20: Reactions

To say that the group took Ryan's departure hard is a bit of an understatement. The night Ryan said goodbye; each one of his best friends had a different reaction, however, one thing they all knew was that they had just lost a hugely important person in their lives.

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Puck and Sugar spent the entire drive home contemplating about what Ryan had said to him…

Ryan's gone… He's really gone. Who are you gonna talk to now? Don't think like that. You have Blaine and Sam and Sugar and hell, even Santana…

Ryan pushed me though. Maybe I'll go back to my old ways now that he's gone? No! You're the Puckasaurus! Fuck what anyone thinks. Do this for Ryan.

A few minutes later, after dropping Sugar off, Puck arrived home. It was late so he knew his sister would be in bed.

"Ma, Can I talk to you?" Puck asked as he walked into the living room where Ms Puckerman was watching Schindler's List.

"Sure Hun" She said lazily as she continued to watch the tv.

"Ma, listen… There's something I need to tell you. Please don't be mad…" He said apprehensively

"No you didn't! You got someone else pregnant didn't you?" She asked as she swung around to look at Puck angrily.

"No Ma… I'm bi".

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Santana chose not to go home after leaving Ryan's. Instead, she drove straight to Brittany's.

"Santana, are you ok?" Brittany said as they cuddled into each other on her colourful bed.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" Santana replied defensively.

"Well, you've been here an hour and you haven't touched my boobs yet. And the only other time you've been like this is when Lord Tubbington threw up fondue on the carpet. Also, you wouldn't look me in the eyes when I asked if you were ok" She replied matter-of-factly.

"You know you're really smart Britt… You're right; I'm just a little sad" She said sincerely.

"Is it about Ryan Leprechaun leaving? I'm gonna miss him. I know you and him were really close" She said.

"Yeah, it is… I'm just-I'm gonna miss him… He helped me a lot." She said sadly.

"What did he help you with?" Brittany asked inquisitively.

Santana paused for a moment before smiling a little.

"He helped me realise how amazing, smart and beautiful you are Britt… I know you've been really sad about your breakup with Artie. And I'm sad that you're sad… But I really like you Britt, and I want to be here for you" She said with a smile before leaning in and placing a tender kiss on Brittany's lips.

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Sugar slowly walked into her home after Puck dropped her off. Some of her make-up was now halfway down her face. Her eyes were red and puffy.

I don't think I've ever cried this much. And I've watched Titanic, The Notebook and PS I Love You in one night… He's really gone. What am I gonna do now? He's my absolute best friend. And my first one like ever!

Sugar walked into her dark bedroom and dived onto the bed, burying her head into the pillows as she did so.

Suddenly she heard a knock on the door and a sliver of light entered the room as the door opened.

"Miss Sugar? Miss Sugar are you ok?" Her worried maid, Janine, asked.

"No. But it doesn't matter. Just please can you get me some tissues Janine?" She asked while she tried to compose herself.

"Yes, right away Miss Motta. I have a message from your Father. He asked me to tell you that his business trip is taking longer than expected and he won't be home for another two weeks" Janine said before leaving the room to fetch tissues.

Daddy's not gonna see me perform at Nationals… He said he would fly out to see me… And now I don't have Ryan either… That's even worse.

Sugar became so overwhelmed with emotion that she lost her train of thought, so she turned around and buried her head into the pillows once again as she sobbed.

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Sam arrived at the motel a short while after leaving Ryan's house. He made sure to clean himself up and not look like he had just been crying for several hours, his breath was still catching as he shook back a few sobs.

Calm down Sam. Just breathe. Mom and Dad have enough on their plate. They don't need to worry about you too.

Sam walked into the dimly lit motel room to find his Mom, Stacey and Stevie already asleep in bed. His dad was sitting on the chair reading the newspaper.

"Hey Sammy, how come you're in so late?" His dad asked curiously.

"We were doing extra glee rehearsals since Nationals are next week. Any luck today?" He asked as he looked from his Dad to the newspaper.

"Unfortunately, no. But we can't give up hope. Your mom and I will find work" He said, desperately trying to sound confident.

Sam nodded lightly before looking over and seeing his guitar lying against the wall. The sight of it caused Sam to tear up once again. He walked swiftly over and picked up the guitar before walking to the front door.

"Uh, it's really warm in here. I'm just gonna go get some air ok" Sam said before walking out of the room quickly.

Sam ran out of the motel car park and onto the street, He sat down at a nearby bus stop and placed the guitar on his lap.

Ryan… Why did this have to happen? We were perfect for each other… I thought we were soulmates. Then I had to break up with him; it's my fault he doesn't trust me anymore. I pushed him right into Blaine's arms. But it doesn't matter now. He's gone. The love of my life is gone and there's nothing I can do to stop it…

Sam sat at the bus stop in the dark for a whole hour as he wept onto his guitar, before his dad came out and made him come back inside.

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Blaine slowly entered his home and quietly made his way upstairs to his room. His parents were asleep and he didn't want them to see what kind of state he was in. After silently shutting the door behind him, he ran to his bed and got under the covers before taking out his phone; He clicked on photos and scrolled to a folder called "Ryan & I". He was trying desperately to remain quiet as the tears ran down his face.

Why? Why didn't I tell him sooner? We could have had something special. We were both so hurt about Sam and Kurt. I could have helped him. I should have been there for him more. I should have told him the truth. He's gone. We'll never get that chance. We could have been amazing together….

I'll never get to tell him that… I love him.

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A/N: So much sadness! :(