Bpov
Tears & Revelations
Seeing him after all these months has done nothing but solidify my love for him. Absence does make the heart grow fonder. I didn't know how he was feeling about all of this, knowing that I kept his son away from him. And now I crashed his wedding. God only knows what he was telling his bride, shit what am I doing here. His son will always be his son, I don't know where things stood with us. I started hyperventilating I walked to the door looking to get some air
"are you running away again" a chirper voice asked I turned to see who it was
" I-I- I just needed some air"
"Isabella Marie Swan how could you do this to me"
"I am so sorry Alice I never meant to hurt anyone I just didn't know what to do" I slid down the wall to the fall bracing Anthony so he wouldn't fall
" I have a beautiful nephew and you didn't bother to tell me I thought we were best friends" I looked up at Alice I knew she was crying I could hear it in her voice she kicked off her heels hiked her skirt up and plopped herself down next to me
" there isn't anything I wouldn't give to take it all back and be honest with both you and Edward I love you both and I have done things so wrong" I closed my eyes willing my tears to go away
" Bella I know you better than you know your self and although I am pissed off I know you thought you were doing the right thing and you have time to explain your self and your actions soon enough right now I just want to enjoy my best friend and my nephew being home" she wrapped her arms around my shoulder and kissed my cheek
" deal" I replied " I will explain everything to you"
" I know he is sleeping but may I hold him" I handed Anthony over to her when she pulled him towards her she whispered something in his ear that made him smile I looked at her
" what did you tell him"
" just that I am his Auntie Ali and I love him and I am going to spoil him rotten" she leaned her head against mine and we just sat there in silence with our hands entwined staring at Anthony while he slept. I am home I thought as I dozed off. Because I am Isabella Friggin Swan and I am finally home and I will do what ever it takes to stay here.
Epov
I left Bella and Anthony in empty reception room so that I could go and talk to Tanya and who ever was still waiting on me I heard Alice had managed to successfully clear out the chapel the only people left were my parents Emmett, Rosalie Jasper ,Alice Tanya and her parents when I walked back in both sets of parents were arguing
"what are you really upset about Tanya the fact that he is not going marry you or the fact that you wont get you hands on his money" my father accused her
" don't you dare talk to my daughter that way you bastard" her mother shouted while jabbing her finger in my father's face
" I will try to remain lady like but I worn you Mrs. Denali do not put your fingers in my husband face again" my mother stepped in front of my father
" your asshole son has destroyed my daughter she will be the laughing stock of the town"
" frankly no one in this town knows who your daughter is let alone gives a shit about her" my father interjected I stepped in to the argument
"please I need to speak to Tanya Alone" I said
"no Anthony Edward what ever the hell your name is say what you need to"
"I don't know where to begin ,i want you to know that I am sorry"
" is her name Bella" Tanya asked me
" yes her name is Isabella but Bella for short"
" why did you tell me it meant Beautiful"
" it does Tanya"
" why did you ask me to marry you if" she stopped
" I thought I was over her, but when she showed up today it just reinforced the love I have for her, I am sorry Tanya I am still in love with her and I cant marry you " I hung my head down and kicked unseen dirt with my shoe
" what about me Anthony"
" Tanya you deserve someone that loves only you"
" all the time and money spent" she gritted her teeth
"I knew that this was about money you gold digging whore" my dad pulled out his check book scribbled on it and shoved it in her hands
"this check is for 25,000 it should cover your expenses for the dress and your moving out of my sons house which I am more than positive Alice already took care of, take your money and get out of my sons life you silly tramp" her and parents pushed past us and stormed out of the church
" oh Anthony I am keeping the fucking ring" she called over her shoulder as she flipped me the bird.
" Tanya you earned it" my mom and dad looked at me before we all busted into laughter
"what about Isabella and the baby" my mom asked
" like I told Tanya I am in love with her and Anthony is my son" I grabbed my mother's hand
" then go get the woman you love and get that handsome son of yours I would like to meet my grandson" my father told me, my mother and I both looked at him and smiled I hugged them both goodbye telling them I would try to join them at home later. I walked back to the room I left Bella in and hoped that she was still there.
When I entered I noticed her and Alice sitting down together with their head resting one each other, one set of hands locked together while the other set laid on my sleeping son. They looked so content sitting there with their eyes closed. I prayed that Alice was not giving her a hard time. I knelt besides them and whispered in her ear
"Bella love wake up" he eyes flew open in terror before she noticed that she was seated next to me. I knew I would have to help her deal with what ever she ran from with Mike
"its ok baby come on we cant sit here all night lets get my son in a bed" she smiled up at me and squeezed my hand. I brought her hand up to my lips and kissed her knuckles
"Ali baby wake up lets get this little boy home" she stretched but refused to give me the baby I'll accept it for now I know she needs her time to. So will the rest of the family so I settled for holding Bella's hand. She looked down as I tightened my grip on her. As we headed out the door . Because I am Edward Fucking Cullen and I aint ever letting go cuz I am a greedy bastard like that
As we walked hand in hand out to her truck I couldn't help but smile, the one person I had been trying to forget saved me from almost making the biggest mistake of my life, I felt blessed that she came in when she did, I shuddered to think that right now I would be trying to avoid having martial sex with Tanya,
But instead my angel walked beside me like she never left and a few feet behind us my darling sister cradled my son in her arms, life just couldn't get any better than what is now. Even with the talk I knew we had to make nothing would stand between Bella, my son and me again. I brought her hand to my lips and kissed her finger tips gently, I have never been more in love with the mother of my child than I was right now.
"Alice are you riding with Jasper" I looked over my shoulder at my sister who was to busy kissing my son on his forehead
"Ali" I asked again I knew she was trying to give Bella and I space but shit I hated to be ignored she looked at me and nodded
" I am going to ride back home with Bella" I squeezed her hand to let her know that I had no intentions of letting her slip away from me again
" love do you need to go to your dad house to get clothes for you or Anthony" she looked up at me
" actually I don't have any thing but what I am wearing" she tugged at her tee shirt
"you didn't bring clothes" I questioned
" well I guess we left in a rush and just packed some things for Anthony" she shrugged her shoulders and tilted her head up to look me in my eyes. I heard Alice squeal behind me
" does that mean we get to go shopping tomorrow" she peaked over Bella's shoulder
" Ali you can go shopping I plan on spending the day with Bella and my Anthony"
" fine can I at least take my gorgeous nephew with me" Bella looked at me with fear in her eyes.
" I don't know Ali I mean they just got here and all" I tried to tell her but that little pixie just wasn't having it
"oh hell no , I am not going for that shit, he is my nephew and I have missed out since the day he was born and I will not miss any more time" she looked from Bella to me "am I fucking clear Cullen, Swan" we saluted her "aye aye captain"
"good now give me his diaper bag and I'll meet you guys at the house" she grabbed the diaper bag from Bella and walked in the direction of Jasper I could tell that Bella was a little apprehensive about letting him go but she sighed in defeat she knew my sister all to well to know that she wouldn't win against Alice. I put my arm around her shoulder to try to calm her fears
" you know she would never let anything happen to him"
"I know Edward I know she will be a great Auntie I know that but" she stopped her self to wipe a tear
" what is wrong baby" I turned so we were facing each other as caught a tear that was rolling down her cheek with my thumb
"I'm just a bit over whelmed with today's events" she tried to smile thru her tears
I pulled her in for a hug " everything is going to be fine love we will work things out"
"how can you say that" she shook in my arms
" because they will baby"
"how can you forgive me for keeping your son away from you I am a horrible person"
"Isabella Marie Swan you listen to me you are a selfless person who puts everyone's needs above your own and you're a great mother so I am positive you had your reasons for doing it. And I forgave you the moment I laid eyes on you, the moment you saved me from the shame of a marriage.
the moment my son called my name, love you are forgiven please forgive me for not finding you when I searched for you, please forgive me for not standing up to my dad when he said all those harsh words that made you run, please forgive me for not telling you how much I love you" I pulled her chin up so that she could face me I knelt down in front of her
" I am not a perfect person and I have made many mistakes that I am not fucking proud of" she opened her mouth to speak but I held my fingers up telling her to wait
" please let me say this" she nodded
" I don't deserve you or him for the things that I have done, I have hurt people in my quest to so called get over you but nothing has worked when I was with Tanya I didn't even ask her to marry me I just shoved a box on her lap and she said yes I just wanted to do it to ease the pain I had over letting you go.
I have loved you for so long that when I found out that you married Mike I went on a downward spiral I didn't care about anything I drank and worked my self in to oblivion nothing mattered to me, I am a horrible person I slept with random girls to forget about you, but in all my attempts to rid my body and soul of images of you, you were there in every move I made.
I dreamt about you daily, I hallucinated about you, I called her your name continuously awake, as well as asleep and I admit this without shame. No one has ever touched my heart the way you have and I understand today why I couldn't move on because 372 days 7.5 hours and 34 second ago I gave my heart away and I don't want it back I just want you.
Isabella Marie Swan I love you with every fiber in my body and I want us to start over, please tell me that I haven't lost you, please tell me that you will give us a chance to have the life we were meant to have, please give me the chance to earn the right to have you both in my life "
I hugged myself against her body and tighten my arms around her waist when I felt her kneel down with me. I looked in her eyes to see her face streaming with tears most likely mirroring my own face realizing for the first time since I started my confession.
I had tears dribbling down my own face. And I really didn't care if someone seen me crying or if they thought I was a pussy. I was here baring my soul to her to make her understand the love I feel for her. Because I am Edward Mother Fucking Cullen and I have no shame in admitting that I was pussy whopped by Isabella Marie Swan. and i can wait to get in them jeans and get whats mine ...