Haley stood there in complete shock, as Nathan told her everything she wanted to hear from a guy.
"So I would love it if I got to take you out, like on a date. So whaddya say Hales, will you be my girl friend?" Nathan pressed, as he had a giant smile upon his face
Haley ran her lip through her teeth, and gulped.
"Nathan. I- that was really sweet but I really wish you didn't just say that-"
She started to say and Nathan's smile instantly fell from his face.
He let out a deep sigh. "It's alright you don't have to say anything. I understand."
Haley went to put her arm on Nathan but he flinched.
"Just don't. I'm an idiot. I thought you liked me, and its too hard to hear you say no. I'm just gonna go."
Nathan said as he felt the tears burning behind his eyes.
"Nathan let me explain!" Haley cried.
"You're an amazing guy, it's just you should probably know that-" Haley started, but once again Nathan cut her off.
He shook his head furiously. "Please Hales, I can't hear you say this, it's gonna kill me. I'm just gonna go. Tell Jackson happy birthday again. I guess I'll see you around." And with that, he quickly turned around and walked to the front door.
Haley stood there in complete shock, as the words left her mouth, a little too late. "Yes." She cried, but Nathan didn't hear her because he closed the door.
She let a small tear fall from her eye, and she was about to run after Nathan, when she saw him speed away in his Range Rover.
She quickly wiped away the tear and sadly smiled. Nathan actually liked her. The smile fell once she thought about how she handled the situation. She knew it sounded like she was going to reject him but she was just going to tell him about her doubts, but in the end she wanted to say yes.
She bit her lip, when she head someone come running in.
"Nathan, Nathan! Uncle Luke and me are playing Basketball! Come play!" She heard Jackson shout.
Haley quickly turned around, and smiled.
"Where's Nathan, mamma?" Jackson pouted.
Haley gulped, "Oh he had to leave. I'm sorry baby."
Jackson's lower lip started to quiver. "Why?"
"He had to take care of something, but he said 'Happy Birthday' though." She explained.
Jackson furrowed his brows together. "Aw man! I wanted to play with him!"
Haley gave her son a sad smile. "I'm sorry."
"Do you think he will come back?"
Haley frowned, "I don't think so."
Jackson pouted, and started to well up with tears. "Oh."
Haley felt her heart break for her son. This was the first time he got close to someone, and like an idiot, she pushed him away.
Jackson quickly turned around and ran back outside to share the news with his uncle.
Haley couldn't control the tears that were falling from her eyes, she knew she made a big mistake, and that Nathan must hate her.
"Hales, where are you?" She heard Lydia call.
She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, hoping that it wasn't evident that she had been crying,
"In here." She choked.
"So are you and Nathan together yet?" Lydia joked.
Haley rolled her eyes, and frowned. "No, and now we probably never will be."
Lydia frowned. "What do you mean?"
"He just asked me out and i blew it!" Haley cried into her mothers arms.
Lydia slowly rubbed her daughters back, "Why bub? I thought you liked him."
"I do!" She cried.
"Then what happened?"
"I was just completely shocked, and it sounded like I was going to say no, so he just left!"
"How come?"
"Because I'm an idiot, and I don't know how to express emotions!" Haley shouted emotionally.
Lydia pulled out of the embrace with her daughter. "Why'd he leave?"
"I- I- I don't know, I guess he was afraid that- that I would say no. Nathan just poured his heart out to me, and I told him that I wish he didn't say that." Haley stuttered.
Lydia smacked the back of Haley's head, playfully. "Haley James! Why would you tell him that?"
Haley rubbed her head. 'I told you, Mom, I'm not good with expressing emotions, okay. I was scared as hell!"
Lydia hugged Haley again. "You need to tell him how you feel! I saw the way you two looked at each other, and if you don't go after him then you're crazy! And why are you so scarred? He likes you!"
Haley wiped her tears. "Because if I go out with him, then I have to tell him my past. I had no idea that he was going to pour his heart out! It just made everything so real! I was about to tell him that I had a dark past and that he wouldn't want to date me if he knew, but he never gave me a chance to explain because he freaking left!"
Lydia cupped her daughters cheek. 'You have nothing to be scarred about. If Nathan really likes you, he will accept your past. Listen to me. One day you're going to look back at this and laugh because you're going to marry him, and then I'm going to say 'I told you so!'" Lydia joked.
Haley cracked a small smile. "Mom!"
Lydia chuckled. "Just wait. Now c'mon enjoy the party, and then you better tell him! Understand me?"
Haley smiled. "Okay. Thank you Mom. I love you."
"Love you too, baby girl."
Nathan sped down the street with tears in his eyes. He was afraid to turn the radio on because he knew that some stupid song would come on and remind him of Haley.
He let curiosity get the best of him, and turned the radio on, hoping it would be a rap song, but instead, it was some cheesy romance song, and he rolled his eyes, because the song basically described his pathetic life.
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
Nathan quickly pressed the 'off' button as he couldn't control the tears that fell from his eyes. He didn't know why he was acting like a baby, but his hopes were crushed. He was so sure that Haley would say yes, and he was so excited, that he even planned their first date already. Nathan was never rejected by a woman before, so this was all new to him. He would've rather been denied sex by some random slut, than a relationship with Haley. Nathan was a very guarded person, and he never poured his emotions out to anybody before tonight. He let his emotions run free around Haley, and he wanted to tell her how much he cared about her.
Nathan shook his head. He didn't want to think about her anymore. He couldn't believe how pathetic he was being. He fell in love with a woman who didn't even feel the same way. He never would have thought that he would be the type to fall in love, and now that Haley didn't feel the way he knew he should move on but he couldn't. There was something about her, that he needed to know. Now that she rejected him, it just made him want her ten times more. He grabbed his aviator sun glasses from his car and put them over his eyes, so that no one would see his blood shot eyes. Nathan walked into the place that he belonged, A bar. When he entered he quickly scoped the place out for any attractive girls, but he couldn't because none of them were Haley. With that thought, Nathan scuffled his feet toward the bar and ordered a shot of Whiskey. He needed to get drunk in order to get over Haley. He hoped that maybe he would revert to his old ways and sleep with a random girl so he could heal the pain in his heart.
Brooke found Haley sitting on a hammock outside, with a solemn look upon her face.
"Hales, I'm really sorry about everything! Please just let me make it up to you, I know I was wrong-" Brooke started, and Haley looked at Brooke as tears fell from her eyes.
"Brooke!" Haley cried, and Brooke suddenly stopped her rant and looked at her broken best friend.
"Are you okay?"
"I'm an idiot." Haley sighed.
"Why?"
"Nathan told me that he liked me-"
Brooke quickly jumped up and shrieked. "Oh My God! When? Where? What'd he say? What'd you say!?"
Haley sadly smiled. "Brooke, calm down. Don't get excited."
"Why?" Brooke asked knitting her brows together.
"Because I blew it."
"What the hell Hales! I thought you liked him!"
"I did- I mean, I do, but he left before I could say it."
"I'm confused." Brooke declared, and Haley quickly told her the story.
"Why would you do that Hales? He poured his heart out to you, and that's what you did!"
Haley frowned. "I know! I made a mistake, I'm gonna tell him. I called him, but his phone's off."
"Shit!" Brooke muttered. "I need to find him! He better not be at a bar!"
Haley sat up, as she watched Brooke scurry around trying to pick up her belongings.
'why?" Haley asked.
"Because when he drinks- something bad always happens!"
Haley suddenly began to feel worried, "What do you mean?"
"He only drinks when he's upset, and then he gets drunk, and it's not good. I need to find him!" Brooke cried.
"Let me go with you!" Haley declared.
"No, if he's drunk, I don't want you to see him like that. I'll call you!" And with that, Brooke ran to her car, and left a confused Haley standing alone in her backyard.
Nathan didn't know how long he had been sitting at the bar, or how much he had to drink, but he knew he was there for a while, and he was completely wasted.
"'Notha beeer puleze" He slurred to the bartender.
The bar tender chuckled, "I think you've had more than enough tonight, man."
"Whatever, it seems to be numbing the- the- the- pain." Nathan stuttered.
"What's her name?" The bartender asked.
Nathan looked up from his empty beer. "Who?"
The bartender shook his head and laughed, "You're obviously pining over some girl."
Nathan frowned. "She's not some girl."
"Tough break up?"
Nathan scoffed, "Rejected. I need more beer."
Owen, the bartender frowned. "Liquor may dull the pain for a little while, but tomorrow you're going to wake up with a hangover and a broken heart."
Nathan rolled his eyes, "Whatever, I just wanna forget, Hal- Holly, no Haley."
Owen chuckled, "I think you should sleep on it, it'll take time, but you'll get over her."
Nathan shook his head, "What if she's the one?"
"Hold up, aren't you Nathan Scott?"
Nathan smirked. "The one and only."
"I thought you didn't do relationships?" Owen asked.
Nathan shrugged. "I wanted to, but- but- the girl I want, doesn't want- want me."
Owen smiled, "So what are you gonna do man?"
"Drink myself to death." Nathan slurred.
Owen rolled his eyes, "You're acting like a girl. Look man, the only advice I can give you is that she's not worth it. If she doesn't like you, why waste your time?"
Nathan noticed a half empty shot glass next to him and took it. He drowned the alcohol back, and smiled. "You're right, Thhankks, duuude."
Owen nodded, and went back to other customers, while Nathan sat on a stool with his head in his hands.
Suddenly he felt a small hand on his back, and he quickly looked up praying that it would be Haley- but it wasn't.
"Not in the mood." Nathan spat at the familiar red head.
Rachel chuckled, "Same girl that you're crying over? That's pathetic."
Nathan scoffed, "Go away."
Rachel leaned over Nathan, and kissed his cheek. "Look, I think the best way to heal a broken heart is to find someone else willing to fix it. I'm willing to get your mind off of her for the night." Rachel said as she straddled Nathan's lap.
At this point Nathan didn't even want to put up a fight because he knew he would never get someone as great as Haley, so he wanted to go back to his old ways; drinking and sleeping with random women, because that was the best he could do.
Nathan grabbed Rachel and kissed her furiously, hoping that he would feel some kind of sparks, but all he tasted was alcohol.
Rachel slowly pulled away, took out paper and a pen and scribbled on it. "Here's my address, meet me there in 20 minutes." Rachel smirked as she handed the paper to Nathan.
Nathan gave her a drunk smile. "Okay." And Rachel slowly swayed her hips toward the door. Nathan watched for a few seconds, but he instantly compared her to Haley.
Shut Up, get over that bitch, no she's not a bitch. Just go to Rochelle's house. Right, was the her name? Rose? Rockelle? Reese? Whatever, I'll just pretend it's Haley. Stop! Forget about her! Haley naked... Oh shit! Think of something else! Grandma, ew, Mom, Dad, Lucas, Haley in the shower, stop! Rachel! That's her name! She was okay looking. Haley was a better kisser though. Stupid Rachel doesn't even turn me on. Haley does though. Sex on her desk. Shit that's hot. I need to find Rachel!
Nathan quickly walked out of the bar, but collided with someone on the way out.
"Nathan Scott! I've been looking everywhere for you! Let's go!" Brooke shouted, and Nathan groaned.
"I need to find Rachel." He slurred.
"Who the hell is Rachel?"
"Haley's substitute for the night."
Brooke looked at Nathan like he had five heads, "What?"
"I need to go Brooke."
"No I'm bringing you home! Let's go!"
"I don't wannna!" Nathan cried.
"Nathan quit acting like a three year old!"
"Wait a second. I'm mad at you!" Nathan slurred at Brooke, and she rolled her eyes.
"I don't care, but I won't let you jeopardize your relationship with Haley."
" I DON'T HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER!" Nathan shouted.
"If you didn't leave she would've said yes! But you're an idiot Nathan! Go get your girl!"
"She made it clear that she was going to reject me. I don't want to hear it, let me go Brooke. I'm walking home."
"I'm not letting you." Brooke said dragging Nathan to her car.
"I'm serious! Let me go!" Nathan said.
"Fine you know what? I don't care! I'm trying to help! Be a stubborn ass hole!" Brooke screamed.
Nathan snickered, "Bye Brookie." and with that, she drove off, leaving Nathan to pass out on a couch in the back of the bar.
The next day, Nathan woke up with a massive head ache, and a bad back pain, as well as a tight feeling in his boxers. He didn't remember his dreams but he assumed it had to do something with Haley on a desk. Nathan shook his head, and drove home. He spent the rest of the day on his couch, drinking beer, and playing NBA live.
Haley woke up and instantly called Brooke.
After about three rings, Brooke finally picked up.
"Hello?" Haley heard her say.
"Brooke! Did you find him?"
"Yup!" Brooke said.
"Is he okay? Where is he now?"
"He's wasted, and I don't know where he is."
"What! I thought you brought him home!" Haley shrieked.
"No he insisted that he didn't need me, so I left him."
"Brooke! Are you crazy! He was wasted, and you left him there? What's wrong with you?"
"I'm sure he called Rachel or someone else."
Haley bit her lip, "Who's Rachel?"
"I'm not sure but he said he was going to her house. Don't worry, I'm sure he's fine."
"I need to call him! Bye Brooke!" Haley said and quickly hung up the phone, and instantly dialed Nathan's number.
As she assumed, his phone was off, and she left three voice mails as well as five texts. She contemplated going to his house, but she didn't know where he lived and she wanted to give him time to himself, and decided she would tell him at work tomorrow.
Haley looked around the parking lot to try and find Nathan's car but his normal parking space was vacant, so Haley frowned.
Once she signed In she walked past the gym and as she assumed Nathan wasn't in his office. The bell rang and she went to her first class, deciding that Nathan was probably running a little late and she would see him at lunch. At 12 o'clock she went to the gym and noticed a red head in Nathan's office, but Nathan was still absent.
"Hi excuse me is mr. Scott around?" Haley asked politely.
The red headed woman looked up from her phone, "nope he's absent, I'm the sub."
Haley but her lip, "do you know why he's absent?"
The woman smirked, "probably because he was out having hot sex all night."
Haley rolled her eyes. "Right. Well I'm gonna go now, thanks for your help."
The red head gave Haley a fake smile "sure glad to help."
Haley quickly walked to her car and decided she was going to go to Nathan's house. She called Lucas and he told her his address but he also told her that when he went to check on Nathan last night, he didn't open the door. This got Haley worried so she sped off to his house hoping that he would answer.
Nathan was lying on his couch with his eyes closed but he couldn't fall asleep. A few minutes later he heard a knock on the door and assumed it was Lucas. He rolled his eyes and when the knocking wouldn't stop he finally got up.
"What the hell do you want pucas?" Nathan spat as he opened the door.
Haley stood there biting her lip and remained quiet.
"Oh. It's you. Sorry thought you were Luke." Nathan explained when he saw the beautiful woman in front of him.
Haley smiled. "How are you?"
Nathan scoffed. "Why do you care?"
Haley frowned, "Nathan, I care about you a lot. Why are you acting like this?"
Nathan rolled his eyes. "Yeah right! You don't care about me the way I care about you!"
Haley sighed, "Nathan stop acting like a baby! First of all I'm not even worth pining over!"
Nathan smirked, "don't flatter yourself sweet heart! I'm not pining over you. I know you're not worth it."
Nathan's heart constricted when he told Haley the biggest lie he had ever told.
Haley felt the tears brimming in her eyes, "you don't mean that. You're just drunk."
"You don't know me Haley."
Haley looked at her feet, "yes I do."
"Well did you know my grandma died yesterday? That's why I'm like this. Not because you rejected me. So like I said don't flatter yourself. All I wanted was a piece of ass, looks like you need some too." Nathan forced himself to be an ass to Haley because it made everything so much easier, when in reality he never would want to hurt Haley, but for his own selfish reasons he needed to act like this.
Haley was deeply hurt but she was concerned as well. "I'm sorry about your grandma Nathan."
Nathan looked deep into her big eyes and his heart broke again. "Why are you being nice to me? I told you that all I wanted to do was sleep with you! " Nathan shouted.
Haley wiped the tears that were threatening to spill from her eyes, "I don't know."
"Why are you even here Haley?"
"Because I care about you Nathan! You know what? Forget it. I'm out of here. Don't drink to much Nathan. I'm worried about you." Haley frowned.
Nathan shook his head, "whatever."
Haley didn't want Nathan to see her break down so she quickly turned around and walked back to her car as the tears streamed down her face. She choked out a loud sob and put her head in her hands. She took a deep breath and sped back to work, realizing she would be late. She couldn't think about Nathan, her head and her heart hurt to much. When she was walking back to her class she noticed the red headed woman that was in Nathan's office again, and the woman noticed Haley crying.
"Did you just go see Nathan?" The woman asked.
Haley furrowed her brows. "Is that any of your business?"
"Well he is my boyfriend."
Haley laughed sardonically, "you wish."
Rachel looked in Haley's eyes. "Well not yet, but he will be."
"Good luck with that."
"I don't need luck. We already slept together."
"I'm sure you did."
"I'm serious. Once on Saturday and once last week. I helped him get over some chick."
Haley felt the tears burning in her eyes. "You're lying."
"No I'm not. I can tell you everything. He was at a bar pining over some chick named holly or something, and I seduced him. He's long over her by now. Let me tell you something whoever that chick was is missing out on the best sex ever! We wen at it all night-" Rachel ranted and Haley quickly ran out of the office in tears. She felt her heart being ripped out of her chest. She hated herself for falling for Nathan's stupid game. She never believed anyone who said Nathan was a bad guy, and she believed with all her heart that he changed. But here he was- proving her wrong. She felt like the biggest idiot in the world.