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It has been a week since John was killed. Dean had not talked to me since, he was distant even when I tried to be near him he moved away. Sam and i had finally cracked Johns voice-mail code. Ellen had left a message but i decided not to say anything if the boys where not talking to me I damn sure was not talking to them. Sam went out to go talk to dean and I opted to stay inside.

the time Sam was outside i was mumbling things Mainly about dean. how could he kiss me the way he did then just turn around and act like i have the plague. "Men" i said out loud getting bobby's attention I blushed and laid my head on the table top. I knew his father died a week ago but you would think he would still acknowledge me.

I sighed deeply maybe i was being a bit of a brat I thought which made me feel bad. i shook my head and decided that it would be better just to deal with what was going on then talk to him about it.

"Sam came rushing in the house "bobby do you have a working car". Bobby looked up from his book "yeah the keys are hanging up" SAM nodded and turned towards the hanger. "Lexa are you coming I think dad would have wanted you to" I raised an eyebrow at him wondering what caused him to bring John up.

"Sure Sammy ill come" I stood up and walked to a closet where I had a spare bag hidden for when i needed it. i followed him out not bothering to look at dean "i call driving" Dean said. I smiled knowing what car was only working right at this point that was not the tow truck.

and i wanted to laugh horribly when Deans face fell after seeing the beat up old blue van. I smirk and got in the back throwing my back pack on the seat and stretched out thankful it was only clothes and not knives or guns. "just make your self at home why don't you" I heard dean say I knew he was joking but I was till upset so I looked at him with a glare.

i saw guilt hit those green eyes and it just made me feel worse. I sighed and fell asleep knowing it would be a few hours to get to the roadhouse. I heard the boys start talking but ignored it falling into a blissful sleep.

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i watched as Lexa fell asleep my heart had sunk from the glare she gave me earlier. Though avoiding her wasn't helping our thing out anyway . I didn't know what to do Dad told me about her parents then laid out a bomb about Sam to.

i was just overwhelmed my mind had so many things going on all at once, the worst of it was dealing with dads death. i sighed and kept driving not caring if Sam was staring at me or not. "Dude did something happen between you and Lex" Sam finally asked about an hour into the ride.

I shrugged "I don't know Sam I love Lexa but I just don't want her to settle with me". I saw Sams confused look "Dude she has loved you since she first met us".

I gripped the steering wheel "oh yeah then why did she tell me until now, i mean hell why didn't she call in the nine years". Sam ran a hand through his hair "she did i dad blocked her number from our cell phones and after that im sure she just gave up".dean sighed and looked back at Lexa "how did you find all that out".

Sam pulled out there fathers journal "its in here he talks about he did not want us to talk to her but never explained why". Dean shrugged he could tell Sam still had questions but deciding it was a good way to pass the time he let him continue.

"its not just the dad thing is it dean? Tell me why your pushing her away?" i sighed heavily. "Sam your way to smart for your own good, your right its not just dad or stuff like that i just don't want to lose her the way we have lost everyone else".

i did not need to look to know Sam rolled his eyes i could tell in his voice "she lost both her parents to Dean she knows the risks and she is willing to take them why aren't you". I did not say anything Sam was right she knew the costs as much or even more then i did damn i hated when he was right.

"ill talk to her when we get a chance Sam" that was the last thing that we said during the ride.

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i started to wake up slowly giving my body time to adjust. then i realized the car had stopped moving and i shot straight up. As i looked around i recognized the bar that i had spent so much time at. i smiled and crawled out of the van i heard my legs and back pop before i walked to the door. i had known the boys picked there way threw.

Ellen would never leave this place unlocked which is what the door was when i slowly opened it. i walked in just as Jo hit Dean in the face and took back her gun. i smiled Dean called for Sam who came out with Ellen pointing a gun to him. i laughed which got the guns pointed at me "whoa guys maybe next time i wont come back".

Ellen lowered her gun and Jo did as well "damn Alexia cant you call first" Ellen said a smile on her face. "oh and where is the fun in that" i looked past dean seeing ash sleeping on the pool table. "can i wake him up" i said a bit to excited over the fact Ellen just nodded and watched me run to the sleeping Ash.

i tip toed to ash "ash wake up" i said softly. he didn't even move this time i took a deep breath "Ash im going to go and download virus infested male porn on your computer if you don't wake the Fuck up!" i yelled right in his ear. this got him in a frenzy which made him fall off the table i laughed and he looked up glaring for a minute tell he recognized me.

"little bug what the hell you doing here" i smiled at his nick name for me. "im here with the Winchester boys" i said pointing to them before offering a hand to help him up. "oh right on..you wouldn't have put that stuff on my computer right" i smiled and shook my head. "nah im not that mean" ash smiled and put a arm around my shoulders.

"whoa hold up what the hell is going on here" Dean said very confused. "this is the roadhouse i was telling you about dean" i said the smile on my face fell a little, that was the first time i said more then two words to him in a few days. i could tell Ellen could see the tension between dean and i because i saw her little gears turning.

Yay another chapter done im so sorry this took forever its been hell with school and stuff and im not going to update this weekend cuz ill be out of town i will try to get another chapter up before tomorow