Finally I am allowed home, Morgan is coming to collect me with Jennifer since I need her to help me dress, I do not understand how she can look at me, how she can tell me she loves me. I am no longer the woman I was before I am half of her. My legs do not work, my skin is burnt I have more scars on my body.

My skin is tight, cracked and so sore but I promise, I promised not to give up, not to give in. I am more worried about my little man, I see the uncertainty in his eyes as he looks at me, and I want to scream I am still in here, I have not gone anywhere. Jessica is too young thank god she will our only child who will grow up to see me like this and not as I was before. Nevertheless, this was the job this was the path the course of action I choose. I had two weeks left, two weeks and I could have turned away from it all.

The only redeeming feature is because this happened at work and not on my last day they get to pension me off, great isn't it, thanks for being blown up here is some money. It is a sick joke; I want to go and visit Jessop and pay my respects to her for saving me, for giving me my life, so I can be with my family.

I do not want Jennifer to pity me or stop working because she loves it more than I had, it was the reason I was leaving, coming home to a broken family that is still healing now, after being away for six months. Two years ago, my life changed and now it is changing again. They say I will get use of my legs again in time, which is something right?

The word I want to use is deformed that is how I see myself now, as I wait in this room for my wife to arrive, I could drown in her eyes even with all this and her looking so tired they still shine as bright as the day I first met her, and there she is now the woman I love walking through the doors.

I try to smile but the effort hurts my face, it pulls on the healing scars, "Hey baby" JJ says as she walks over running her fingers softly through Emily's hair

"My sweet girl" Emily says as soft lips meet her own.

"You want to get dressed before Morgan gets here" she smirks knowing the answer as she pulls out the clothes at the side of the bed.

Emily nods as she swallows hard, "Help me?"

JJ chuckles "Of course I'll help you." JJ wraps her arms around Emily pulling her close "I love you so much Emily" JJ could not help the tears that fell.

She thought this was never going to happen she thought Emily was never coming home with her again. "Shh, darling it's okay" Emily whispered pulling her close.

"I thought I lost you Emily" JJ said as she looked into loving brown eyes.

"I will always come home to you my sweet girl" Emily said softly.

"Right let's get me dressed, last thing we need is Morgan poking fun at the length of time it takes me" JJ couldn't help but laugh, out of the two of them Emily always took the longest to get dressed everything had to look perfect not a single flaw on her skin or clothes and that was only because she wanted to look her best for JJ and that was the only reason.

Before they had gotten together Emily could be dressed within five minutes, but the day they met Emily took longer, it was the standard joke between the team, she wanted to look her best for her wife. In Emily's mind, JJ could have done so much better than her, but they fitted together.

Even when she had been with Will they still were intermit, and when JJ had fallen pregnant and after Will had died there passion only grew, Emily was dominate, she was the protector of their family and JJ for one loved it, she felt safe and loved and sometimes it was just a look that made her feel complete.

"How longs is he going to be Jen?" Emily asked as JJ helped her into the wheelchair.

"He should be here any second unless he is chatting up a nurse" JJ mused.

Emily became quite as the time went on, JJ brought her back to the present with her words soft and gentle. "Are you sure you're ready for this Emily?" JJ asked, it wasn't that she didn't want Emily home, it was because despite the front and the walls which she would hide behind. JJ knew this was going to be a huge adjustment not just for Emily but also for their whole family.

"As ready as I will ever be. Jennifer I just want to sleep in my own bed and hold my wife," Emily said as she looked into passionate eyes.

"Then my love that is what shall happen" JJ smirked. Emily looked down averting her eyes away "Emily what is it baby" JJ asked softly.

"You didn't sign up for this Jennifer," Emily said as tears formed in her eyes.

"Emily look at me" JJ said softly as she cupped her chin not giving her an option, "We both know with our job we are going to get hurt, we are going to get caught in the crossfire, I love you so much our children love you so much, this" JJ motioned "Does not change who you are, it shows you have survived and if you need me to remind you I will do every day." Keeping her voice soft but firm as she placed her lips on to Emily's "if I couldn't fall asleep in your arms I would die Emily. You are everything to me, you are my strength," Emily nodded as JJ wrapped her arms around her tightly "We will get through this baby I promise"

They were pulled out of their embrace by a soft knock followed by Derek Morgan and Garcia "Hey princess you ready to go home" Emily eyes went slightly wide as the realisation hit her. There was no way she was able to get into the car, and there was also no way she would allow someone to lift her up.

"Jen" Emily whispered, as she looked into soft blue eyes.

"Shh, I rented a car," JJ had already thought of this problem as Emily gave a sigh of relief.

She may be hurt, unable to walk and dress herself but there was no way she would allow anyone to help her, other than her wife, they all knew how proud and stubborn Emily was, and this was why Emily had to wait a few days longer before she was allowed home JJ wanted to make sure everything was in reach for. A stair lift had been fitted, and because JJ could not manage to lift, her or the fact that she knew Emily would not allow her to she had a track hoist fitted so she was able to get into the bath. Once she was allowed too, which to both their relief would be in another week, in all JJ had changed their home so Emily could be as independent as she always had been.

"Right let's get moving before they change their minds and keep you here" Morgan said with a smile, Morgan motioned for JJ to move so she could walk with Garcia and he could stay with his partner. Like JJ Morgan had thought he had lost her again.

"Thanks" Emily whispered as they started to move out of the room, JJ and Garcia walked in front carrying the bags. Making the way down the long corridor Emily couldn't help but sigh, it had been weeks since she had felt the sun on her skin, be able to breath in the fresh air, she couldn't help her eyes squinting as they adjusted to the bright light of the sun the warmth attacking her skin. Which she would admit hurt slightly as the rays fell upon her skin.

JJ opened the back of the car lowering the lift down as Morgan got the chair in, getting in behind her so they could sit together before they started the journey home. She could not help being reminded of two years ago the journey back home the uncertainty of what would lay behind the doors, what welcome she would get off her children, would they be happy, would they be angry. They made their way through the familiar streets down to the gated community.

The nerves began to set in as they pulled into the driveway, the butterflies settled in her stomach much like they did before they would break down the door to an unsubs home, the adrenalin of what laid behind, if they had been fast enough to save the person, and if there would be a huge sigh of relief when the team came out unharmed. It was the strangest of feelings, when you have not seen your home in what seemed for forever it looks different, even the air seems different.

The soft hand rested on her shoulder pulling her from her thoughts "You ready sweetie" JJ asked softly.

"As ready as I'll ever be" Emily whispered as the doors opened and the lift lowered allowing Morgan to bring the chair out. Even JJ could feel the waves of anticipation coming off her, but that was only because of her own. It felt she had waited a lifetime to bring her wife home.

As they made their way towards the house Emily became more distant than she had in the short journey home, the worry of what laid behind the door scared her, had her on pins and if she wasn't confined to a wheelchair she would run and not open the door. Once the door was finally open the wave of fear disappeared as the small blonde hair boy hurled himself towards the door he arms reaching up to his Mama. Emily could not help the tears that escaped her eyes as JJ lifted him up so he could sit on Emily's lap his little arms wrapping around her.

"Hey buddy" Emily whispered as he placed a kiss on her cheek it was the same action he had done when she had finally come home all those years ago soothing the scars with his undivided love and she could bathe in it forever.

"Missed you Mama" he whispered loudly causing for the first time in weeks Emily to laugh. JJ ran her fingers through his hair as she placed a kiss on his brow.

"I see we are back to normal and I no longer get a welcome home" JJ mused.

"Love Mommy," Henry said happily though his arms stayed wrapped around Emily as they made their way inside.

The team and all their family were there to welcome her home, each one of them had gone through the worry that this day wouldn't come that they would be attending her funeral instead, but now larger than life its self was Emily, as they all greeted her with hugs and kisses, JJ couldn't help but laugh as Henry refused to move he was planted against her so tightly but she couldn't ask him to move even though he was slightly hurting her. Even JJ would not move him because she knew her wife needed this she needed her little boy in her arms and feel his love and know he still loved her, the same as he had when she first held him in her arms after JJ had given birth.