"Enjoy The Silence" by Lacuna Coil
Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Can't you understand
Oh my little girl
Boyd was sick the moment he got home. His mother couldn't even look at him, she'd gone into the bedroom and he could hear her sobbing. This was the second life he'd ignored and let die. He knew it still haunted his mother. It still haunted him. Sometimes he could swear he could still hear her.
'Vernon come play with me,'
His head shot up and he looked around expecting to see her but she wasn't there, she hadn't been there in years and now like her Stiles would never be there again either.
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
He'd always kept quite, kept to his self because it felt safer to him. To have no one close, his father was never a part of their lives and his mother hadn't fully been there in years. Not since her death, she had one to many drinks worked one to many hours and then lost her job because she couldn't hold her self together. He'd been taking care of them for years while his mother had worked odd jobs trying to help pay bills. He'd never questioned how they had been able to make ends meet unaware that even though she no longer properly worked for the police force she still got her benefits. He hadn't known about Stiles talking to his Dad about his mother and getting her part time work to get her benefits. Now that would most likely stop.
Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable
'Boyd we're friends, we take care of each other, sometimes that means hearing what isn't said.' Stiles had once told him when they were kids. Before Stiles mother died, before Isaac, Erica and he had drifted from him. He whimpered and curled on his self as his phone vibrated again. He knew it was Erica but he couldn't face her. Couldn't face anyone after what they'd done to Stiles.
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
'You're a freak Stilinski!' he heard his self saying to Stiles after a bad fight between the Alpha pack. Stiles had been patching them up and just chatting away. Stiles had gone quite and just resumed patching them up. Derek had growled at them but he just ignored him. If they hadn't run, if they had tried to be a pack, to be a family like Derek had offered them, then they wouldn't be mourning the death of one of their own. Derek wasn't Alpha anymore and Boyd had followed Scott simply because of sharing the same age not thinking that it may have made him a bad leader. He saw his mistake now and wondered if it was to late to take back his words to Derek.
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
He managed to make it up to his room and opened the window climbing on the roof looking up at the sky as silent tears fell down his face.
'Vernon?'
"Lucy?" he said looking to his left where what appeared to be his little sister sat. Her hair was up in pig tails just like they had been that night. She was holding tightly to her stuffed bear the one they had buried her with.
'Vernon I miss you. I'm sorry I did bad.'
"Lucy..you didn't do anything wrong. You..I should have paid better attention. Gods I'm sorry." Boyd sobbed as she crawled into his lap. She felt so real but he knew she was gone.
'I love you big brother. It's okay. I've got lots of play mate's now. I still miss you. Now body sings the teddy bear song like you.'
"Want me to sing it now?" Boyd ask with a hiccup.
'Please!"
"If you go down to the woods today, You're sure of a big surprise, If you go down to the woods today, You'd better go in disguise! For every bear that ever there was Will gather there for certain, Because today's the day the Teddy Bears have their picnic." Boyd sang softly as he rocked her in his arms. He heard a howl of mourning and looked up before looking down and finding his arms empty. He threw his bad and howl. Because he no longer could be silent.
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
Enjoy the silence
'Alright that one..that one hurt even me.'
"I know." Stiles said softly rubbing at his eyes. "How did you.."
"I didn't..she came on her own. She misses him is what she told me.'she replied shaking her head and pulling Stiles into a tight hug.
"I wish..I wish I had known how much."
"No none of that, the quilt is his and his alone to share or not share. He choice to push away anyone who could have helped." she said firmly. "Maybe now he'll learn, death is what it is.'