This chapter I am not 100% proud of. I mean I like the way I wrote it but I have the setting and stuff all wrong. I don't wanna rewrite it... So here you go.

Chapter 32: Pain and treasure...

That was it.

My own heart was shattered...

While my Lovino's heart had stopped. It was over. The one person who was keeping me tied to this Earth was gone. All I had left of him was my memories, and our precious child who I haven't even gotten to see yet. I can't blame Dantè. He didn't ask to be brought into this world. He didn't do anything.

I bit down on my lip and I felt my whole body began to shake. The tears streamed down my face. I don't cry easily, not lately anyway. I've never really cried during a sad movie, a sad book, or even at TV show series finales (Although Supernatual has almost reduced me to tears once, but Lovino cried enough for both of us...)

But this. This pain. The thought that I would never see his smile again, hear his laughter again, or just feel his warmth when I hold him. It was all gone...

I had feared this would happen. It was an actual concern of mine that his male body wouldn't be able to go through something like labor. Even if it was a (unnatural) natural birth. If we hadn't wanted children so badly, I bet none of this would have ever happened. It's not fair that Lovino doesn't get to watch Dantè, the child he wanted so badly, grow up.

I don't even know if I'm cut out to be a single father!

I could hear it all going down in the next room. My hopes were growing dim. I could almost feel everything shattering inside of me. I imagined Ita calling me and telling me he feels different. I guess he really is Italy now.

No longer Italy Veneziano... Just Italy.

Because Italy ROMANO was no more, and they were doing everything they could to help him. The heart of Rome, that beat inside my Lovino was-

"He's back!"

"We're lucky that wasn't long enough to cause any damage..."

"He is a country personification, sir."

(Again, I'm translating...)

I may or may not have shot out of the office when I heard those words. I could barely see over the small crowd of medical professionals that surrounded Lovino.

Sure enough, I could see the very small rise and fall of his chest. The machines all shown a heartbeat. My whole expresion changes as the empty feeling inside of me filled witht this overwhelming joy. Like a little kid who just got what he wanted for his birthday.

"Mr. Spain?" Dr. Almaz asked when he saw me behind the crowd. He motioned for me to approach. "Let him in."

The nurses soon moved out of the way, and returned to their duties. All that was left in the room was Dr. Pinasco, Dr. Almaz, Lovino, me... and a newborn baby, smaller than normal babies, but bigger than what I had expected... My baby. Mi pequeño Dantè...

He was small, and squirmy, and all red and pudgy like a tomato.

"He is surprisingly healthy and developed considering the circumstances." Dr. Pinasco commented. "And Mr. Romano seems to be doing fine now, he should wake up any time soon. That was a lot of stress on his body. You understand he and the infant will have to stay here for at least a week. So we can monitor them both."

"I understand." I whispered, unable to move my eyes away from my child. I leaned in a little closer. "Hola, Dantè..."

"Dantè?" Dr. Almaz asked. "Is that his name?"

"Sí. Lovino picked it out. Dantè Fernandez-Vargas." I replied. His last name was perfect. Father's first last name (For normal circumstances it was the family name.), and -ahem-mother's last name. "Born on October seventh..."

The two doctors exchanged a small smile with each other. The clock read 6 a.m.,and for once I wasn't tired to be awake this early. The past two hours had been so busy that I didn't care how long I had been awake or how long I would have to stay here.

Both Lovino and Dantè were alive. Healthy for the most part.

"Most of the time, when a child is premature the lungs are underdeveloped and they have trouble breathing. He doesn't seem to have that problem." Dr. Almaz pointed out, looking at Dantè.

"It is safe to hold him, right?" I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to wait until Lovino woke up to pick him up but I just can't resist it!

"Of course."

Reaching down I slowly picked him up. He was wrapped up in the hospital blankets with the hat on his head to keep him warm. He is small, and not as pudgy as a normal baby. I don't care. He was mine and Lovino's. The one who lived.

And he was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen.

"We'll come back later to check on everyone." Dr. Pinasco said, gently nudging Dr. Almaz from the room. They closed the door behind them, and everything was silent. Nothing but the breathing of the two loves of my life, and the quiet beeping of a machine they had hooked up to Lovi.

I let out a small laugh, trying not to be loud and interupt the sleeping angel in my arms. It was that moment when he moved a little. With a small baby grunt, he opened his eyes, they weren't focused on me, I know that. But it was like he was looking right at me, and they were green.

"Dios..." I whispered, it was like a tiny me. Of course, he had this pouty look on his face that reminded me of Lovi.

Speaking of Lovi...

I waited a minute for Dantè to close his eyes again before I laid him back down and stepped over to Lovi's side. He didn't move at all, when I grabbed his hand, lightly kissing his kinda sweaty forehead.

"He's beautiful, mi amor." I whispered. "You should wake up and meet him..."

WELP!

I guess I can give out happy cookies now!

I hope you guys liked this part!

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