All he think as he watched them try to revive the boy..was how eight years earlier it was another person in that bath tub. He never felt the weight of the guilt he had over it all so heavy in his chest. But here he was with his own deputies debating weather they should hand cuff him or not, it felt like a lead weight in his chest. He wanted a drink so bad but..but he had lost his first child and now he was going to lose Stiles.

He had come home from the shift just to shower and change into a clean uniform. He had almost been to tired to realize the floor was soaking wet til he heard it squish under his feet.

"Damn it Stiles, I told you to.." John said walking towards the bathroom and opening the door to lecture the boy about losing track of time. He hadn't been expecting to walk in on scene that still haunted his nightmares from the first time it happened. He could barely recall calling 911 and demanding they get there. That his son, his baby boy, had slit his wrist and wasn't breathing. Not that he could see and he couldn't find a pulse.

He was sitting in shock when one of his deputies showed up with reports of verbal and alcohol abuse, with a possible chance of child abuse. Apparently people had been filing reports but no one had been taken seriously or somehow the reports were placed somewhere would no one really noticed but had suddenly appeared in the system several hours ago. There were far too many to be ignored.

"But..how did we not.." he asked softly

"It seems...it seems Stiles had been removing them or blocking them from us. However since we keep ever report on back up when we reset the system they suddenly all showed up." One them explained. "Sheriff...Mr. Stilinski...with what he...and with a past record..I'm sorry but we..."

"I'll come with you..just..let me change into some civilian please." John asked softly.

"Go ahead sir."

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'He can't see us?' Stiles asked looking over at his sister.

'No he can't.' She replied taking his hand and squeezing it lightly.

'I...I ruined him once..I get why this time shouldn't hurt but...'

'It still hurts.'

'Why?'

"Cause no matter what he's still our Daddy and we love him.' she told him pulling him into a hug.

'Why are they still trying?' Stiles asked looking over to where his body was lying.

'Because it's their job..it took them almost an hour to stop trying with me.' she replied leading Stiles away from the scene. 'They brought my body back three times before I finally served the connection to it completely. It was one of the most painful things I've ever done.'

'Why didn't you?'

'Stay? Because my body was dead, think of it like a frog in a science experiment. With the right about of electricity you can force it to move, even though it's mind was gone. My body was trying to breath and function but I couldn't get back in. So I severed the connection.'

'Oh.."

'If I could have got back in, I would have.' she told him firmly. 'Now come on, we've got to get across town. I believe the others are still at the school.'

'They should be it's game night.' Stiles replied. 'They've got a chance to win the champion ship again this year, mostly thanks to the wolves.'

'Good this time, no one is going to come out of it happy though.'