Becoming Alpha
Chapter 7- Confusion
A/N: I do not own Teen Wolf.

p.s. I do not have a Beta so sorry for any mistakes

Stiles came out of his Alpha rage immediately, full control once more taking place almost seamlessly, his wolf hummed in both pleasure and confusion under his skin and Stiles eyes widened in realization, his teeth leaving Jackson's skin in a rush. Stiles stepped back a few steps, separating himself from his pack mates and put his fingers slowly to the wound on his neck, feeling the warm blood hit his fingertips and his eyes widened once again.

Jackson watched him with contended half hooded eyes, still licking the blood from his lips. Stiles took in his expression then turned slowly to look at Derek on the other side of the drive way. Derek looked wrecked, his face was still a mix of shock and horror, his eyes flicking from Stiles' neck to Jackson's. Stiles felt the same, his eyes continually being drawn to the teeth marks on Jackson's throat, his own throbbing a little as it healed.

"What..." Stiles voice was hoarse and he cleared it, everyone's eyes went to his immediately. "What the fuck Jackson? Y-you bit me, bit me!" Stiles felt his wolf come back to the surface at his anger and his eyes bled red. Jackson flinched at his tone and tilted his neck in submission, trying to quell his anger.

Stiles looked at Jackson's wounds again and felt his shoulder's slump, his anger vanishing.

"And I bit you." Stiles eyes filled with hot tears and he swiped at them angrily. "I'm sorry Jax, I couldn't control myself and I wanted...I needed a mate and Derek was so close and my wolf wanted out and I couldn't control myself." Stiles voice was turning hysterical and Jackson's and Derek's eyes both widened comically as he continued. "You must have been too close, and you're pack and you were just right there and I wanted so bad and oh my God is this permanent? Did I make you my mate forever? Shit shit shit, I am so sorry Jax, I'll understand if you hate me, please don't hate me, I can't lose you and.." Stiles took a breath to continue but Derek's angry growl stopped him, he turned to look at the man questioningly but found his red eyes glaring at Jackson instead.

Stiles looked at Jackson and saw guilt on his face, Stiles looked confusedly at both of them then turned to Peter knowing the man would explain what was going on. Peter looked at him for a moment before sighing heavily.

"Stiles, you didn't bite Jackson on accident. Jackson submitted to you in the hopes that you would claim him as a Mate, he knew what he was doing." Stiles eyes widened and he turned to Jackson in disbelief, Jackson looked him in the eyes and nodded his head in the affirmative.

Stiles felt anger pull in his stomach but pushed it down, insisting to his wolf that they needed more details. Stiles narrowed his eyes and raised his head in determination, his eyes meeting Jackson's now human blue eyes unflinchingly.

"Jackson, explain to me exactly what is going on." Stiles saw the hesitation on Jackson's face. "NOW!" Stiles put the Alpha behind his voice and Jackson''s eyes widened then he nodded stubbornly, his jaw clinched.

"Derek was too close and you were losing the battle against your wolf. Derek was going to claim you. I took you first, he doesn't deserve you. I knew your wolf was looking for a Mate, so I submitted and let you claim me and I claimed you back. I wont say I'm sorry because I'm not, and I wouldn't do anything differently." Stiles watched the emotions on Jackson's face and listened to his heartbeat, he was telling the truth, this was all willing on Jackson's part.

Stiles stared at Jackson for a few more minutes before he turned to look at Derek. Derek was still glaring murderously at Jackson, his hand clinching and un-clinching in his attempt to control his anger. Stiles watched him for a while and still felt the ache in his chest, still felt the longing that his wolf felt for Derek but it was much mellower now, it was controllable, almost non existent. Stiles started to formulate an idea but he needed more information first.

Stiles looked at Isaac and saw his lost expression, not knowing how Stiles was going to react to any of this. Stiles looked to Peter and saw his eyes were watching Stiles carefully, assessing his demeanor to see what he would do next. He looked to Danny next, still sleeping in the Jeep, but his expression was cloudy with discontent, able to feel his Alpha's fluctuating emotions. Stiles rolled his shoulders and neck in an attempt to let some of his anger go, to try and understand why Jackson took this choice from him.

"Jackson, I'm trying very hard not to be mad at you, because I know you did this to try and protect me but I don't understand. You know that this will tie you to me, will make you my Mate if we consummate it. You can't want that, can you?" Stiles tried to keep the confusion from his voice but he knows he failed, he really didn't understand why Jackson was willing to bind himself to Stiles in this way just to protect him from Derek.

Jackson and Derek both gave him a look of incredulity and Stiles shifted nervously waiting for an answer that was apparently obvious to the two other men.

"Seriously? Stiles, Jackson has wanted you forever, I could smell it on him, smell you on him for months. Every time anyone but Isaac or Peter get anywhere near you he smells like jealousy and anger. I thought he would attack me when you hugged me earlier, of course he wants this." Derek's voice was more growl then anything and Stiles listened to him in disbelief. " He saw his opportunity to have you and he took it. He isn't doing this to protect you or anything that noble, he just wants to have you to himself." Derek stalked to Jackson and just glared at him, letting his anger wash over the smaller man.

Stiles looked to Jackson, an eyebrow raised in question before balking as Jackson grinned smugly at Derek.

"I'm surprised you noticed at all, you seemed pretty oblivious to me. I mean, of course I want Stiles, he's the only person who has ever cared about me, all of me, in my entire life. Why would I give that up? I'm not going to just let Stiles be with you, even if he wants that. I wont let you have him Derek, there is no way that I will give him up to you. Of course when I realized what was going on I took advantage of it, you would have too." There was no remorse in Jackson's voice and no lie in his heartbeat.

Stiles stared in dumb confusion at Jackson, his mind whirling. His mind came to an abrupt halt however when Derek snarled loudly and threw himself at Jackson, Jackson didn't seem surprised and prepared himself for the attack. Stiles wolf panicked, seeing his Mate in danger and he felt his eyes fill with red as his anger and confusion boiled over.

Stiles was between the two wolves before any contact had been made, his roar making Jackson fall to his knees and his eyes to widen in surprise. Stiles turned to Derek and growled at him, telling him to back away. Derek looked at Stiles in anger before he nodded and backed away, his shoulders slumping in defeat. Stiles turned to Jackson his eyes still glowing red and clasped the back of his neck roughly with clawed fingers. When Stiles spoke his words were growled out and Jackson flinched back at the anger they contained.

"We will find a way to either break this bond or have it become less pronounced, we will not be consummating it. How dare you take this choice from me Jackson? How dare you? I may not have wanted Derek to claim me right now, but that doesn't mean you have any right to take that decision from me. I may change my mind and want Derek to be my mate later, after we had talked about it, after I had gotten used to the wolf underneath my skin." Stiles took a deep calming breath before his eyes faded back to their butterscotch color in the fading sunlight.

Jackson whined in the back of his throat, blood pooling on his shirt where Stiles nails dug in a little too deeply in his neck.

"Jackson, I love you as a pack mate and I always will, maybe if you had left the decision to me I would have taken you as a mate willingly, however, since you have taken this decision from me you will not have that privilege. I will find a way to break this bond, and I will find a mate, when I want one, not when anyone else thinks I need one. Is that understood Jackson?" Jackson eyes flooded with angry tears but he nodded at Stiles none the less. Stiles nodded in acceptance then let out a heavy sigh, wariness making itself known in his countenance.

"Jax, if you had just told me I might have chosen you on my own. I have very strong feelings for you and I would have given it a chance, it's just...The fact that you thought my opinion on it didn't matter, that what you were doing was best for me without my consent makes me wonder. I do love you Jax, very much, but I wont forgive you for a while." Jackson's eyes stayed firmly on the ground as he nodded in understanding, shame making his posture slump forward into Stiles' legs.

Stiles sighed again and ran a calming hand through the other man's hair, calming him with his touch. He turned wary eyes to Isaac and Peter, asking silently what to do; Isaac looked back at him and smiled hesitantly that he had reacted appropriately with Jackson. Peter nodded his head at Stiles and smirked at him and Stiles couldn't help but feel a little relieved at the confirmation.

Stiles then turned his eyes to Derek and saw the hope and confusion plain on his face and could do nothing but sigh in exaustion. Yes, his wolf still wanted Derek, even with the bond with Jackson thrumming in his veins, he knew that he couldn't run from the want forever but maybe if he put distance in he could deflect it for a while at least.

Stiles nodded to himself and removed his hand from Jackson's hair, the wolf relatively calmed down at his petting.

"Jackson, go get in the car, we're still leaving." Jackson's head snapped up in surprise before he nodded clumsily and stood to walk to his car. Stiles turned sad eyes to Isaac and nodded at his jeep, the boy understood and went to sit in his passenger seat.

Stiles eyes then turned to Peter and he saw the conflicted expression on the man's face and Stiles felt his heart ache with the thought of leaving the man behind. Peter stared into his eyes and Stiles felt his wolf tug and Stiles knew that he would be aching for months, if not years at the loss of Peter and he knew the older man would ache as well. Stiles felt tears build in his eyes and didn't fight them as he took in every feature of the man before him. He felt Peter's eyes roving over him as well, memorizing every detail while he could, his posture stiff with anxiety.

"Peter, I love you, please come visit, any time you want. I-" Stiles voice cracked and the first of his tears seared a path down his face, making his insides burn with his despair.

Peter was already nodding his eyes shining but un-blinking, unwilling to cry in front of the other wolves.

"I know Stiles, it will be like joint custody. Derek can have me for a month and then I will come to you, we can still be pack, after all I am very versatile." Peter smiled half- heartedly and Stiles coughed out a laugh that sounded more like a sob.

"Of course, I know you are. I look forward to seeing you in a month then." Stiles scrubbed stubbornly at his eyes before turning to Derek. He took in the man's features as Derek took his in, almost the same as him and Peter had done, but with more intensity, that vibrating energy just beneath both of their skins.

"Derek, I hope that maybe you will visit with Peter, sometimes and we can...talk about things, you know, future things." Stiles blushed at his failed sentence and then huffed a laugh when Derek rolled his eyes.

"Yes Stiles, I'll come see you and we can...talk" Derek's eyes flashed red in hunger before flattening out to their normal rainbow of colors leaving Stiles flustered. Stiles shrugged it off and smiled widely at the other Alpha.

Stiles felt arms wrap around him from behind and he turned and melted into the hug from Peter, memorizing his scent and hoping it would last him the month. He let go minutes later, almost having to peel himself from the older man, to get into his jeep.

Stiles drove away from the house, drove away from his old pack and looked towards the future, thoughts on settling his pack in and finding some new Betas. He would find a way to break the bond with Jackson once they reached their new home, he had a copy of the beastiary and Deaton's number.

Stiles took a deep breath as he drove out of the Beacon Hills city limits and let it out slowly. Stiles held a hand out to Isaac and felt his comforting squeeze in response. Stiles felt a smile form on his face and looked at Isaac to see him beaming at Stiles as well. Stiles laughed lightly and went back to thinking of the future and of all the ways he could be the best damn Alpha anyone had ever seen.

A/N: yes, so sorry about all of this. I will be continuing this story, I have just had a shit ton of writers block on this particular story, as you could probably tell with the shitty chapter I tried to write earlier, but I am happy with this chapter and I hope it redeems and misgivings. I hope to have the next chapter up in a week or so, thanks so much for the support!