Chapter 20

Everything has changed

Clove POV

"Cato wait! Could you just talk to me for a moment?"- I couldn't help it but going after him. This wasn't fair and he was going to have to listen to me.

"What Clove? What can you possibly say that will fix this?"- He turned to face me, the look on his eyes made me speechless.

His eyes softened a little bit only to show how sad and hurted he was. "Why didn't you tell me back then?"

"When? Before or after I heard you saying that you did not love me?"- I took a breath, tying to hold back the tears - "I was afraid you wouldn't love them, after all I tought you didn't even cared about me"

"But you could have told me months ago when you came back, you have realized how fast I got fond with Claire and Caden, you know I love you and I love them as well"- He shook his head, trying to clear his mind.

"I just don't know, I don´t know what to say"- I looked down trying to avoid his icy blue eyes- "I know that it was wrong but you can't just pretend that this is all on me"

He took a step closer to me and sighted heavily, I have never seen Cato so vulnerable, he was always so good hiding his feelings but now we were both falling apart.

"Clove, I love you and I love Cade and Claire, but this is crazy and it hurts. It hurts to know that you didn´t trust me enough to avoid all this"

I felt like the worst person in the world, it was my fault that the kids have grown without a father, Cato loved them even when he didn't know he was his father; he had all the right to be mad.

"Why didn´t you looked for me?"- The question comes out without thinking.

"Because I tought that you didn't loved me anymore, I mean you left without explaining a thing, I was going to tell you the whole Capitol thing that day and when I went to your bedroom you were gone, and you left the ring that I had gave you, what would you wanted me to think?"

"Now you know how I felt Cato"- My voice became strong again, maybe this is how things were supposed to be- "But you are also right, relationships are built on honesty, not lies and secrets"

"I'm sorry"- He said, looking directly into my eyes.

"I'm sorry too"- And as he turned around making his way to his house, I couldn't hold back a single tear running down my cheek.

I waited till I got home to break down, my sobs were loud and echoed through the entire house, and it was a good thing that the twins weren't here, it was not going to be easy to explain them the whole situation, would they be upset? What if they wanted to go with Cato? A few hours later I finally managed to get some sleep but still with a hurtful tought in my mind, that he wasn't coming back.

Alec POV

The twins woke up the next morning and immediately started asking for their mom, I had managed to keep them busy yesterday but they will certainly want to see her today.

Last night Enobaria called me, and between sobs she managed to tell me everything that had happened, of course I knew that Clove will be crushed but she will not want her kids to see her like that, so I tought it would be better if I waited to take them with her till today.

"Can we make pancakes for breakfast?"- Claire asked as she was putting her shoes on.

"Yes mommy loves pancakes, with syrup and fruit"- Cade added doing the same as his sister.

"Yes but we better hurry up, when we get to your house we can start cooking okay?"- They immediately rushed to pick up their toys and we headed to the victor village.

Clove keeps an extra key in the window and I use it to open up the front door, the house is in silence so I assume that she is still sleeping, I'm about to tell the twins to keep quiet but they are already running upstairs.

"Cade! Claire! Hold on"- I rush upstairs but they are standing in the doorway of their mother's bedroom.

"Mommy why are you crying?"- Claire asks with her blue eyes filled with tears, she hates it when her mommy cries.

"Mommy"- Cade whimpered, and they both jumped into the bed with Clove, she held her arms open and gladly accepted their hugs- "Don't cry mommy, don't cry".

This only caused to bring another round of tears; she was suffering and seeing the twins being sad because of it, didn't help very much.

"I won't cry anymore I promise"- she said whipping out the tears and trying to put out a smile- "I love you both, very very much"

"Would you be happier if we eat pancakes?"- Cade asked with a big bright smile. He sure knows how to make his mother happy.

"That will be great sweetheart, come on let's go to the kitchen"- she gets out of bed and puts on an oversized sweatshirt and yoga pants, I hug her tightly as she walks out of the room.

We prepare the pancakes and eat them with the twins happily chanting about the paintings that we did yesterday, Clove seemed interested in their conversation and laughed a lot when they told them that they had covered me with yellow paint, but the smile didn't make it to her eyes.

After cleaning up the kitchen and watching cartoons for an hour the twins finally fall asleep and we take them to the second floor, we return to the living room and Clove tells me everything that happened yesterday.

"Clovers I'm so sorry this happened"- I said running my fingers trough her black straight hair, her head was resting on my shoulder- "I know you love him, and he loves you and the twins. But you both need some time to think, just give it some time"

She just nods, I'm sure that she didn't trusts herself to speak but that is okay because if she does, she will start crying again and right now is better for her to get some sleep.

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