Chapter 18: Alice

Nessie's POV

The anger filled me up and threatened to explode from my body almost instantaneously. How dare my aunt come and barge in on me like this! She has some nerve coming and speaking me to like this?!

"Get out of my room now" I said through gritted teeth. It was taking all my strength and my full concentration not to scream at her right here and now. I didn't need to wake up my whole family and scare the crap out of them because of Alice.

"Nessie, we need to talk"

Damned she was so stubborn!

"Alice I have no desire to see you or even speak to you right now. Now get out of my room"

"Not until we talk Nessie" she crossed her arms and made it extremely clear that she was not going anywhere anytime soon. I had to take numerous deep breaths in order to calm myself down. Exploding was not going to help me right now. Oh how I wished that I were a vampire and could rip her to shreds right now. Okay, maybe I would not rip her to shreds but I would most certainly force her to leave my room by any means necessary.

"Nessie I-"

"Alice please stop, just stop" I had to close my eyes and count to ten and take a many many more deep breaths to keep myself from losing it completely. "You let those men rape me. You knew what was going to happen and you did absolutely nothing to stop it. You do not care about me at all. I don't know how you can claim to love me when you did absolutely nothing to help me. To help the one and only niece you claim to care about so much. You allowed them to hurt me in unimaginable ways"

"Nessie please just hear me out. Your father would have killed those men had I told him what was going to happen. He would have torn them to pieces and killed them. Nothing would have stopped him"

"and what is so wrong with that? Those men were, no, they are monsters. I wouldn't be surprised if they raped a few other women/girls after me. What's to stop those monsters from doing it again? What is to stop them from hurting other innocent people? Alice, not only would you and my dad have saved me, but you would have saved a lot of future victims as well"

"Nessie it was not worth it. Not worth your father becoming a murderer for them"

My control was now slipping through the cracks. Much like when you try to hold water in your hands. Pretty soon my control would be gone and there would be nothing to hold me back. If it weren't for the fact that I didn't want to make my family suspicious I would have lost it along time ago.

"Alice" I said, trying to remain calm again. "No matter how you say it what I'm hearing is that you valued the lives of those men over me. You valued their lives more then you valued mine. You cared more about the wellbeing of monsters then you did of mine. Nothing you say or do will ever erase the fact that you allowed men to rape me. Alice, tell me something. If you didn't want my dad to stop the rape then why didn't you do something to stop it? Why didn't you come and warn me or something?"

Alice stayed quiet for awhile as she contemplated on how to answer my question. I, on the other hand, was still fighting to remain calm. Which was hard because the mere sight of my aunt was making me angrier by the second.

"Because Nessie if I had then the others would have gotten suspicious, Edward would have found out, and, as I said, he would have killed them. No matter what the scenario was it was always going to end the same. So I thought it best to just not do anything about it. Nessie, I'm sorry, I just want you to understand my point-"

"Your point?!" I yelled. I was completely on the verge of losing it. I fought to keep my voice down. "Alice I will never understand your point. I will never understand why you purposely chose to keep your vision of me getting raped a secret. I will never understand why you protected my rapists instead of me, your niece. I will never understand why you did what you did. Alice, I thought you loved me and I thought you cared about me. For god sakes you were my favorite aunt!"

"Nessie I'm sorry, can you forgive-"

"Hold on a second, are you really asking me to forgive you?" My aunt was incredible. "Alice I'm not sure that I will ever be able to forgive you for what you did to me. Especially when you're here defending your decision to let them rape me. Now leave now" I ordered.

I glared at her until she finally left. I let out a big sigh. There was so much tension and anger in my body right now that I was surprised I didn't explode into a million pieces. I took a few deep and calming breaths to let some of it out. That seemed to do the trick.

I looked at the clock and saw that it was now officially 2am. I sighed and grabbed a book. First Rosalie and then Alice. This was way too much action for one night. If I wanted to sleep reading would help me relax. After awhile I started to yawn and rub my eyes so I decided to call it a night. I fell asleep within minutes.

I woke up feeling very oddly warm the next morning. I opened my eyes thinking that maybe someone had brought me an extra blanket while I was sleeping or something.

I nearly screamed when a husky voice said my name. The scream was stopped by an enormous warm hand covering my mouth.

I spun around and saw Jacob laying in my bed half naked.

"Jacob? Oh Jacob!" I instantly threw my arms around him and he held me tightly. I had missed my Jacob so much over the years and now here was again after so many years. He was my best friend. Now though I realized just how beautiful he really was. Was it just me or did he suddenly gain a lot of muscles?

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