A/N: I'm finally well and was able to work this weekend! Despite I managed to put this together! And thanks to the funny Lauren, it's readable!

Kurt studied until lunch. He got up to see if Blaine was about to wake up. He was still fast asleep under the cover. He was lying on his side, with his mouth open and drooling over the pillow. Kurt sat down on the bed.

"Blainey?"

Blaine closed his mouth but when he relaxed the muscles again, the mouth slowly opened. Kurt smiled at him, he loved the relaxed Blaine.

"Blaine? Honey?" He shook his fiancé lightly.

Blaine stirred and opened his eyes. He tried to focus on Kurt, but it took some time before he could do it. He was so tired.

"Mmm?" He asked when he could see Kurt clearly.

"It's time for lunch. I was thinking we could go to Cincinnati to eat and then do some grocery shopping?"

"Books." Blaine mumbled.

"What?"

"I need to buy some books."

"Oh, okay. But you need to wake up for that."

"Idontwanna." Blaine said and scooted deeper under the covers.

"You want me to go alone?"

"Noooo!" Blaine whined.

"Then you have to get up sweets."

Blaine sat up. He was so cute like this; hair standing in every direction, sitting there rubbing his eyes like a small child. Kurt felt himself go warm inside when he watched Blaine go to the bathroom. Kurt made the bed and went downstairs. He made note of what they had in the cupboards and made a list. When Blaine came downstairs they headed to the car.

They came home some hours later with books for Blaine and groceries. They unpacked and made some coffee. Blaine took his cup and sat down on the couch with one of his new books while Kurt sat down at the table and started his laptop. Kurt had to bite his tongue to stop him from saying anything about the fact that Blaine should be studying. Blaine had to take responsibility for his own studying, even though Kurt wanted to comment on it.

Kurt started researching for his essay and jumped when he heard a thud from the couch. He looked over to find his fiancé deep asleep, his book had slipped from his hand and landed on the floor. Kurt once again took a deep breath to remind himself that it was up to Blaine to make sure he did his homework. Kurt didn't know why it bothered him so much. He got up and refilled his coffee cup before sitting down again.

He had been working for two hours when Blaine woke up. Kurt heard him starting to wake up; shifting on the couch, mumbling a bit before he finally woke up. He sat up and looked confused around. He smiled big when his eyes found Kurt.

"I fell asleep."

"Yup." Kurt said and forced himself to be quiet and focus back on his homework. The rising irritation over Blaine's non-existing studying annoyed him. He didn't want to be irritated with Blaine for not studying.

"You okay?" Blaine asked, sensing Kurt's irritation.

"Yes, I'm fine." Kurt lied. He didn't want to start an argument with his fiancé over something this silly.

"Kurt, what's wrong?" Blaine got up and went to the table, sitting down in the seat opposite from Kurt.

"Nothing... Blaine... I just wanna study..." Kurt sighed annoyed.

"I don't believe you, but fine."

"Blaine... I don't wanna fight, just please..."

"Okay. I'll go for a run."

Blaine got up and went upstairs. He put on his running clothes and shoes. He took his iPhone and put it in his pocket. He went downstairs.

"See you later then..." Blaine said to Kurt.

"Yeah, sure..." Kurt didn't even look up from his laptop.

When Blaine got outside he sighed and put on his running-playlist he had made. He started walking and increased his speed until he started running. The first minutes were pure hell before he found a pace where his body seemed to flow forward. Running stopped all the thoughts going through his mind. It was one of the few moments where he was free from his mind.

Blaine knew why Kurt had been annoyed. And he didn't know why he didn't study. When he sat down with his homework, the sentences seemed to flow together, he couldn't concentrate and his thoughts went crazy. Everything that had happened during the last year came up to him and he started wondering about what he could have done differently. Could he have done anything earlier, so he could have lived this dream life he was having at the moment earlier?

The books he had bought that day were books he had read about, they were suppose to be easy to read. He loved reading thick advanced books. But now he couldn't focus. He read the same sentence over and over again. It was a relief when sleep claimed him. He could sleep all through the day. He fell asleep and when he woke up, he was as tired as he had been before.

He increased his speed until it felt like his heart would jump out of his chest. He stopped and put his hands on his knees to catch his breath. He pulled out his headphones in frustration. The last thing he wanted was to get in a fight with Kurt about him not studying. He loved him more than anything and he got why he was annoyed; they had made a deal of going to Cincinnati to study.

Blaine raised his back and stretched his thighs. He put in his headphones and started running back, now at a much slower pace. When he came back to their house he stayed outside and stretched his body before he went inside.

"I'm gonna take a shower, Kurt."

"Okay." Kurt didn't look up from the laptop.

Blaine could feel the irritation radiate from his fiancé. It would be so easy to start a fight right now. But instead of picking a fight he took his book bag and his new books and went upstairs. He took a shower and changed into a t-shirt and some sweatpants. He put away his clothes before he sat down on their bed. He put on his headphones and pressed play. He felt himself relax when the music from Vivaldi filled his head.

Blaine pulled up the book bag on the bed and took out his laptop and the notebook. He was going to start with the article he had to write. He had done the research and he had the facts to write the article. Basically he had done the hard work, now he just had to put it into words on the laptop. But it didn't help him to know that. He felt the frustration grow. He wasn't use to struggling with school work. He had never been forced to do that. It had always come easy for him.

He stared at the empty word document on the laptop. The blinking curser was annoying him. Every time it blinked Blaine felt like it was saying to him "you're so worthless, you're so worthless, you're so worthless." It was a sentence which echoed in his head. He couldn't even write a stupid article. Blaine closed his eyes but the jingle kept ringing in his head.

He closed the document and opened his mail-box instead. He started writing an email.

My dearest Kurt.

I'm so sorry you're annoyed with me. I get it, we were suppose to be studying, both of us. I know you're in the senior year and it demands a lot from you. I know that and I want to support you.

I can't concentrate. My mind is crazy right now, as soon I start studying, it gets filled with self hate and other bad, bad thoughts. I can handle it, but not when I'm studying, not today anyway.

This is one of the things Hannah frowned upon when we talked about how I'm doing, sorry I haven't mention it to you earlier. This is the biggest anxiety thing for me. I think I might have to be at home from school longer. I have been getting so much more energetic, but the studying is so exhausting.

I'm struggling up here. Not with living or existing, I'm not gonna hurt myself or do anything crazy, but with studying and reading. You know reading has always been a sanctuary for me. It isn't anymore, it's a struggle. It's a struggle I'm gonna take, cause I know how much reading meant to me before all of this.

I'm sorry I feel asleep earlier. Sleep comes so often and it's a relief. It gives me a much needed break from the stupid thoughts. But, I'm so sorry that I keep falling asleep when you're around. I love being with you, and you're not the least boring.

I'm gonna stay out of your way while you're studying. I'm gonna put some nice music on and try to read. You can come and get me when you're done studying.

I love you the most.

You're the best thing about me.

Your Blaine

Kurt studied until 5 pm. He closed the word document he had been working with and opened his mail. He was surprised to see a letter from Blaine. He read it and felt his heart sink. His poor Blainey, struggling with so much.

Kurt got up and practically ran upstairs to shower Blaine with kisses. But he stopped at the top of the stairs and looked at his fiancé. Blaine was asleep; his book had slipped from him and was on the floor again. The bed was filled with notebooks, paper and his laptop. Blaine was lying in the middle, on his back, snoring lightly. His headphones had slipped out of his ears. Kurt smiled at the sight and started removing all the things from the bed.

When he had cleared the bed he pulled a blanket over Blaine before he went downstairs to start making dinner.

Blaine was woken up by kisses. He blinked his eyes opened.

"Good morning, my love, dinner will be ready in five minutes."

"I fell asleep?" Blaine couldn't believe it.

"Yes, but it's really not a problem, Blainey." Kurt smiled at him.

"I love you." Blaine said and leaned in and kissed Kurt.

"Love you too. I have to get down again."

"Okay, I'll be right there. I just have to go to the bathroom."

"No problem."

When Blaine came downstairs, Kurt had lit a fire and lots of candles. He had set the table and was standing in the kitchen. Blaine came up to him and hugged him from behind.

"It smells delicious." Blaine said.

"Good. It's spaghetti with shrimps and garlic."

"Yummy!"

They sat down and started eating. They were both starving, so they ate in a comfortable silence.

"Blaine, I'm really sorry that I've been difficult today." Kurt said when he was almost done.

"It's okay, I get it." Blaine said when he had swallowed.

"I don't know why it bothered me so much that you weren't studying. It's not like I'm your parent or anything."

"No, but you care for me. I don't think it's weird. You want me to do my best. I want that too. As frustrating as it is for you, it's even worse for me."

"I just... When we talked about this week, I imagined us sitting here with our laptops, both of us. I'm so sorry Blaine."

"Really, it's fine. I'm gonna be more articulate about my feelings about studying the next time. Okay?"

"Okay."

"What do you wanna do tonight? Are you going to study some more?" Blaine asked Kurt.

"Maybe I should, but I'm so tired. You wanna play monopoly?"

"Yes! I've never played it, though, it might take some time for me to learn it, but I'd love to!"

Kurt freezes in his movements, sometimes he forgot Blaine had missed out so much. Playing games, celebrating thanksgivings... Blaine didn't notice Kurt's sadness; he was busy filling the dishwasher.

"Tea?" Blaine asked.

"Yes, please."

Kurt got up to get the monopoly from the bookshelves. He unpacked it and set it up at the table at the couch. Blaine brought tea cups and some chocolate.

Three hours later Blaine had won the game. Kurt smiled at him.

"I think we have to celebrate your win."

"Oh, I get a prize?" Blaine grinned to him.

"You sure do!" Kurt said and straddled his lap.

They started kissing slowly. It was kissed filled with love. Kurt took advantage from his position and pulled Blaine's shirt off. He pressed his forehead against Blaine's.

"Blaine, I love you so much. I'm sorry I've been grumpy."

"Love you too, it's okay." Blaine said and looked at Kurt.

Kurt leaned down and kissed him again. Blaine easily opened his mouth and welcomed Kurt's tongue. Kurt pulled away from Blaine's mouth and started kissing Blaine's neck. He stopped by his ear and paid extra attention to it. He knew it drove Blaine wild. He kissed his way along Blaine's jaw while his hands caressed Blaine's torso. He heard Blaine moan when he reached his nipples. Kurt opened his eyes to look at Blaine, he had his head thrown back and was breathing heavily with his mouth open. He was so beautiful like this.

Kurt let his tongue travel down Blaine's torso, stopping by the sensitive nipples.

"Kurt..." Blaine moaned and raised his hips.

Kurt smiled while letting his tongue go even further down. He stopped to look at Blaine again. Then he got up on his feet and took Blaine's hand. Blaine opened his eyes, they were blown with lust and desire and Kurt felt himself become even harder.

"Come on, let's get upstairs." Kurt said.

Blaine just nodded and stood up. When they reached the first step, Blaine couldn't wait any longer; he needed to feel Kurt's skin against his at that very moment. He paused and pulled Kurt closer. He kissed him roughly before ripping his shirt off. Kurt was surprised by his roughness but when the shirt was finally gone he pressed Blaine towards the wall and kissed him. He tangled his hands in Blaine's hair. Blaine moaned into his mouth and pressed Kurt closer.

They took two steps up, still kissing. Blaine slammed Kurt towards the wall and pressed his hardness towards Kurt's groin. Kurt moaned loudly and threw his head back. Blaine took advantage of this and kissed Kurt's neck, which led to Kurt moaning even louder. Kurt hooked one leg around Blaine's leg to pull him closer, his hands never leaving Blaine's hair. Blaine placed his hands on Kurt's ass and squeezed. Then he took Kurt's entire weight and guided Kurt to hook both his legs around Blaine's waist. Blaine pressed them off the wall and carried Kurt upstairs.

They were still kissing when Blaine lowered Kurt down on the bed. He opened the buttons on Kurt's jeans and slid them off. When Kurt was naked he lifted Kurt again and placed him in the middle of the bed.

"Blaine... Inside me... Please..." Kurt moaned.

Blaine removed his pants and boxers and opened the drawer and took out a condom and lube. He put the condom on and coated his hard dick with lube.

"Blaine, what the fuck are you doing? Why aren't you fucking me?" Kurt's voice was filled with impatience as he arched his back from the bed.

Blaine sat down on his knees on the bed and once again lifted Kurt. Kurt opened his eyes and took control of his body again. He placed himself over Blaine's dick and started lowered himself.

"Easy, honey, you're not stretched."

"I don't care!" Kurt said.

When he felt Blaine's cock against his hole he moaned loudly and threw his head back. He lowered himself and hissed at the pain. He was the one in control of the speed and he stopped to get the pain under control. When his body had gotten used to Blaine he kept lowering himself until he had reached the bottom.

"Let me know when it doesn't hurt." Blaine whispered in his ear.

"Fuck me." Kurt demanded.

Slowly Blaine raised his thighs and hips while Kurt raised himself from Blaine. It was a new movement for them and it took a moment for them to synchronize their movements. Blaine placed his hands on Kurt's hips to steer him. Kurt's movements quickly became faster.

"Fuck me harder." Kurt moaned.

Blaine obeyed and started slamming against Kurt. He tried a couple of different directions before he found the right one. He could see when he had found the right way. Kurt's entire body reacted to it.

"Fuuuck..." Kurt screamed. "Harder, Blaine, harder."

Blaine did just that while biting his lower lip to stop himself from coming. He let one of his hands take a tight grip on Kurt's hard dick. It took only two strokes before Kurt came. He screamed so loud, and the screams of pleasure sent Blaine over the edge. Both of them screamed out in ecstasy. It was the hardest they both have come and they both blacked out afterwards.