After I reached the Capitol, I was immediately interviewed by Caesar Flickerman.

"Tell me, Nightlock, with the Hunger Games over and done—permanently—what are your plans?" he asked.

"Traveling," I murmured.

"So you're leaving our wonderful country of Panem?" Caesar was stunned.

I grimaced and replied, "I'm not leaving Panem!"

Caesar raised his eyebrows and I said, "Let me explain, my friend."

He nodded and I stood up and began to sing. "No man, no madness, though their sad power may prevail, can possess, conquer, my country's heart. They rise to fail. She is eternal. Long before nations' lines were drawn—when no flags flew, when no armies stood, my land was born. And you ask me why I love her through wars, death, and despair. She is the constant, we who don't care. And you wonder will I leave her, but how? I cross over borders, but I'm still there now. How could I leave her? Where would I start? Let man's petty nations tear themselves apart. My land's only borders lie around my heart!"

Everyone stood up and began cheering while Caesar wiped away a few tears, so moved by my declaration of loyalty to Panem. I sat down and continued, "and I'd like to do some studying in District 8—refine my dressmaking and designing skills."

Caesar grinned and said, "Your designing skills are fine—your tattoo that you designed has become part of the Panem flag."

"Yes, but I meant large designs—not just little details," I clarified.

Caesar nodded and asked, "Anything in regards to romance?"

I shrugged and answered, "I don't know. Maybe someday. But really right now I've lost so many people I love, I'm afraid to let anyone in—even Seeder, who has been like a mother to me—in the arena both times, during the Second Rebellion, and after the Second Rebellion, taking me in and caring for me."

Caesar touched my arm, a comforting gesture. I smiled—a weak attempt at gratitude. He smiled gently back at me.

Then he asked, "After your travels, you will return home, I resume?"

"I will return to Panem, but as for a home, I no longer have one. I haven't had one since Rue's death," I answered honestly as tears streaked down my face. The interview ended then because I was unable to answer anymore questions.