My head was killing me when I woke up and it took me awhile to recognize that the annoying sound that woke me up was my phone. I groaned when I looked down and saw Jasper's name flashing across the screen. I looked over at Edward who was sleeping on the floor next to the couch I was on and saw him starting to wake up. Since I had to be Ben I needed to find a place where I could answer the phone without Edward hearing. First I headed for the bathroom but figured if someone could hear a person taking a shower then that wasn't the safest place. I ended up outside on the balcony where I could have privacy but still be able to watch Edward.

"What Jasper?"

"I came to your room to find you but you weren't there, we are going to meet at the concert site about fifteen minutes earlier so that we can play the new song for Rose."

I cleared my throat trying to be sure I would have Ben's voice, "OK thanks for letting me know. I'll see you later." Just as I shut my phone Edward stood up and looked around his room as if he was looking for me. When I opened the door and came back in the room he turned and smiled at me. "I think we had a lot to drink last night." I tucked my hands into the back pockets of my jeans before I nodded. "Yeah, I'm pretty sure my head is gonna be killing me all day." Before I knew what he was doing he had crossed the room and was kissing my forehead, both eyelids, my nose, both cheeks, and my chin before he stopped at my lips. When he finally settled his lips on mine my whole body felt like it was on fire. He tried to deepen the kiss but I pulled away.

He had panic in his eyes as he waited for an explanation. "I have to go." I grabbed my shoes and took off running out of his room. Before he was able to catch up with me and stop me from escaping I was safely behind the heavy door of my room. I could feel Edward's fists banging against the door as I leaned against it. "Bella, I'm sorry. Please just open the door and let me apologize properly." I looked up to see both Alice and Paul nodding for me to open the door and hear him out.

I wanted to open the door and tell Edward that he has nothing to apologize for because it's all my fault but I couldn't do that. I knew I was playing with fire before I went over there last night and I still went. As Bella that man drove me insane and whatever that was when he kissed me was amazing but I couldn't let anything happen between us because of Ben. If I let myself have a relationship with Edward it would have grey areas then I would get caught in a messy situation and he would eventually find out that I am Ben and vice versa.

I spent the rest of the day trying to get rid of the headache I had from drinking too much but it was useless. I just tried to ignore it and got ready for the concert. Edward tried to talk to me, Ben, but I pretended like I didn't want to talk to anyone. Jasper even sat down to talk to me about Alice but I put my head phones in ignoring everyone.

Once we got to the stadium we quickly did a sound check then played through the new song for Rose, who absolutely loved it, before we went to get dressed and do our hair for the big show. I was still nervous as shit before the concert but it wasn't as bad as last time. When we emerged onto the stage everyone was screaming and they weren't yelling Scott's name but they were actually yelling my name, well they were yelling Ben. The most eventful part of the concert was when some asshole threw an old band shirt with Scott on it at me. Security started to come out and make him leave but I waved them off and grabbed the shirt and my lighter setting the shirt on fire before flipping the guy off.

After a little break in the back and Emmett and Jacob giving me, Edward, and surprisingly Jasper a hard time about not doing any drugs with them we got on the bus and headed for the hotel. Jasper and Edward were both bothering me about Alice and Bella the entire time. The bus had stopped to let us off when Jasper went too far, "Come on man I just want you know if Alice seems to be having a good time with me, I mean women can fake that shit." I was at the head of the line so of course the entire band heard me yell.

"Fucking leave me alone! Damn it they are my sisters and you two are talking to me like I am there fucking pimp. Jasper if Alice didn't like you she wouldn't be around you at all and she would fucking tell you if you were a bad lay. Edward I don't know when Bella will talk to you again but she left this afternoon so whatever the hell you did to her either pissed her off or scared her away. Honestly I could care less where you two put your dicks and speaking of dicks Jacob I hope you are listening to this fucking rant because if you ever ask me about Paul or why he is moody or what he thinks of you I will kill you. Now will everyone leave me the fuck alone?"

I grabbed my jacket and stormed through the hotel forgoing the elevator for the stairs. When I got to my room both Alice and Paul were both there getting ready to go out with the guys. "Hey I laid out your outfit for the night go get changed." I looked over at the bed to see a skirt and a barely there shirt. I went over picked them up before tossing them back in the suitcase. "Bella left town its Ben or no one." I grabbed a glass and poured myself a scotch on the rocks. I was pouring my second glass when Jasper and Jacob were both knocking on the door. They both took a step back when I opened the door. I rolled my eyes and leaned against the doorframe.

"Look guys I'm sorry about the rant on the bus. It's just I had an awful night last night and when I got back to my room this morning Bella's having a shit fit over something between her and Edward that I don't even want to know about. Then to top it all off we had the concert tonight that I just didn't feel up for. I'm not making up excuses but I'm sorry." Jasper clapped me on the shoulder, "Don't worry man it takes some getting used to and you haven't been around long enough to be used to it yet. We're cool." He and Jake both held their fists out for me to bang mine against which I did.

Some how I was talked into going out with them to some bar and it was surprisingly fun considering it was a karaoke bar. Everyone but me was forced to get up and sing. Alice argued since I sang all night that I deserved the time off which was a good enough excuse for Jake and Jasper. I knew that she was just covering in case she ever made Bella sing a song.

While the two couples danced to the worst version of Ke$ha's Tik Tok I had ever heard I went to the bar and got a beer. While I was waiting for the bartender several girls came up and asked for my autograph, which I gave, and I received several phone numbers and invitations to join them in the bathroom. Being the gentleman that I am, yeah right, I immediately declined all of them. The only thing I agreed to do was dance with one of the girls and that was only because I over heard one of the rejected girl calling me gay.

I danced with the girl whose name was Susan for a good half hour before I excused myself to go sit with the guys. I was so happy I picked a normal girl who wasn't clinging to me because I agreed to dance with her. We ended up leaving after a few more beers and when we got back to the hotel there was a very drunk Edward sitting in front of my room.

"What the hell man?"

He stood up and swayed a bit and waved at Jacob and Jasper as they walked passed us. "Edward what do you want?" He held out an envelope, "Look, please just give this to Bella when you see her or at least call her and let her know I wrote her a letter." I sighed before I reached out and took the envelope. "OK Edward I will do this if you promise to never sit outside of my room drunk ever again." He thought about it for a moment before he nodded in agreement.

Once I was in my room I opened the envelope to read his note. The basic gist of the letter was him apologizing for kissing me and he promised he would never do it again. He hoped that he wasn't the reason I left and he also said he hoped we could be friends if nothing more. After I finished the letter for the fourth time I crawled into bed and listened to my ipod until I fell asleep where even my dreams were about Edward.

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~SAM~