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AN: FYI all the pregnancy/ fertility drugs stuff I kind of made up. I did a quick Google search, but by no means is what I write totally accurate Anyway, hope you enjoy!

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Callie's POV

It has been six weeks since Arizona's initial doctor's appointment. As we thought, everything was fine and the doctor, Dr. Caplan, was able to start Arizona on some fertility drugs to get her body ready. I administered the shot to Arizona everyday for the required amount of time before we went back into the office three weeks later for the first insemination. We decided on artificial insemination because it was what Dr. Caplan recommended for us right now, if for some reason it doesn't work after multiple tries he talked to us about the possibility of trying IVF. Hopefully we won't have to try too many times. The conversation on what kind of donor we wanted was easy. Arizona wanted someone with a clean bill of health, of course, as well as a Latino and someone who looked like me so our child would be as close as a combination of the two of us as possible. I agreed and we thought it would also be beneficial for Sofia to have a sibling who looked like her. Even so, we could very well still have a child that took after Arizona strongly and that was okay too. We both know that the Latino gene will probably dominate, the chances that we have a blonde, blue-eyed baby are slim, but whatever the baby looks like we will both be happy because it will be our baby. Dr. Caplan explained to us that the chances are slim for it to work on the first try, and I told her personally at home the same thing. We both were excited, but didn't get our expectations too high. Even so, when Arizona took a pregnancy last week and the outcome was negative we were both disappointed.

Last Week

Arizona placed the pregnancy test on the bathroom counter and started her phone timer "So now we wait."

"In a few minutes our life could change, babe!" I say from my seat on the edge of the bathtub."

"Has it been two minutes?"

"Arizona it's been fifteen seconds, if even!"

"Ugh, this is annoying. I need a distraction! Distract me, Callie." She says walking up to me and putting her hands on my shoulders.

"Okay…what did you and Sofia do today?"

"We did some coloring, watched a little television…we made lunch together, and went into town for some errands. I got us a puzzle! I love puzzles, we then came back and worked on that, but she got bored after five minutes, she had a nap, then we made dinner together again for you. Then you came home. We live a simple life; it's you that's working hard at the hospital all day.

I pull her down to sit on my one my legs and wrap my arms around her waist, "All I so is save lives…soon you'll be back in front of a classroom teaching America's youth. Huge responsibility."

"Yeah, yeah I guess…I still have six weeks left of break. I think Sofia is getting spoiled with all of our quality time."

"I'm jealous you guys get to hang out all the time."

"We miss you, it sucks that you work so damn much sometimes."

"I know, I'm sorry. Trust me, I much rather be here with you guys. When the baby comes I'll take off time."

"We would really like that." Arizona says giving me a kiss, it doesn't get a chance to deepen because the phone beeps letting us know that the time is up. "You get it. I don't want to look." She says nervously.

"You don't want to look?" I ask amused.

"I mean I do, but I want you to first." She says getting up so I can stand up. I go over to the counter and pick up the stick. I look at Arizona and she's waiting for my reaction. The stick reads negative, but I can't think of how to tell Arizona. She was really excited for all this, and so was I. "Callie? What does it say?"

"I'm sorry, babe. We can try again, we knew this was a possibility, right?"

"Say it." She says quietly.

"Arizona…I don't want to."

"Please, Callie…"

"It's negative. I'm sorry, Arizona." I quickly cross the distance between us and wrap her up in a hug.

"I'm sorry, Calliope."

I push her back and grab her shoulders, "Hey, look at me." She raises her glance at me and I see her blue eyes that I love so much on the brink of tears, "It's not your fault, okay? I really need you to understand that, Arizona. We can try again when you want, but know that you couldn't have done anything differently. It's rare that everything works perfectly on the first try."

"I know, but I just thought…I don't know, things would be different for us. We did everything right, and I felt good, ya know?"

"I know, it's going to happen though. It will just take some time. Some couples have to wait years and years. We are just getting started. We can try a few more cycles before looking at other options. We are going to have another baby, Arizona. Don't get discouraged."

"I'm sorry…I don't know why I'm acting like this. We knew this could happen."

"It's okay to be sad, I'm sad too. What can I do?"

"I just want to lie down in bed. Are you off tomorrow?"

"I don't have to be in until the afternoon, we can go out to breakfast with Sof if you want. We haven't done that in a while."

"Yeah, that would be fun. Let's go lie down." She says pulling me into the bedroom with her. She settles down into her side and I lean down to give her another kiss.

"I'm just going to go get some ice-cream for us. That usually makes us happy."

"Mhmmm, ice-cream. Sounds perfect. I love you, you know that?"

"I do, and I love you too. I'll be right back."

"Hurry!"

Present Day

A week has passed since the first failed attempt and we are back to our regular selves. Arizona is going back on the fertility drugs next week so we can try again. Right now I'm looking for a few minutes of rest before finishing the last couple of hours of my shift. I found an empty on-call room on the orthopedic floor and have successfully locked myself in here. I lie down on the small bed and relax into the mattress. I pull out my phone and realize I have four-missed text from Arizona.

"Calliope…"

"I was thinking about you earlier"

"In the shower…all alone. It made me think about the last time we took a shower together…" A couple of days ago Arizona joined me in the shower before work and I couldn't resist my naked and wet fiancée. Ten minutes was all we needed, although I would've loved to have more time with her. We have been lacking some consistent quality time. Usually when I come home we have a couple of hours before we go to bed and then I have to be in early. Then of course I get paged in the middle of the morning, so we've been absent in personal time. Not only with Arizona, but Sofia too. I don't realize how fortunate I am to have Arizona around because I would feel even guiltier if I've been putting Sofia in daycare all this time. After tonight, I will have a couple days off and I plan on spending all my time with my girls.

"I wish you were here with me. Love you. Text me when you can."

The messages were sent an hour ago, but I reply anyway hoping she's by here phone.

"Just got your messages…was in surgery. I wish I were there too."

"Third time this week you missed dinner." Usually I would be home by now, but being an attending means I need to teach interns. That has been the major difference for me between being a resident and an attending. The Chief has got on my ass about not teaching and putting in enough time with the interns, so I've been staying back a few hours a week to help them. It's annoying, but part of the job so I do it. None of them will be as good a surgeon as me, but I try to help them as much as I can.

"I know, I know…sorry. Pretty much caught up on my intern teaching hours, I'll be coming home earlier next week."

"Good. I could've used your help in the shower. It's no fun doing it alone."

"Tonight it's you and me. Promise."

"We shall see Dr. Torres..."

"What did you do to yourself?"

"Oh, wouldn't you like to know. Maybe I'll show you when you come home. ;)"

"Fine. Two, three hours tops! What are you doing now?"

"About to give Sofia a bath…then story and bedtime."

"Give her a kiss for me and tell her I love her. I'll be home as soon as possible."

"Will do. See you soon."

I put my phone back down and close my eyes for ten minutes before my phone interrupts me. I don't recognize the number, but decide to answer anyway.

"Hello?" There is some static and movement in the background that is making it a little hard for me to hear who is on the other side of the receiver.

"Callie, can you hear me?"

"Uh, barely. Who is this?"

"One sec…" The noise calms down, and I can finally hear the other person clearly, "Callie, hey. It's Tim! I got your letter!" He says a little out of breath.

"Tim! Hey! How are you? It's so good to hear your voice."

"Yeah, you too. I'm good, trying to stay out of harms way. I got you letter regarding Arizona, but it was a little vague. Is everything okay?"

"Everything is great. I didn't want to say too much in the letter because I thought it would be better if I talked to you over the phone."

"Understandable…I don't have much time to talk, so what's up?"

"Right, of course. Long story short I asked Arizona to marry me and she said yes! I'll let her tell you all the details, we've put the wedding on hold because she wants you there to dance with her."

"First of all, congrats! Arizona told me she was going to propose to you, but I guess you beat her to the punch. It might be a while before I come home, so tell Arizona don't hold anything off for me. I'm sure we will find a time to celebrate when I get back."

"I know, but she really wants you there. My reason for writing you is to see if you can get some time off to come home? Anytime would be enough. She really wants this, Tim and I want to give it to her."

"I'll see what I can do. The time has to be approved, so it may be a few weeks to a couple of months before I can get a definite answer and date to come home."

"Okay, well you just handle stuff on your end and let me know as soon as you can."

"Callie, how do you plan and putting together a wedding without her noticing?"

"I have a few ideas, as long as you show up everything will be fine."

"Alright, I trust you. Look, I'll put in my request for time off and I'll either call you back or e-mail you."

"Thank you so much, Tim!" I say enthusiastically.

"Anything for you and Arizona. I have to go, but take care of Arizona and I'll be in touch."

"Of course, stay safe."

"I will…oh and Callie?"

"Yeah?"

"How is she doing?" Tim asks genuinely concerned, "I know she doesn't like when I'm away."

"She's handling herself. It's the one part she has trouble letting me in, but I'm watching out for her."

"Thank you. Tell Sofia her Uncle Tim said hi…you know, when she's not around Arizona. I hope I can pull this off for you two."

"I will…just show up and be ready to dance. Everything else will be handled."

"Great…I trust you, Callie. Hopefully I'll see you guys soon!"

"Can't wait! Thanks, Tim!"

"Sure thing…gotta go! Love you guys, bye!"

"Bye!" I was totally not expecting that call, but I'm glad I was around to answer. Hopefully he can get time off and can come to our wedding. Now I just have to make sure everything comes together nicely. I probably won't have a lot of time from when Tim tells me he's coming home, to when he finally arrives. Tim sounded good over the phone. I truly hope he's taking care of himself because so many people want him to come home safely; I know I do. Hopefully Arizona won't hate me too much if I plan the wedding without her. I'm thinking about asking her small questions here and there to see what she would like. I think I may need to contact Barbara, I'm sure she'll be willing to help. It seems that I won't be getting a few minutes of sleep because my pager goes off. I'm working on my second case with Jordan since she's been here. Oddly enough we've been getting along and all personal stuff has been left to the side. I hope it can stay that way, Jordan was never a malicious person but I still wouldn't put something past her.

"Mama!" Sofia yells when I walk into my bedroom. My consult with Jordan was quick and I was able to leave the hospital early. I make my way over the Sofia who is sitting on Arizona's lap getting her hair brushed.

I pick her up and give her a big kiss on the cheek, "Hey big girl!" I give Arizona a kiss on her forehead as well.

"You're home early."

"I missed you guys and I haven't read Sof a story in bed in a while. I'm glad you guys are still up."

"You're in luck, I was about to read her a night time story, but since you're here you can do it. What do you think, Sof?"

"Mama read me night story?"

"Yea, Sof. Is that okay with you?"

"Yes! Yes! Yes!" She says wigging out of my arms. I put her down and she pulls my hand and leads me to her room.

"I'll be right back." I throw over the shoulder to my fiancée who just gives me a smile and nod in acknowledgement.

"Mama I paint today!" Sofia says with delight. "Mommy help me too!"

"She did, huh? I can't wait to see it." Thirty minutes later I return to my bedroom and flop down on the bed on my back.

"Tired much?" Arizona teases.

"A little, I swear I've never heard Sof talk to much."

"I just think she misses you. She's been asking why you aren't at dinner. I tell her you're at work, but that answer doesn't work any more. She doesn't understand why work would prevent you from having dinner with us."

"Stupid interns. I should be back to a more consistent schedule next week. I don't like missing dinner either; the hospital food is nothing to brag about. I told Sof to think about what she wants to do tomorrow since I have the day off." I move up the bed and lie my head down in Arizona's lap and look up at her. "How was your day?"

"It was good. I got my teaching assignment for the upcoming school year."

"That's cool, what did you get?"

"I'm still teaching history, but now I'm teaching seniors."

"That should be interesting. Are you okay with that?"

"Yeah, I like teaching older kids. They are more mature and laid back; at least I was as a senior."

"All I kept thinking about was college, after I submitted all my applications I just coasted through senior year, all the stress was gone. When do you start?"

"All teachers have to come in for teacher orientation in a couple of weeks, and then classes start in just under a month. I'm excited to see Teddy again; she's been traveling with Henry ever since Sof's birthday party. Maybe I'll even be pregnant by then." She says cheerfully.

"You might just be! You go back on your fertility drugs next week, then we can take another pregnancy test two weeks after that."

"I hope it works this time."

"Everything will happen in due time. I promise." I get off the bed and pull Arizona up with me. "Now I need to take a shower, and I think you should join me."

"Callie, I took one like two hours ago."

"I know, but then you texted me that you were alone and thinking about me in the shower. Then pictures of you all naked and wet popped in my head and I haven't been able to get them out since. Plus, this time I can help you out…" I say with a sly smile.

"I don't know…I think I did an okay job by myself." She playfully jokes.

"Why settle for 'okay' when you can have awesome, mind-blowing, and incredible with me?"

"I see someone is mighty sure of themselves." Arizona laughs, "I guess I'll give you a chance to prove yourself."

"Good! Now let's go." I say pulling her into the bathroom with me. Ten minutes later the bathroom is filled with steam and I have Arizona pushed up against the shower wall, next to the running water, with my mouth attached to hers. One of my thighs is pushed between her legs and I can feel her grind down on it. I move to the pulse point on her neck and instantly hear a moan come from her pink lips. With one hand on her hip, the other begins to massage one of her breast. I flick my thumb over her nipple and that elicits a yelp from Arizona.

"Callie…"

"Hmm?"

"Your mouth…I want your mouth on me." I leave her neck and take as much of her as I can into my mouth and swirl my tongue over her nipple. "Oh yesss Callie…that feels so good." After a few minutes I give her other breast the same attention before kissing my way down her slick body and kneeling before her. I look up at Arizona and all I see in return is lust filled eyes and a panting, glistening body.

"God, you're gorgeous, Ari. I love you so much, baby."

"I love you too, and I would really love it if you would get to work down there." She says putting her hands in my hair and bucking her hips against my face. I smirk to myself at her comment and gently lift up one her legs and put it over my shoulder. I run my fingers along her slit and I can already tell how wet she is. I move my hands to grab her ass cheeks and pull her closer to me. I take a long lick of her folds before taking her clit into my mouth and flicking it with my tongue. "Oh fuck, Callie!" Arizona says while pulling my head closer to her center. I alternate between flicking and swirling her bundle of nerves before I release it and lick her folds again and taste her sweet, sweet juices. I put her leg back down and stand up again. She pulls me in by the back of my neck and we connect in a hot, steamy kiss full of tongue. I continue to use one of my hands to rub along her slit collecting her moisture, I tease her entrance with two fingers and I feel her thrust her hips against my hand trying to gain more friction.

"Eager, are we?" I cheekily joke when are lips part.

"Yes, Callie I am because I've been thinking about having your fingers in me ever since I took my shower earlier!" She says with a slight attitude. "Can you just—" Arizona begins but is quickly cut off when she feels me sink two fingers into her hot, wet core and begin moving around inside her.

"Can I just what?"

"Ju-just do that…keep doing that." She says slumping her head against the wall.

"You're so wet, baby. I love it when you get this wet for me…you feel amazing around me.

"Deeper, baby…I want more of you." I wrap one of legs around my waist, which allows me to plunge even further inside her. "Yess Callie…keep going baby, don't stop. Fuck me harder, Callie!" I feel Arizona's nails dig into my back and it just spurs me on. I increase my thrusts and use my palm to rub against her clit. "Almost there, baby…shit I'm about to come."

"I got you, babe…just come for me Arizona." Within seconds Arizona releases and moans my name at the same time. It's so sexy watching her like that; I'll never get enough of her. I hold her body steady against the wall until she can stand on her own again. I quickly kneel back down in front of her and lick up everything she gave me before she taps my head for me to come back up.

"I wasn't done there…" I playfully whine.

"Kiss me, Callie." Arizona says and I give her another passionate kiss. "I taste really good on you."

"That you do babe, that you do." Our tongues connect again and our kisses become more relaxed and drawn out. "I hope that was better then doing it alone."

"Are you kidding me? My fingers don't stand a chance when you fuck me like that, baby."

"Glad I could help!"

"You can help whenever you want…did you come too?"

"Almost…just looking at you alone got me there, but it's okay I just wanted to please you." I say honestly.

"That's very sweet of you Calliope, but it's no fun if I come alone. I say we finish this shower, dry off quickly, and go again in bed."

"Yeah?"

"Oh yeah…all this free time has allowed me to catch up on some readings. Let's just say I read about a new position in Cosmo that I really want to try out…." She says with a haughty smile.

The next morning I woke up early to hang out with Sofia. I let Arizona sleep in a little because she's been busy with Sofia almost everyday, so I thought I'd give her some time off. Sofia and I made breakfast together for Arizona and when she came downstairs we ate together as a family. It was a nice change of pace, and Sofia was happy to have both parents around because she just talked her little head off. Arizona and I decide to take Sof shopping for some fall clothes, with the new season approaching. Sof thoroughly enjoyed that, but after a few hours started to get cranky so we came back home and put her down for a nap. Arizona and I went down to the basement to watch some television and talk with one another. We decided to lie down on the couch so we could cuddle with one another. I'm leaning against the arm of the couch with Arizona lying in front of me with her head against my chest.

"I think we should look for a babysitter." I suggest casually.

"What? Why?"

"Just so we can have someone else look after Sof."

"I'm perfectly capable of watching her, Calliope." She says faintly irritated.

"I know that, but think about when you go back to work? If we don't have to keep her in daycare all day long, I don't think we should. If we had a babysitter Sofia can just stay at home. They don't have to come everyday, but a few days out the week would be nice."

"I don't know, Callie…at least at daycare she will gain social skills with the other kids there."

"Yeah, but sometimes she's there for hours on end. Plus if we had a babysitter we could go out more, like we could see a play or something."

"Callie, I've never heard you once talk about seeing a play." She deadpans.

"True…but if we had a babysitter we could see a play! Or go out to a movie, dinner…"

"Why the sudden need for a babysitter?" Arizona asks.

"I just think it would be nice to have someone come over and watch Sof from time to time. That way we could do more adult, couple things. I'm not talking everyday, but maybe a few times a week. They don't even have to start until you go back to work, but it would be nice to start looking for someone and to get them used to our lifestyle so they know what to expect when watching Sof. I also want Sofia to feel comfortable around them, and that's going to take some time, but no harm in looking, right?"

"Maybe…I'm still not sold on the idea. We can come back to it."

"Just promise me you'll think about it."

"Fine." We go back to watching television in comfortable silence before a question pops into my brain.

"What kind of wedding cake do you think you'd want? Out of curiosity."

"Oh easy! Red velvet! My favorite."

"Hmmm…interesting."

"Why do you ask?"

"Oh some nurse at the hospital is getting married and was discussing it at lunch the other day. She wanted vanilla." I lie.

"Ugh, so basic. Vanilla is birthday cake, not wedding. Wedding is most definitely red velvet…for me anyway."

"Yeah…I agree." Red velvet cake…cross that off the mental checklist. I have a feeling I should start writing this wedding stuff down.

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