Chapter 14 – Ending it
I remember sitting in my room at home having just got back from the place for disturbed teenagers as I was apparently 'cured' but nothing would ever cure me, the one only one way out and today it was going to happen.
I was going to commit suicide and this time succeed, I wrote a note to my beloved family , it was time for them to know the truth the note said
'I want you to know this is none of your faults, I love you all more than words can ever describe, mum, I love how strong you are with everything you have been through, Dyns I love how you are basically Barbie and shopping with you and my sweetie Kace you're my best friend in the whole world, PLEASE never change, but I was too badly hurt and damaged, I wasn't lying about dad hurting me and if I stayed I would not recover anyway and he would always be there, so I had to end it, don't be sad I am safe now and will never hurt again.
I miss you so much
Your Barry Barry xx
I went to the bathroom and took everything I needed, I wanted to be found so I left the door unlocked just hoping it wouldn't be one of my sisters, and I could do it now as they were all out, I stroked the picture of me with my girls taking one last look at their beautiful faces before I will never see them again, my mum, so strong and though can be horrible at times loves us kids more than life itself and is there through everything, My gorgeous Dynasty, so girly but so fiercely loyal of those she loves and so supportive, I will miss our fighting we both loved it really, it was our way of bonding, and My gorgeous Baby Kacey, so amazing in every way, nothing was more thrilling to me than playing football with her for hours on end, I will never forget them days when it was just the two of us they were the best days of my life.
I had tears running down my face and I had never being so scared in my life, but the was nothing left for me here, I picked up the gun the one I found in the shed all that time ago and put it to my head, I whispered 'I love you' to the air and then closing my eyes pulled the trigger.
XX
The Barry's returned home and it was Carol that found her little boy, her only boy dead on the floor, she cried and thought she was dreaming trying to shake him awake and thinking she would wake up soon, Dynasty and Kacey fell apart too, Dynasty and Carol cried for hours but poor Kacey was in too much shock she just sat there for hours in silence doing nothing, they read the note and all their relationships with Neil Barry ended that day but he would know he had won.
His funeral was beautiful the whole school turned up and on his gravestone it said 'Our Barry Barry the one and only, we all love you' he would of loved the funeral all the attention focused on him, Kacey finally fell apart when giving the speech she couldn't get through it but everyone knew what she meant she didn't have to say it but she still mangered to get through half of it
'My Brother was known as a bully and a troublemaker, but he was my hero, he was loyal and there through everything, he comforted me through the bad times and was there to play football with me at weekends and'
That was when she broke down
The family never got over his death but learned to live again and Neil Barry was send down for life for child abuse and causing murder, he had won but at least Barry Barry would never hurt again.