Chapter 19: Jacob

Nessie's POV

"Jacob what are you doing here?" No matter how hard I tried I just could not get over the fact that Jacob was really here. Here right now in my bedroom and half naked I might add. Not that it bothered me at all. Jacob without a shirt was a wonderful sight indeed. It surely made my heart skip a few beats.

"Nessie your parents called me yesterday and told me that they had found you and that you knew everything. That your memory was never erased"

"Is that all they told you?" I asked questioningly.

"Yes. Why? Is there more?"

"No, no there's nothing else" I quickly lied.

I was happy just to gaze into Jacob's eyes. Something about that boy just made me instantly happy. I only broke eye contact with him when a certain dog of mine jumped onto my bed. Cookie was more then happy to place her body between Jacob and I. Since she was a saint bernard she certainly had the ability force us apart.

"Wow Nessie this is some dog you have here" Jacob commented.

"Yeah she is wonderful and soon I will have puppies as well. She's pregnant with a litter of seven" I explained.

"Hmm I thought it sounded like she had several heart beats"

"Jacob you have absolutely no idea how much I have missed you. You have no idea how happy your presence has made me" I smiled.

"Oh Nessie I'm not that important"

"What?" I said in astonishment. "Jacob you were, no you are, my best friend. You have a special place in my heart"

"Really Nessie? I'm your best friend? I'm sure you've had plenty of friends over the years"

Jacob was making me frustrated right now. Could he not see how much he meant to me? How important he was to me? Or that after seeing him again I might just want to be more then best friends? Yes, seeing him again has awoken feelings in me. Feelings in me that I didn't know I had. Feelings I had no idea how to describe.

"Jacob you have always been one of the most important people in my life. No one can take that away from you" I stated.

Jacob suddenly and very carefully grabbed me and pulled me close to his extremely hot, which I mean both literally and figuratively, body.

"Nessie you really mean all that?"

"Of course I do Jacob!" I said a bit loudly. I had to remind myself to keep my voice down. "You mean that and so much more to me"

"Oh Nessie" Jacob said. "You have no idea how much I have missed you to. I missed seeing you, talking to you, playing with you, hunting with you, and even giving you rides"

I laughed. Oh how I remembered that. I used to always Jacob to let me ride on his back while he was in wolf form all the time. It was so much fun and I knew that I was safe because it was Jacob.

"Now look at you Nessie. You've grown from that adorable little girl into a stunning woman. Actually 'stunning' is the wrong word.i can't even begin to accurately describe just how beautiful you are"

I was actually speechless. It was usually hard to render me speechless. Impossible even. Yet, Jacob seemed to have achieved the impossible.

I literally could not untie the not that had formed in my throat. My only response was to blush an extremely bright red from the embarrassment that I felt.

Jacob stroked one of my red cheeks with one of his warm fi gers. His smile made my heart stop before galloping into a full on sprint. I seriously did not understand the affect this guy had on me but I kind of liked it.

"Nessie what would you say if I asked you to go on a date with me?"

Again, I was speechless. My thoughts were nothing but one gigantic tangled mess. As happy as the thought of going on a date with him made me I couldn't do it. He would not want me when he found out that I was raped and pregnant. He should go for a girl that doesn't have any issues. He deserves that.

"I'd say that you deserve someone better and you should not even bother wasting your time looking at me"

"Nessie why would you ever say something like that?" Jacob said in a very serious tone of voice. "Why would you ever talk about yourself like that?! Why would-"

"Because I'm damaged Jacob. Damaged. You could do so much better-"

"Nessie you are not damaged. Why would you even say something like that?! You are absolutely perfect the way you are"

"Jacob I was raped. Okay? I was gang raped almost two months ago and now I am pregnant. You deserve a girl that does not have these issues" I said.

Jacob was angry. No beyond angry. Beyond furious even. There wasn't a word in the dictionary that could describe him right now.

My dog and I got away from him just in time. He exploded into a gigantic angry reddish brown wolf and destroyed my bed in the process. For the first time ever Jacob had gotten upset enough to lose control of himself. I had no words to describe Jacob right now. None at all.

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