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It has been a month since Edward wrote me the letter and Bella never made another appearance although Alice tried her damnedest to force me to go out as Bella. I sent Edward and e-mail from Bella letting him know that he had nothing to be sorry for but we couldn't have that kind of relationship. I lied to him and told him that I have a boyfriend and that I just needed some space but I agreed that we should still be friends. We continued to e-mail each other through out the entire month. He would tell me all about the tour and I would make up stuff that I was doing. I noticed a change in him; he seemed to act more like he did before he got to know Bella. After the concerts we would all go out to a local bar and he would always leave with a different girl.

I'm currently lying down on the bus waiting for us to be back home. We just finished our tour across the continental US and we have three weeks off before we go to Hawaii, Alaska, and then a few stops in Europe. I just can't wait for us to be home, all I want to do is sleep in my own bed and wear my own clothes and not have to be Ben for awhile. It will be so nice to not have girls trying to stick their hands in my pants all the time.

I sat up when I heard a car horn honking from beside the bus when I looked over there was Alice and Paul with Paul's ass bare for everyone to see. "Jake your man is sending you an invitation!" All the guys came running from the back of the bus to look out the window to see what I was talking about as I laid back down. Jake was standing right by my head and you couldn't help but to see his pants getting tighter. "Dude, get the hell away from me with your hard on." He took a few steps back and I pulled out my cell and called Paul.

"What?"

"Paul but your ass away you're driving your man crazy."

I heard him and Alice giggle before hanging up. I looked back out the window just in time to see that Alice was now flashing us her tits. I don't know what the hell happened to my friends but they have definitely changed since I joined the band. The old Alice never would have flashed anyone and Paul has never been as open about any of his relationships as he has with Jake. He used to try and keep them secret and would barely even hold hands in public, but with Jake you can hardly stand to be around them because they are always in their own little world making out. Just as Alice pulled her shirt back down I saw the very familiar welcome sign. I knew I would be home in less than an hour and it couldn't help but be excited.

"So Ben, what you planning to do with your time off?"

I looked over at Edward who had kept our conversations limited since Bella 'left'. "I'm probably just gonna keep a low profile. I didn't realize how exhausting this would be when I auditioned, but truly feel like I could sleep the entire break." He laughed as he packed up his belongings in his backpack. "Yeah, it the combination of traveling, time changes, and all the partying we do. After a while you will get used to it. It's really nice of Rose to but this small break between the US tour and the international one. Most bands do them both together but Rose knows we need some time to recuperate." I stood from my seat and popped every bone I could in my back. "Well at least someone is looking out for us."

I sat back down and pulled out my phone to check a text Paul sent was one of those stupid chain texts; I deleted it and cracked my neck. "Is Bella gonna be hanging around you during the break?" I focused on keeping my smile at bay. "I'm surprised you don't know the answer to that one. I think she talks to you more than she does me. I only hear from her once a week." I saw him blush slightly, "Are you ok with that, I mean us talking?" I shrugged my shoulders and started packing up my stuff. "Look she's an adult just don't hurt her. I have enough to deal with between Alice and Paul and the idiots back there so try not to give me anymore to have to put up with. And to answer your question I will probably meet up with Bella but I plan on sitting around my house doing nothing the whole time."

When the bus came to a stop Rose called for all of us to come upfront. "OK guys you know the rules, no getting arrested, no whores, no dieing and for the love of Christ when the paparazzi ask you a question do not answer. You are on your own for three weeks use this time wisely and don't cause any trouble. Now get your asses out of my sight I am tired of you all!"

We all cheered as we climbed off the bus; however we stopped when we saw all the people waiting for our autographs and pictures. Alice pulled up behind the bus and honked her horn. I smiled, "See you guys in three weeks." The others had to work their way into the garage to get to their cars, but since I had Alice drop me off she picked me up. The first thing I did when we got home was to take a shower and use my strawberry shampoo and body wash. I got dressed in a pair of low rise blue jeans and a tank top, it felt so nice to wear a bra which I never thought I would miss.

Alice laughed at me when she came in to find me putting on eyeliner. "I guess you missed being a girl?" I flipped her off but never looked away from the mirror. "I'm going out to the Orange Peel, Vile Candy is playing there tonight and I want to go see them." When I turned around her and Paul were looking at each other skeptically. "What?" Alice used her eyes to signal for Paul to talk to me. "Babe, we don't think it is a good idea for you to go and watch your old band. You remember how James was when you left the band. It would just be risky."

I rolled my eyes at them, "Guys you both have dates tonight and I'm not going to sit around here and continue to have no life. I do that enough as Ben. Don't worry about James according to Vic he has gotten over me leaving the band." They both looked as if they didn't believe me but I ignored them I went anyways. I sent Edward an e-mail letting him know where I was hanging out tonight hoping he might come but I wasn't very optimistic about it.

When I got to the bar Vile Candy had just taken the stage. I went and sat at the bar while I listened to them play. I had to admit they weren't that bad but I thought they were better back when Jane and I were still in the band. James was pissed when we both left. Jane met some guy named Stan and they ended up getting married. She stayed in the band until Stan's job transferred him across country. Not long after she left did I quit. James was getting ridiculous with some of his antics. He would book us a gig and forget to mention it until last minute and he kept trying to get us to change our look. It was the last straw when he called us all six hours before we were meant to go on at a local bar. That night after the show I quit and everyone else said they would too if he didn't stop.

Fortunately for them he did stop what he was doing and now they have just their regular gig at the Orange Peel. After I quit James continued to call me and beg me to come back. It got so bad that he showed up at my door and said he wasn't leaving until I agreed to come back. Luckily Paul, Alice, and I all share a house. When he threatened to not leave Paul threatened to break his neck. Don't get me wrong Paul is a lovable guy and it's not in his nature to be violent but he will if he has to. After that night James wouldn't talk to me again and he would yell when someone in the band would talk to me; this is why nobody really knows I talk to Vic.

I cheered for them as they finished their show. Vic had seen me while they were playing so she immediately ran over to me when they were done. "Oh my God I missed you bitch." I laughed as I hugged her back, "Back at ya hoe." "VIC!" We both froze when we heard James' thunderous voice over the next band. Vic turned around and we were both looking at James. "Vic we don't associate with back stabbing cunts. Say goodbye and let's get out of here."

Before either of us had time to say or do anything a fist connected with James' face. "You don't call her that!" I pushed off the bar and ran to stop Edward. "Edward he's not worth it, let it go." "Yeah Edward Cullen let it go, you wouldn't want your pretty face to get fucked up over that bitch." I turned around to hit James myself but I was surprised to see Vic reach out and smack him across the face. "James, get over it. She left the band if you can't get over the fact that I talk to her then I guess I quit too." He glared at all of use, "I'll see you at practice tomorrow Vic."

We all grabbed another drink before we migrated to a booth. "What the hell was that guy's problem?" I was in the middle of taking a sip from my drink which gave Vic the opportunity to answer Edward. "Oh that was just James his is pissed off that Bella here quit our band a few months ago." Edward turned to me with a surprised look on his face, "I didn't know you were in a band." Yet again before I could respond Vic beat me to it. "Oh yeah, Bella was the best singer our band has ever had. James was pissed because someone told him they could get us a record deal if we just changed our look a little, but then Bella quit after that happened they were no longer interested in us. All he has ever wanted is to be famous, the rest of us just do this for fun. He took it personally and hates her with a passion."

"Why didn't you tell me you sing, if the guys knew maybe they would let you and Ben do a song together." Vic was about to say something but was stopped when Alec came over and told her he was ready to leave. She gave me a quick hug before she left. "So are you gonna tell me why you kept the singing a secret?" I grabbed the tequila shot that Vic left untouched and downed it. "I didn't tell you because it's not important. So what I sing I'm not that good at it." He reached over and grabbed my hand in his, "If that were true then someone wouldn't have offered you guys a record deal. Just think about it, if you ever want to give it a go they guys would probably be cool with it." I tilted my head at him, "I thought Rita's Gift was a no girl band?" He leaned in towards me, "Things change just think about it."

For those of you who listened to me and are reading this I am having a little contest. The first person to tell me what line is most used in movies will be allowed to pick a previous chapter to have me write in Edward's point of view. Anyone else who gets it right will get a small preview of the next chapter. The only clue you get it that I used it in this chapter. Good Luck!

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~SAM~