Me: *Watches as the party continue. spots random victim* Hey Lee can you go to the store and pick this up for me. * Hands piece of paper to Lee.*

Lee: Sure thing Michi-chan. *Grab paper.* *disappear*

Me: Now I can go get something to eat. * Turns to leave*

Naruto: Hey Michi-chan where's the ramen.

Me: *Turns back around and glares* There should be some in the cabinet if the ones on the table are all gone.

Naruto: Thanks.

Me: Now then back to what i was doing.

Neji: Michi-san i must ask of you to let me leave.

Me: Neji this is a party.

Neji: I know that.

Me: Then what the hell is the problem its a party now go have fun.

Neji: *Sighs in fustration* Fine I will go but I will not have any fun.

Me: *Shakes my head* *Mutters* That the whole point of a party stupid. *Turns to leave.

Karen: Oh Michi-chan.

Me:*Continue to ignorantly ignore whoever was calling my name.*

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or any character that showed up in Naruto.

Side Notes: This isn't like all the other chapters as it's in neither of Hinata or Naruto POV but It's still an important parts of the story...I hope you enjoy

Chapter 19

Sighing. It seems that's all I do now and days. Where am I? Konoha Institute. Why am I here? Because I was classified as someone who would kill without remorse – will in more or less words. They said I could be a danger as I show no emotions, no happiness, no sorrow, and no anger. To take the words of the Nara, emotions are troublesome.

Father told me so…

Mother showed me so.

Three times a week I'll meet with my personal therapist and we'll discuss my feeling. How do you feel? Fine I guess. Do you like it here? It's okay I guess. How is everything going with your family? Great…I guess? Have they come to visit yet? No they haven't. And then the questions start to get personal and I always find myself unable to answer them.

How does that makes you feel?

How are things going with Konohamaru? What are your feelings towards him?

Have you started repairing the broken bridge between you and Neji yet?

How come you haven't started? Do you not want to repair it?

The more personal it get the more I'm unable to answer, the more I feel out of control of everything, the more I want to lash out at the person who makes me feel that way. Usually at those times I would just walk away from everything and everyone as not to cause a problem. But everyone is right.

I am a danger to myself and others.

All was fine though, Konoha Institute kept me sane, kept me safe. And then there was Konohamaru, the only person who has some form of inkling to what I feel. It bothered me at first when he kept talking to me about the most mundane thing. Even the most potent Hyuuga glare didn't make him back off.

But his friends sure did.

They were uncomfortable around me. They did not know what to say, and in more occasions than once they pleaded for him to leave me to my own devices. For some reason whenever they tell him that it made me…upset and when he turned them down and continued talking to me I felt…content. Those feelings were strange and I never let them know for if they did then they would be in control and not me. And I needed to be in control.

Most people thought that when they first see me. They see an ice queen with a cold heart who needs to be in control of everything or nothing would go right and she'll break. But while true it is wrong. Konohamaru on the other hand knew the real problem. And after weeks of ignoring him while secretly enjoying his present he snapped and spoke truer words than most can fantasize about hearing.

Flashback

Sky…blue, grass…green, tree trunks…brown, and the sun yellowish…orange-ish…reddish color…because you can't just pick one color to describe the sun. Just like yesterday when the sky was blue, the grass was green, the trees brown, and the sun the same three colors. Why do people feel happy about nature? What's with this stupid assignment anyway? Go outside and breath in the fresh air Hanabi and then give me a paper on what you felt…the dumb therapist said to me. What's there to feel? It's just outside. What does one feel when they go outside?

"Hanabi-chan."

I stood from my crouched position and dropped the blade of grass that was in my hand. Turning around I can see Konohamaru running towards me. There was a smile on his face. He seems to show up at all the wrong time.

"Hey Hanabi-chan I heard Doctor Cal say that you would be out here." I glared at him but he continued to smile.

"And because of that you felt compelled to seek me out." Before he could speak I was already talking again, "It seems the time you took to seek me out was for nothing because as you can plainly see I am busy."

I turned away from him to look at the grass that was still green I mean it doesn't change color why does it fascinate people so much. I expected him to do as he always does and talk about random nonsense. It seems nothing I say to him would make him leave. Yet this time was different. As I stared at the grass a full minute has gone by, gone by in silence that is. Usually he would be talking about any random things but he wasn't.

Did he leave?

That thought made me turn around quickly. I wanted to let out the breath I didn't know I was holding when I saw he was still there but…the expression on his body was putting off stopped me. It wasn't like father when he got angry. Father got calm and you can see him slipped into a relaxed position as he tear whoever made him angry apart with words. The same could be said for cousin Neji but he doesn't have the same patient father has. He sometimes use his fists to get his point across.

But Konohamaru didn't looked like that. In fact he didn't look angry at all yet shouldn't he be in a situation like this. I had done nothing but belittle him so how come he wasn't angry? How come he looked as though he just realized something.

"I get it now."

It had been a full minute after my comment did he speak. And when he spoke his tone was calm like father when he's trapping someone in their lie. My eyes narrowed as I tensed. He continued to look at me as if the meaning of life was spelled out for him. He then shifted, his arms that was laying limply at his side was now folded over his chest.

"I'm assuming you said what you said because of our intentions to tell me what you finally got. If not then you are wasting my times as I have told you I am busy." He snorted and I glared at him.

"You busy doing what?"

He still had the same tone father used. I regarded my words carefully before speaking "If you must know Doctor Cal told me my assignment was to go out in nature and then right a paper on what I felt"

"It's must be hard writing a paper on feelings when you don't know what they are."

What? "What?" I repeated my thoughts out loud my eyes widen in…surprise. He smirked and I knew that he knew that he had me where he wanted me.

"You don't know what feelings are and thus writing a paper on it would be moot."

How dare he? "You think that's my problem. I know about emotions just because I can't feel them doesn't mean I don't know about them."

"More like just because you don't know anything about them doesn't mean you can't feel them. You and I both know you can feel emotion hell right now you're feeling highly pissed and that's an emotion."

Frozen. Something made me freeze. I couldn't even open my mouth to defend myself. From what…defend myself from what? Everything he's saying is the absolute truth and we both know it. But how did he know? How come he was the only one to figure it out? Emotions…they weren't something I wanted to know. Father was always angry, mad. And mother was always crying, sad. From them I knew I didn't want to know anything about emotions.

Emotions get in the way father always say to me.

Emotions get in the way mother always show to me.

Konohamaru gently placed his hand on my cheek, "Not all emotions are bad Hanabi-chan." I nodded my head but didn't dare look at him. He sighed, "You don't believe me?" Though it was a question he phrased it as though it was a statement. He turned me to look at him. His face was so close to mines and my heart started to speed up.

Why?

"Hanabi-chan not all emotions are bad." He spoke again as his hand began caressing my cheek. I shook my head this time.

"You're lying." My voice came out week and soft, just like when I ask if Hinata was going to be okay. What was wrong with me? Konohamaru shook his head and stared at me with his unwavering eyes.

"I'm not Hanabi-chan. I promise you that not all emotions are bad. Some makes you feel really good Hanabi-chan I promise you."

"How do I know if that promise isn't a lie?" I asked him vulnerable and weak. I really wanted to believe what he said but father told me otherwise…and mother proved his statement. Konohamaru was quiet. He then placed a hand over his heart while his other one pushed a strand of my hair away from my eyes.

"Let me show you that not all emotions are bad. And if I am proven wrong then you can continue to do as you please but give me a chance to prove to you that I am right."

I was quiet. Did I want this…did I really want this? Can he do it? Can he prove that father was wrong that father made a mistake? No one was ever able to prove father wrong that's why he's so good at his job. But Konohamaru looked so sure of himself, as if there was no way he could be wrong. Could I trust him?

"A-alright…I'll let you prove yourself."

Flash back ends.

Ever since that day he was not proven wrong. While there were bad emotions Konohamaru showed me that there were just as many maybe even more good emotions. I don't know how many times I found myself thanking the old me for letting him prove himself right. And I don't know how many times I thanked kami for handing Konohamaru to me.

The wind shifted and so did the presence. I turned away from the grass and saw Konohamaru looking at me longingly. He seems to be doing that a lot lately. And every time I asked him why he would say he would explain later. Later never came. He caught me staring at me and came over to me with a smile on his face.

"Hanabi-chan, are you okay?"

"Yeah why wouldn't I be?"

So I answered his question with a question of my own. He gave me a look as though I knew what he was talking about and I gave him one suggesting I didn't, though we both know I did. Konohamaru sat down beside me on the green grass.

"You looked worried when Hinata fainted and though I know that you know what worry is and you said that you would hold off on showing emotions around other people. I'm curios why you looked worried."

I bit my lip…Hinata. I wanted to tell him why. Never unless I deemed it unimportant did I hide anything from Konohamaru. He was my healer…no he was my friend and he deserved to know why. But should I tell him. Mother…when she told me made me promise never to tell anyone as if it was a really big secret. And it was because no one talked about it. I looked Konohamaru straight in the eyes.

"What I'm about to tell you Konohamaru-san must say a secret." He nodded his head and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.

"Well when I was young I asked my mother why she was always sad. It turns out I had an older sister but something happened to her. Mother would never tell me what happened but I can only infer that father and mother did something to her and she's feeling all regretful of it now.

Konohamaru looked as though he was processing everything, "What does this has to do with anything?"

"I'm getting there." I spoke as I dug into my pocket and took out a picture. I swiped it from my mother and always carried it with me. I handed Konohamaru the picture.

"Mother told me that I looked more like my father and that my older sister looks more like her." Konohamaru looked at the picture then at me and then at the picture again.

"So this is a picture of your older sister?" He questioned. I nodded my head. "I still don't understand Hanabi-chan."

I let out a frustrated growl, "Think Konohamaru who else does that girl looked like or would look like in some years."

He stared at the picture and tried to focus on it really hard. And then as if it hit him his eyes widen as his grip on the picture tightened. "Hinata…this little girl is Hinata isn't she."

I shrugged my shoulders, "I believe so. I saw pictures of mother when she was happy and Hinata has the same smile and the same eye expressions hell they have the same eye and only mother has that lavender grey color eyes. And Hinata hair is just a tad bit darker than mother but it still blue like hers. And…Hinata …Hinata is my older sister."

Konohamaru stared at me with…sympathy I think that's the name of it, "Does Hinata knows this?" I shrugged.

"I believe so. At lunch she was staring at me for a long time and I think she realized that I look like father." Konohamaru nodded his head. And then he asked the question that been stuck in my head ever since I realized Hinata was my sister.

"What are you going to do about it?"

I tensed. Konohamaru rubbed circles on my back, "It's okay Hanabi. It's okay if you don't know what you want to do." He whispered in my ears.

He said it was fine but was it really. Hinata was my sister and I should be able to talk to her but…I know next to nothing about her, and what if…

What if she wants nothing to do with me?

"What is this feeling Konohamaru? It's like I'm scared and confused but it's so much more than scariness and it so much more than confusing."

Konohamaru pulled me into him, "I know Hanabi-chan I know exactly what you are talking about. You want to talk to Hinata but you don't know how to go about it. You're afraid of the, what if. What if Hinata wanted nothing to do with you? What if she did want something to do with you? Its natural Hanabi-chan so don't stress so much over it"

I nodded my head. I wouldn't stress over it but still… what should I do? I want to talk to Hinata. I want to learn about her. I want to know more about mother before Hinata disappeared. I want to know what happened to Hinata that caused her to disappear from the Hyuuga compound. I want to know how Hinata became a Yuuhi. I want to know all of these things but I…

I can't bring myself to speak to her.

"It's okay Hanabi-chan. It's okay."

He whispered so sweetly in my ear that I couldn't find myself not believing him. Yeah, it would be okay. When the time comes I would be able to talk to her. I pulled a little out of his embraced and turned to look at him with a smile on my face.

"Thank you Konohamaru. Thank you for everything."

He blushed and pulled me closer to him. I allowed him to for this was our place, out of view from the rest of the world and a place where I can be myself without worrying about everything else and a place where someone who gets me showed up at frequently looking for me.

And a place I'll remember forever.

This is content isn't it Konohamaru. I feel so content in your arms can we stay here forever?

Me: Hey Kakashi stop reading that book in public…Kakashi get that out of my face…OH MY GOD *Faints*.

Kakashi: Hehehehe

Sakura: Oh man Kakashi drunk.

Tenten: He doesn't look like a bad drunk now Lee on the other hand *Glance over to a drunken Lee whose trying to get Neji to fight with him* Ouch that one has to hurt. *Shouts* tough it up Neji it's going to be over soon.

Sakura: *Desperate* you don't understand Tenten. When Kakashi's drunk then he starts reciting his book out loud. Michi-chan is already a victim of it.

Tenten: It can't be that bad. *Kakashi popped up out of nowhere and showed Tenten some of the images in his book. Tenten looks on with morbid curiosity* Oh it is bad. *Tenten Faints*

Sakura: *Shouts* Watch out Sasuke Kakashi coming right towards you.

Kakashi appeared before Sasuke and showed Sasuke the book. Sasuke abruptly bussed into a cloud of smoke leaving behind a Sasuke plushie with a note on it *Never showed up…waste of time.*

Sakura: Well at least he's safe…wait…Kakashi I don't want to see the inside of the book…Hoped you enjoyed the story everybody…Kakashi don't show me…Sakura signing out. *Faint from blood loss*.

Kakashi: Hehehehe