Chapter 5: Rachel's Decision

There is a song! It is Defying Gravity, because Kurt and Rachel just killed that song in season 1. And there will be some Hummelberry! Too bad we all can't have a friendship like that!

RACHEL

The next day, I didn't know how things would go. I got to school late so I wouldn't have to deal with Jesse so early. The whole morning was spent thinking of what would happen with Jesse and Finn. I knew what I had to do, but I didn't want to do it.

It was finally the last period before lunch. I kept glancing at the clock, I was so impatient for the class to end. When the bell finally rang, I found myself wishing it hadn't. I slowly walked out of the room and to my locker. Kurt was already there, looking at me in an odd way.

"Rachel, what happened?" We hadn't talked since yesterday at lunch. I knew he'd want to know that me and Jesse were going out, but after the kiss with Finn and the fight between them over me, I just felt exhausted. And not at all in the mood to gossip.

"Well, a lot, actually..."

"How about we go to the auditorium and talk? Jesse went out to eat today, so its just us two."

I couldn't stop the tears when I heard that, so I just let them fall.

"Rach," Kurt took me in his arms and hugged me tightly. I was sobbing, so I tried to calm down by taking deep breaths. I smelled Kurt's cologne, so familiar and soothing.

"I'm sorry I'm messing up your designer shirt, Kurt," I mumbled, trying to leave his warm embrace, even though I would rather stay there and hide forever...

"It's okay, Rachel. You're more important to me than a designer shirt. Besides, this shirt is so last year, I don't even know why I'm wearing it." I laughed at Kurt's attempt to make me feel better. We stayed there, him hugging me, and me crying into his shirt. Finally, I felt better and I realized that I had to tell him what had happened.

"Ok Kurt, lets go to the auditorium."

As we walked, I explained the situation to Kurt. He listened without interrupting, except to gasp, or sigh. His attentiveness reminded me of how Finn was always interested in whatever I said. I finally arrived at the end of my story, so I told Kurt what I was planning to do.

"Are you sure about this, Rach? If you love Finn, you should choose him. I'm sure Jesse would understand and you two could still be friends."

"Kurt, I don't know what I feel for Finn, but I think I love Jesse. And I think I should at least try to be with Jesse. I mean, I have waited for him to ask me out for forever."

Kurt sighed. "Just know I'll be here for you."

He pulled me in for another hug. "Thanks Kurt. Love you."

"Love you too. Okay, now I have an idea to get you to forget your boy problems."

I rolled my eyes. "What Kurt? Please don't say a makeover."

"No. Even better. We're going to sing our favorite song. Defying Gravity."

"Oh! This is just what I need. Defying Gravity is my go-to shower song. It's also my ring tone. Thanks Kurt."

"It's fine cause I love this song too."

Rachel:Something has changed within me,
Something is not the same.
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game.

Kurt:Too late for second-guessing,
Too late to go back to sleep.
It's time to trust my instincts,
Close my eyes and leap

Both:It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye I'm
Defying Gravity
And you won't bring me down...

Rachel: I'm through accepting limits
'Cause someone says they're so.

Kurt:Some things I cannot change,
But till I try, I'll never know.

Rachel:Too long I've been afraid of

Kurt:Losing love I guess I've lost.

Both:Well, if that's love,
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity.
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity.
I think I'll try
Defying Gravity
And you won't bring me down.
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity.
Kiss me goodbye,
I'm defying gravity.

I think I'll try
Defying Gravity
And you won't bring me down.
Bring me down!
Ahhahhoahh

The rest of the day, I felt better because of my talk with Kurt. But after school, I had glee. Jesse never missed glee, he surely wouldn't miss it to avoid me? No, he'd probably be there. And that'd be my chance to make things right.

At glee, I arrived late, on purpose, of course. Mr. Schue was already there, waiting for me so he could begin. Just as he opened his mouth, I interrupted. "Actually, Mr. Schue, I have a song I'd like to sing. And if I could sing it now, that'd be great."

"Uhhh..." seeing that I was so determined to sing at that moment, he decided to agree and go and sit down. Wise choice, Mr. Schue, I thought.

After I told Brad my song, I turned and faced my fellow glee clubbers.

"This song is dedicated to Jesse." I looked sadly at him as I said it.

As the music started, I prepared myself to start singing. I took a breath, but then I heard the door being pushed open.

"Rachel! We have to talk!" I heard the voice and thought that this wasn't going to be easy. Of course not, why would it?

I put in a song! It is Glee, after all! I think I'll be putting in a few songs every now and then...