"Baby please." She whispered. "You're all I have. I don't want to be a single parent."
"You said I'm never around."
"I was just mad. I'm not mad anymore." She took a step closer and kneeled down by him. She grabbed the gun away and put it to the side. She instantly took him in a hug. "I'm so sorry for not believing you baby."
He hugged her and rested her head on her shoulder. "I'm sorry."
"You have nothing to be sorry for." She shook her head. "It's over." She gave him a kiss. "I love you."
"I love you too." He slowly slid down and rested his head on her lap. He placed his hand on her stomach and slowly fell asleep since the pain killers were making him drowsy.
Olivia stroked his hair gently as she let him sleep. She looked over and spotted a note on the bed. She took it and realized it was William's suicidal note. He was actually planning to kill himself.
I'm so sorry Olivia. I can't live like this. I love you. Don't you dare name that boy after me, I don't deserve that. William.
Olivia wiped her eyes and tore the note into pieces. She gently kissed his head and let him sleep.
--
William sat in the precinct staring at pictures of the potential perps. "None of these." He told Elliot and Fin. "I told you, she was good looking. Brunette with green eyes."
"Maybe she changed her look." Fin tried.
"Maybe but she was pretty fucking crazy. Acted like we had a relationship." He answered.
Olivia came into the room. She put a picture on the table. "That her?"
William looked down and nodded. "Yeah. That's her. Who is she?"
"Recruiting agent for the military. That's how she knew where you lived and you had me as your emergency contact." Olivia answered. "Munch and Chester went to pick her up."
"Can I go now?" William questioned.
"You have to identify her." Elliot answered. "Then talk to Novak about testifying."
William looked at him and quickly got up. "I'm not testifying. No way."
"You have to." Olivia told him. "It's the only way."
"No." He shook his head. "That goes on public record."
"You were the victim, it's not a criminal record baby." Olivia pleaded.
"No. I'm not testifying. I'll ID her for you but I can't testify."
Cragen came into the room. "Detectives I'd like a moment with my son." All three nodded and left the room.
William took a deep breath. "Sir I'm not testifying."
"Sit down William." William sat down. Cragen sat across him. "Your mother never told you who your real father was right?"
William raised an eyebrow. "Charles. That was my father. He died when I was one."
Cragen shook his head. "Before I met her she had you. She had you during college."
"So?"
"If someone hurt your mother and you had the opportunity to throw them in jail, would you?"
"In a heartbeat sir." He answered without hesitation.
"Your mother had this cousin from marriage. Not related at all. He was the biggest asshole possible."
"What are you talking about?"
"One night he invites her to a party. A party that was supposed to be for the family right?" Cragen shook his head. "She went. Turns out it was this prick and his drunk friends there."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"One of his friends raped your mother. They all knew about it but no one did anything about it. Even this little weasel of a cousin she had."
"Nine months later I was born?" He questioned.
Cragen nodded. "Yeah. Whoever your father is, he is still out there. Probably with a family."
William stared at him. "Are you telling me that my father doesn't exist? Charles Grant was just someone my mother made up? What do you want me to do? Track this man down and kill him? It's 30 years later."
"No. I want you to be the man your mother raised and get justice for all the victims and future victims. Testify and put this pathetic piece of crap in jail." Cragen told him.
"With all due respect, testifying will ruin my life. I can't go back to the marines being a victim of rape. Do you know how embarrassing that is?"
"Sometimes doing the right thing takes a bigger sacrifice." The captain got up. "Think about that. Which man do you want to be? You want to stand by and let more people get hurt? Or you want to speak up and throw a bad person in jail?"
"Sir-"
"Which man would you rather have been at that party?" Cragen stated and walked out of the room.
--
William stared at the woman lined up against the wall. He gulped a little. "Number 3." He answered. "She attacked me and raped me."
"Thank you." Elliot nodded.
William nodded and left the room as the detectives and lawyers talked. He spotted Olivia waiting for him. "You ok?" She questioned.
He nodded. "Yeah. I'm just going to go home. I need to think."
She nodded. "I'd give you a kiss but defense lawyers are around." She smiled.
"It's fine." He answered. "I just have to figure everything out. I'll see you at home." He smiled a little and walked past her.
Olivia watched him leave. She hated what was happening to him. He was too nice and too much of a gentleman to go through this. He didn't deserve it one bit.
She went to the interrogation room and spotted her boyfriend's rapist. "Emily Hills." She read off the paper. "So you rape men that are in the armed services huh? First a Navy Seal then a marine?"
Emily smiled. "You're William's girlfriend aren't you?"
Olivia stared at her. "Alter ego is Katie huh?"
"You are." Emily smiled. "Oh you got lucky with that one."
"And then you raped him." Olivia sat down across him. "Why though?"
"I didn't rape anyone. He was willing."
"Willing for you to inject him with a needle also?"
"That erection sure showed how much he wanted it."
Olivia tried her best not to get mad and lose control. "An erection doesn't give you the right to rape a man."
"Does moaning?"
"No." Olivia instantly felt her hand form into a fist.
"Does he moan for you?" She smiled and pointed at Olivia's stomach. "Can't please him after you got pregnant? Sex is probably not the same now."
"You showed him huh? Pleased him?"
"Oh yes. No rape here, sorry. He wanted it."
"Even after he said no a couple times?" Olivia got up and circled around her. She leaned down. "Did William give you that bruise around your neck? After you wouldn't stop, he choked you." She whispered.
Emily froze up. "He likes it rough."
Olivia smiled. "You wish." She circled around her. "How many times did he say no before he choked you?"
"He attacked me." She stated. "He should be arrested, not me."
Olivia rolled her eyes. "Make up your mind. Either he wanted it or he attacked you?"
"He attacked me."
"Don't forget Emily, I witnessed this. You were clearly on top, remember?"
"He attacked me after. After you left, he said it was my fault for getting him caught."
"Just admit it. The more you change your story the harder you make it on yourself."
Emily looked over at her. "You didn't hear how he got arrested before? On rape charges?"
Olivia shook her head. "Making up lies won't help either."
"I'm not. The military knows but they let him join because he was a teenager when it happened."
Olivia was about to say something when she heard a knock on the window. She said nothing and left. Cragen was standing there. "What is she talking about?" Olivia whispered angrily.
Cragen stared at her. "She's right about one thing."
Olivia took a step closer. "Are you telling me William was arrested for rape before?"
Cragen looked at her sympathetically. "Sexual harassment. He was 16. That's why he went to boot camp."
"He told me it was a prank gone wrong."
"He lied. He isn't that way anymore."
Olivia stared at her captain. "How can you defend him?"
"Because he had a tough life. He was a product of rape also."
"So he lied about his father also?"
"No. He never knew. I just told him today. He thought his real father was a hero."
She shook her head. "Have Elliot finish this interrogation. I'm going home."
"Olivia remember William had a rough week also. You were to blame for half of it."
She nodded. "Fine." She walked past her superior.
--
Olivia came into William's apartment. "Will?" She went to his room and spotted him on the balcony. "Hey."
He turned around. "Hey. Already done with work?"
"No." She answered.
"What are you doing home?" He put his arm around her.
She pushed it off. "You didn't tell me you were arrested when you were a kid."
"Yes I did." He answered.
"For sexual harassment?"
His face hardened. "How did you find out?"
"Your alleged rapist knew." She walked away from him.
He instantly followed. "Alleged? You don't believe me again?"
"Well you keep lying to me." She went into the kitchen. "Getting hard to believe anything that comes out of your mouth."
"It was about one thing." He defended. "And I'm pretty sure you haven't told me all your dirty little secrets. I hardly know anything about you. It's like its some big secret."
"Don't change the subject."
"Oh c'mon Olivia tell me a secret." His voice raised. "Oh that's right. We don't talk about you."
She poured wine in a glass. "I don't lie to you."
He went over and grabbed the wine glass. "What are you doing?" he threw the wine in the sink. The glass shattered.
She instantly pushed him on his chest. "Get away from me."
"No. You want to be an alcoholic, you do it after that baby is born."
"Screw you." She pushed past him and headed to the door.
He quickly ran after her and slammed the front door shut as she tried to leave. He stood in her way. "Stop running away."
"Get out of my way William." She hissed.
"No. I'm sick of this." He answered. "You hate me? Fucking hate me then. Do it with some dignity."
She slapped him across the face. "I hate you. Is that what you wanted to hear? I hate your fucking guts William."
"Why? Because you're scared to let me in? Or because I managed to tear that wall down you built around that cold heart of yours?"
She slapped him again. He instantly grabbed her arm and pushed her against the wall. "You hate me?" He whispered.
She looked up at him. "No. I just hate that I care so much for you. You're capable of hurting me."
"Why do you let me then?"
She looked away. "Because…I tried to give you up but you have some addicting hold on me." She whispered. "Let go of me William."
"Are you going to run again?" He whispered. She shook her head. He let go of her arm. "I'm sorry."
She instantly hugged him and started crying.
"Why are you crying?" He questioned. "C'mon were not fighting anymore."
"I know." She sniffled. "Mood Swings." She answered with a small smile.
He smiled a little and gave her a kiss. "C'mon." He led her to the couch. He made her sit down. "You want food?"
"No. Can you just hold me?"
"With pleasure." He sat down by her and took her in a hug. "I would have told you…I just never wanted you to see the screwed up side of me."
She nodded. "I know. That's why I never tell you anything."
He found himself laughing at that. "We're both screw ups huh?"
"Pretty much." She looked up at him. "I love you."
"I love you too." He gave her a kiss and kept holding her.
--
The next morning, William was sitting in the kitchen reviewing papers for his meeting with the generals that he had in a couple days. Olivia and Casey were in the living room talking.
"So then he asked me out." Casey finished her story. "I don't really want to go out with him."
"Why?" Olivia questioned. "Have some fun."
"But he seems boring."
"So? William seems boring too doesn't he?" Olivia smiled. William looked up at her and shook his head then went back to his work.
Casey glanced at William. "But he has the cute shyness thing going for him."
William looked up at the two. "Not to be a bother, but you ladies realize I'm sitting right here?"
"Yeah." Casey nodded and turned back to her best friend. "And this guy is a big dork."
"Is he cute though?"
"Yeah."
They heard William let out a deep breath. Both looked over at him. "Something on your mind honey?" Olivia asked.
"Just how weird you women are." He answered and didn't look up.
"Why are we weird?" Casey asked. "Because I don't want to go out with a boring dork?"
He looked up at her. "This is none of my business, sorry for interrupting."
"No, tell me." Casey pressured.
"Because you won't give the guy a chance." He answered. "Do you not know how hard it is for a man to approach either of you? And not only because you're beautiful, it's because you hold some authority in this city. You intimidate us."
"Then how are you dating Olivia Mr. Sissy?" Casey questioned. "You weren't scared to approach her."
"Yes I was. She luckily had a crush on me first." He smiled. "She made the first move."
"Did not." Olivia defended. "You kissed me first."
"Nope. You gave me a kiss on the elevator first and you came to my apartment first and let's not forget how do you don't like rules so you kissed me on the lips." William grinned.
Olivia shrugged. "Whatever sissy."
"Ok I'll give the guy a chance, but if I'm bored out of mind, I'm blaming you Billy." Casey stated. "So are we playing that football game against the firemen league?"
Olivia pointed at her stomach. "I can't play. But you guys go for it."
Casey looked over at William reading. "What about you Billy?" Only Casey called him that and he didn't care, he corrected her a bunch of times but she wouldn't listen.
William looked up at her. "What about me?"
"Want to fill in for your baby's mama? We need a receiver."
"I don't have time. I have to go to a meeting in Virginia."
"It's only one game." She defended. "You look like you can take hits, don't be scared."
"I'm not. I was the quarterback on my high school team." He answered as he kept reading.
"Then you're quarterback. Elliot is receiver."
"I told you I can't ma'm."
Casey grabbed a pillow and threw it at him. "I told you not to call me that Billy."
"You're not going to leave me alone until I say yes are you?"
"I'm glad you're catching onto my persuading ways Billy."
"Stop calling me that ma'm." he teased with a smirk.
Casey looked over at Olivia. "You mind if I go kick your boyfriend's ass?"
"Be my pleasure." Olivia smirked.
Casey got up and went over to William. "I'll kill you." She stated and poked him in the stomach.
"Go away. You're being a brat." He stated.
Olivia rolled her eyes and watched TV. Casey and William already had a sibling relationship. They constantly picked on each other.
"You're being a punk Willy." She licked her finger and stuck it in his ear. "Wet Willy." She burst into laughter.
He groaned and pushed her hand away. "Stop. I'm working."
"I'm working." She mocked.
He gave her a mean look. She gave him the same look. He instantly picked her up and placed her on his shoulder. He got up and carried her out of the apartment.
"Oh c'mon." She complained. She slapped his butt.
"Hey!" He yelled and set her down in the hallway. He ran back to the apartment and locked the door before she could come in.
Olivia laughed a little. "If I didn't know better, I would think you two were related."
He went over to Olivia and started kissing her. "And I'm not boring." He whispered. "Just not as fun as you."
She started kissing him back on the lips. They heard a knock on the door. "Oh c'mon."
"Guys c'mon, open the door."
"Go away Novak." William called over.
"I need my purse and jacket."
Olivia handed William the purse and jacket Casey left. "Your war. Deal with it."
He took the stuff and unlocked the door. "Here. Now go away." He gave her the jacket and purse.
"I'll leave as long as you agree that you will play football for us."
"Fine. I agree. Now leave."
"Fine. Bye Liv." Casey called over. Olivia just waved. Casey left as William closed the door.
He went back to Olivia for their make out session.