Author's Note:

fjsdkjf okay first of all I want to thank all of you, you are beautiful, I love you, I adore you, I fksdjfkljsdf and congratulations to Boyudo for getting the 1000th review! I honestly cannot believe I've hit such an incredible number and you guys make me want to cry you're so wonderful. (Also, I will be getting your one shot out soon, I promise!)

Furthermore, thank you to everyone else who reviewed the last drabble: Queen of Narnia49, Xx Ryo xX, kittenkyd, GrimxUlqui, Bullet2tm, Guest, EternalSakura, drageneyez. All of you are just wonderful and lovely and I want to diiiieeeee (of happiness).

Also, the plan is to update this everyday for the next week in preparation for NaNoWriMo, and I actually plan to uphold this promise, haha. Feel free to give me a kick in the butt if I don't.

Kaleidoscope
a Bleach (© Kubo Tite) fanfiction

Theme #74
accusation

Opening Song: "Hopeless Wanderer" - Mumford and Sons

She thinks she hates him. He avoids her, won't answer her questions, and then he leaves with no explanation. Their relationship was obviously one-sided, she decides, because the entire time he was (and probably still is) thinking only of himself. She put her concerns and fears and hopes and love into their friendship, and she waited for him and chased after him time and again. Obviously she means nothing to him because he left so easily, with no reservations or reasons. This is what Rangiku tells herself.

Rangiku thinks she hates herself more, though. Yes, he left, and yes, he was constantly leaving, but she's the one who followed. She's the one who tried to hold onto him, even when he constantly kept shifting out of her view. She's the one who clung to him when he tried to get away. She's the one who cried when he left. She's the one who defended him when he kept his secrets — even from her. Rangiku looks back and hates herself for it.

She hates herself for what she felt and what she feels. She hates herself because she obviously still cares; otherwise, she wouldn't still be thinking about it. She hates the silver-haired fox with the unfriendly grin, but what she hates more is that she has to convince herself of it.

She blames Gin for their misfortune and tears and heartbreak, but above all Rangiku just blames herself for being such a fool.

Closing Song: "Give Your Heart a Break" - Demi Lovato

Okay, I am seriously going to do this drabble a day thing for the next week. SERIOUSLY.

so long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, adieu!
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