Chapter 13: Secrets

Nessie's POV

I felt like my life was ruled with nothing but secrets right now . My sister has been keeping secrets. I've been keeping secrets. I wasn't just talking about my rape and pregnancy either. Rather I was talking about the Cullens. My secret family.

I looked at my sister and I still couldn't believe what I had witnessed. My sister. Drugs. Suicide. What was going on here? How did our lives get so screwed up? Why did our lives get so screwed up?

Car accidents, cancer, rape, suicide, and drugs. I swore it felt like my family was just destined for disaster.

"Nessie what are you thinking about?" Anne asked me after a few moments of silence.

"How seriously screwed up we all are right now"

"Nessie you're not screwed up. Neither is Royce. I'm the only one screwed up here"

"Anne it seems like our family is a magnet for bad things right now. Mom and dad get killed. Royce gets sick. I get raped. You're suffering so much and no one even knew it. We grew apart. We all needed each other more then ever and instead we grew apart. What's wrong with us?"

"I don't know" she said. "Nessie do we really have to tell grandpa what happened? I mean I can handle this on my own"

"No Anne. You can't. I'm not a therapist but I know that you need help. You're doing cocaine. You were about to kill yourself. If I hadn't come when I did, well, I don't even want to think about what would have happened"

"It's not the first time" she muttered just barely loud enough for

me to here .

"Wait. What do you mean that it wasn't the first time?"

"The first time I was going to try hanging myself but then I heard grandpa coming. Second time I was going to take a knife to my chest but then Royce walked in and I played it off by saying I needed to cut up vegetables. Third try was tonight but then you walked in on me"

I had never been more horrified and saddened. My sister truly felt that suicide was the best option. It scared me.

"Anne I hate to say this but we need to tell grandpa about this. You need help"

"But I'm scared" she said.

"I'll be there with you. Besides it's time I told him about my rape and pregnancy. That's not something I should hide from him either"

I didn't get another minute of sleep that night. I couldn't stop thinking about everything that my sister told me. The fact that I've come so close to losing her in the past scared me.

The next morning I decided to go out for awhile just to clear my head. I brought Cookie with me. My dog always had a way of keeping me calm. Speaking of her I had already told my grandfather about her pregnancy and the one thousand dollar vet bill. I was surprised that he didn't have a stroke right then and there.

Now more then ever I was happy that we were going to have puppies. Our family could use some happiness right now and eight puppies would give us that.

I tripped and fell into the street. I heard a car's screeching tires. I looked up in time to see a car about to run right into me. Then something pulled me away just in time.

"Nessie are you okay?"

"Aunt Alice? Oh Alice!" I squealed happily as I hugged her tight.

"Oh Nessie you're definitely a lot more hyper then I remember" she commented.

"I'm happy to see you! You're my favorite aunt. Just don't tell Rosalie that though"

She laughed.

"Alice where have you been these past few days? I've missed you and I really wanted to see you"

"Oh around" she said. She was definitely hiding something. I could tell. I just didn't know what it was but I intended to find out.

"No Alice. You're hiding something. I can tell. What is it?" I was going to find out.

"I'm not hiding anything"

"Yes. Yes you are" I knew what I was saying and I was going to get it out of her. Honestly I was getting really fed up with all the secrecy.

"Nessie I really should go now. You're parents don'g even want me to talk to you. The only reason I came to find you is because I had a vision of you about to get hit by that car. When you're parents find out that I saw you they're going to be livid"

"Why are they so angry at you? What did you do?" I asked her.

"You're not going to let this go Nessie are you? Let's just say that if you knew I wouldn't be your favorite aunt anymore. Your parents are right to be angry at me. The whole family is angry at me right now and I don't blame them"

"Alice if this is about me I think I have the right to know. There is nothing you could say that would make me hate you if that's what you're thinking"

"Nessie I knew you were going to get raped that night. I had a vision of it happening a few hours before it actually happened. And I purposely kept that information to myself. I knew what was going to happen and I did nothing to stop it"

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