This chapter takes place in season 7 I decided to get B/R back together when they should have gotten back together at that point in the show. Robin has a realization about her future.

Happy Desperation Day

To say that he was terrified was an understatement but the moment he thought he was about to lose Robin forever was the moment everything he thought was important to him meant nothing anymore. The moment he knew that she was okay he realized he can't live his life the way he is. So, he texts her that night to thank God she survived this nightmare.

So relieved to know that ur alright.

Thanks

After that he called her and they talked for a few hours about everything that's been happening lately with them. The right time to let it all out there and tell each other the truth was in this conversation, it's one that they both needed to have along time ago and by the end of it they were both laughing and enjoying talking to reach other in a normal way again.

"That was a very brave thing to do Scherbatsky I admire you for taking that risk and landing that helicopter. If that was me I would've freaked out but you stayed calm through it all." They met the next day for coffee and talked about her crazy but scary adventure.

"Well, I was freaking out I was just trying not to die along side my co-worker." Robin's happy to have Barney and her be back to their normal friendship even though it had been a rough few months for them it was nice to finally have her friend back.

"I'm glad you didn't, we all need you around to make fun of Canada. Hey, remember the days when you did those stupid little fluff pieces at the end of the news? That was fun but this was scary." Barney has this frightened look on his face which immediately let Robin comfort him by placing her hand onto his and giving him a smile before saying.

"Hey, I'm fine. Really, all I was thinking about at that moment..." She pauses trying to find the right thing to say in this moment. The things she really wanted to say to him, the things she held back from saying all these months since they had their one night stand. "Was, you." The last word becoming a struggle for her to say because she was holding back from crying while trying to say the right things without completely breaking down in front of him.

"The last few months, this thing between us and what happened last night it all got me thinking about what ifs. The what ifs of what happened between us, the what if I chose you, what if I believed that I could trust myself enough to follow my heart but when things became too much for me to handle I bailed. I bailed on us, I bailed on the one thing I made me happy. When I thought I was pregnant, it really woke me up to where my life was going and the one thing I took from that is." She is about to break but Barney holds her hand and gently rubs his fingers over her wrist.

"I'm alone." She says with tears now falling down her face. "I mean, I have my job but that isn't enough and then last night happened and it brought everything that happened in the last three months. These times made me realize just how alone I am. I don't mean to put this onto you but I." This last part comes out easily to her while wiping the tears from her wet cheeks.

"Have you been thinking about us?" Barney fills in the blanks, realizing that Robin's talking about him but he let's her finish what she's telling him.

"A lot. I know everything between us has been so crazy lately but I can't help thinking I lost you." Now he gets it, he hates this feeling too it's something that he constantly thinks about. Losing Robin, both metaphorically and literally which could have happened the night before. He never thought he would feel this way towards anyone and it made him realize something that he's never admitted to himself or to anyone.

He's in love, the kind of love he tried to avoid for years but there is only one person in this world he will always love and the thought of losing her forever is the most frightening thing to ever think about happening. He's always been terrified of showing any real feelings for anyone because he's terrified of getting hurt again, especially her who has broken his heart more times than he can count. But, now it all hit him and made him think that losing her is not an option for him in anyway possible. As her friend he cares about her and wants the best for her but as the woman he loves and would want to spend the rest of his life with.

"If I knew how you really felt that night on the boat I would've told you how I really felt about you. I still loved you I just wasn't sure if you loved me or wanted to try again. I didn't tell you the things I wanted to and I regret not doing so because I did and still do. This whole time since we broke up I couldn't help but think of you and us." Now they're both tearing up which got them to embrace first in a hug and then in a long kiss.

They broke the kiss and just stared at each other for a few minutes before Robin talks again.

"I love you Barney always have and the thought of losing you was the reason I took the easy way out and chose someone I didn't love. I was also not sure of how you felt then." He looks at her and slowly takes her loose hair out of her face that was still flushed from the kiss a minute ago.

"I love you, never stopped from the moment we broke up I knew I couldn't possibly stop loving you." They smiled at each other then he kissed her again this time longer than before.

Shortly after this meeting they went back to his place to do some more catching up but in their way of catching up and after they just laid in bed holding each other.

A/N: This chapter was from season 7 after Robin landed the helicopter it was a moment of realization and reflection for her which got her thinking about where her life is. I wanted to show her point of view/side of this sudden miracle of not dying and this is her taking control of her life by telling Barney how she really feels.

The post-it notes are held off in this chapter but not for long and now that they are back together the next chapter will be about the box of their things from their relationship from season 8. I was going to have this chapter be about the box but I thought since their fling in season 7 was first it felt better to write that first and get them back together when they should have gotten together again.