5: Unexpected

Two weeks later:

News spread fast about Kurt and Blaine's breakup. Everyone seemed to know about it the day after Blaine told me. Obviously Kurt told Rachel and/or Mercedes and they blabbed to everyone. Kurt has been trying to get in touch with Blaine but Blaine won't answer his calls. He told me that he is completely 100% done. Needless to say, Blaine is still pretty heartbroken. But he's getting back to his old self slowly but surely.

Sugar is also doing better. It seems like she's going through a breakup too. Some people probably think she's being dramatic… Sugar does have a thing for theatrics… But I know her… The feelings are there. It's just unfortunate that they are for someone who is more than likely gay…

Speaking of Puck; I haven't got to talk to him about the whole situation yet. He seems to have become stranded on the Zizes Island. Something happened to Puck since Juvie… We need to find out what.

Santana told me that Artie and Brittany are now dating… She was upset about it… Well she seemed to be anyway. Of course, she didn't actually cry in front of me… That would actually convey emotion… Something Santana finds very hard to do… But ah well, it's who she is and I'm just glad she is able to confide these things in me.

Anyways, we've decided not to have an Xmas party this year. But we are going to have a small get together; A present exchange like last year… Minus Kurt and plus Zizes.

/

Sugar's House:

Sam, Blaine, Sugar, Puck, Lauren and I were sitting in a circle exchanging presents.

We all got a bottle of green food colouring from Lauren. "Now you can eat slush from outside!" She said sarcastically.

Puck got us all CDs by Jewish artists. He brought a Menorah to the party too.

Sugar got us all a ticket to go to Six Flags in the New Year.

Blaine got us all a Christmas jumper. "I'm sorry it's nothing better guys. I just haven't really felt up to going out Christmas shopping lately" He said sadly.

I made everyone a collage of moments from last year.

It was Sam's turn to give us our presents. "Um… I – uh - forgot the presents. Sorry guys" He said.

"That's ok! Put on some music Sugar. Ok, time to whip out the cans!" I said happily. "Puck, you wanna help me get them from the garage?" I asked him.

"Um – it's only one box…" He said looking confused.

"I know but I'm weak" I said bluntly.

"Uh – sure" He said, still looking confused.

/

When we got to the garage I sat down on the ground beside the box of drink.

"Ok so I'm guessing you know that I didn't really need your help to carry this." I said.

"Well yeah, it was kinda obvious dude."

"Yeah I know… Well anyways, I wanna talk to you about this whole situation… You've been acting differently, since Juvie. You're going out with Lauren Zizes… She's a cool girl but come on, let's be honest here; you're not bi, Puck… You're gay!" I said, sounding harsher than I intended.

He stood there in silence, not looking at me.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to be so blunt about it… Will you please talk to me? I'm one of your best friends… This is hurting more than one person Puck"

"Who?" He asked looking up suddenly.

"I'll get to that in a minute… Can you just talk to me please. What happened?" I asked.

He sat down beside me before letting out a grumpy sigh.

"The night I went to Juvie … My ma had a talk with me… Said that she noticed I haven't brought any girls home to meet her since Quinn. She screamed at me for giving Quinn and Beth up. Then she started screaming at me telling me that I'm a huge disappointment… How I brought shame to the family by knocking up a catholic girl and that I can't just be a good son and bring home a Jewish girl" He said, pausing for a few seconds before continuing.

"I ran out. I realized that I can't be gay. She'd never accept it. She's a devout Jew and she wants me to take home a Jewish girl… I was so angry and scared that I tried to steal the ATM. I was gonna run away, start a new life… But then I got caught… Juvie; that was hard. They pulled out my nipple ring in the first hour" He said.

"When I came back I decided that I had to become popular again; be the badass that gets the girls, the guy that everyone is afraid of. I decided that Sugar couldn't stay being my 'girlfriend' cause she's not Jewish. And then I met Lauren… She's Jewish and she's tough just like my ma… the perfect girl to take home to her." He said.

"Wow… Puck I'm sorry about what your mam said to you. That must be hard to hear. But you need to remember, it's your life. No one else's. You can try to be popular again but don't forget about us in the process… Does think you guys are on for real?" I asked.

"No, she knows about me. We made a deal. She'll pretend to be my girl and meet my ma as long as being with me helps her popularity. She gets to make out with me too." Puck said, smirking.

"But you're right… I'm not bi… That's why it hit me so hard… what ma said. Cause I know I can't take a girl home… When I kiss Lauren, when I kissed Sugar, Santana and Quinn; I felt nothing. But when I kissed you last year… I felt fireworks… cause you're a guy." He said.

"Well I'm glad you can admit that now. I had a feeling to say the least… Look Noah, there's something else I need to talk to you about… Sugar" I said.

"Oh? What about her? Is she ok?" he asked, looking worried.

"Um… When you were at Juvie, she told me something… She likes you Puck, in more than a friendship kinda way. I tried telling her that you were gay and that you wouldn't be interested but she wouldn't listen. She was going to confess to you when you got back… But then you appeared with Lauren. She was devastated. It's why she's been acting kinda weird lately" I said.

"Dude… what? I can't believe it! I had no idea!" He said, looking shocked. "Shit now I feel like a total asshole. Does she still like me?" He asked.

"Yeah I think so" I said. "I think you should talk to her about it… Explain why you're with Lauren now and why you can't be with you. She needs to hear it from you"

"Yeah ok… I'll do it now, I promise. Thanks Ryan… I'm sorry for acting like a jerk lately. We bros again?" He said, holding out a fist.

"We never stopped" I said, smiling, fist bumping him.

/

We walked back to the room with the box of drink in hand. The guys were dancing around the Christmas tree when we got there, even Sugar. Sam wasn't there.

"Hey Blaine, where's Sam?" I asked as Puck walked over to Sugar and Lauren.

"We thought he was with you. He said he was going to go help" Blaine said.

"No he never came out to us" I said looking confused. "That's weird" I said.

"Maybe he's gone to the bathroom?" Blaine said.

"Yeah maybe" He said.

/

A few minutes passed and Sam still hadn't come back. I decided to go and look for him, starting with 'our' room.

I walked in to find the room empty and clean, aside from the bed we stay in. It was slightly crumpled. I saw something on the bed. As I walked closer I realised it was a folded piece of paper. I picked it up and recognised Sam's messy handwriting immediately. There were small blotchy marks on the page. My stomach sank as I began to read:

I can't do this anymore. I can't be with you. I'm so sorry.

- Sam

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A/N: :'(