Bpov
Home is where the heart is

Here we where in the middle of a empty parking lot on our knees crying and I just couldn't bring myself to care there was no other place in the world that I wanted to be. Seeing Edward in front of me with tears streaming down his face telling me he didn't deserve me made my heart swell with so much more love for him he was the perfect man and it was I that didn't deserve him one bit I had made more mistakes than he could ever. I mean seriously what did he do really fuck some random chicks. I needed to come clean with him if I had any plans of making us work. So I lowered myself on to my knee and put my hands on his cheeks and pushed his tears off his face with my thumbs.

" I am far from a perfect person there many things I wish the I didn't do in my life I have made many mistakes and I will be eternally sorry for the things you have done because of my actions. I know you said you forgive me but I don't I have lied and kept your son away from you, I married a man I didn't love.

I am sorry for all the pain that I put you thru I wish that I could take it all away. Edward I am truly sorry for everything that I have done wrong, I am sorry for doubting your ability to make decisions as a man, I am sorry for not giving you the chance to know your son, most of all I am sorry that I never told you how much I love you and what you mean to me.

if you forgive me I will make it up to you for the rest of my natural born life I know that I don't deserve you but please give me a chance to earn you. Its been to long and I have been so lost without you, no one has ever touched my heart the way you have. I have missed you every single day since we parted. 372 days 7.5 hours and 34 seconds ago I gave my heart away and I don't want it back I just want you baby I am so sorry"

" you have nothing to be sorry for love" he kissed both my hands

" there are other things that I need to tell you" I looked away embarrassed

" do you want to go some where" he asked me pulling to a standing position we got into my truck I knew where he was taking me or at least I hoped I knew after driving for a few minutes we parked by the side of the road and we strolled arm in arm to our meadow we sat down on the grass it was still warm from the sun beating on it all day

" what is it that you want to tell me baby" he asked me while grabbing my fingers

" Edward I don't even know where to begin, I have had a horrible time without you"

" tell me what ever you want I will never past judgment on you" I sighed knowing that I needed him know everything in order for us to have a fresh start I wanted a clean slate with him he had bared his soul with me and I had to do the same

" well you know that I married Mike" he nodded pressing on before he could interrupt and I lost my nerve

" I turned out that he black mailed me into marrying him with some factious allegations that my dad was a dirty cop he bullied me with threats the he would have Alice raped and beaten and tossed on the side of the road, he threatened to break both of your hands so that you wouldn't be able to become a surgeon he threaten to destroy everyone I loved if I didn't marry him.

At first he was a doting husband he was there for me throughout my entire pregnancy up until the birth but I threw him out of the room I knew he wasn't Anthony father and I didn't want him to experience something that belonged to you, just so you know he is not listed on Anthony birth certificate. Things changed when Anthony started looking more like you and my life became a living hell when his eyes turned green like yours.

He became raping and beating me on a daily basis, I figured it was my punishment for taking your son away from you so I endured it but I lost it when he hit our son I attacked him and decided from that day I would do what ever it took to get out. I met this woman named Angela and she helped me make the money I needed to get out. I am not proud this but I started dancing at a gentleman club and made enough money to leave him. So I grabbed my important papers and made a overnightbag for Anthony and flew here" he sat there speechless with his hands clenched in tight fists

" I will fucking kill that motherfucker for hurting you and touching my son, I am so sorry I should have been there for you" I shook my head as he pulled me towards him

" please I just want to forget him that life is over" I stroked his face

"I am only concerned with us and here and now" he squeezed me tighter

" he cant get away with this Bella he's a low life scumbag that badgered you into marrying him then taking it upon himself to fucking force himself upon you he doesn't deserve to live" I felt him kissing me all over my face

" oh my god I almost forgot" he looked at me confused I reached in my back pocket to retrieve a envelope

" Maddison isn't your daughter Edward she's Mike's" he opened the envelope and with his hand over his mouth he was to stunned to speak

" how did you" he shook his head again

" he admitted it to me when I kicked him in the balls"

" wow my parents were right all these fucking years I tried to be a father to her and she wouldn't let me , humph now I guess I know why"

" what are you going to do" I asked him

" I don't know right now" he leaned over and kissed me softly

" is there any thing else that you need to tell me"

" I started drugging him so he wouldn't touch me" I touched his cheek I smiled I didn't give a fuck I wasn't ashamed to admit I drugged his ass so I wouldn't have his dick near me he pulled me onto his lap and brought his lips down on mine, licking my bottom lip probing to enter my mouth as if he needed permission I opened my mouth eagerly I fisted my hands into his soft hair dragging him closer to me as our tongues danced around joyously. I ground my hips on his erection god its been so long since I felt him I felt him grab me by my ass creating more friction where we both needed it. I started unbuttoning his shirt but he hands caught mine.

" Isabella you don't know how much I have missed you I am sure you can feel how much I want you but now is not the right time" sensing my defeat he kissed me deeply again but with less urgency

" we don't have a blanket and I don't want to chance anything but my cock going into your sweetness" he stifled my giggle with another kiss I knew he was right when it happened I wanted to take my time

" I want you to know that every time I was with Tanya or anyone else I used condoms but I will get tested if you want" I shook my head no I trusted him fully

" maybe I should get tested I was with him and he didn't use protection" I put my head down on his shoulder

" its settled we will both get tested so we know for sure" he moved my hips over him again I groaned in his ear

" no make up sex until the test results are in" I try humped him

"arggh Bella your going to have to stop or I may just bust a nut in my fucking jeans" he kissed me while rubbing my breast together I pumped my ass again he groaned loudly then he slapped my ass

" we need to leave, lets go home to our boy" I smiled at the thought of all the Cullen's mauling over him and hesitated before I rose to my feet as he held on to my hand I couldn't help but think how lucky I was . Shit I am Isabella fucking Swan and iam not ashamed to admit that I am in love with the father of my child and that Edward Anthony FUCKING Cullen has me cockmatized. And fuck me I couldn't wait to get into jeans and take whats mine ...

Its has been a great two weeks the Cullen's have taken to Anthony like he has always been here. Alice and Rosalie were extremely pissed off at me at first for keeping them out of the loop but they welcomed me back instantly. Esme was great as well she told me she always knew that I would end up with her Anthony, then she blushed saying she now was blessed with two Anthony's.

I still cant imagine that my sucky life has done a 180 . My god just last month I was getting my ass served to me on a daily basis. When I confessed all that I have done to Edward I thought he would think less of me but he assured my fears immediately, he told me about the bet between him and Mike involving Jessica, he said he always knew that Maddi wasn't his but he was a man of honor and that he needed to do the right thing.

he only requested another DNA test when he found out I was pregnant with Anthony. I apologized profusely for keeping him out and missing all my pregnancy and Anthony first 6 months of life. He said he doesn't hold it against me and that we have the rest of our lives to make it up to each other and he will be there every step of the way when we have our next child.

Yea he asked me to marry him but me being stupid I told him I wasn't ready yet, I knew I wanted to spend my life with him and our son but marriage scared the shit out of me. I guess because Mike royally fucked that up for me. Edward is the sweetest man in the world and I cant understand how I was so lucky to land him. I wont live without him again. He told me he'd wait for ever for me. But I assured him he wouldn't have to.

We got the test results back last week but he still hasn't touched me, he says he wants me to be sure. He wont push me to do anything that I wasn't ready for. But god is he torturing me. The way he been dressing, accidentally leaving the bathroom door open when he showers or letting the towel slip to reveal his sculptured abs and "V". today I nearly dripped his clothes off of him in front of his mother.

Who knew that a fitted thermal and basket ball shorts can be sexy but I have to say anything on Edward is fucking sexy when he stepped in the living room with his skully on bopping his head to his music I had to pick my jaw up from the fall and mop up the drool I know Esme caught me because she cleared her throat and laughed as she excused her self.

" Edward" I tapped him on his shoulder he smiled at me and kissed my lips

" hey love" did he not know that he was causing a pool between my legs , his fucking voice alone could make me cream my panties

" where's EJ" he asked me I stared blankly at him lost in lust

" EJ" I repeated trying to focus

" my son Edward Junior" he laughed as he pulled me to him landing us on the couch with me settling on his lap kissing me fully on my lips dragging his tongue across my bottom lip

" oh Anthony is with his Grandpa Carlisle" to say that Carlisle is completely in love with his grandson is a under statement since I have brought him here to meet everyone officially he does nothing but apologize for his behavior in sending me off with the douche bag. I tell him that everything is fine now so lets not dwell on the past. Anthony loves his new family and they love him so much one of them is always taking him away from Edward or myself.

I turned so I was straddling Edward and kissed along side of his jaw he hasn't shaved in to days and fuck me his stubble was driving me mad I felt his hands encircle my waist and pull me closer as we deepened our kiss. With my thin yoga pants on I could feel him starting to form an erection.

I moaned into on his lips I haven't felt this horny since the night at the meadow I slowly dragged my ass forward causing a little friction where I needed it most I felt him groan as I rubbed myself on him, I fisted my hands in his hair bringing him closer to me as I pushed myself back and forth on his lap. Slowing at first then increasing my pace I moaned again just a few more rubs against my already aching clit and I would have my release right here in the living room fully dressed and my god did I need it.
Sensing I was close he broke our kiss and nibble on my neck he slid his hands under my ass squeezing firmly and lifted me off his lap and sat me next to him.

" if I don't get to cum baby neither do you" he kissed me on my lips and he fucking winked at me he draped his arm around my shoulder

" Edwarrrrrd" I pouted when I noticed Carlisle walking in with Anthony

" he was crying for his mama I think he needs to be changed" Carlisle gave me a apologetic look sensing from my blush that he was interrupting something

" come here my EJ" Edward cooed to him he was just so damn adorable with our son I loved my son to death but right know he was cockblocking me and I am just a bit frustrated. I kissed my boys and headed off to the kitchen to fix him lunch

" Babe change his pamper and bring him in the kitchen, its his lunch time and he is probably hungry"

"non sense Bella you go find something to do it will be my pleasure to feed my boy here" Carlisle said

" oh I don't have anything to do Carlisle and you had him all morning"

" well you need to get used to us spoiling him and wanting to spend time with him I'll make sure you have him back for dinner time and bed time"

"If you insist" I shrugged looking at Edward I kissed Carlisle's cheek on the way out

" thanks grandpa" I smiled at them and headed out. I left the boys to their own devices and decided resolve an important issue. Myself I needed a release and if Edward was going to play the prude than I would have to handle this on my own. Take things in my own hands .

I headed up to Edward's room we have been staying with him for a few days but I was thinking that we needed to head back to Charlie's besides I wanted to spend time with my dad. I felt like I was imposing on the Cullen's here. Everyone is making a huge fuss over Anthony and myself and I just wasn't used to that I needed to take care of myself and I wanted to go back to school and get Anthony settled, I did enjoy spending my days hanging with the Cullen's and my night wrapped up in Edwards arms, he hasn't said anything about going back to Italy but I know that Alice and Jasper head back some time next week. And Rose and Emmett aren't far they have a nice place in Port Angeles

Epov

My cock still throbbed from the loss of contact, I almost came right in my shorts from her dry humping on me, we had gotten the results back and were free to get it on so to speak, but I just didn't feel right I mean I am fucking horny and I want to sex her up and down this fucking place but when I asked her to marry me she cried and said she wasn't ready I told her I would give her all the time she needed and I think that it would not be fair to throw sex into it.

I understood that she is confused and I want her to want me because of me and because she wants this not just because I fuck her good. But fuck me I am losing my grip on reality and that little vixen al most made me lose it right there on the couch, I knew she was close I could tell by her frantic grind and her hitched breath.

if I would have dipped my fingers into her pants I knew that I would have pulled them back soaked, but the dick that I am instead of getting my lovely lady off I told her if I couldn't cum than she couldn't either. I really didn't mean I had every intention of finger fucking her while she sucked my lip off.

I heard a noise and when I opened my eyes I saw my dad heading in our direction so I moved her off of me and grabbed one of the decorative pillows from the couch to hide my hard on until it subsided, when my father entered he shook his head at me and grinned. We talked for a bit while I changed EJ's pamper. I loved my son and tried to do everything he needed everyday from his bathes to his feedings I have missed so much time that I will do everything in my power to keep them both near me, I still had four more weeks to decide what to do about work and my place in Milan, I gave Tanya the tickets for the honeymoon to Hawaii it was the least that I could do.

I left her jilted at the altar, and even though she turned out to be a money grubbing trick, I led her to believe that I loved her and was going to spend my life with her. No wonder Bella didn't want to marry me, I went back on my promise to love honor and cherish, I would make it up to her some how one way or another she will be my wife, I will prove to her that I will stand by every single promise that I make her. I love her and my son more than anything in this world.

Who knows maybe she'll take Charlotte I am more than positive they will find a more than willing third or maybe they'll just do them. I grinned I wasn't going to miss that as crazy as it seemed Bella my Bella is more than enough woman to satisfy my every need. After helping my dad feed EJ I headed upstairs to hit the shower. Letting my mind wander to Bella and her dry humping got me sporting another woody . I have taken a cold shower every day this week and I wasn't looking forward to another one.

I needed to come up with an excuse to get us out of the house everyone was gone for the day and I knew If we stayed here all alone we will be fucking. After all I am a fucking man and this fucking man is horny beyond belief, I jogged up the steps hitting the first landing when I thought I heard Bella cry I took two steps at a time now as I reached the third floor where my room was I heard it again I heard her call my name I rounded the corner,

I pushed my door open slowly to find Bella laying on my bed with two of her fingers dipped into my pussy slowly pumping them in and out of her no my sweet haven I immediately felt the bulge in my shorts tighten I heard her soft moan again " Edward" she reached her hand to her breast and began flicking them between her thumb and forefinger as her pace picked up,

she finger fucked her self as her hips lifted off the bed with each thrust from her fingers when she bit down on her lip I lost it locking the door behind me I decided my baby needed to come and I was going to be the one to bring it. I dropped in front of her with her still clamped shut and fingers busy working I leaned over her and started licking her swollen bundle of nerves she thrusted her hips upwards and opened her eyes " its about time baby I thought I was going to be cumming with out you"

I smiled up at her " looks like I am right on time" I licked upward replacing my fingers with hers I sucked her sweet juices off each one of her fingers. I inserted one finger . Pumped it in and out. "mmm" Inserted two fingers. Biting of the lip is good .Pumping in and out her body moved in sync with every thrust.

Pumping them and curling them to hit her delicate G spot. " yea baby just like that" pump. Lick. Suck. "ahhhh" yea that's my girl let me that cum face . Pump. Thrust. Lick. Suck. "mmm" lick. Suck. Nibble. Her thighs started closing my head in .no baby open up for me I spread them back open and licked up and down her slit I felt her reached down and start pulling my hair. I inserted my finger again pushing it in and out while I lick that juicy clit of hers.

" oooooh God" not the name I am looking for so I started thrusting in faster I am still waiting for it .. Pump in. lick up. Thrust in. flick my tongue over her clit. "ahhhh" . Lick. Suck.. Wait for it. Wait for it.. Lick. Blow. Suck. Thrust. And here it comes "Eddddddddddwarrrrd" that's my girl… she writhed in delight as she rode her orgasm wave.

when she came down from her orgasmic high she pushed me down on my back to return the favor she pulled up my shirt and started kissing my chest. Reaching for my shorts I grabbed her by her wrists " no baby that was for you and I really need to shower" I could tell that she was disappointed what the fuck is wrong with me she wanted to fuck me but I wanted more than that I wanted make love to her she sighed and rolled off of me.

" are you sure this is the game you want to play Cullen" she asked as she stalked off to the bathroom I jumped up after her "love its not like that I am all sweaty from playing ball with Emmett besides when I make love to you it will be all night not some quickie because my parents aren't home" I lifted her chin to face her " I love you Isabella Marie Swan -soon to be Cullen don't ever doubt that I am here for the long haul"

she looked down to hid the tears brimming around her eyes " its because I'm fat right, I know I haven't lost all the baby weight but I am trying, I'm back to doing my boot camp work out" I kissed her hard and brought her hand down to my erection " do you feel what you do to me, I am sweaty I didn't want you sucking my sweaty cock baby that's all, baby I love the way EJ filled your body out my god it takes everything in me not to fucking ravish you every minute of the day"

I kissed her roughly I knew I couldn't have my baby feeling like I didn't want her and with my hard ass dick I carried her back to the bed where I proceeded to pepper her body with kisses as I gingerly rubbed her nipples between my fingers "please baby I cant take it no more I need to feel you inside of me" I steadied myself in front of her my cock at the tip of her entrance knocking on heavens door she opened her legs wide as if she was saying come in oh baby that I plan on doing.

I rubbed my head up and down her slit earning some glorious moans. She dug her heels into my ass bringing me closer and with one swift movement I was home. She was just as tight as I remember. " ahhh fuck" I groaned I knew I wasn't going to last very long I haven't had this sweet pussy in so long. I shuddered I pulled my self out to hold back my orgasm I kissed her mounds tenderly god I loved everything about this woman and I definitely needed to thank EJ for giving mommy these wonderful tits. " ahhh I'm going to cum Edwarrd" I loved the sound of my name falling from her lips. Her moans and my rapid thrusting was enough to send me over that cliff and with one final thrust I brought the house down.. "ahhhhhhh" I groaned into her ear. God I loved this woman.