I just realized I might end up changing the summary/Title later...Probably not, but if a better idea comes to mind I will.

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Chapter 2: Why not?

It was even one minute after I walked into the house that I had been greeted by Antonio's arms. He pulled me into a very close hug the moment I walked inside. I want to say it made me mad and I pushed him off, but usually when I come home after days like this, I don't even care.

There are days when I do enjoy his clinginess and constant showering of love. This just happened to be one of them, because that was all I'm allowed to do.

He stayed quiet for a moment then he whispered a soft, "Welcome home, mi amor." as he tightened his arms around me.

I sighed a little let my head lean against him. Like I said, I do this sometimes. We have been a couple for a few years, and everyone knew it. Hell, they knew it before it even happened.

"Are you okay?" I heard him ask, breaking me from my silent moment that I was enjoying. I nodded in reply and pulled from the hug to look at him. His face looked worried, which is weird, because usually when I come home he's giving me this face that practically transports us to the bedroom.

"Just a little tired." I mumbled in reply, receiving a kiss and a chuckle from Antonio.

"You're so cute."

"So you always tell me."

He laughed again. I rolled my eyes. I don't understand him at all, even after all of this time we've been together. I didn't get it when I was younger and I'm even more confused now.

"I made dinner while I was waiting for my cute Lovi to get home." He said.

"You didn't have to." I replied, finally realizing how good the house smelled.

"But I wanted to. You're always so tired when you get home. You deserve a break from cooking for Boss."

Did I mention he still calls himself that? All the damn time too, and it's annoying. Of course, now it's a joke because I in no way work for him.

"Bastard, stop saying it like that." I said as I finally got the chance to take off my shoes and jacket.

Antonio grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him once again. I hated this and loved it at the same time. One because he's just so sexy when he does that, and it's just amazing how it changes my mood. I hate it because I can't do anything about it!

"But it's so true, and I know how much you love it when you get to be lazy when you get home." He said while lowering his voice. "And I love it because it leaves you happy, and you're so much nicer when you're happy."

I gave him my signature "not right now" glare and tried to break free from his arms. I really wasn't going to put up with it this time, but this bastard knows all of my weaknesses.

Finally I broke free. "How about we just eat first?" I asked keeping my eyes locked on his.

Antonio flashed a hopeful smile and led me to the dining room.

After dinner, he proceeded his usual "Make Lovino as happy as possible" routine. He put in a movie and sat at the end of the couch, because I "always yell at him" when he sits to close. On a normal night, we would both end up on the same end of the couch, not paying any attention to the movie.

But tonight, I kept myself at my end. I stared at the screen, not really focusing on the movie. I was lost in my own thoughts.

However, he snapped me out of my thoughts with a question. One I had been trying to avoid.

"Lovi?" He asked carefully, scooting a little closer. "What if we could have a family?"

"We already do..." I mumbled in reply. "I have Feliciano and Marcello, and you have your brother and all of those colonies who you called family."

Antonio sighed and put his arm around me. "You know what I mean. Like, us... as," He sighed again. "Parents?"

I turned to look at him. "You know that's impossible. We can't have children, as males and countries." I lied, I wasn't ready to tell him anything yet.

"But how can we know?" He asked and pressed his forehead to mine. "It's not like we can't imagine it."

I blinked and turned back to the movie, pretending to pay attention to the movie. I didn't want to have this conversation. I almost succeeded when I felt a pair of lips on my cheek, moving down to my neck.

"Can't we at least try?" He asked in a low tone. "Even if we fail it's not like it wasn't a good attempt, right?" He finished and continued moving down my neck.

My eyes widened and I may have jumped a little. I pushed him off. "N-no..."

Antonio stopped and looked at me. "No?"

"I don't want to."

He looked at me and blinked.

"I can't give you what you want. I'm a guy, and it's impossible, Antonio." I said very seriously, looking at the ground and biting my lip. I'm a filthy liar.

"It was just a thought, Lovi. All I want is you, but I do think about it." Antonio said moving my head gently to look at him. "I think about you. Holding our child, and smiling like I've never seen you smile before. I think about you singing them to sleep. I think about you nearly killing someone when they say something about them. All I think about is you, being the best parent ever, because you're already the best lover ever."

If only you knew...

I sighed a little and laid my head on his shoulder. I might have cried a little bit.

"And I think of all of this," He continued, gently running his hand down my back. "Why not?"

I shifted away from him and pulled my knees to my chest, shaking my head. "I-I don't know. Are we really fit to be parents?"

Antonio laughed a little. "Maybe not, but I still have you right?" He moved towards me again, catching my lips with his. I let out a weak sigh and pulled away, receiving a confused look.

"Not tonight..." I whispered.

"Why not?" He asked and kissed me again. Why me? "Did I do something wrong?"

I shook my head. "No, you didn't."

"Then what's wrong, Lovi?"

"Nothing."

"Tell me, amor."

I looked at him. "No."

I saw his expression darken a little in the dim lighting that was coming from the television screen. I could tell I just made the beast angry.

"Why not?"

"Because I just don't want to!" I lied. Hell yes I wanted to.

"Why do you do this?" He asked.

"Do what?"

He moved to where he was practically over me. "You're in the best mood ever in the morning, then you come home and you're completely quiet. I just don't get it. This isn't the first time you've done this to me."

I glared at him and tried to push him off. "I have my reasons. It's not like I owe you whenever I come home."

"I just want to make you feel better again."

"There's other ways to do that besides sex, Antonio! I felt perfectly fine before you brought up the whole Family thing." I replied, finally breaking free from him and getting off of the couch.

He got up and looked at me. "Well excuse me fore voicing my thoughts. Not all of us can keep to ourselves like you."

I kept my eyes on him, not looking away at I wiped my face. It's not uncommon for us to fight sometimes. I watched him calm down a little and he walked towards me slowly, like he was afraid I would hit him.

He gently grabbed my hand. "I wish I could understand you." He whispered and kissed my cheek. "You're confusing, but I can't give you up."

I knew his plan. Antonio knows I always loosen up after a fight. Even if it was a small argument, he knows how my guard goes down slightly and he can get in easily (pun intended).

"Just not tonight." I whispered. "I don't want to think that's the only reason you keep me around."

Antonio looked at me in shock. "How many times do I have to explain this?" He asked. "I love you, Lovino. I don't pretend to love you just to do things with you. I honestly love you."

'You have a funny way of showing it." I said softly.

It was true that he loved me, I knew it. He had once asked me to marry him. I never said no, but he took it as a no. Now, years later, how much closer we've become and I never heard the question again. Not even the mention of it.

"I'll show you one day, and maybe then you'll believe me."

WOW that was longer than I expected it to be.

I don't know what to say. But I think I can pretty much finish this out pretty easily. It's gonna be nice and long... hopefully...

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