The next day consists of work, a work out and home. Gail has prepared food but I don't really feel like eating. I can't get Ana out of my head and I yearn for her body to be wrapped in mine.
Taylor comes into the study and announces Elliot.
"Thanks Taylor, Hey Elliot"
"Hey bro, you look good…not" he replies
"Thanks for that, drink?" I ask
"Yes please, now tell me what is going on bro? You have not returned my text or e-mails"
"Sorry, I am not in a good place right now"
"That I can see but are you going to tell me why?" he probes, I take a swig of bourbon
"I have very mixed feelings about the other night Elliot, in fact I feel quite disgusted with myself" I admit
"Why? It was consensual, none of us are in another relationship or cheating, we have both done this thing before although not together, what's the issue?"
"I want her Elliot; I want her just for me and no one else, no sharing with anyone. I hadn't realised my depth of feeling until the other night and I felt sick watching her with you. At that point I recognised I want more with her, a relationship, a monogamous relationship, exclusive or whatever the term is today"
"Well that's good though, isn't it?" Elliot looks confused.
"It would be if she wanted the same but she doesn't right now"
"That sucks man"
"So I have to decide to forget her or to pursue as a 'friend with benefits' until such time as she feels ready for a long term relationship"
"Difficult one bro, I can see you care about her, you look good together but I can see her point of view too. She is on the cusp of a great career and if you're honest bro, you wouldn't have let a woman interrupt your career path when you first started GEH, it's only now when you feel in a good place you are looking for, well more than just meaningless sex with a sub"
"That is true bro" I take another deep drink "it has just taken me very much by surprise and I don't know how to handle it or her"
A second glass of bourbon has been poured and both Elliot and my tongues are loosening up.
"If you want my opinion, and I know you probably don't but here it is anyway, I think you should wait for her, she is feisty, daring, beautiful and she obviously has the hot's big time for you but she will be hard to handle, a challenge and let's be honest Christian, you don't start something if you don't think you can win so by the mere fact we are having this conversation means you want to keep pursuing her but you are scared of her and your feelings for her"
"I value you opinion Elliot when you are right" I grin and laugh and Elliot joins in after a moment "but seriously, thanks bro"
"Hey, what are big brothers for?"
"So what's happening with you Elliot?"
"Well funny you should ask but I have arranged to see Kate again"
I start to choke on a sip of bourbon and nearly drop my glass "Really" I cough out.
"Yep, we really hit it off the other night and we went out for dinner last night, she is really fun, we had a great laugh"
"You do remember she is the Kate Kavanagh of Kavanagh Media" I remind him.
"Yes I remembered, don't worry our secret is safe with her, after all if it got out she was involved, I would imagine her career and job would be totally over"
"True" I feel a little happier "When are you seeing her next?"
"At the Phoenix race, she is going to New York to report on some government thing so the next opportunity will be there. Will you be going?" he asks.
"I think so; I just need to think…"
"No Christian, you can think this to the end of the world and the two solutions open to you will still be the same, forget her or remain friends"
I know he is right but…
"You want to crash here tonight? You can't drive" I say thinking Taylor could drive him if he really wanted to go home.
"That would be great bro, pour another then" he smiles.
We eventually get to bed some when after 1am and awake at 8am with a banging head, dry mouth and the need for a shower to feel half human again. I text Andrea to say I will be late in. This usually happens when Elliot comes over; I don't see him that often, well not often enough but with both him and me having to go out of town for business at times it becomes difficult. Maybe the racing trips will mean we see more of each other, who knows?
Elliot drinks black coffee while I stick to water, neither of us opts for any food even though Mrs Jones offers to make a spread, she looks puzzled until she sees the empty bottle in the kitchen and a wry smile spreads across her face.
I work gingerly in the office with the telephone rattling my brain every time it rings. After a couple of hours I feel ready for some lunch, Andrea very kindly goes to the deli and gets me a light chicken salad sandwich and a coke, I feel much better after eating and carry on burying myself in work.
I buzz through to Andrea to contact the airport to schedule our flight to Phoenix, Arizona for the 1st March, the flight is only approximately two and a half hours but I like arriving the day before to have a look around and hopefully see Ana. It suddenly hits me that sub consciously I have decided to keep pursuing Ana then.
I pick up my cell and text Ana.
ME; Hi Ana, just making arrangements to fly to Phoenix on the 1st March, landing approximately 3pm. I am guessing you are already on the road so will see you there.
ANA; Hi Christian, Yes I am on the road, set off this morning. Glad you are coming and I assume from this, that you still want to see me?
ME; I do, very much so.
ANA; Great, will see you on Saturday, let me know when you arrive. Xx
Ok, so I detect a little annoyance initially but she wants to see me too by her last text. I feel I could walk on air right now. I obviously didn't piss her off enough to not want to see me so my mood brightens right up and I allow myself to think of her wrapped around me in bed, caressing and kissing each other until I am brought back to reality by the pain I have from my groin that is also going to prevent me from getting up from behind my desk for a while.
I wish the days away until I can get on the flight to Phoenix, I am getting totally sexually frustrated and my balls are making me suffer. When Saturday finally arrives, I meet Elliot at the airport and he is not late this time. I suppose I could have taken Charlie Tango as its relatively short distance but I want to relax and enjoy.
Vera serves refreshment, I have deliberately stored some champagne on board so she uncorks a bottle, Elliot and I chink glasses before drinking deeply before toasting to both of our hopefully blossoming relationships. The time goes past very quickly and we land in Phoenix. My frustration is peaking and I want to take Ana the moment I see her but I know that might not be possible.
An SUV is waiting to take us to the stadium, so Taylor loads our bags in as Sawyer takes the front passenger seat, Elliot and I get in the back.
Traffic is as light as its not race day; the stadium holds 65,000 people and some will be travelling by car so tomorrow will be busy. Once we near the stadium our ownership allows us to enter the stadium quickly. We drive over to the owner's car park, security double checks us again but we are then allowed to roam freely, I of course head straight over to the GSR garage but get caught by the circuit reporter.
"Mr Grey, could we have a moment of your time?" Great, I hate these things but I graciously accept and walk over.
"Welcome to Phoenix Mr Grey, I understand you bought into The Steele Racing team recently, any particular reason?" stupid fucking question!
"It was actually my brother that brought this sport to my attention, Ray Steele needed help, I did my research and it seemed like a good proposition so here we are" I half smile.
"Wonderful, what do you feel the team's chances are this year?"
"With the new driver showing promise and a good result at Daytona, I hope for good things this season" I reply.
"Fantastic, so…" all I hear is blah blah blah as I see Ana coming out of the garage.
"I'm sorry I have to go" I stumble past the reporter.
"Hi Ana, how are you?"
"Testing was crap, gearbox is slipping and the suspension feels wrong but the guys are all over the car at the moment so hopefully they will get it sorted before tomorrow" she smiles.
"I need you" I say in a very low voice.
"I know" she says teasingly "Come with me"
I look over at Elliot who is chatting with one of the mechanics, he catches my eye and winks with a smile and I follow Ana.
"I need to get some things from my trailer" my dick is getting hard already and Ana is looking flushed, she glances down at my bulge and smiles. The trailer can't come quick enough; she opens the door and locks it behind us and then it's a few moments of frantic kissing and ripping off clothes as we move towards her bed area. I don't have time or the inclination for anything kinky; I just need her inside me. I push her down on the bed and enter her straight away; she is wet and ready for me…
"Oh god Ana, this feels so good" I greedily take my thrusts into her, I kiss her lips, face, neck and breasts and her moaning spurs me on, I am close to shooting when she catches me off guard, flips me over and rides me. She teases me by pulling up and off my dick so I grab her hips and buck my hips upwards to get inside her until she starts to pant and I feel her clenching so I flip her over again and thrust quickly to release us both…
"Oh Christian, o nnnnn" she pants as she explodes beneath me and a final push and I empty into her before rolling off and lying beside her. I brush my fingers through her hair, tweak her nipples gently as they will be sensitive and kiss her tenderly.
"Thank you for coming Christian, it does mean a lot to have you here" she tells me.
"I wouldn't miss it" I reply back.
"I want to say sorry for turning up at your office without contacting you first but I was afraid you wouldn't see me"
"I always have time for you Ana"
"I hope you understand what I said to you and why" she looks worried.
"I do Ana, but I want you and I will take you any way I can" I say and she visibly relaxes.
"I hate to say this but I need to get back to the garage otherwise someone will come searching" she stands up to put her clothes on and I do the same, she brushes her hair and refreshes her lip balm to try and hide her reddened lips. We walk back to the garage with smiles on our faces…