A/N: thank you, thank you, thank you for the reviews, the favorites and the followings.

Here's another chapter that isn't read by my beta.

Blaine woke up with a jolt. He sat up and looked around the room. He was in the hospital again. He had a terrible headache and he was dizzy. Carole was sleeping in a chair but he didn't seem to be on watch, there was no nurse there with them. He slowly got up from the bed and to his feet. He went as quietly as possible to the bathroom. He didn't want to wake Carole. When he got back to the bed, Carole was still sleeping. He smiled at the sight and went out of the room. Outside in the corridor Sarah came and greeted him. She gave him a quick hug.

"Good morning. How are you feeling?"

"Tired, confused, hungry and I have a headache."

"Okay, you can sleep here, you know that. Let's get to the kitchen and get you some breakfast. I can get you Tylenol. Why are you confused?"

"I don't remember coming here."

"That's not weird, you were pretty out of it from what I heard."

"When did I come?"

"Around five I think, you haven't slept that long, so I get that you're tired. What woke you up? I thought you would sleep most of the day."

"My head I think, and I needed to go to the toilet."

"Okay, if you go to the kitchen then I'll get you some Tylenol."

Blaine headed to the kitchen which was empty. He looked at the watch on the wall, it was only 730 am, which could explain why he was alone there. He made himself a sandwich and took some tea. He forced it down and swallowed down the medicine Sarah gave him. It was some extra sedatives as well the Tylenol and his usual morning medicine.

He headed to his room and sat down on his bed. He wondered if Kurt was aware he wasn't at home. He remember freaking out yesterday. Or today. He hadn't any clue about the timeframe. He knew Carole had given him a shot which had made him black out. He looked at Carole sleeping in the chair. It couldn't be comfortable at all. He put a hand on her knee and she woke up.

"Blaine?"

"You can go home Carole."

"No, I'm staying with you."

"But I'm going to sleep most of the day and you can't be comfortable there."

"It's okay, sweetie, don't worry about me. I'll be fine. You go to sleep."

"But at least we can share the bed." Blaine said and yawned.

"You sure?"

"Yeah, come here."

Blane laid down and Carole laid next to him. It wasn't weird, it just felt natural. Like she was laying with a sick kid in the hospital, which was exactly what she was doing - laying with her sick son in the hospital. She turned to face him and saw that he was already sleeping. Laying on his back, his mouth had already opened a bit when his muscles in his face relaxed. He started snoring lightly and Carole smiled at him. She closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep.

Hannah came in the room two hours later. She smiled at them, Carole was now on her back with her arm around Blaine. Hannah shook Carole lightly and she opened her eyes.

"Good morning Carole." she said with a smile.

"What time is it?"

"It's almost ten."

"Oh, I'm sorry I'm sleeping!"

"Don't apologize about that, from what I read in his file the night wasn't easy for you guys. I understand you're tired."

"I am." Carole admitted and started to untangle herself from Blaine. She got up from the bed and smiled to Hannah.

"I was hoping I could talk to you alone first." Hannah said. She looked at Blaine who hadn't moved when he had been moved from Carole's embrace. "I think he will keep on sleeping. Shall we go to my room and have a chat?"

Kurt woke up and felt more rested than he had all summer. He laid still sometime after he had woke up, just to enjoy the feeling of being well-rested. He was still a teenager and needed a lot of sleep, even though he loved waking up early and driving Blaine to the hospital and making sure he got a normal rhythm in his life. Today he had an extra session with Hannah, he needed that. They were suppose to be at the hospital at ten. He turned to face Blaine, who wasn't in bed with Kurt. Kurt frowned, it wasn't normal for Blaine to wake up before him. He stretched before looking at the clock on the bedside table. It was 1130 am.

"Fuck!" Kurt shouted and jumped out of the bed. He ran out of the room to find Blaine. In the living room he found his dad reading the paper. He looked up at Kurt when he came running in.

"Good morning kiddo, I was wondering if I should wake you."

"Dad... Blaine... Wait, why are you home? Where's Blaine? We need to get to the hospital, we are so late. Apparently I forgot to set the alarm... And why aren't you at work?"

"Slow down Kurt. Come and sit down." Burt patted next to him on the couch.

"What? No, dad I'm late!"

"No, you're not. Come on let's talk."

Kurt felt himself go cold inside when he heard those words and heard the gravity in his dad's voice. He sat down next to him without taking his eyes off him.

"Blaine? Is he okay?" He whispered.

"He's okay." Burt said and watched his son let go of the breath he was holding.

"So, where is he?" Kurt asked.

"Blaine had a bad night, Kurt. Really bad. He had a lot of anxiety. He spoke to Carole in the middle of the night about it. They talked about it for a while, and then Blaine went back to sleep. But he woke up not long after again. He was angry and screaming and punching the floor. He was not in a good state. We had to take him to the hospital. He was aware of it as well. I drove them in around four, and after a short talk at the er, he was admitted at the same ward as earlier. Carole refused to leave him, she's still there."

"Why didn't you wake me? I would have gone with them."

"We tried... but you were out of it. I couldn't wake you. Finn woke up and was filled in, so he could tell you if you woke up."

"Oh, okay."

"Carole just called me. She had had a talk with Hannah alone, and then she was present when Hannah spoke with Blaine. They are keeping Blaine for a while. They are increasing his dosage of antidepressants. Blaine has a lot of rough thoughts right now, and he says himself that he thinks he needs to be at the hospital. But they had made some kind of deal that will allow Carole to stay with him there. It isn't uncommon at the wards for kids or teens to let the parents stay with the patients, so..."

"Can't I stay with him?"

"No, it's a parents or no one unfortunately."

"Okay, can I go and see him?"

"Sure, if you want, he has been give a lot of sedatives, both shots and pills, so he's pretty tired and sleeping all the time."

"Well, I don't care. I still want to be there. I just go and take a shower then we can go."

"You need to eat something before we go. And if you could bring some of Blaine clothes. He and Carole only have what they were sleeping in."

"Sure, are you bringing clothes for Carole?"

"No, we were counting on you wanting to visit Blaine, while you're there, I'm taking Carole home so she could get her own clothes."

Burt and Kurt came to the hospital at 2 pm. They were showed to Blaine's new room by Sarah who left them there. When they went in, they saw the love of their lives sleeping in there. Carole had been given a bed that was placed on the other wall for Blaine's. That bed was empty, they were both sleeping in Blaine's bed. Burt went to the bed and shook Carole who woke at immediately and looked at him.

"Blaine?" She asked, a bit confused.

"He's sleeping." Burt said and pointed next to Carole. "Why aren't you sleeping in the other bed?"

"He has so many dreams, it's so much easier for the both of us if I don't have to wake up and go here, calm him down and then go back." she explained. She turned to Kurt. "Hi sweetie."

"Hi. Are you okay?"

"I'm really tired, but I'm okay."

Carole untangled herself from Blaine and hugged her other son and husband.

"Can I lay down?" Kurt asked her.

"Of course, he's really drugged though."

Kurt nodded and slip down next to Blaine who noticed the change in bed and stirred. He opened his eyes, and it became just how drugged he was, Kurt had never seen him like that. Blaine couldn't focus and his eyes weren't looking the same direction.

"Mommy?"

"No, it's Kurt."

"Oh, Kurt! Where's mommy?" he slurred.

"Oh, Blainey... She's dead."

Blaine started crying and Kurt hugged him. Carole who had heard the conversation went up to him.

"Blaine, I'm here. It's okay." she said to him.

"Mommy? You're alive?"

"Yes, I am. I'm here honey."

Blaine took a deep breath and buried his face in Kurt's shoulder. Kurt held him and whispered sweet nothing in to his ear. He felt Blaine relaxing and then falling asleep. When he was certain he was sleeping, he turned to Carole.

"Why are you saying his mother is alive? Shouldn't we be honest with him."

"Yes, we should be honest to him. But. We spoke a lot of this today with Hannah. For Blaine, his birth parents are his father and mother. I've become his mom, or his mommy, or mommy Carole. I don't know when this happened, but Blaine said to during the night, and he hasn't said just Carole since then."

"Aw, Carole, that's awesome." Kurt smiled big at her.

"Yes, it is, and since the biggest thing he was upset about during the night was that he wasn't a part of this family, it's even bigger."

Blaine had started dreaming and was shifting in bed while mumbling and whining. Kurt stroked his hair and pulled him back in his embrace. Blaine relaxed and fell back to sleep.

"Yeah, so that is why I don't sleep in the other bed, he needs to be calmed down every tenth minutes."

"That's fine. You go home and shower, eat something and pick up some clothes, and I'll take care of this one." Kurt said to her.

Carole leaned down and kissed them both on the foreheads before she smiled at her husband. She took his hand and they left to get home.

Kurt spent the time while Burt and Carole were at home watching his boyfriend. He felt kinda creepy for enjoying that so much, but he could the rest of his life just watching Blaine. It would be nice if Blaine was awake, or if he was sleeping peacefully, but neither of that were happening today. Blaine was tortured by nightmares. He mumbled, whined and thrashed in bed every tenth minute. Kurt felt so bad for him. From time to time he opened his cloudy eyes and talked to Kurt. It wasn't something Kurt could make sense of though. He talked about a gun shot, about being alone and about a Christmas card.

Hannah came in to the room before she went home for the day. She paused in the doorway long enough to study Kurt and Blaine. Kurt's eyes never left Blaine. She went up to the bed and laid a hand on Kurt. He jumped a little by the light touch.

"Oh, sorry Kurt! I didn't mean to scare you!"

"It's okay, Hannah, I just didn't hear you!"

"How are you doing?" She asked him and sat down on a chair next to the bed. Kurt shifted in bed so he was facing her and had his back to Blaine. Blaine whined a bit by the lost of Kurt's touch, but stopped when he shifted in bed so he was spooning Kurt.

"I'm fine, I'm just worried about Blaine. I think it should be enough for him. He doesn't want to be here, no offense."

"Non taken, but he said today that he wanted to be here. We spoke about it a lot today with Carole. Blaine said it himself, he feels like he needs to be here right now. He feels like he can't deal with everything that's going on in his head right now."

"How long will it take?"

"I can't say, Kurt. We have increased his antidepressant today, it usually take two weeks before it has full effect. We won't wait for that, though, I don't think he needs to be here two weeks. I will speak with him daily and we'll go through all the thoughts and feelings that are haunting him right now. When he says he feels like he has to be here, I listen to that."

"Do you think it's much more things he has repressed that he's going to start remember?"

"I can't tell, I hope not for his sake."

"I just want him to be better, you know?!"

"I know, he has a lot of persons rooting for him, that's awesome. And I know he longs to get home Kurt. We'll do everything we can to get him home soon."

"Thanks Hannah."

"It's okay, Kurt. I'll see you tomorrow."

"Yeah, have a nice evening." Kurt said and smiled to her.

When she had left he shifted back on the bed. The movements in the bed woke Blaine and he opened his eyes and tried to focus on Kurt. The medicine had worn off a bit and he could actually focus on Kurt this time.

"Kurt!" he slurred.

"Hi honey." Kurt smiled to him.

"Are you here? With me?"

"Yes, Carole went home to get some clothes."

"She's awesome. I like her."

"She loves you, Blaine."

"I love you Kurty."

"I love you Blaine."

"You know, I have never ever dared to dream about you. I've never let myself think about my future. It was so hard living, so I didn't have energy to think about you. I want to be able to say that I've waited for you forever, but I didn't. I feel so sorry about that." Blaine started crying. Kurt didn't really follow what happened in his mind but he took him in his arms and hugged him.

"I'm so sorry Kurt." Blaine said between sobs.

"It's okay Blainey." Kurt said with a soft voice.

"No, no, it's not! You don't get it. It's not okay!" Blaine screamed to him. He kept screaming "no no no no!"

Kurt didn't understand what Blaine meant and tried to calm him down, but he was already panicking. Kate, a nurse on the ward, came running when she heard Blaine screaming. She was next to the bed within seconds and tried to calm Blaine down with words. But Blaine was already too far gone in his panic, they couldn't reach him. Kate pressed the call button and Peter came in to the room with a syringe with sedatives. Kate took it and gave Blaine the shot. Within one minute Blaine went limp in Kurt's arms. Kurt stroked his sweaty hair and kissed him on the forehead. Blaine opened his eyes and looked at him.

"I just love you so much. Kurt, you're everything to me." Blaine said before his eyes close and the sank in to a deep sleep.

Kurt closed his eyes and tried to make sense of everything he had heard from Blaine during the day.

Kurt woke up by the smell of food and the sound of his parents chatting. He slowly opened his eyes and found himself looking in to Blaine's curly, brown hair. They were spooning and Kurt was the big spoon. Blaine had a grip on his left hand while the right arm was under Blaine's neck. Kurt pulled his left hand out of Blaine's hand before shifting so he was in his back. He could now turn his head to speak to his parents.

"You awake Kurt?" Burt asked him.

"Yeah, I am. Have you been here long? Why didn't you wake me?"

"We've been here for half an hour or so. Why would we wake you? You obviously needed the sleep."

"I smell food..."

"Yes, we have some hamburgers for you. It's a bit cold, but still..."

Kurt started to untangled himself from his cuddly boyfriend who whined at the lost of contact and shifted in bed so he had his back to the wall but he didn't wake up. Kurt went over to Carole's bed where Burt and Carole were sitting. Kurt sat down next to them and was handed a burger and a drink. They all sat in silence for some time while watching the sleeping Blaine.

"So, this sucks." Burt said. Carole and Kurt looked at him.

"Well, it does. I loved having my family at home. We were at a good pace. I don't like when part of my family is in the hospital. And I hate that one of my sons are hurting. I want everyone to be okay, otherwise I don't feel whole."

"Yeah, I know." Carole said to him and took his hand. "let's hope this is the last part of what Blaine has to work through. Let's hope he and Hannah work through this and then Blaine can focus on the things a normal teenage boy should focus on."

They sat in silence until Kate came knocking on the door announcing that the visit hours soon would be over. Kurt laid down next to Blaine and stroked his hair and cheek. Blaine opened his eyes and tried to focus on him.

"Kurt?"

"Yes, it's me honey."

"I love you so much."

"I love you too Blainey."

"I have to go to the bathroom." Blaine groaned.

"We can fix that." Kurt said and got up. He held out his hand to Blaine who looked at it before taking it.

Blaine had been given too much sedatives during the past 24 hours to control his limbs, though. Kurt helped him to sit up and he sat and sway a bit. He looked up at Kurt before he tried to stand up. His knees buckled immediately and Kurt had to hold him up. Burt came to Blaine's other side and together they helped him in to the bathroom and then back again. When he was back on the bed, sitting on the edge, Kate came in to the room.

"Blaine, it's good to see you with open eyes. I've got a nutrition drink I want to drink."

"But I'm tired..." he groaned.

"I know, that's not weird considering how much sedatives we have given you today, but you need to drink this."

Blaine nodded and took the drink from her. He took a sip before he laid down on the bed again. He looked up at Kurt.

"Hold me for a bit?"

"Of course!" Kurt said and laid down next to him.

He took Blaine in his arms and hugged him tight.

"I love you so much Blainey."

"You're the love of my life Kurt. You saved me from my hell." Blaine said to him. "I am alive because of you. I'd do anything of you Kurt."

"I love you Blaine." Kurt said.

Blaine pulled himself even closer to Kurt. He looked up at Kurt.

"Sing to me, please!"

Kurt smiled to him and started singing Bruno Mars's Just the way you are. Blaine closed his eyes and listen to Kurt's beautiful voice. Kurt felt Blaine falling asleep before the first chorus but he enjoyed singing to him so he kept going.