When sharp cries filled her room, Olivia jumped out of bed, almost falling over since she was in a room that she wasn't familiar with. She took a moment to gather her bearings before fumbling to the door in the dark and out to the hallway. With a bit of effort, she found herself in the spare bedroom where Alex was standing, rocking Lexie in her arms and shushing the baby.
"Shh, Lexie. Shh little girl. Everything is okay," She cooed at the whining baby as she continued rocking her in her arms. Alex had a blanket draped over her arms, one that had started off wrapped around Lexie but had wound up underneath her now as a form of support.
Olivia stood back idly, watching as Alex's maternal instincts kicked in.
"Maamuh!"
Olivia barely had enough time to close the distance between her and Alex before the blonde's knees gave out. The detective supported her, immediately pulling her back close to her front, her hands wrapping around Alex's arms so that Lexie wouldn't wiggle her way out.
"Oh god…"
"It's okay, Alex. It's okay. She doesn't know. It's just a word to her, Alex."
"I'm not her mom and I never will be…"
"You're right." Alex's body went rigid. "Claire will always be her mom and we will do everything in our power to make sure that she and Ben remember their parents. They won't ever forget how much Claire and Adam loved them. But some day you'll be there parent too. You may be mommy or mama instead of mom but you'll mean more to them than anyone else in the world, Alex."
"What if…what I can't do this, Olivia? She's still crying, she won't stop. I can't even calm her down when she's crying. I'm not cut out for this."
"Yes you are," Olivia assured her as she slowly started to sway back and forth with Alex stilled wrapped up in her arms. It forced Alex to move with her, in return rocking Lexie. Olivia pushed her arms further up around Alex's forcing the blonde to readjust her hold on Lexie until Lexie's head was against Alex's left breast and her feet lower than the rest of her.
Within a matter of minutes, Lexie was quiet, making a few sounds with her mouth as she cuddle against Alex's breast. "She likes the sound of your heartbeat and the feeling of your breast against her face. It reminds her of when she was a baby and first started breastfeeding. She also likes her head higher than her feet, not even with them."
"You know so much," Alex whispered as she pulled Lexie closer to her, the little girl's head burrowing against her small breast.
"Claire taught me a few months back and now I'm teaching you. You calmed her down from crying. You can do this, Alex."
"With your help."
"Without my help you'd be able to do this too. The way you were holding her, rocking her, trying to calm her…that was your motherly instinct kicking in. You knew you had to hold her close and rock her. You just didn't know exactly what she liked the best but now you do."
"'Ntie 'ivia," Ben murmured, his head lifting up ever so slightly from the pillow he was resting against. Suddenly, he sat upright and started crying, his little eyes scrunching up as tears started streaming down his face, cheeks already red.
"Benjie, what's wrong baby?" Olivia questioned as she released her hold on Alex and walked over to Ben who immediately held his arms out for her. She picked him up without question and he wrapped his tiny legs around her side. He continued crying and Alex moved to the side so that Lexie wouldn't wake up from his screams.
"Benjie, I need you to tell me what's wrong, buddy. Tell me what's wrong and we can fix it. Is it Ellie your elephant? She's on the bed where you left her." Ben shook his head as more tears streamed down his face. "Are you hungry? Did you not eat dinner?" He shook his head again, more tears spilling out.
"I…I…" He started hyperventilating and Olivia held him upright.
"Benjie, breath buddy, take a deep breath just like your Auntie Olivia, okay? Just like this." Olivia grabbed onto his little hand and put it against the center of her ribcage as she took a deep breath so that he could feel it expand. "Just like me, Benjie, deep breath."
After a few seconds, he managed to take a deep breath but tears continued streaming down his cheeks. "I…"
"Benjie, use your words or point to what you want, okay?" His little finger pointed to his stomach. "Does your tummy hurt, Benjie?" He shook his head and then poked lower. "Do you have to go potty?" He shook his head again.
"Sowwy!" He cried out as he reached for her and buried his head against her shoulder. "I…I…went…potty…"
"Oh Benjie, it's okay," Olivia assured him as she held onto the boy. "It's okay that you went potty in your pull-ups, okay? That's what they're there for. Is it uncomfortable? Is that why you're crying?" He nodded as he poked a finger at his nose, pulling away a long string of snot.
"Okay, let's go get you changed then, okay? That's all we have to do Benjie. We'll go change and clean you up and then you can go back to bed."
Minutes later, Olivia returned to the bedroom where Alex was already curled up in the bed with Lexie lying on the mattress next to her, curled up against Alex's chest. "All better, Benjie," She whispered as she lowered him back down onto the mattress. "There you go. Go lie down with Auntie Lexie."
"No. Auntie Livia," He whimpered as he held out a hand for her.
"I'll be sleeping right next door, Benjie. You'll be fine here with Auntie Lexie." He shook his head and reached out for her again. "Benjie, please…"
"It's okay." Olivia looked over at the blonde in surprise since she figured she was already asleep. "You can sleep here for tonight. If it makes him feel safe," Alex whispered as she opened up her sleepy blue eyes which were still puffy from crying.
Olivia bit her lip as she examined the blonde for a moment, making sure that she would feel comfortable with her in the bed. When Alex closed her eyes once more and Lexie curled a hand around Alex's shirt, against her breast, Olivia decided it would be fine for just one night.
"Okay Benjie. Just tonight, okay buddy?" He grinned, showing off his teeth before scooting over next to Lexie so that Olivia could squish onto the queen size bed. The brunette pulled the covers around Ben and herself and snuggled up behind the little boy, sighing contently. "Just tonight."
"Love you," Ben murmured as he turned toward Olivia, burying his head against her chest as a hand clung to hers, his entire hand holding onto only two of her fingers.
"I love you too, Benjie."
"An' Lexie?"
"And Lexie," Olivia whispered as she pressed a kiss to his forehead. "Go to sleep sweet boy."
"An' Awntie Wexie?" His voice was now thick with sleep.
"And Auntie Lexie," Olivia confirmed, brushing back brown locks and kissing him once more as his body went still, content with Olivia's answer.
