Bpov
The end of the world as we know it
I walked up the drive of the Cullen house and could tell that was in full swing party mode. The music was blasting and it was irritating me and I wasn't even inside yet I knew already I wasn't gona stay long. Since I became pregnant it has made me sensitive to everything especially loud music. I decided to find Alice say hello then search for Edward give him the letter and go home and sleep I was fucking exhausted. My knees shook and my hands were sweaty.
I walked up the steps to the front door I thought about turning around when I saw Tyler standing by the door fuck no backing out now .
" ready to party Bella"
"sure" I said not even convincing myself
"this is your first Cullen party isn't it" I shook my head no I've been to Alice's house before
" yeah but you have never been to one of Alice's end the year parties" I nodded again
" I look forward to this bash every fucking year, its always better then the last one"
We didn't bother ringing the bell I knew nobody would hear it anyway. I walked in and ran into Alice and Jasper in the kitchen slamming some shots ah the smell of the Alcohol was turning my fucking stomach she handed me a glass and when they closed their eyes I tossed my over my shoulder into the nearest potted plant sorry plant. But better the plant than my baby and slammed my glass down with theirs oh this was going to be difficult ..
"what's up girlie I have missed you terribly" she wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed my cheek
" I love you Ali and I have missed you to" I didn't know what else to say I wouldn't tell her about the baby until Edward knew. It was only right he had to know first then we can make joint decisions about the baby. Alice pulled away from our embrace as Jasper pulled her towards him and kissed her neck
"oh my god Bella I got something to tell you" she flashed me her finger and a noticed a beautiful rock on her finger. I grabbed her hand in shock
" Alice fuck is this .." I put my hand on my mouth
"I asked this beautiful lady to be my wife and she said yes" Jasper's eyes shone brightly with the love that they shared.
" well god congrats guys" I hugged both of them I was genuinely happy for the both of them they deserved all the happiness in the world .
" that's not all" Alice said with a hint of sadness in her voice
" I've been accepted to a fashion design school" her eyes started to tear up
"that great Ali where"
" in Milan I leave tomorrow" now I felt tears in my eyes realizing that we were both leaving and starting our lives I hugged her as I started to cry
" oh Ali I'm so happy for you ,but what about Jasper I thought he was going to Texas"
"oh no he's transferring and will join Edward and I in Milan in a few weeks" I winced at the sound of Edward leaving the country again.
" I'm sorry that things didn't work out for you and Edward we all could have been going to Milan" I silently hoped that after he read the letter things would be different for us. But I didn't want to put all my eggs in one basket so to speak I would have to wait and see what happened .
" is he here tonight" I asked I wanted to know but I was scared of the fucking answer
" yea the boy is here somewhere last I saw him he was at the bar" she pointed me in the direction of the living room .
" oh ok" I said I guess I should get my courage up and go give him this letter that was burning thru my jacket.
" where's Rose and Em I'd like to see them to" I wanted to get all my good byes out of the way before I left
" come on Bella you know them, I'm sure their up in Em room fucking the night away" I had to laugh at that party or no party they couldn't keep their hands off of each other and were no doubting fucking in his room I guess my goodbyes will have to wait for now.
"want another shot" Jasper asked me as he poured one for him and Alice
"I'm good right now" even though I could have used the alcohol balls
"I'll see you guys in a bit gonna mingle" I turned on my heels and headed for the living room.
" he's in there some where" Alice called after me I turned back to face her and gave her a smile and stuck my tongue out at her. With the music blasting in my ears I spotted him standing at the bar tossing back shot after shot . Holy fuck did he look so damn sexy he had no shirt exposing his broad back with fitted jeans accenting his firm ass . I slowed my pace down to a crawl so I could take in his body as I approached him.
As he turned around I notice a hot ass tribal tattoo that started at his bicep and snaked its way down his ribcage fuck I licked my lips wondering where that tat ended I looked up his gorgeous hair with in a Mohawk fuck damn it he looked so scrumptious. What the fuck he had diamond studs in his ears. Shit I felt my self getting wet. God damn the shit he does to me. I needed to stay focused I came here with a mission. I was still admiring his beauty when his eyes caught mine and he smile at me. Then turned his attention to some skank on the dance floor. it's a game he wants to play. I'm not in the fucking mood. I'm jealous as a motherfucker seeing her dancing and him walking towards here. I want to rip her fucking hair out. I kept walking towards where they were. Son of a bitch his ass his fucking grinding on her ass. I turn to walk away when Tyler grabs my hand damn he was almost drunk shit we just fucking got here. What the hell was he drinking
" hey Bella wana dance" I shrugged my shoulders. Game on Cullen
" sure" I was still fuming by the time the next song play, some hip hop shit . Dancing on me by Jim Jones. I didn't need the Alcohol buzz to get me moving I just closed my eyes and pretended I was grinding on Edward . " I don't know bout you but she dancing on me. Go go girl" I switched my hips from side to side and stuck my ass out and gently shook my shit against Tyler's ass. Sorry honey hate to use you but I need to play his game. I felt his hands reach across my stomach I pushed it off and turned to face him shaking my finger in front of him telling him no as I swung my hips and I dropped it like its hot . His mouth hung open as I continue to pump myself up and down
" damn Bella" he stuttered as I dragged my body against his on my way up he flipped me around so my ass was ridding his erectness against I could feel he was turnt put his hands on my hips pulling me against his cock I opened my eyes to see Edward storming my way I had to bit my lip to hide the smile that was threatening to creep out. I turned and faced Tyler gave him a kiss on the cheek to stoke the fire
"thanks for the dance Tyler" he pulled me in for a hug
" no Bella thank you , do you want to go out side ya know get some air" before I could answer him Edward grabbed my arm
" can I talk to you Bella" I turned to face him
" I'm sorry Edward but I'm dancing with Tyler he stepped in between me and Tyler
" your dance is over please Bella" he put his hands on my hips and gave me the look . I just cant say no to him he is so hard to resist. I started to walk away
" fine, thanks again Tyler" I stopped and let Edward lead the way every area of the house was taken he stopped knocked on a door seeing it wasn't occupied we stepped in I released it was a bathroom when I touched the sink I felt his hands touching my arm
" what is it Edward" he didn't say anything just moved closer to my neck planting kisses along my collar bone squeezing my aching breast I was trying to stay focused but my traitor body had other plans I let out a moan.
" why where you dancing like that on him, you want to fuck him" I shook my head no
" he wanted to dance, besides you had that skank grinding on your cock" he continued kissing my neck and twirling his fingers on my nipples thru my shirt.
"you smell so good I just want to eat you up" he kissed my lips lightly I could smell the alcohol on his breath I griped him by his ass he chuckled I needed to give him the letter before I lost my nerve I put my hand on his chest and pulled the letter out and gave it to him
" I need you to read this when you are sober Edward please" he nodded taking the letter and putting it in his back pocket, then he pulled me back against his groin
" what do you want baby" I bit my lip fuck he knew what I wanted .I ran my hand over his jean covered hard on
" oh I think you know what I want" he pushed away from me like he was deciding on what to do . He grabbed me forcefully as he kissed me roughly and started pulling on my shirt I started fumbling with his buckle with my breast exposed he began sucking my nipples he lifted me onto the sink bringing his lips back to my mouth while he continued to knead my breast with his left hand . With his right hand he unbuttoned my jeans and wormed his finger inside til her reached my core stroking so lightly my already soaked folds I hopped down so I could hold his erectness in my hands
" you want some of this cock" fuck yea he didn't even have to ask
"yes" I stuttered out as my pant dropped to my ankles and he slide his pants down he bent me over the sink and was ready to insert himself in me when the bathroom flew open and the lights blinded us. We struggled to get our clothes back on I didn't even see who opened the door when I grabbed my jacket and ran as fast as I could out of the house I fought to catch my breathe when I finally stopped down the hill where my truck was parked I reached in my pocket and realized I must have dropped the key in the bathroom I sighed and headed back to up the hike to the house ..
Epov
Fuck me damn it I was about to fuck Bella when some douche opened the fucking door,shit I thought I locked it. I guess I was wrong I leaned over to throw some water on my face when I heard some one speak
" hey there you are I've been looking all over for you" I looked up at the girl I vaguely remember her
" and your" I couldn't for the life of me remember her name
"Jane silly" she shook her head at me. Damn it looked like there was two of them I shook my head to focus but it didn't help I was toasted .I closed my eyes when I opened them Bella was in front of me . I closed them then opened them it was Jane what the fuck was going on . Either I'm about to have a threesome or I'm fucking insane. My perverted mind settled on a threesome as I unsuccessfully tried to buckle my pants
" need some help over there sexy" I looked up to see Bella biting her bottom lip
" why you care to help me" I told her she stepped closer to me and placed her hands on top of mine covering my buckle completely
" I rather unbuckle it" I smiled at her and nodded putting my hands on top of my head closing my eyes and I felt my pants sliding down my thighs I opened them briefly to see Bella on her knees right before my cock went into her mouth she deeped throated my cock in one swoop fuckkk she never did that shit before. I felt one of her hand grip bare ass tight as she pushed and pulled my cock in her mouth.. Fuck I reached my hand down into her hair . Shit it felt hard and crunchy . Damn she was using hair spray and gel in her hair I hated it I loved it when her hair is soft .
"ahhhhh fuck yea baby I like that" I burrowed my fingers in her rats nest and started pumping my dick in her hungry mouth she was squeezing me cock and sucking it like a professional . "oooooh yea suck that shit" as she held my ass I pumped faster fucking her beautiful mouth . " fuck you want that cum baby" I asked her as I continued bobbing her head on my cum loaded cock . She moaned yes and with one final pump " here it is love" she sucked me until I ran dry.
" oh my god what the fuck" I felt something hit me in the head my eyes flew open and saw Bella standing in the door way.
" Bella how the fuck you got over there" shit I was confused cuz I still felt Bella licking the last drop of my cum I looked down and looked to the door oh god oh god . It was Jane sucking me off not Bella she just walked in on the after math of my blowjob oh fuck fuckity fuck fuck …
"Bella please wait" I called after her as I yanked my pants up pushing Jane off of me
" what the fuck who is that" she stood grabbing my arm
"don't worry about it" suddenly I started to feel sick
" dude you didn't tell me you had a girlfriend" I tried to move but I was frozen
" you didn't seem to mind when your cock was in my mouth or when you was shooting that hot load in it" I pushed past her and ran towards the door looking for Bella I needed to explain . Yea tell her what moron that you thought it was her sucking you off.. Yea that's gona go over alright.
Jpov
Wow that shit was intense I just give the ever so sexy Edward Motherfucking Cullen the best blow job of his life and instead of thanking me he runs after that cock blocking bitch. Yeah I saw her scoping him when we were dancing he didn't tell me she was his girl or nothing and he didn't seem to mind when his cock was in my mouth or when he was pumping it full of cum. He only minded when his chick caught his ass. I laughed at that I didn't care when they had girlfriends in fact I loved it.
Much more thrilling I finished rinsing out my mouth and bent down to tie my sneaker when I noticed a envelope on the floor. Hmm what do we have here, yes I was going to open that shit and see what's in side of it . After reading that shit I was shocked so that bitch is pregnant I wonder if he read this letter I ran out the bathroom looking for him. I asked around to see if any one seen him , a few said they saw him running out side I headed for the door leading outside I heard someone arguing I headed in that direction it I ran down the drive I saw them arguing in the distance I started running with the letter in my hand I ran without watching where I was going I leaped into the street….
Bpov
I was standing there arguing with Edward over that shank that was blowing him when I heard tires screeching oh my god the skank just got hit by a 18 wheeler that dragged her body under the carriage and tossed her limp body down the embankment Edward and I took off running to see if we could do anything
" call 911"
He jumped down the moss covered rocks to where her broken body was thrown
" hh-help there has been a accident a young woman was hit by a truck and thrown down an embankment" I quickly told them the address as the operator tried to calm me down I yelled down to Edward
" they want to know if she's breathing" he shook his head as he head his fingers to her wrist
"no" he screamed oh god I have to get out of here. My hands started trembling she was dead. he called up to m
This was all my fault that skan- girl died because of me. If I hadn't thrown that book at Edward he never would have known that I saw her giving him head, I should have just left. My hands were trembling as I ran back to the house to find my keys.
the party was over now and everyone was down by the embankment waiting to see what happened with that girl I couldn't stay I had to leave , she was battered and Edward was covered with her blood I wiped the tears falling my eyes . I couldn't be there when Charlie came I called him and told him what happened he said he was en route and to wait for him he would have his deputy drive me home . But I couldn't it was a crazy scene and I just couldn't handle it. I told him that I that Mike was meeting me. I needed to leave.
Epov
I tried to help Jane really I did I sobered up real fast when the doctor in me took over I felt for her pulse and frantically tried to do CPR but she wasn't breathing I knew she was dead but I didn't want to scare Bella she looked shaken, and I could see she was crying I didn't want to tell any one what happened , besides I wasn't the doctor here, I was just a kid trying to help another party goer.
I stepped back when the paramedics came and took over the resuscitation efforts I knew they where performing a show, I knew that Jane was dead already but that's what they did in order to keep the crowd calm they said that she needed to be taken to the hospital and hooked her up to a breathing bag, I stood up trying to brush my pants off when I noticed all the blood on me I ran up the rocks and raced to my house I needed to get her blood off of me. This is my fucking fault , Jane is dead because of me , I treated her like a fucking prostitute, she blew me off and I in turn blew her off to chase after Bella. I could feel the tears dripping down my chin...
Bpov
I suddenly felt a hand shaking me awake startled I opened my eyes to find Mike my so called husband shaking me awake
"Bella you were screaming are you ok" I realized that I was having that fucking dream again, I remember it as if it were last night, standing in front of my truck arguing with Edward it plays in my head over and over, I never told Mike about that night well at least not the part that Edward and I were arguing . I sighed as he squeezed my name
" Mike I'm fine really" I smiled a half assed smile I knew I wasn't alright the fact of it is I haven't been alright in so long.
"you sure babe" he asked as he rubbed my swollen belly I was now nearly 8 months I still had these fucking nightmares almost daily for 5 months, but I have to say Mike has been great he accompanies me to every doctors visit, he rubs my belly, even cooks me breakfast before he heads out to practice and his classes, he has done a complete turn around and I feel like suck a bitch for using him to get out of dodge.
Today we would find out the sex of the baby but I knew already as I patted my stomach it's a boy, my baby is a boy I think that I have always known right from the start, Edward has a son. I leaned my head back against the headrest we still had 20 more minutes before we reached our destination. I yawned from the lack of sleep I've been getting between the nightmares and the baby kicking me all night I'm totally exhausted. I feel my self drifting as some hit replay.
"Bella please stop let me explain" I could see the pain in his eyes
" explain what Edward , why that skank was sucking you off" I was fuming how could he we almost had sex tonight and when I ran out he found some chick to get his nut off
" I thought she was you love, really I did I know it sounds crazy but when she came in I had my eyes closed and when I opened them I say you baby" he reached his hand to grab me
" do you fucking think I'm stupid Edward" I shook him free and started to walk past him
" fuck it what does it matter who I'm fucking anyway its more than obvious you don't want to be the one I'm fucking" he ran his fingers thru his sexy tousled hair
" your right it doesn't matter, because you found the first available skank to replace me" I was now shouting inches from his face
" fuck you Bella I told u it was a mistake I'm fucking drunk I thought she was you" I was about to send him to hell when I heard the screech of tires and some one screaming Edwarrrrrrd I looked up to see that girl leap in the road and smack in to the truck. Her cries deafened me and my eyes flew open and my hand defensively wrapped around my belly .
Epov
Its been 5 months 6 days 4 hours and 42 seconds, since my life changed I have the same fucking nightmare every fucking night I wake up sweating as I run down the embankment and try to save her life, she ran blind into the road calling my name, I didn't know what she wanted but it was my fault she was killed if only I hadn't treated her like a prostitute and shove her out the way so I could find Bella, she wouldn't have gone looking for me. I frantically tried to revive her but she was gone already , her eyes fixed and dilated I closed her eyes and whispered how sorry I was and I hoped that she would forgive me.
"Edward are you ok sweetie" I had almost thought that I was laying in my bed but hearing her voice brought me back to reality and I knew that she had heard my cries from the dream
"I'm fine Antoinette" I tried to reassure her as I let my tongue wander over his perky breast , I have drunken myself in to a stupor and fucked just about every woman I laid my eyes on since I came back home, frankly I don't know how the fuck I've been able to function at school maintain my studies and work at the lab .my body is exhausted but yet I find no peace from my brain, my parents where disappointed in me when they found out that it was my semen that was in her mouth, its not like I had a choice I had to confess when the preliminary results came back and showed that she had traces of semen in her mouth and Tyler told Chief Swan that we were in the bathroom together.
The Chief thought I was a scumbag and although he didn't say it to my face. When I went looking for Bella the next day to try to talk to her , he took great pleasure in letting me know that she and her "husband" had left for their new life and I should fuck off and leave her be. It was the right thing to do. I knew it to so I just boarded my flight and never looked back.
But some days memories of Bella and Jane are just to much and I drink and fuck until I cant see or move . I didn't push her in front of the damn truck nor did I tell her to come looking for me, but she did and it happened and its been weighing on my fucking conscience ever since I know I'm not really to blame neither is Bella well that's what the shrink told me but fuck it . I've been using Antoinette and others to try to fuck both memories out of me and on most days it works.
flashback
"I have to go soon lover before my husband comes home" she told me as she ran her manicured red fingered tips over the head off my swollen cock. I came back looking for her she has helped me find myself in more ways than one .I was only 15 when I met her and my god she is still sexy as ever. She smelled me a mile away . I was working at her restaurant and she asked me to bring some wine up from the basement to her room when I entered her room she was wearing a red teddy and she asked me what I was studying in school when I told her I was an exchange student starting my medical career she was impressed but she asked me about ladies and I admitted to her what happened with Jessica.
" have you had sex with any woman" she asked as she sipped her wine
" no I'm concentrating on school" I tired to lie Jessica was the only one I shrugged and place the bottle on her end table and proceeded to walk towards the door when she called me.
"Anthony, I would like to teach you how to love a woman, are you interested in learning" she cocked her eyebrow at me and it made my dick twitch I licked my lips slowly walked towards her sexy ass laying spread eagle on the bed and nervously replied
"yes" here I was 15 years old and about to be taught to properly fuck a woman she grabbed my hand and seductively unbuckled my pants freeing my fully erect cock
" my Love your cock is gorgeous and huge, when I'm done teaching you, the girls will be lining up to have some of this. She taught me the proper ways to perform oral sex, the art of seducing a woman, and most of all she taught me how to how off on my own orgasm until my partner was fully satisfied. I smiled at the memories' of our nights together, I have been fucking her as well as some of her friends and whom ever else that happens to want a taste of my cock laying skills.
" Anthony you have come a long way since the beginning" she smiled as I rammed my cock to the hilt of her soaking wet pussy . " ahhh Anthonnnyyyyyyyy I love it when she called my name. but it wasn't the same as hearing Edward from her lips.. But that was over and I'll never hear her say that again. I needed to let her go and move on.
Bpov
As I laid on the bench with that cold jelly on my stomach as the tech swirled the wand around. And stopping between the baby's legs I wished that it was Edward holding my hand I could feel a tear escaping me as Doctor George told Mike and me that the Baby is indeed a boy! Yes I knew it.. A little baby boy… I silently whispered to Edward congratulations Edward you have a son. Mike wiped the tear out of my eye
" aww babe don't cry, our son is going to be beautiful" he leaned down and kissed my forehead and lovingly pushed the hair out of my eyes, the doctor finished taking measurements of my belly and said everything was were it should be and that I was on schedule for my due date. I couldn't believe that I only had four more weeks to go, I was so scared I wished that Renee was here to hold my damn hand ,be there to tell me when to push, to tell me that her grandson was beautiful.
I longed for Edward I missed him. Deeply everything about him, I missed his lips, his eyes, his crazy sex hair, I missed his crooked smile, I missed his body, his kisses, his chest, his v, fuck I even missed his cock. sex with Mike was lousy thank god we didn't have it anymore after that fiasco when he made me bleed the doctor said no more sex until the baby came.
He still think its because he is too big for me . Ha as if. He was just slamming into me to try to get me to have a orgasm but I hate to tell him nothing he does will ever make me have a orgasm. I will not be having sex with him again. He could beat his shit till it fell the fuck off I aint touching that shit with a ten foot pole. I was startled when I realized the doctor was asking questions.
" so does this little boy have a name yet" asked the doctor
" of course Michael Ryan after me " I shook my head no
" his name is Anthony" I replied with a dead serious look on my face he looked at me in disbelief
" Anthony after my grandfather" yea it was a lie but fuck it I was getting good at lying so it didn't fucking phase me Anthony Masen Swan that's right I patted my as I repeated his name to my self there was no way on this earth was I naming my baby after him. He would have his fathers name and since for obvious reason I damn well couldn't name him Edward. But I did like the name Anthony.
So that what it was Anthony M. Swan but he would think his name was Anthony Michael Newton but it most certainly wouldn't id figure that out soon enough. He dropped me off at home and went to practice .I laid down and cried for Edward I took at the sonogram and wept that day I decided that I would keep a journal everything that he would miss out of Anthony's life and one day I prayed that I would be able to find him and give it to him. I hugged my belly one day baby you will meet your daddy, he loved you very much but it was mommy that messed everything up. I wiped the tears I needed to cook dinner and head to class.