After a few hours Steve went looking for her, she wasn't in the main room, the game room she had set up in R&D.

That only left one place; with a sigh he hit the button for the gym level.

Beth and her brothers were different in a lot of ways but on the base level they were exactly the same, kind of, if tony got angry or stressed he would work it out over a bottle of something potent or go to his personal work space in the basement and work on his cars and blast music loud enough to make the glass in the walls shake.

Beth couldn't get drunk, so she went to the gym to work out her frustrations, or just work her body until she collapsed.

Whichever came first.

When the doors slid open Steve nearly took a step back and covered his ears the base alone was enough he could almost feel it in his chest, the singer screaming being punched and punching back twice as hard.

He stepped out clenching his jaw and activated the pad on the wall punched in his four digit code to access through the lock and touched the volume control turning it down to a more reasonable setting.

Aka one where his ears didn't bleed "ya know some of us can still go death" he said turning there was a clanking sound and he approached the weight bench as she sat up.

Beth looked at him with wide eyes and risen brows, she tilted her head slightly then sighed and seemed to deflate, with a glance he saw the bar shed been lifting was at least 400lbs, not as bad as he expected since the bars could go up to 800.

"I'm sorry" he looked at her saw she had bowed her head as if in shame "what for?" she looked up surprised by his question then sighed slumping so her arms rested over her knees "I kind of lost it in the lab, I just can't stand when people think just because your small you can't do anything"

She rose from her seat on the bench and walked to a shelf snatching up a towel to wipe at her face with "that's a big thing with you isn't it, how come, can't be just because of me" she smirked a little but it was bitter "never really saw any of the photos have you?"

With a slight tilt of the head he looked at her confused "what photos?" she smirked again and approached him "of me, ya know, before" he shook his head and she chuckled to herself.

"I was worse than you, I wasn't joking when I said they should name a room after me, I was born with a bad heart, only half of it worked properly, fluid in my lungs and I was premature, Jarvis?" she looked up "yes ma'am?" she glanced at Steve "project a 3d render of me before the serum please"

"At once" even as he spoke a light flickered blue in the middle of the floor from the sharp inhale she knew Steve saw it and she made herself look as well.

It was a time she tried to forget but it came rushing back as she looked at how she used to be.

The rendering was of when she was at her worst, at barely five feet tall her body was thin enough to clearly see every single rib, there was no muscle on her arms of legs it was all clearly visible since the image was dressed in only a sports bra and compression shorts.

"I had something called amyotrophic lateral sclerosis and osteoarthritis, degenerative muscle and bone disease. Arthritis so bad in my right hand some days it was all I could do to move it, I had no immunity and asthma so bad I had a special air filter in my room so I wouldn't have an attack in my sleep"

Closing her eyes she looked away from the image of her face, her shallow cheeks and the dark circles under her eyes "people said I wouldn't make it to 25, I made it to 27 before I was contacted about the serum" Steve looked between her and the hologram then down at his own arms "so you had first hand experience"

She chuckled but there was no humor in it "yeah, there was so much I couldn't do, so much I was told not to do because of my body, so many things I saw other people doing but tried and failed to do myself. I couldn't stand it, not even tony knows but I was so depressed so angry at the world I started drinking to get through it all"

He saw her look down at her hands saw the very fine tremors running through them "there were so many times I thought about taking just one more drink, one more dose, I had enough medicine on a daily basis, it would have been so easy and It made me angry which made me drink more and I" her voice had become quiet he looked up nodded toured the hologram and made a slicing motion the image disappeared.

She was shivering just a little and he walked up to her standing at her back he lifted a hand and placed it against her spin "people use to say I was broken, when I went to school they always made fun of me for it because of how many days I had to take off sick. Even in collage"

"and when she said she knew how to 'fix' me you kind of lost it" she spun around to face him so suddenly he stumbled back half a step, she slid to her knees in front of him and reached out wrapping her arms around him and pulled him close.

He pushed at her hair as she pressed her cheek against his stomach "there's nothing wrong with you, yeah you lost your powers big fucking deal, that doesn't mean your broken, I remember the stories Peggy use to tell me, about the boy from Brooklyn that picked a fight with people twice his size and weight just because they were bully's"

He stroked her hair soothingly tugging at a few strands of it to distract her "I know, calm down, she didn't mean anything by it" he felt her take a few deep breaths, when she let the last one out she seemed to just kind of slump but it was almost like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders.

"was she alright?" she questioned finally and he glanced down "yeah, her nose wasn't broken but you got her pretty good, though I will admit she deserved that hit even if you were egging her on" she tilted her head to look up at him with a smirk "Well Steven G Rogers when did you get so low as to say a woman deserved to be punched"

He smirked right back at her "since I started dating you" he swatted at her lightly and she ducked releasing him to roll away and to her feet in one surprisingly graceful move.

Then she smiled at him, a real smile "I am very corrupting, then again maybe you've always been a little rebellious, I mean I'm not the one that showed you how to steal a car" he blushed even as he smiled back at her "that was Bucky" she shook her head slowly with a fond smirk "one of these days you'll have to tell me some of those stories" he smiled at her "maybe one day"

Silence took over for a few minutes before finally she shook herself "so I think it's about lunch time" Steve rolled his eyes "it's about shower time actually" she made a face at him "fine, shower first then food" he couldn't help laughing at her.