A/N:
Well hello there.
And welcome back to:
This.
Oh yes. Welcome back.
So I know what you might be thinking.
"Wait. She hasn't uploaded in like 3 days. Call the police!"
But honestly, I've just remembered about this huge IT evaluation thing I've got due on the first day back, oh and this important Spanish test which I've still not answered and practised for, and a maths test. Oh indeedy.
But hey, I'll upload this tonight. HOPEFULLY!
And a shout out to Nicholelovesphan because she really deserves one and I'm hoping she's reading this because if you are... HI!
I'll continue with the story (which do not shoot me after, okay?)
Hehe.
He said nothing. I said nothing. So we both sat in the car, in silence, pretending that each other's existence were just another part of the scenery. Knowing that this had never been so bad before.
Wondering if this had happened. Had it? Will I wake up in my room and it's all just a dream? I hope not, I really hope not.
He almost kissed me. I know it! I bet he's grateful to his parents for snapping him back to reality before doing something that he'd regret for the rest of his life.
"Dan, I-I think we need to talk-"
"There's nothing to talk about." He replied flatly without flinching, his eyes concentrating only on the road before him. I nodded slowly, biting back tears and then leaned back into the car seat wishing it would just swallow me whole.
He's embarrassed, ashamed. He shouldn't be though. He kissed me! For all he knows, I'm straight.
I should really stop thinking.
But there it is, my house. He stops the car outside and then looks up at me expectedly. I wouldn't have been surprised if he would start to shoo me out of the car personally.
"Bye" I mumble grabbing my rucksack turning to see if he would say anything back. He didn't. He just waited for me to close the door and then drove off leaving me to traipse back into the house reluctantly.
My parents were too busy elsewhere in the house to notice my late arrival and quietness. But then they never notice anything.
Dan's POV
Oh. Oh what did I do?
It was all fuzzy and warm and I leant in and he- and he closed his eyes and I closed mine and, oh- oh what did I do?
Well that just went swimmingly.
Well-done Dan. He admits he's straight and what do you do? You go and kiss him for goodness sake!
He's never going to want to talk to me again, and how can I even look at him when all I can remember is leaning in concentrating on his lips? Damn it.
I ignore my parents as I slam the door on my way in, rushing straight to my bedroom. It's the weekend anyway so I don't have to worry about any confrontation at school tomorrow with anyone.
So let me review this.
My name is Daniel James Howell.
I helped bully a boy who I didn't know properly until yesterday for three months. His name is Phil Lester.
By saving him from the others I've gone ahead and doomed myself and now I have to prepare to be tormented pretty much everyday until I leave school.
Okay, going well so far.
The boy who I saved is who I think I'm in love with.
Up until today I thought he was gay and that I had a chance with him.
But he told me he's straight.
I then kissed him.
And now I've made things impossible between us.
Round of applause Dan, you've done very well today! I felt quite tempted to toast myself for an excuse for a strong drink or two but then I decided against considering how much crap I was already in. So instead I sat sullenly watching a load of crap on the telly whilst avoiding the Internet completely. Facebook wasn't a place I thought would be very safe anymore.
I wonder what's going through his mind tonight? Can he concentrate or is he like me and writhing around on the floor...sort of? Or has he forgotten about me?
I hope not, I've stuck my head on the line for him!
Too
Many
Conflicting
Emotions!
Yet somehow after a long evening of thinking and groaning and humiliation I managed to fall asleep.
Only to be awoken by my mum in the morning.
"Dan!" I heard her yell up the stairs, her voice ringing through the walls "Dan! Someone wants to speak to you!"
"I'm not up for talking!" I yelled back rolling around under the duvet, "Seriously mum! Tell whoever it is to leave!"
But of course, this is my mum we're talking about and she doesn't like to refuse guests, so with a hearty groan I got up and quickly, as well as rashly, dressed myself before she came and dragged me down for herself.
"Who is it?" I muttered as I climbed downstairs to answer the door but there in front of me was a figure with dark hair and bright blue eyes.
Alice.
"Morning sleepy beauty" She grinned and ruffled my hobbit hair, "someone doesn't look too good this morning"
I sighed as we listened to my mum sort out something in the kitchen, no doubt with her ear to the door listening to everything we say.
"What is it Alice?"
Her smile fell, "Are you okay, Dan?"
I nodded to the kitchen, "Why don't we go for a walk?"
She turned and guessed quickly linking her arms around mine as I grabbed a coat and walked outside.
"Dan," She stopped and turned to face me, "Dan, you've been ignoring me for ages! I sent texts after texts! I was worried in case you were really injured or something," She mumbled, her hands still on my arm.
"Why do you care, Alice?"
"Because they're going to beat the shit out of you next time they see you!" Well she isn't blunt that's for sure.
"I know they are Alice! And I'm just really looking forward to it!"
"Seriously Dan," She sighed, "This isn't even a little bit funny! I don't want to see them hurt you!"
I started walking again leaving her to scuttle after me, "What can I do about it, Alice? That's it. I'm a fag to them now. I did what was right and now that's it."
"One," She snapped, "Phil wasn't worth the trouble! Right? You should have just left him! And two, I have an idea how to change that!" I stopped and twisted around to face her, she seemed grateful to not have to run after me now she had captured my attention.
"How do you propose I change their views, Alice?"
She grinned playfully and wrapped herself closer to me, "If you tell everyone we're a thing then..."
"Wait... what?"
"Do I have to spell this out for you, Dan?" She grinned, straining slightly.
"Will... Will it work?"
"It should although... we'll need to try it out first before we know for sure," She continued to grin like a fool at me, "So Dan, are you in?"
"Fine".
A/N:
OH HELL NO, DAN!
OH NO SHE DIDN'T!
OH YES SHE DID, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, ALICE DID EXACTLY THAT!
On another note, thanks for reading this! I'm nearly at 1,000 reads... already... I know, it is insane but I love you all so much for reading this!
I know this was really late but I have gone through a lot of crap these past few days and I think my brain is dying because I can barely think, let alone edit this which is why it's probably terrible, very, very terrible.
I'm going to go probably die again now but CIAO FOR NOW!