Clarke's diary:
"I've never needed to write out my thoughts before now, but the last few days have been stressful so here we are. The talks with my mom - well, if you can call it a talk when she is shouting at me about how I am irresponsible, too young to have a family and a lot more things that are less nice - have gone well (note the heavy sarcasm here). After having to feel like an eight year old again, I was able to ask for a tent for my well, ahh, my family I guess. Still not used to this. Once I got that settled, I told her about my friends at Mount Weather. How I escaped and the deal that was made with Anya. There was more shouting because apparently it was stupid to make a deal with some savages that couldn't be trusted. So the happy moment with my mom that had started with a hug was now simply me being relegated like a stupid child who doesn't know anything and should leave the adults to handle the adult things. I shouted at her; told her that they had sent us down here to die, that they didn't deserve to make the decisions for us anymore. But when I was about to start getting really nasty and mention my father, hit her where it hurts the worse, I saw the look of disappointment on Amyla's face. I saw the look of fear on the children's faces and I backed down. I can't keep acting like a rebellious teenager when my family and friends still need me to protect them. So I took a deep breath and told her that we'd talk later and took my family to the new tent. Once they were safe inside, my mom gave the order as Chancellor that nothing was to happen to them (at least we agree on one thing even if everyone else seemed distrustful of the bunch). I had left to see if I could find any of my friends. I found Raven, and she told me that Bellamy and every else had gone out to bring back Finn and to search for us. I wanted to go, but I couldn't leave my family alone at camp. Who knows what they would do to them. Therefore, I stayed and waited anxiously. Now, concerning the marital life - it is hard. Being married to a grounder who thinks you are too weak to defend yourself, that says you need to learn her language and her customs now that you are on Earth, and looks at you like you are stupid whenever you make a mistake is a little too much. So, I snapped. I told her that I wasn't weak, but the look she had given me makes me doubt my own words. Therefore, now I am supposed to fight against Tia, the seven year old, who has been trained to be a warrior. It's ridiculous. As if I could lose to a child."
Clarke prepared for the fight with a little smile on her face, while Raven and her family looked at them from the side.
Amyla gave the signal to start. Clarke didn't know what to do since she didn't want to hurt the little girl, her little girl, but she wanted to prove that she was not weak. So she decided that she would immobilize her without actually hurting her. As she made her decision and began to move, Tia threw an elbow to her side and tackled her to the ground, strangled her. She was stunned. This cannot be happening. She tried to disengage herself, but the little girl was not letting go, so finally she conceded. When she stood up she looked to the side to find everyone laughing at her, even Amyla had a smirk on her face. It was time to become serious and show them what she could do, damn it! After one hour and only two victories, exhausted and her pride crushed, she finally accepted that she had to learn how to fight.
After eating, it was time for a language and customs lesson. She was learning with the girls: her learning Trigedasleng and them learning English. It was a slow progress - the girls laughing at her while she was trying to say the words wasn't helping - but it was progress. She couldn't speak an entire sentence or understand them, but she was able to understand some words. Healer was fisa; Sky people was skaikru; fight was gonplei; warrior was gona; child was goufa; and thank you was mochof. One word Amyla used often when she didn't understand something was branwada. It was a term of endearment according to her. The girls laughed every time she called her that. She would have to ask another grounder what it really meant when no one is around.
In the evening, she heard some noises outside. Her friends were back. Finally they could plot out how to get everyone out of Mount Weather, but when she saw the grim faces of everyone she began to worry. And then, she saw Finn. He was hurt and they had restrained him. What the hell was happening?
She was about to help Finn when Bellamy grabbed her and took her aside.
"Bellamy? What's going on? Let me go!"
"Calm down, Clarke! Finn has lost it. We had to knock him out. He was shooting at people, innocent people! He killed unarmed people, children. Clarke!"
She froze in shock. It couldn't be Finn, nice and loveable Finn who had looked for peace. But then again, did she really know him anymore? Did she even know him at all? The Finn she thought she knew wouldn't of betrayed his girlfriend with her. He wouldn't have broken their hearts. She had to accept reality and stop idealizing him.
"What do you think will happen to him?"
Bellamy looked at her, feeling sorry, "the council will have to judge him so I don't know."
They could do nothing but wait. They were soon joined by the others and she began to tell them what had happened to her and the hundred. When she began to tell them of her encounter with Amyla and the kids, they had a face of worry. When she told them that everyone was safe, there was relief, but when she said that she was now married and the children were now hers there was disbelief on their faces. It was time for them to meet her new family!