7: Why?

Two weeks later:

Christmas came and went… It's New Year's Eve. I haven't seen anyone since the party. I'm still 'sick'. Evidently, so is Sam; no one has seen him since either. I've been trying to contact him for 2 weeks and… nothing.

Now its New Year's; a time to look to the future and set a resolution. Well what the fuck do I have to do? What's the point? Sam left me… And it's obviously my fault… I must have done something? Why didn't he talk to me though? What did I do that could make him want to leave me? Why would have he have his first time with me and then dump me?

Why?