...Well I feel like complete and utter crap. Excuse the profanity. But the story must go on! Be sure to vote for who you want Eliza to be shipped with first! The poll in on my profile and you can vote twice!

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Chapter 14

Opportunities

After shutting the suitcase down on my belongings, I sweep over the room one last time, checking that none of my belongings had been left behind in the pinkness.

That's just one of the many things I'm not going to miss when I'm gone.

After making sure that nothing is missing, I grab my bag and start stuffing my light things inside.

My iPod, my headphones, and…

"The diary."

The diary is still as blank as blank can be, yet the words weren't erased from my memories.

Eliza brings me great joy. The fact that she is not my natural child is no longer important to me.

I collapse on the bed in shameful realisation.

I can't go back. How can I? All that's left for me is a fake father and a possible trip to a mental asylum if I try to tell anyone what happened in the few weeks that I've been gone.

I weigh my options in my head.

I could try to leave with nothing to go back to, or stay here with a shockingly high probability of me ending up dead.

With a sigh, I get up and start to place my clothes in their rightful spot.

"I knew I was going to have to get used to the colour pink."

Once everything was back in its original spot, I head out of the door in search of a certain, white-headed vampire.

I wouldn't have gotten any answers if I went back home. So the only choice I have is to stay and see if I can get some here.

.o0o.

I manage to find Subaru sitting on a windowsill staring out of the window.

"You should've left when you had the chance. You've wasted a rare opportunity." He says, not looking at me.

"I have nothing to go back to, Subaru. I need to know the truth. I won't find that back home." I justify firmly. "If you know anything-"

"I don't know anything about your situation if that's what you're asking." He cuts me off, finally turning to me.

I say nothing for a moment, a crestfallen expression crosses my face as I experience disappointment.

"Thanks anyway." I say, about to turn back around and go to my room.

I hear a sudden gasp and I swiftly turn around.

"What?" I ask him.

"Nothing." He bluffs. Something is wrong and I know it.

"It is not nothing." I say. "What is it?"

"I told you, it's nothing important." He presses.

"If it was nothing, you wouldn't be so agitated in order to protect the truth." I read his movements and expressions. "You don't have to tell me if it's nothing to do with me, but if it is then I want to know."

"You reminded me of someone, ok?!" He shouts out. "But…"

"She's dead?" I question.

He shakes his head. "But seeing the way she is, death would be a huge relief for her."

"Subaru, don't say that."

"I can say what I Goddam like!" He shouts in fury. "Never mind, just take this."

He takes a knife out of his back pocket and holds it out to me.

I stare at the dangerous object and he forces me to take it into my hands.

"This silver knife can be used to kill vampires like us with a single stab to the heart."

I snap my head back up to gaze at him.

"Do you really think that I can murder as simply as that?" I ask in horror.

He simply leaves the question hanging in the air and walks out of the room. Leaving me struck dumb.

Twisting the knife around in my hands, I decide to hold onto it for my own safety.

I won't use it.

At least that's what I'll keep telling myself.

.o0o.

"Hey, Little Bitch. You know I get antsy when you keep me waiting."

I'm greeted by the sight of Laito laying lazily on my bed and my eyes narrow in disgust.

"Get the hell out of my room." I growl. Clenching my new knife behind my back.

"Oh. Looks like I'm not the only one a bit antsy today." He remarks as he walks over to me.

"Get the hell out of my room." I repeat.

"You can't possibly be serious about that. Right, Little Bitch?" He says confidently. I see his eyes waver momentarily to the hand behind my back. "What do you have there, Little Bitch?"

"Wouldn't you like to know?" I sneer.

"As a matter of fact, I would." He smirks and then disappears from my sight. "Little girls like you shouldn't be holding such dangerous objects. Don't you think, Little Bitch?" I hear his voice coming from behind.

I whirl around to face him with wide eyes.

"Especially silver knives that can be used to kill vampires." He steps closer to me and guides the knife to his chest.

"What the bloody hell are you doing?" I ask him.

"This is such an honour, Little Bitch. I must admit that I'm touched. I never knew how much you loved me."

I stare at him in confusion. "Are you on a sex high or something?"

"Not this time." He replies, although with his constant smirk, I'm not sure whether he's serious or just joking.

Oh, my God that was the worst question I had to ask.

"Murder is very special to us vampires. The ultimate way to confess your love is to kill us." He purrs.

"That's bloody messed up!"

What's wrong with a normal wedding?

He just chuckles. "The knife you hold wields great power. It's the only way to end the life of an immortal. Do you know how it feels to love someone so much, you end up hating them?"

He spins both of us around so I end up pinned against the door.

"After all, the two of us are more alike than we are different."

"I am nothing like you, Laito." I deny furiously.

"Really? Your hot blood with its heavy aroma speaks to me. It speaks volumes." He remarks as he starts to get close to my neck.

"Get off of me!" I'm really starting to say that a lot, aren't I?

"No matter how hard you try to resist, your blood knows it wants me." He stares with heavy lidded eyes.

Those eyes enraptured me for a moment before I woke up from his spell.

"That's not true." I say stubbornly as I turn away. He uses his other hand to turn my head back to him.

"Don't be shy. You can say it. Scream out that you want me. There's no God. There is no need to follow the rules. Why is it important for you to live so correctly? You feel the need to supress your true desires."

His eyes capture me again, and through some sort of hidden command, I'm forced to say the truth.

"I don't know."

"So you have lived your whole life following some rules that don't have any reason for you to follow?" He asks, seemingly in shock. Seemingly.

I say nothing. He's right. All of my life I've been taught what I should or shouldn't do. But for what purpose?

"Aww. Poor Little Bitch. You don't need to obey the rules now that I'm around." He consoles as his arms surround me.

I make no effort to get away, I'm too wrapped up in my own thoughts.

I don't really need to obey the rules, right?

"We'll be hand in hand on the pleasuring descent to hell." He whispers in my ear before starting to descend onto my neck.

Hell…

…Heaven.

Keep being good, Eliza. And God will let us be happy in Heaven.

My eyes widen suddenly and I push him away from me, knocking his fedora off of his head.

"I follow the rules, so I can be with my mother. She is the most important person to me, she's the reason I won't give into you. I told you that if I ever hear you doubting my faith again, I would end you. Now that I have this knife, don't think that was an empty threat."

He chuckles darkly. "Would you really be able to do that, Little Bitch? Would you go as far as to kill for your precious faith? Murder may be special for us vampires, but it's also the start of a very dark road, Little Bitch. A road that will only lead you back to me again."

"Then I'll only pray for God to forgive me. "

He laughs as he picks up his hat and places it back onto his head. "I've never met a girl like you. You really amuse me. At first I was only interested in drinking your blood but now I think I've changed my mind."

"Good for you. Too bad the same thing won't happen to me." I swipe the knife out of its sheath and hold it ready in front of me. "Now get out."

He simply simpers as he makes his way to me.

"You put on a brave face, Little Bitch. You think that you can kill me." He leans into my ear. "But I told you, killing is the start of a dark road. And you won't get rid of me that easily. I'll die awfully happy."

I freeze as he whispers with a sick tenderness to his words.

"I'd die knowing that you love me so much…You'll come to hell with me…And we'll be with each other for the rest of eternity."

I grip the knife tightly, shaking until he disappears, only afterwards I hurl the knife across the room in anger and collapse on the floor crying.

Why…why me…?

Subaru was right, I wasted a rare opportunity.

I'm such an evil person. I'M SORRY ELIZA! Just saying, I might have a bit of trouble updating since I need to watch the anime and I wan't to protect my little sister's innocence. But that's all. Oh yeah be sure to vote!