Adalind POV

Breath, Adalind just breath, she told herself as she awaited Nick's response. His eyes were large and he, too, seemed to forgot to breath. Apprehension shown plainly in his eyes and he swallowed convulsively, yet he didn't shrink from her. I guess that's something to be thankful for, she thought ruefully. With his almost involuntary glance towards their bedroom where Kelly slept, Adalind understood. He didn't hate or depise her, but he was afraid of who she might become, what she might do. Dropping her eyes from his, Adalind acknowledged that she had similar fears herself, yet that didn't stop the ache, the bitterness from making those breaths so much more difficult.

"I know we always knew this could happen, would happen," he started with a hestitant voice as he blinked a couple of times, coming out of shock mode a bit. "Maybe Rosalee," Nick began again in an attempt at hope that they both know was futile. After all Rosalee had combed through before to try and cure Juliette, they had truly run out options until Adalind had proposed the suppressant.

Finally withdrawing her hands from his, she turned tucking those hands into her pockets so they couldn't seek him again. "We were at it all day yesterday trying to find something, but let's face it Nick, it would only be a temporary solution. I'll always be a hexenbiest. It's in my DNA," she finished facing away from him so he couldn't see the tears forming in her eyes.

"My blood. My blood took your powers before," he said with something in his voice that told her he desperately wanted that to work, but Adalind knew it wouldn't.

Hanging her head, she couldn't blame him. He didn't know how spells and curses worked, but Adalind was thankful he was willing to try. Blinking back those tears, she turned back to that face that she loved so much. "No, Nick, you can't take a Hexenbiest's powers the same way twice. It's the way of the spell. It can only be used once," she explained. After looking into his beautiful, worried green eyes, Adalind just couldn't maintain their gaze. She would break down, then Nick would comfort her out of guilt. No, she knew what she had to do. Coming over to him, she registered he didn't flinch when she kissed him on the cheek, and for that she would always be grateful.

"We won't give up," he responded as he gave her arm a squeeze. Adalind only nodded giving him a sad smile.

"Why don't you have a relaxing shower and I'll check on Kelly," she managed. Nick nodded and gave her a quick kiss on the forehead before going into the bathroom. Adalind crept in to see Kelly still fast asleep as she leaned down and kissed him one last time. She waited till she heard the water going then took out the bag she had packed and wrote him a note saying:

Nick, I know you said we wouldn't give up and that's not what I'm doing, but I refuse to put you or, God forbid, Kelly in danger because of what I might be capable of. I'll call you when I know where I'm going and what I will do. Don't worry. Adalind

"Martin, I can't go back there until I know I won't hurt them," she stressed to Meisner. He was one person she could be absolutely straight with. The only place he could take her was HW, but for her protection, he had her wear a hood so she wouldn't know the location. It had only been one day since she had left the loft quietly, one extremely long day. Nick had called her several times, but what would she say if she answered.

Standing in his room, Meisner took a deep breath and shook his head. "Adalind, you can't stay here indefinitely. Besides, you were never that kind of monster even as a Hexenbiest," he replied, briefly glancing into her eyes.

"Nick could tell you otherwise," Adalind countered. Pacing his room a bit, she was desparate for those most precious in her life, desperate for a solution. Stopping suddenly, she swung around to look Meisner in the face. "What if you did to me what you did to Eve? She seems stable, though a bit cold, still if it meant I could control myself..."

Meisner came right up to to her and cut her off, "No, Adalind." He locked eyes with her and put his hands gently on her shoulders saying, "I could never do that to you."

Frustration made her plead, "Why?" She started to walk away in annoyance, but Meisner held her fast.

"You would never survive. I would never survive," he finished almost to himself. "You don't understand. First of all Eve's Hexenbiest is more primal and cruel than yours and she barely survived. Second, you would lose all love and attachments to anyone you've ever known. I won't even attempt it!"

"But what if I ever hurt Kelly? I wouldn't want to live if I did something like that," she expressed finally breaking down and the tears fell. Meisner wrapped her in his arms.

"You never did anything like that with Diana. I remember your face had a glow when you held her for the first time," he said reassuringly.

"You know I could never have hurt her, even if I tried. She's too powerful. Kelly's not even remotely the same. He's purely human at this point in his life, no matter what he will become when he grows up. He's delicate and vulnerable. I won't risk it," she was adamant. Meisner held Adalind against his chest as she shook.