Glee: My Journey - Year 2 Chapter 20: The Last Week, a glee fanfic

19: The Last Week

Monday:

It's my last week. The last few days have been… depressing. Don't really know what to think about. If I think about the guys; I just think how much I'm gonna miss them. If I think about the move; I still think about how much I'm gonna miss them…

I wanna do one thing for my mam before I leave; something I've wanted to do for a while but could never find the right time.

"What are we doing here? Is your Glee Club doing a performance? My mam asked as we walked out onto the auditorium stage.

The stage was empty aside from a mic stand in the centre.

"Nope. I know how much you love to sing, and I know that you miss being able to do it. So I wanted to give you a chance to feel what I feel everytime I get up on this stage, before we leave…" I said sadly.

She gave me a sad smile. "But I don't have any song prepared." She said, starting to worry.

"I have a song for you. I know you love it and know it" I said, smiling.

I walked down the steps as the music began to play and sat in the front row, where Puck, Blaine, Sugar and Sam were waiting for me.

Although my mam looked hesitant for a moment, but when the music began to play, she smiled and walked to the mic

One Moment In Time:

Each day I live
I want to be
A day to give
The best of me
I'm only one
But not alone
My finest day
Is yet unknown

I broke my heart
Fought every gain
To taste the sweet
I face the pain
I rise and fall
Yet through it all
This much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

I've lived to be
The very best
I want it all
No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

She finished the song to a round of applause and cheers.

"Ryan, thank you. I almost forgot what it felt like to be up on stage. To be appreciated for your talents…" She said a little morosely before beginning to smile.

Tuesday:

"Guys, before we start today's lesson, Ryan has an announcement to make" Mr Schue said before sitting down beside Artie.

"Um… Hi… Phew this is really harder than I thought it would be… Um… The rumour that was in the Muckraker a while back, the one that said I was leaving to go back to Ireland; it's true." I said before pausing for a moment.

Santana's eyes widened, as did Kurt and Lauren's. The whole club looked shocked.

"When are you leaving? You're still going to Nationals with us aren't you?" Rachel said, looking shocked.

"We're leaving to stay in a hotel near the airport on Saturday morning and then flying out on Sunday… so I can't go to Nationals." I said quietly.

"Why the hell did you wait so long to tell us" Santana said angrily.

I didn't want to be miserable for my last few weeks here. I wanted to try and enjoy it… It didn't work out that way… I know that some of you probably don't care, cause it's not like we're great friends. But some of you are my absolute best friends and I didn't know how to tell you guys" I said, eyes starting to water as I said it.

"I don't wanna cry again" Sugar said, rubbing her eyes rapidly.

"Ryan, you're an important member of this club. You've contributed a lot. And you've come very far from when we first saw you last year. I think everyone is gonna miss you" Mr Schue said.

The whole club nodded, even Finn.

"Thanks Mr Schue… Thanks guys… God this is so hard. You have no idea how much you all have changed my life… You changed me for the better. I met some of the most amazing people in the world and I-I'm gonna miss you all so much…"

Blaine, Sam and Sugar were now freely crying. Puck and Kurt's eyes were red, as were Santana's, although she seemed to be trying to hide it.

"Um, I was gonna audition for a solo at National's. I was practising and preparing for ages… But then I found out I had to leave… I was wondering if I could sing my song for you…. Seeing as it's gonna be the last time." I said regrettably.

"Of course Ryan" Mr Schue said.

I took a breath, trying to almost take in the atmosphere and soak it all up, before beginning to sing.

Glitter In the Air:

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the ice burg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning
The breathe before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touch so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

I took turns looking at Blaine, Sam, Sugar, Puck and Santana before looking at the whole glee club.

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breathe before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lasso the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breathe and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight

Blaine, Sugar, Sam and Puck all got up and hugged me as I broke down crying. Santana and Kurt quickly joined us, before most of the club came over.

Thursday:

"What are we doing here guys? Isn't this illegal or something?" I asked as Sugar led me by the hand into the deserted courtyard of McKinley High, followed by Puck, Sam and Santana. It was starting to get darker. The sun was setting, creating a vast red sky with tufts of clouds here and there.

"Who cares? We wanted to sing for you" Puck said.

"It was Blaine's idea, so we're gonna sing back up for him" Sam said with a hint of something in his voice… Resentment?

"It's the only time I'm gonna be happy to only sing back-up" Sugar said with a wink.

"Well I'm never happy singing back-up… But I'll let it slide tonight" Santana said as she rolled her eyes.

"Where is Blaine?" I asked as I looked around. Before anyone answered, I heard the familiar tone of his voice meet my ears. I turned around to see him at the top of the steps, beginning to walk down. All the others began to sing backup.

Somewhere Only We Know:

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

The 5 of them all stood around me in a circle, singing straight to me. I couldn't handle it and began to break down crying… yet again.

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know

The guys all walked in closer and gave me a group hug. They were all crying at this point, even Santana.

"Thanks you… Thanks you-" I said as my voice cracked. Not knowing what else to say.

"Why don't we all just sit on the steps for a while? We can look at the stars" Sam said.

"Everyone silently agreed as we made our way to the steps.

No one talked much. We swapped stories of the past two years for a while… But mostly, we just sat there, huddled together, looking at the stars.

Friday:

It's my last day in Lima. We're going to the hotel tomorrow. We can't take our entire luggage at once, so we're focusing on my grandparents and aunts stuff for now. I'm only taking my important things and my mam will be flying back in a few days to collect the rest of our things.

I have to say goodbye to my best friends today; my second family. How?

The 6 of us were all sitting in my sitting room. It was awkward. The tension and sadness in the room was so apparent.

"So I called you all here so I could-"(My voice cracked)… "so I could say goodbye, individually" I said solemnly. "Santana, will you come upstairs with me?" I asked.

"Do we have to do this? I don't do emotions" She said forcefully.

"Santana, shut up. Don't be a bitch; not now" I said as we both sat down on my bed.

"I'm sorry… I'm just not good at sharing my feelings" She said.

"I know, its ok. Look, you're important to me. You wouldn't be here if you weren't. I never would have thought that we would be so close when I first came here… But for whatever reason, we clicked… Probably cause I can be brutally honest with people, like you." I said smiling.

"Well you are a bit of a bitch too. Some of our insults to Frankenteen have been legendary." She said as she smirked.

"Iconic, even… But another thing that really made us see each other, really see each other, was because we're both in the closet… I know that you're not gonna come out yet… You don't need to. But please do something for me. Don't bottle up your feelings. When you need to talk, you can send me a message. But even better would be talking to Puck about it, seeing as you're in the same situation. Just please don't keep everything to yourself; do that for me, ok?" I asked.

"Ok, I won't. I dunno what I'd have done if I didn't have you to talk to about Britt. You helped me a lot. So I promise, I'll talk if I need to" She said a little sadly.

"Good… I'm really gonna miss you Santana" I said as I began to tear up.

"I'm gonna miss you too" She said as she reached over for a hug.

"Hey, Santana sent me up" Puck said as he sat down beside me.

"This is so hard… I never would have expected that we'd even be friends. My bully became one of my best friends… And kissed me a few times too… It's crazy." I said.

"Wouldn't change it for the world dude; well except the bullying part, and add in some extra kisses" He said, smirking a little. "One for old time's sake?"

I couldn't help but laugh a little. "You're such a chancer" I said before leaning in and giving him a small light kiss. "That's all you're getting" I said.

Our smiles slowly faded and the silence and realisation set in.

"I'm really gonna miss you dude" He said sadly.

"Me too… Can't believe this is all happening… Will you please do me a favour? You've made great progress in finally accepting yourself…. Just keep going. Let the guys help you. Don't stop because I'm not here to push you forward." I said sadly.

"I swear dude. You've change me for the better. I'm just gonna keep getting better." He said.

We hugged and just sat for a few more moments before he went back downstairs.

"I don't think I can do this" Sugar said as she sat down beside me.

"I wish I didn't have to this" I said sadly.

"What am I gonna do without you?" She asked, as she already began tearing up.

"You have the guys and glee" I said. "And I'm just a fb message away" I said.

"But they're not you!" She said.

Upon hearing this, I began to cry heavily. Sugar jumped into my arms as we both sobbed.

"You're my BMA; I'm gonna miss you so much!" I sobbed.

"You were my first real friend" She replied. "Mine too" I said.

"Sugar, you need to trust me on this… I know you've been through hard times, with your dad and different guys… But you are one of the most amazing, thoughtful, talented, beautiful people I have ever met, and you need to remember that. The right guy is gonna come along for you. Just you wait" I said, as I sobbed.

"I promise; but what about you?" She asked.

"I met mine, but I lost him. Then I met someone else amazing, and I've lost him too" I said.

"You'll find someone" She said, trying to sound as certain as possible.

"I know I will… But they're not Sam or Blaine" I said sadly.

Sam walked in and silently sat down extremely close to me. He wrapped his arm around me.

"I don't think I can say goodbye to you. We can sit here all night talking about how much we love each other and how we've changed each other's lives… But we don't have to; we already know it. Let's just sit here and cuddle and enjoy these last few minutes together before you go… This isn't the end… It's just the next chapter" He said sadly.

"I couldn't agree more" I said as I placed a tender kiss to his cheek, before we cuddled and cried into each other

Blaine walked in about a half an hour later, after Sam went back downstairs.

"So this is it…" Blaine said as he sat down beside me.

"I'm gonna miss you so much Blaine" I said as the tears fell from my cheeks.

I grabbed his hands in mine and pulled him in closer.

"You know that I want to be with you don't you. If I wasn't leaving, I'd be your boyfriend in a heartbeat. I just can't believe we're never gonna get the chance to see what we could have been" I said sadly.

Blaine began to cry heavily after hearing this.

"I should have been braver and told you I had a crush on you. We could have been together… at least for a while" He said.

"Let's not dwell on the past… Let's just be happy that we have this chance to say goodbye" I said before leaning in and kissing him with as much passion as I could muster in the moment.

We paused for a moment to take a breath after breaking apart.

"You're such an amazing person, Blaine Anderson. You're gonna make some guy the luckiest guy in the world. Mark my words" I said, slightly sadly.

"I don't want just some guy… I want you" He said somewhat resentfully.

I looked at him sadly before leaning in and hugging him.

"Don't think like that… You'll find someone. I swear. You're too amazing not to. You're a catch" I said.

"I'm gonna miss you so much" He said. "Can we just, lie here for a few minutes?"

"Of course".

About a half hour later, the guys all gave me a huge group hug before leaving. I walked straight upstairs and cried myself to sleep.

This is it. I'm leaving.