~Lost that loving feelin
Epov
I have been with Tanya 6months now, I wouldn't have even realized that if she hadn't reminded me. I told her I was sorry but work had me stressed , which wasn't a altogether lie I'd been pulling doubles at the hospital for close to 6 weeks now. But I knew she wouldn't be happy with my excuses for much longer. Tanya wasn't a woman who had to wait around for a man and why she waited on me was a mystery.
I guess that's why I stopped in the jewelry store on my way home. I didn't intend on buying what I bought but it caught my eye and before I knew the sales girl was handing my the bag and my credit card slip. I didn't know what the fuck I was supposed to do next. I had everything any sane man would want I had one hell of a career, I lived in an exotic country.
I had a hot chick to fuck every night, so why was I glum. I tried to push it off as being tired. It worked for the most part. I really was tired That velvet box was burning a hole in my jacket pocket was I really ready for this. Did I even want this. Did she is that why she's waiting. I needed to call Alice. I reached in my jeans only to feel it vibrate .. How she knew was beyond me
"was just calling you" I chuckled in the phone
" yea well I beatcha to it" she snorted in the phone I sighed into the receiver
" what's up Eddie" she sighed some how she always knew something was bothering me
" I'm tired Ali" I fake yawned hoping she would by it
" don't give me that shit Eddie" some how I didn't think she would so I decided to come clean
" I bought a ring Ali" I thought I heard the drop and her scream before she repiled
" what the fuck kind of ring.. Please don't tell me it's the kind that Jasper bought me " she huffed oh yea she was going be pist she didn't care for Tanya she said she was a snobby bitch, I told her that she just needed to get to know her. That Tanya was a beautiful intelligent woman , but Alice shrugged her off, she said she knows her type, nice until she don't get what she wants.
" I'm going to ask her when I get home" she sighed and mumbled some thing I didn't hear
" then why do you sound like someone killed your dog" I yawned for real this time
" just tired Ali I told you that already" she muttered something else
" please tell me your not doing this because of Be-" and she stopped I knew she was going to say because Bella is married. I had thought a lot about Bella , she is off being happy so why cant I try to find some or at least fake it until I find it. Tanya is a good person and I'd be crazy to let her get away.
" regardless of what you may think Mary Alice I do love her" I said her full name
"who do you love Edward Anthony" she counted and not missing I said her not Tanya. I did still love Bella I always will but things have changed and I needed to move on just like she did.
" Tanya Alice Tanya" I drummed my finger on the steering wheel waiting for her reply
" I wish you happiness Edward" she sighed giving up for now
"and if you say Ms. Tits can make you happy than I'm happy for you" I laughed she started calling her that behind her back because her tits were big she used to call her silicone valley until I confirmed that they were real.
" Ali please don't call " she laughed harder breaking my words in half
" Eddie you know they are going to hit her knees some day" she laughed uncontrollably I was not a mental picture I needed or wanted.
"Ali your just jealous that you're president of the itty bitty titty committee
" fuck you Eddie besides anything more than a hand full is a waste"
" says the one with tid bits" I laughed
" I want you to be happy Edward" her tone was serious now
" thanks love I know you mean that" we were both silent at a lose for words
"I miss her to Eddie but she's gone" I heard her sob we both had tried to find her but we came up with nothing I wasn't having any luck finding Jessica either even though I had a private investigator, he said her trace went cold and unless she started cashing the checks again he wouldn't be able to trace her again. I sighed
" me to love me to and I know she's gone " I couldn't lie I did miss her the times I shared with her where incredible and although we hardly talked about "her" any more the feeling never left Alice or my self we both lost some one we loved deeply.
" well I'm home talk to you later" I told her
" make that tomorrow Eddie I don't feel like hearing her moan in the background when I call you" she laughed her evil laugh
" she sounds like a dying chicken" she bellowed into the phone
" bye Ali I love you" I quickly shut flipped my cell closed before she could say any other lewd remarks I shook my head and smiled she could always brighten my day no matter how shitty it was. I turned the ignition off and strolled towards my house turning the key I tapped my pocket feeling the box took a deep breath and opened the door to find Tanya laying on the couch watching TV.
I walked over to her and knelt before her she looked at me and before I could lose my nerve I reached in my pocket pulled out the velvet box and opened it for her although I couldn't manage to get the words out she knew what I was trying to say she jumped off the couch and flung herself to me knocking us both to the ground and peppered my face with kisses I broke her chain of kisses to try to speak
" can I assume that is a yes" I laughed as she continued to kiss me
" Yes Anthony yes I will marry you" I sat her back on the couch and slipped the ring on her finger. I guess its time to let go of the past and embrace my future. She ran past me to grab her cell
" I have to call Irina" I ran my fingers thru my mop and shook my head
" I'm headed for the shower babe" as I stripped my scrubs off I could hear her in the room squealing like a pig. At least I made somebody happy
Bella pov
The day Anthony's eyes turned green is the first day that I can actually remember the shit hitting the fan. I had made dinner and left in it in the oven waiting for Mike to come home, he was drunk as usual but that day he was just off, nastier slightly crazed, I tried to ask him if everything was ok but he just shoved past me, he heard the baby cry and went in his room I thought he would pick him up but he came back out and looked shaken then he turned angry.
" shut the little bastard up already" I moved past him to get Anthony when I came back he swiped the plate of food off the table sending it crashing down on to the floor, that made Anthony cry harder.
" clean this shit up bitch" he got in my face and I could smell the alcohol dripping of his tongue
"let me put him in the play pen" he grabbed my arm and shoved us towards the living room
"hurry the fuck up , clean this mess before I give you what you deserve" I whispered in Anthony's ears to please not cry as I put him in the play pen I nervously walked back into the kitchen I started to kneel down to pick up the glass that was broken, when I felt the sting across my face Mike had back handed me because I was moving to slow
" I said hurry the fuck up. Now make a new plate" he yanked me by the hair and shoved me against the stove
" ok M-Mike just give me a chance I'll do what ever you want" I could feel his rub his erection on my ass I silently prayed that he would pass out like he always does I couldn't take him forcing me again this week, I tried to serve him more food when he slapped it out of my hand and threw me against the refrigerator
" your not moving fast enough for me you stupid bitch" he punched me in the stomach I tried not to cry so the baby wouldn't cry , but he knocked the wind out of me and I slumped forward but before I reached the ground he yanked me back up by my shirt I tried to cover my face with my arms but he pulled them down and caught me in the eye with his fist. He ripped open my shirt and was fumbling with the button on my pants I cried out to stop he just slapped me across the face busting my lip I felt the sting and the wetness of blood I thought I was going to pass out but I held on for fear if I did he would harm my son.
As he yanked my pants down he turned my ass to him and shoved my face against the wall, he stuck himself in me and began thrusting hard . He reached into my hair and pulled it hard, slammed his hips up against me, he tightened the grip he had on my breast and pounded inside of me he held his on death hold on me until he released his unwanted sperm into me. I slumped down the wall as his sperm dripped down my legs I crawled my battered body over to my crying baby.
He stayed home the entire weekend beating and abusing me. Every time Anthony would cry he would smack me across the face or punch me in the stomach. I couldn't even cry anymore I just waited until he passed out and I would sneak into the baby's room and soothe him, change him, feed him, and love him, Anthony would place his hands on my cheeks a put his open mouth on my lips.
I hated myself for putting him threw this I needed to get out of here but I had nothing I had no money we didn't even have a phone. Mike refused to let me contact any body just monthly letters to my dad saying how great things are here. I heard him call me I kissed Anthony forehead "please be good I'll be right back". He'd patted my face and smiled I was blessed with the worlds perfect baby
"Bella get the fuck in here" I shuddered when he called me he made my skin crawl I wish he'd drop dead.
"yes Mike" I whispered he was drinking and it was only 9:00 am today was going to be another long day I thanked god today was Sunday.
" get me another fucking beer" I turned to go down stairs but the baby started crying so I went in his to get him and head down stairs I put him on the rug in the living and went in to the kitchen to grab him a beer I quickly brought it back upstairs and turned to go back down to Anthony, seeing I was leaving he grabbed me and shoved me to my knees and whipped out his dick and shoved it in my mouth
" suck that shit and swallow my cum" I tried to protest but he backhanded me and yanked my head forward in one motion he rammed his dick into my throat gagging me
"if you vomit on my shit you will suck that shit off along with my cum" I tried to focus and pace my self to hold back the nausea as he pumped my mouth full of cum I wished that I could bite his shit off but I admit that I was to fucking scared of what he would do afterwards. When he was done he pulled him self out of me and stepped back as I tried to stand I lost my balance from being on my knees for so long I stumbled and fell the stairs. I knew I was hurt but I tried to stand anyway. that's when I felt a gush of blood pouring down my leg great. I needed to go to the hospital I grabbed my son and changed my clothes and numbly went to the E.R.
They ran test, took blood and asked me what happened I told them I fell down the stairs, I could feel that they didn't believe me altogether since I had that black eye that was yellowing and my lip still had the cut above it , all the bruises I had attained over the weekend. The doctor told me the amount of blood I was having was normal with suffering a miscarriage I was shocked I hadn't even known I was pregnant, he said it was in the early stages and that a D&C wasn't necessary that my body would expel everything. I told him I didn't want to get pregnant again I already had a young child and couldn't afford another one . So he gave me the Depo shot but told me that I need to use protection for the first week just to be on the safe side. I had to come up with a plan there was no way that I wanted to get pregnant again I did not want to have Mike's baby..