!" I screamed as I began to see the city.
"Your fucking insane Shadow! Your talking to no one! Your talking to yourself! See through your own games and understand what you've done!"
"SHUT UP!" I begged in tears as the gate came in sight.
Raptor's POV Afghanistan Road 1:15am
I had to be going at least ninety miles on hour. There is no way Shadow is driving as fast as me. I had to stop him as fast as I could before it was too late.
"Please Shadow don't do it!" I begged as I went faster.
Shadow's POV Afghanistan Capital City 1:30am
I entered the boarder to see the city had gotten better from the deal with G.U.N. This is how I knew I was done here. I fixed everything.
Driving through the dark streets I neared the resting place of my family.
Raptor's POV Afghanistan Boarder 1:30am
Seeing the boarder ahead I drove as fast as I could go in hopes of not being too late to stop this.
Shadow's POV Afghanistan Cemetery 1:45am
Shutting the Humvee door I stepped out to see the entrance to the end. My head was killing me and I was nearly able to end the pain.
Walking into the graveyard I headed right for Amy's Grave.
As I walked I heard.
"Shadow Stop now! Your not thinking correctly!"
"I am! Now shut up Death!" I ordered as I saw their graves ahead.
"Your talking to yourself Shadow! Your insane! Your driven by madness and you are too blind to see through it!"
"I did everything and lost so much! My family! My friends! Everything! All I want is to let go and be with all them once again and you can't stop me!"
"Do you honestly believe your going to be able to be replaced!?"
"Hannon can take care of Pakistan! I'm done living and being a leader! Now I decide what's best for me and that is my family!" I stated as I reached into my jacket and pulled out the M1911.
"Your insane Shadow! Break through and stop this madness!"
"No." I replied calmly as I stood in front of her grave.
Letting the gun drop on the dirt as I fell to my knees I began to cry and reach back into my jacket to pull out both their pictures.
In tears I gently placed them down in front of the grave and stared at each one in loss.
Raptor's POV Afghanistan Capital City 1:45am
I panicked and nearly crashed as I drove as fast as I could to the cemetery.
"Please Shadow don't do it!" I begged as I saw the turn.
Shadow's POV 1:50am
Smiling at the photos I let my tears fall onto the mound and slowly reaching for the gun I picked it up and ran my hand on her name that was engraved on the stone.
"Amy Rose."
Letting out a gasp of air I said.
"Amy I'm sorry I've been gone for so long. As time went by I realized I couldn't live without you in my life. I miss you so much and I ended everything to be with you. I ended the war. I stopped G.U.N. I did everything I could without you by my side and now I understand that all I want now is to be with you and our kids."
"Shadow stop!" I heard the voice demand as I wobbled the gun.
"Shut up." I ordered calmly as another large pain came over my head.
Filching over in agony I listened as the voice came clearer.
"Stop Shadow please. You need to control yourself."
"Why?" I asked as I cried in stillness.
"You did so much and you have so much left to live for it's too much for you to just throw away. Please Shadow don't do this. Don't do this."
In shock I widened my eyes to hear Death's voice turn into mine.
"I...!" I began to think and in shock I heard both voices were mine.
"Don't do this Shadow...!" In confusion I sat back up and looked at the gun.
"Have I been talking to no one?!" I asked myself as I got no response.
"DEATH!?" I screamed as no one came.
"DEATH!?" I begged in tears as I heard nothing but a car door slam shut.
Raptor's POV 1:52am
Slamming the door shut I ran as fast as I could into the graveyard to hear Shadow scream.
"DEATH!?"
In a rush for his life I used all my speed to run directly towards Amy's grave.
Shadow's POV 1:53am
In nothing but tears I realized the game.
Nothing was real. Death was fake. The tests were fake. The images were fake. All the damage was dealt by me and me alone. I caused everything to happen. Starting with the day I first met this so called "Death." Back when I nearly died of drugs.
Flashback
It never happened. Me and Ghost never saw Death. He was just our sanity. We were so close though that it felt like we were with each other facing our worst fears. We were just dreaming and fighting our wills to survive. Our minds cracked along the way and in return we lost a part of our sanity. Starting with understanding and seeing the truth it hid from us. We were just trying to wake up. We both had a reason to live, that is why we came through every time. Mine was Amy and Ghost's was Dove. We used them to fight through the real death that almost killed us every time we thought we died. We may have lost at points but that reason to want to live kept us living. We survived it all because of our loves.
Shadow's POV 1:53am
Crying extremely hard it all came clear in one rush.
"I'm a murderer. I killed Ghost for nothing. I killed everyone for nothing. They could still be here today if I was sane, but after losing my kids and Amy I don't blame it for not coming back."
Lifting the gun to my leg I thought about everyone who thought they saw Death and it was clear we all lost a part of our minds during this war.
Flashback
Midnight and Dove thought they saw me back when Ghost was captured, but it was just Dove going mental and Midnight's imagination going off for how young see was. They were mother and daughter, combined in minds. Mother sees Death so does daughter who is part of mother. They thought they were with someone else, but maybe it was just Dove who was doing all the killing. After all she was the leader for head security.
Then came Dom and Marx. Dom was affected by the drug Viper Venom and so was Raptor. Reason's they saw Death themselves. The drug ruins all abilities to think correctly and act normal. I should know. I took two. Marx on the other hand was the only doctor on base. I guess seeing so much real death pushed him over when he had to treat me back months ago. Everyone saw a different form of Death as well. Ghost and Raptor being so close to me saw the same one I did while Marx and Dove saw me who at that time they were scared of. Dom saw me too, but seeing as how much he cared about my life back then it was pretty clear I would be the one in his mind.
The tests were just us battling our sanity. Mixed with drugs and medical care we lost it and in time as things got worse it became worse in the tests. Ghost never had to kill anyone though. Because he was saner then me. I lost everything and that was enough to make me lead crazy in the group. Raptor lost lost his wife and shot his daughter. I can see how he went and lost some part of himself in the mixture. In the end I was the craziest and winded up killing my best friend and a woman who only tried to help me. It's too much to know they could still be here with me today if I was just able to see through my own sanity. Their smiles. Their love. Their care could all be here if I didn't lose it. The ultimate life form lost his own mind. Now that is a disgrace to all who believed in me especially you Maria. I'm so sorry.
Raptor's POV 1:54am
I ran at Shadow seeing the gun in his hand.
"SHADOW STOP!"
Hitting full speed I leaped and went to grab the gun as it raised to his head.
Shadow's POV 1:54am
"I'm so sorry Maria. I'm so sorry for all I have done."
"Amy? I'm coming honey. Hold out your arms cause I'll be there soon to greet you."
"Goodbye."
Pulling the trigger I shut my eyes as the round went off.
"BANG!"
Raptor's POV
"NOOOOOOOOO!"
"BANG!"
In shock his blood splashed my face and taking his body into my arms I looked to see the gun falling to his side.
Tears poured from my eyes as his hand released the blood covered weapon and in shock I fell back letting his head rest in my lap.
"SHADOW!" I screamed as my tears fell onto the mound that was now covered in his brains and blood.
Looking up Amy's name was covered and so was her death date. Looking back to my dead brother I rested back and gently placed my hands on his cheeks.
"SHADOW!" I cried as I stared into his closed view.
Shadow didn't move as I watched his head tilt to the side. Seeing the bullet hole destroyed me and hearing sirens I held him close as his blood drained onto my body.
Normal POV
"Crazy is the least to describe this moment. Shadow The Hedgehog. Leader to the world's greatest force and now to be found dead in his only remaining brother's arms."
"Blood slipped out from the dead hedgehog's skull as the soldiers came to witness the shocking turn of events."
"Shadow was a great man and leader, but too much war can change anyone. After losing so much. He finally realized there was never a way to bring them back to life or save his sole. He found himself after playing himself for so long that he was just insane and seeing nothing but the guilt in his own mind. Shadow died free saving the planet and saving as many of his people as he could. Who would have known a G.U.N sniper could do so much? Shadow deserves a break after going through all he had too even if he was the reason most of it happened. At least now he's in a better place... and maybe... just maybe... he's with his family and friends who understand everything and hold no grudge on the things he had done to make it this far. But this is where his story ends. Commander Shadow The Hedgehog. Great man and leader. Great friend and brother to all. Victim to what one moment can do to a lone mind alone in the fight for freedom."
The End.
I would like to thank all of you for reading and reviewing up to this point, but as we all know now it will soon be time for the third story which I promise ends better. If your mad I understand, but think about it. He will be with Amy and his kids, plus he did save the world in the end and remember he's free of it all at last.
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All my characters in Love Struck that belong to me. Listed by my memory.
Ghost
Dark
Raptor
Archer
Dom
Hannon
Carver
Frost
Midnight
Shadow Jr
Carter
Nicky
Ghost Jr
Death
Mark
Paul
Alex The Great
Alex
Stone
Wreak
John
Mason
Reacher
Lehigh
Mark
Drain
Dreil
John The Prisoner
Kevin
Keller
Walker
James
Jason
Cole
Shade
Raze
Carl
Logan
Nexus
Hecan Moore
G.U.N Dignitary
G.U.N Captains
Misc Rebellion Soldiers
Misc G.U.N Soldiers
Random Civilians
Others I May Have Forgot
Characters That Do Not Belong To Me
Dove The Hedgehog – Owner – DoveWing01
Marx The Cat – Owner – Broken Line
Alicia The Wolf – Owner – aliciathewolf45
I would like to take the time to thank SEGA for the use of these characters.
Shadow The Hedgehog
Amy Rose
Sonic The Hedgehog
Silver The Hedgehog
Blaze The Cat
Mile "Tails" Prower
Knuckles The Echidna
Sally Acorn
Espio The Chameleon
Maria Robotnik
Eggman
Rouge The Bat
G.U.N { As in the group itself.}
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